Transcript of Why Everyone Thinks Christianity Is A Cult (Dark Truth?) | Discord Stage #47
Unlearned Wisdom by Johnny Chang
0:00Welcome back to another Discord stage.0:02This is where I talk directly with my0:03community. I tell personal stories,0:05share deep biblical learnings, and I0:07answer questions from the chat. These0:09episodes are audio only. So, thanks for0:10listening. And you can join my Discord0:12to catch the next Discord stage live.0:14Link in the description. It's been0:16around 4 months since I received0:18Biblical Salvation. I started reading0:20and doing the Bible club. My wife says0:22she's not good enough now, but when I0:24brought up that word not good, she said0:26she is a good person. My question is,0:28how would I go about gaining her heart0:30again without compromising to the0:31worldly things we used to do? Um, you0:34have to give her space and time. You0:36have to continue to grow because you0:39can't really change0:42um a person by just telling them what's0:45good and what's not good. So, we0:48ourselves also struggle with that,0:49right? What's good, what's not good. We0:52think we're right, we think this is0:54right, but then sometimes the next day0:55we'll think it's wrong. We're just0:57emotional creatures, right? And so, you1:02know, it's it's just something that we1:04have to kind of think deeply, right? So,1:09um when you when you kind of tell her1:11that we're not good, it it can do1:14certain things like push her away,1:16right? Because uh I I I think instead of1:20saying especially and this is just1:22advice for anybody in here. If you if1:25you talk to your your girls or your men,1:29right, your significant others, okay?1:31You should never lead with and I know1:33you guys are are openhearted with them1:35and love on them, but you have you1:37cannot lead with we're not good people.1:40We're evil. We're dirt. That should1:43never come out of your mouth. Do you1:45guys understand what I'm saying? That1:47should never come out of your mouth1:48because that doesn't that doesn't make1:51sense to people. That just it just1:53doesn't make sense, right? Someone sits1:56there and they're like all their lives,1:59think about it. They're taught, I'm I'm2:02good. Try your best to do good. Try your2:04best to be good. Right? Like the only2:09thing you can do is I'm not good. I2:14realize in front of God I'm not good.2:16Now, of course, they're going to back2:18you up. No, baby, you're what? Like,2:20what are you saying, babe? That's2:21negative selft talk. No, you can't say2:23that about yourself. Those are like2:25words are like spells. And when you2:27speak it, you cast it upon whatever you2:29speak upon it, you know, and and it's2:31going to be this. And you you take that2:33with real. You take it with real. You2:36go, "Yeah, no, I I hear you. But what2:38I'm actually saying is in front of God,2:42I realize I'm not good. And then explain2:45how Peter, like you know how Peter when2:47he pulled up all of the net and it2:50broke, he didn't sit there and go, "Oh2:51my gosh, I got so much money. I got so2:54much I got so much fish." Now, what did2:56he say? Depart from me. Please step away2:59from me, Jesus. I never believed you.3:02You know, when I was reading that,3:03honey, like that's what I realized about3:05myself. Oh, okay. So, you now it now3:09they draw it out without you having to3:11say, "I'm saying it through humility."3:13Does that make sense? Now, they go, "Oh,3:16wow. I understand. Wow, Danny is now3:18saying it out of humility." Oh, okay.3:21Okay. Got it. Then, yeah, honey, I'm not3:23good either. If that's the case, boom,3:25you just realign them without even3:27realizing it. Instead of saying, "Honey,3:29we're not good. We're not good." What?3:31What are you talking about? We're not3:32good. Who is this guy who told you that?3:34Yeah, cuz Johnny Chang, you know, he was3:36a gang member and what he talks about is3:37being dirt and babe, I don't think you3:39should be listening to this guy because3:41what do you mean he's dirt? And then3:43they start searching me up. Dude, look3:45at him. He acts like he's all that. Look3:46it. When he's sitting there, he's like3:48yelling at people. He's debating people.3:50What are you talking about? You're3:51listening to him. No, but babe, what?3:53And then you try to defend me and then3:55what happens? It gets bad. Do you3:57understand? Because you guys are3:59fumbling it. I mean, respectfully, I'm4:00not trying to be mean. Y'all are4:02fumbling this heavy, bro. Heavy. Like4:06really really bad. Do you understand4:08what I'm saying? Really really bad.4:11Right. And so I think I think that's why4:15we have to really acknowledge that guys4:17understand something. The things that we4:20teach will sound like a cult to people4:24who are not inside of God.4:28Think about it. Don't trust your4:30thoughts. What the faith are you talking4:31about? Don't trust your thoughts. So4:33what am I supposed to do when I wipe my4:34ass? Am I Am I supposed to go up, down,4:36left, right? What? You mean tell me4:38don't trust my thoughts then? Okay, so4:39if I have to feed my children, don't4:42trust your thoughts? Are you stupid?4:44What are you saying right now? You're4:46dumb. No, honey. No. And then you start4:49getting in your feelings because they4:50they get at you foul like that. And4:52you're like, well, okay, but no, it's4:55man, just but and you start doing this4:57again, guys. is because you guys don't4:59think about other people's hearts. Just5:01think about it. Think about it deeply.5:04They have never heard and you guys5:06included 4 months ago, 10 months ago, 205:08months ago, you have never ever heard5:12anybody say, "Don't trust your thoughts.5:15Don't follow your heart." No one says5:17that. Everyone says, "No, God made your5:20heart. God gives you thoughts." What the5:23hell are you? He made your brain. What5:24are you talking about? That doesn't even5:26sound right on a surface level. What the5:28hell is this guy talking about? Do you5:30guys understand? Do you understand what5:33I'm saying? Right. So, you have to5:35realize, oh my goodness, what I'm5:38saying. You really have to work on your5:41communication and kind of knowing what5:43you say. I know that you guys are5:44sitting there and you guys are like5:46trying to make people see it from your5:48side, but you are rushing God's timing.5:52Y'all y'all got to see how I move when5:54it comes to even on on podcast. You5:57think I can't just steamroll these5:59people? You think on the Avengers6:01podcast I I only spoke six times like6:04because I had nothing to say, man. I6:06could steamroll every one of them. They6:08know nothing about the Bible6:09respectfully. Not even Cliff. Do you6:12understand? Like I'm not trying to be6:14mean. I'm just keeping it real. They I6:16would have them literally like fold6:18like, "Oh my god, what the hell?" Oh,6:20that's true. I'll prove it to you in6:22your face. But what would that do? Just6:25boost me up. Do you understand? Why do I6:28sit there even against them and I go,6:30"All right, let me just let them speak6:31and gain their hearts." Because people6:34want to feel heard. If your girl or your6:38man or your kids or your mom or your dad6:42or your family members, if they don't6:45feel seen and heard, you think they're6:46going to listen to you. They're going to6:48laugh at you. They'll fight you just cuz6:51just cuz just cuz you didn't hear them6:53out. Just cuz they felt like you6:55disrespected them. Even if it's true,6:57they'll go against you. You know what6:59I'm talking about? Do you understand? I7:01I've seen so many people. I see it in my7:03team. I see it because the way if if7:06it's like, you know, one of my team7:08members is a little harsh, but they're7:10telling the truth. People I watch it7:12unfold in real time. Well, yeah, but you7:15said that on this text. I I know, but7:17why are you bringing up that text? I'm7:19talking about this. Well, I am bringing7:20it up because it it's relevant to the7:22situation. And it's like, and I got to7:24sit there and go, "Hey guys, simmer7:25down. I think what this brother meant to7:28say was X, Y, and Z." Oh, okay. Gotcha,7:32Johnny. I got it. Because people want to7:34feel hurt. You guys, too. Stop playing.7:37If I sit here and I go like like like7:40Danny, I'm going to use you as an7:41example because you you asked this7:43question, right? Let's say I lead like7:45this. Danny, you've been for here for7:47how long? Four months, and you don't7:49know how to gain a heart. Huh?7:51Interesting. So, you tell other people7:54you're dirt, but you don't even believe7:55that you're dirt. Why do you tell other7:57people that? Why you tell them that7:58they're no good? Do you even believe7:59that? If I led like this, you wouldn't8:01even listen to me. Even if I told you8:03the truth, you wouldn't listen to me.8:05But why do I lead with bro? We have to8:07gain their heart. So, we have to because8:09you'll feel some type of way. We have to8:10do that. So, you guys understand, right?8:13Like if I sit here any little thing now8:18I'm not saying that we have to manage8:20people's emotions because there's times8:22where I just have to say what I have to8:24say but when it comes to things like8:26gaining a person's heart you have you8:27guys have to understand you do not take8:31what we say to and apply it to8:34everybody. I speak to you guys like that8:37because you guys actually8:41accept what I'm saying and even then I'm8:44cautious with what I say. Do you8:46understand? Now how much more so people8:48who have never ever heard the word this8:50way. Guys, you have to realize now8:53imagine just imagine what you guys heard8:55here. You cannot unhehere. You cannot8:57unhar what I say. You're righteous and8:59perfected forever through Jesus Christ.9:02Right? You can't. Now imagine someone9:03else comes to you and go and shows you9:07undeniable proof that what I said is9:11complete BS.9:13That everything you've that peace that9:16you felt, you can't feel it anymore cuz9:18it's BS. That love that you felt, you9:21can't feel it anymore. That's BS. Do you9:24realize that's what we're doing to9:25people? Do you guys realize when a9:28person is legalistic their whole life9:30and they followed that their whole life9:33and then you go, "Yeah, uh, just so you9:35know, that's not true." You don't think9:38they're they would be stupid not to9:39fight you. Immediately they feel9:42attacked because it's like, "Wait, what9:44the hell are you talking?" If somebody9:45came to me and they proved without a9:48shadow of a doubt that the gospel wasn't9:50just by grace through faith alone, that9:52it was actually this, that, and a third.9:54let's say, right? And they had proof and9:58it was like undeniable and mindboggling10:00and perspective shifting, you would feel10:03the same, too. No, but but Johnny, he10:05studied the Bible 26 time. But but10:06you'll start doing this, too. You'll do10:08the same thing that they're doing. It's10:10just we have a disconnect with them10:13because we don't understand them cuz we10:15actually have the truth. Now, that's not10:17for us to stand on a high horse. That's10:19for us to understand. Oh my goodness,10:22they don't know. Then you will naturally10:25be compassionate. What does Jesus say on10:27the cross? Father, forgive them for they10:30do not know. They don't know.10:34He forgives them for that. You have to10:36move that way. But a lot of us, what do10:39we do?10:40We're just super hyped. Wow, we learned10:44something from Johnny. Hey babe, you10:46know, God created us out of dirt. So,10:49like in our thing, we call each other10:51dirt. Yeah, but aren't we created in the10:53image of God? Yeah, babe. But like for10:56two chapters though. No, no, no, no, no.10:58But we're still God's image because like11:00when we die, then we become brand new11:02and then that isn't something says like11:04you're a new believer, new creature,11:05something like that. And then you become11:06brand new. Babe, you're not listening. I11:08am listening. He's Who's telling you11:10this? Oh, Johnny Chang says that. Oh,11:12Johnny Chang. Well, Johnny Chang said11:13that we're a new creature, but then he11:15also preaches that we're not. That's11:16kind of confusing, isn't uh like11:19confusion not from God? And now you're11:21stuck. Now you're pissed. Now you're11:23like, "Dude, she doesn't listen. Now11:24you're running back over here going,11:25"How do I deal with people that don't11:27listen to me?" When actually you messed11:29up from the beginning by not11:31understanding their heart posture. Do11:33you guys understand what I'm saying? You11:35have to be able to go, can I even say11:38that we're dirt gang in front of people?11:40Probably not. I would say 95% of the11:43time you cannot say you're dirt. You11:46can't. You try it with your homies. You11:48try it with your dad. You try it with11:49your mom. They will look at you like11:51you're some kind of alien. They will11:55look at you and go, "What?"11:58Bro, that's negative selft talk. You12:01have to validate yourself. You have to12:04be confident. You're You have a victim12:07mindset. Oh, that's what Johnny's doing.12:09You know what Johnny's doing? Johnny is12:12trying to make you guys broken down.12:14That's a cult leader. Cult leaders, what12:17they do is they make you feel nothing12:19and then without him that you're in a12:23cult. Let me Google John. See, look at12:25all these people saying he's in a cult.12:27Oh my gosh, honey. No, you can't be I12:29actually gonna fight with you now. And12:31you're just like, what? Like, you don't12:34get it.12:35Understand what I'm saying? Literally,12:37wait, what? I didn't do anything wrong.12:39I because you don't think about other12:40people. Do you understand what I'm12:42saying? You're just like, "Baby, I'm so12:44happy. Look at me. Look." And then,12:46trust me, we've all done this. I've done12:47that with my homies. I was like, "Guys,12:49we're perfected. We're righteous, guys.12:51We're holy." The homies laughed at me.12:55Dig fool. You were What are you talking12:57about? You're literally sitting there12:59and you were loading up the Mac 11,13:01fool. Like, literally a month ago, you13:05took the little homies to go X, Y, and13:07Z. and you telling me you're perfect.13:09All right, look. Check this out. If I'm13:11per if you're perfect, then we're for13:13sure perfect. They started making fun of13:15me and I was like, "What?" All right,13:16man. Run me my fade then, homie. What's13:18up? You feel some type of way or what?13:19You trying to disrespect me? Right13:20there, I start talking like that. See13:22what I Hey, I thought you were perfect13:23for Oh, so perfect people run the Hey,13:25fool. This wants to get down, dog. Like,13:28what? And right there, I'm mad. What?13:30All right, step outside then, homie.13:31I'll line it up with all you fools.13:32What's up, then? And they'll be like,13:34"Okay, fool. You tripping, dog." Like,13:37all right, calm down, Mr. I thought I13:39thought Christians supposed to be13:40peaceful, fool. Man, shut the right. I13:42start doing this, man. Shut the f up,13:43fool. What's up, then, dog? Are you want13:45to treat me like that? I'm going to show13:46you what it is then. I try to be13:48respect. I try to tell you guys that13:49we're perfect, fool. You laughing at me.13:50What's up then? And they're like, "Okay,13:53okay, fool. Okay, real. Calm down, fool.13:56Super high power, super max. Calm down.13:58Level four. Hardcore level four." They13:59start doing this and we start fighting.14:01Literally, we start getting down. And14:04it's because I didn't know that. And14:07then I go back to pastor and pastor Kim14:09chastises me and I didn't I'm like what14:12do you mean? I just tell them we're14:13righteous. I thought we're supposed to14:14preach the gospel. He said Johnny you14:16you you barely even learn this and14:18you're going over telling them that14:19they're righteous. You're not you they14:21only see you as BC. Johnny, are you14:23stupid? He's straight to call me. Are14:25you dumb? You're really dumb, John. You14:27don't think deeply. I'm like damn that's14:28true. But I don't like that Pastor Kim14:30told me I was dumb. So then I would14:32argue with him. Do you guys understand14:34what I'm saying? Like y'all don't14:36understand like how it is because we all14:39went through it. Now I'm telling you14:40guys the ropes because ain't nobody14:43going to listen to respectfully guys.14:45I'm not trying to say this to to like,14:48you know, discourage you, but ain't14:50nobody going to listen to you when you14:51say something that they've never heard14:53before. That's a normal humanistic14:56response. Ain't nobody going to listen14:58to you. Like you could bet that no one's15:02going to sit there and be like, "Oh,15:03don't trust your thoughts." Okay, cool.15:04Yep. Amen. Hallelujah, brother. Right.15:07Right. Doesn't it make Yep. Makes total15:08sense? Uhhuh. Wow. Amazing. Thank you15:10for the transformation. I'm transformed15:12right now. Like, ain't nobody going to15:13listen to you about that. And that's15:15what you guys have to realize how hard15:17it is to be in a position of pastors15:20like me, to be in positions of elders15:22and deacons and even your guys'15:24positions as a believer. It is difficult15:26because a whole world the whole world is15:30deceived. Do you guys understand what15:32I'm saying, brothers and sisters? Right.15:35So, how do you have to approach it the15:37way I approach it on podcast? I've had15:39people straight up message me, "Bro,15:41you're fake, dog. You're not a defender15:43of faith." Why? Because you should have15:45told George right there, bro, that he15:47was wrong, man. You should have told15:49Mark, bro. Mark Lea, you you should have15:51told him, bro, he's over here freaking15:53interviewing, you know, prostitutes and15:55like that. That's wrong, bro. That he's15:56perpetuating that sin, bro. What are you15:58doing, man? Unfollow, bro. I I was16:01subscribed to you at Core the Heart for16:026 months and you did this, bro. You16:04don't stand 10 toes, homie. I thought16:05you were real. They start doing this and16:07I'm like, damn, these guys know nothing16:10about hard gaining. They know nothing16:12about preaching the gospel. And they16:14actually think that they know what's up,16:15too. It's crazy. Understand what I'm16:18saying, right guys? Saved. There's like16:21600 people in this chat and no one can16:23help me with the audio. So the original16:24thought is going to be this guy's a16:26fool, right? Figure it out. That's the16:29original original thought. But if we've16:30gained their hearts, what do we think?16:32Oh, no worries, brother. He's speaking.16:34There's actually this. Here's the16:35mainstage audio. Here you go. You guys16:38understand? Cuz the underlying heart is16:40he wants to hear. But as you guys can16:42tell, he's very emotional.16:44Oh, 600 120 people useless useless16:48people not helping me. But you got to16:50hear be beyond that in real time. Do you16:53guys understand? You have to hear beyond16:54what they're saying. Understand? Man, I16:56freaking posted my thing a million16:58times, dude. This guy freaking just what16:59the all he can tell me is don't spam.17:02Right. It's this heart. They're they're17:04basically saying, "Can you guys please17:06help me? I'm I'm I really need to hear17:08the gospel. I I really am sad. I17:10probably spiraling today. I I really17:12feel sorry and and um I just really need17:15help and I need validation because I17:16don't I don't feel happy. Like that's17:18what what they're actually doing. Do you17:21understand what I'm saying? When you17:22hear it from that perspective, then17:24you're like, "Okay, I get it." You you17:26won't feel disrespected. You guys got17:29that? Your wife, too. If they trip on17:31you, right, Danny? If if your you know,17:33your men trip on you, you have to Oh,17:36they're scared. That's what it is. and17:39or they don't know because what I said17:42is foundation flipping. It It really is.17:46It did it for you guys. Did it not? When17:49you first heard me, did it not flip your17:51foundation on its face to where you17:53actually fought a little like17:56I don't know about that, dude? Like it17:58makes so much sense the way Johnny's18:00putting it, but I don't know about that.18:02I'm Orthodoxy. I'm this. I'm I'm18:05Catholic. I'm this. I'm No. Like that's18:08not what a million other people teach is18:11not what this freaking guy teaches, bro.18:13This is this is ridiculousness. Like no18:17way. This is absurd. And then what? You18:20start to think you start to go, wait, he18:22does back it up with scripture. And the18:24way he explains it is like, oh my gosh,18:28it does make sense. And yeah, when I do18:31do that, that did happen. So how does he18:33know that though? How does he know I18:34spiral at night time? How does he know18:36that one thought turns into 50 thoughts18:38and then I have to act like I'm cool the18:40next day while I'm at church singing and18:41praising worship? How come like I keep18:43praying and he's right? I only pray for18:45the sins that I think are bad. I don't18:46pray for all the other sins that I've18:48committed and I say God knows my heart.18:50So how does he That's so true. It is a18:52transactional. Oh my god. Am I really18:54trans? No, I'm not transactional. I love18:55God. I love God. And then there's this18:57tugof-war that every one of you guys18:58went through. Trust me, I went through19:00it too. And then you go, it's true. If I19:05listen to what Johnny says, genuinely19:07it's the gospel and I'm free. If I19:09don't, then I'll stay stuck where I'm19:11at, where I had to even look up people19:13like Johnny Chang. What the hell am I19:14doing looking up a Chinese Asian tatted19:16gang member talking about God? Like,19:18dang, that's not the place to look for.19:21That's not the place to look for God. Is19:24is a is a ex gang member talking about19:26him. Like, nah. Understand what I'm19:29saying, right? So, I think Mr. dynamic.19:35That is actually funny, bro. I I don't19:38think you speak Spanish, but that is19:40hilarious. Like, when I see that, bro,19:43adios, Mo. Like, that's how that's what19:45I hear. Like, that's I I hear you going19:47adios meio, man. Like, the gangsteria.19:51Like, what do you mean? You know, when19:52they 15 on Bloods, they they be doing19:54that. It's a gangsteria. No, it's it's19:56the kineta. Oh, yeah. Bente. Like, no.20:00Like 20 bente. Like, no. Like that's20:02that's what I adios. Mo is crazy, right?20:06Damalo. Exactly. Right. That is20:09hilarious, bro. I love that. Right. But20:12yeah,20:15that's funny. Adios. My bad. No, no, no.20:17It's cool. It's cool. I'm playing, bro.20:19I'm playing. Please don't feel some type20:20of way. Please, bro. I'm playing. I'm20:22playing. That's hilarious, bro. I would20:24do something like that, too. But yeah.20:26No. I guys, I'm going to be in San Jose20:29and San Francisco20:32next weekend, May 15th and May 17th.20:36Woo!20:36>> Guys, after service, what is after20:39service, Aaron?20:40>> After service is a free live event about20:41the gospel. You can come see a sermon20:43biblically by Johnny. He'll do a live20:45Q&A and answer all of your questions.20:47There might be some worship there. I20:48think there is some worship there. And20:50you're going to meet the community.20:51There'll be20:51>> I trust in God.20:52>> Oh, there's worship right now. Okay. Um,20:55there's going to be a meet and greet20:56opportunity where you can take pictures20:58with Johnny, meet the whole community.20:59Maybe he'll sign your t-shirt. We're21:01going to sell merch.21:02>> Maybe I'll sign your Bible.21:03>> Oh, yeah. Johnny signs Bible sometimes21:05there. So, it's a fun free live event at21:08the end of the day. It's a great way to21:09fill your Friday or Sunday. Bring your21:11family.21:11>> How do I get more details?21:13>> Text NorCal to 323-613357721:19to RSVP. Um, from there it'll just ask21:22you if you're going to San Francisco or21:23San Jose, but that's how you RSVP for21:25each event. It's completely free. Anyone21:27you bring is free.21:28>> That So I just walk in like what do you21:30need?21:31>> The only way to get in is to download21:32the free app where you'll find your free21:34personal ticket, event ticket. Everyone21:36has one. It's really just for tracking.21:38We need to like legally know how many21:39people are in the church just for safety21:41and capacity and stuff, but also helps21:42us with data. You'll get um like a badge21:45and benefits for going. So you'll see on21:46your app21:47>> and you get free two weeks of gold your21:49friends. Try it out.21:51>> Um but yeah, it's a great free live21:53event. Come. It's fun.21:55>> And if you download the app, all the21:57information will be on there, too. As I21:59was saying, right, guys, try to think22:01just just when you speak. I know it's22:03hard. I know it's hard, okay? And I know22:07we're sitting here and we're trying to22:10we we we want to pop off. Don't Don't22:12you guys like being honest here? We want22:15to pop off. When someone sits there and22:17you go, "Dang, babe. I I found I I po I22:20unlocked something so deep." And the and22:22the person's like, "What? That's not22:24even that deep." Like, you do feel some22:26type of way because you don't feel22:27edified, right? Like you go and you go,22:30"Hey, oh my gosh, Johnny taught about,22:33you know, the Lord's Prayer and how22:35like, yeah, that was before Jesus." And22:38it's like, "Yeah, but like all the22:40saints taught it though. What do you22:41mean?" Like he literally said, "Pray22:43this way." So, no, but babe, like, let22:45me explain. Like, you you try one more22:47time, maybe two more times, and then22:49they do it, and then you're like, man,22:50just what the man and then you start22:52like getting into arguments with people22:54because you feel so pissed off that they22:56don't edify. Right. Right. That's what22:59you have to sit there and realize, ah,23:02this is me again. This is what Johnny is23:04saying. This is exactly what Johnny's23:06talking about. Okay. They're not23:08listening. And guys, you have to think23:10about it like this. Not in a negative23:12connotation, in a negative way. Right?23:15But you have to sit there and you have23:17to think about it. They're not ready.23:21And I want them to be ready. Who's23:23right? Right? Who's right? They're not23:26ready. That's the real and that's true.23:28And I want them to be ready. Which isn't23:30true. Now, if God had that same energy23:35with us, we'd be cooked. I would say all23:38of us were not ready when God wanted us23:42to be ready. Do you guys understand what23:45I'm saying? This this right here will23:47answer all of your guys's questions.23:50Okay? When you're thinking about another23:52person's heart, then you will start to23:54think about God's heart, too.23:56Understand? Now, so the whole premise of24:01what I'm teaching here is to think about24:04other people. It's just it's hard. Trust24:09me, it's hard. But it's only hard24:12because for our hearts, it's very it's24:17it we don't want to do that. Like our24:20our preconceived notions, our24:22expectations are very simple. If you24:24just listen to me, everything would work24:27out. And you're not wrong. You're not24:29wrong to have that because it's true. If24:32they hear from us that there's like24:35everything we teach about, they could be24:37in here and experience the peace and joy24:38that you have. Well, welcome to my24:41world. Understand? That's the hardest24:43thing about pastors, right? Is that we24:47sit there and we know what's good,24:50right? We know what's good for you24:52genuinely, but you don't think so.24:55That's the problem. You think you know,24:58understand? So what do we have to do?25:00Patiently wait for you like God25:02patiently waited for us. Do you guys25:04understand what I'm saying? And so25:07that's that's when you unlock a25:09different level where you start to go,25:10God, thank you. You know, thank you for25:13like waiting for me cuz now I know what25:16it is to feel like waiting for somebody.25:20You felt like this with me. I'm sure God25:22was frustrated with all the times that I25:24did what I did. I'm sure he was like,25:26"Bro, if I could just tell Johnny like25:29right now, I can use him. You know, he25:31don't got to go to prison. He don't got25:32to do all that." But I'll still use that25:35and make it miraculous and tremendous25:37because that's just God. He's he's he's25:39got it like that. But Johnny don't need25:42to really go through all of this, man.25:43But it's like he just You understand?25:46Like it he just has to go through it.25:48And so that's when you guys start to25:51fight more for God. You guys got that,25:54right? That's what that's where you25:56start to fight more for God and you25:58start to like think more and you start26:00to like rest more in God too. You start26:03to pray, right? And so I think I think26:08for me26:10there's a lot of things that I think26:11about like yesterday, right? Like I'll26:14I'll walk you guys through my thought26:15process and like what what what levels26:18there are to this and maybe you guys can26:20peel back these layers, okay? So I can26:22show you guys how you can do this in26:24your own life too. Yesterday we kind of26:27hit a big milestone.26:29We hit collectively and the month isn't26:32done yet. 100 million views across all26:34platforms. That's the biggest month.26:36Remember the last one we had was 6326:38million then 80 something and now it's26:41at 100 million. Do do you understand how26:44crazy that is, right? That's that's a26:46lot. A 100red million people saw our26:49videos one way, shape or form. And we're26:52not even in year two yet. So when I26:56thought about this, I was like, you26:58guys, God's grace. Yeah. But immediately27:02I I I I thought to myself, Johnny, you27:06have to be careful. Right there, that27:08heart came to me. And then I dissected27:10that heart. Wait, what do you mean you27:12have to be careful? Right? Is God going27:15to make me careful? Is God going to hold27:17on to me? No. And then right there I27:19thought about that heart. Oh, I'm a27:22person who I don't deserve any of these27:25things. God has given me 100 million27:27views, which is beautiful. Great. I27:29don't really care. But why don't I care?27:32Ah, because God God gave me that heart27:36too not to care. God gave me the heart27:38too to not be to to be cautious. God27:42gave me these hearts.27:44Do you understand what I'm saying?27:45Versus most people would do this. Okay,27:48got to be humble. And then right there,27:50you slip into yourself trying to be27:53humble. Do you understand? Okay, I got27:56to be humble now. And right there,27:57Satan's got you because you now start to28:00become humble by yourself with your own28:01works and your own deeds. And then you28:03fail. And then he can condemn you when28:05you do fail. So what I realized was I28:08can't be humble. And even though I'm not28:10humble, God keeps me humble. It is all28:14by his grace. he's going to do it. So,28:16yes, I can be happy for 100 million28:18views, but for me to think I can humble28:21myself through that is stupid. I would28:23never be able to. But you can, God. And28:26that's what the level up is. Do you guys28:29understand what I'm saying? Right?28:32Understand what I'm saying? Right? So, I28:34was able to see like, okay, there's that28:37level and then I peel that layer back.28:40How am I able to see this? Oh, because28:42of God. Because in that part, Satan28:44slips and see, "Wow, you're leveled up.28:46You can see this." No, no, no, no, no,28:48no, no, no, no, no, no. I only see this28:51because of God. Do you guys understand28:53what I'm saying? No. When we when we28:55think about it, we have to realize those28:57types of things. Guys, this is this is29:00what's going to answer all of your29:02questions. Just Just trust me. Trust me.29:05You you have to two things. Think about29:08other people's hearts and think about29:09God's heart. That's what it is, right?29:13It's just what it is. So, you know,29:18after that, I was able to think like,29:20how can I even think like this? Oh,29:22that's from God. How can I humble myself29:24from God? How can I do this from God?29:27Like, all of it is from that. But you29:28have to think about it. Oh, I'm not a29:31person that could do this. I would never29:32be humble. That's from God. And if I am29:35humble, that's from God. Do you guys29:38understand what I'm saying? Right? But29:41then you can go deeper too, right? When29:44was I not humble? Oh, I remember this29:46time and then I got here because God29:49showed me the grace to be this way. And29:51if God doesn't hold on to me, let's say29:54tomorrow I don't get humble and I get29:56high-hearted, then God will also bring29:58that down too, right? So you have to30:01play out these scenarios too in your30:03mind, right? Understand what I'm saying?30:06Make sense? Right? So, as I'm answering30:11this, right, you're going to only hear30:13what you want to hear or you're going to30:15hear what I'm actually saying. Make30:18sense, guys? Right? It is a spiritual30:21thing at the end of the day. And we have30:23to realize like those things are allowed30:26because God is trying to show you30:28something. Make sense, right? Make30:31sense? Of course, you're confused,30:32Angela, because you only hear what you30:34want to hear. Got it? Make sense? It's30:37very clear. I'll say it one more time.30:40Let's see if you can hear me out. Right?30:41Cuz you got to stop trusting yourself.30:43You're an impatient person. Stop30:45trusting yourself. Stop trusting what30:47you think. Why do you trust impatient30:49people? So I I I'll clear it for you.30:51Okay? It's very clear. Watch. If I'm30:55sitting here and I get humbled, that's30:58from God, right? I could never humble31:00myself. Are you hearing what I'm saying?31:03I could never humble myself. Got it? So31:06then let's put it towards towards your31:08situation. Let's put it towards31:10patience. Oh, I could never be patient.31:13Did you you got that right? That has to31:16be from God. This is the real me,31:18Angela, who's not patient, who gets mad,31:21who has a nasty tongue, who has a nasty31:23heart. And guess what? I still trust31:25myself cuz I'm foolish. Yeah. And that's31:29why God has to help me. So if I ever act31:31out of character, it's not me. It's God.31:34He has to help me. That has to be from31:37God. Do you understand now? Okay. So,31:40it's that simple, right? You don't have31:43a patience issue. Do you know what you31:45have? You think you can be patient31:47issue. You have a pride issue. You have31:50a I'm in control issue. Well, if you31:52were in control, why would you not be31:54patient? Just be more patient then.31:56Hello. Right. And I have to break that31:59inside of you. Do you know why? Because32:01you don't even realize that. I think you32:03do, actually. I think you do realize it,32:06but there's a heart like I just been32:08talking about where we don't really want32:10to bend it. Now, why am I using the32:15tonality that I am, let's say? Because32:17it's very simple, right? Number one is32:19to get your attention. Number two is to32:21realize if you don't listen now, you32:26know who's going to struggle the most?32:28You are. It has nothing to do you being32:31impatient doesn't affect me. Not even 1%32:34respectfully. So that's why I'm speaking32:37to you the way I'm speaking to you. You32:38got to wake up and go, "Oh my gosh,32:40that's true. It's so true." What the32:43hell? You being impatient has nothing to32:45do with me, respectfully. And none of32:48you, any of you guys, whether it's lust,32:50whether it's anger, it's frustration,32:51that has nothing to do with me. You32:52ain't affecting me32:54respectfully.32:56So why the hell am I talking then?32:58Because I'm trying to get you out of the33:00battle. I'm trying to show you, hey,33:02that's not what it is. You're unhappy,33:06but you don't need to be. Do you guys33:08understand what I'm saying? Right, guys?33:10But if you just listen only to yourself,33:13I'm just going to I'm just going to make33:15you a fool so that you can see, oh, I33:17shouldn't listen to myself. You got the33:20only reason why we listen to ourselves,33:21brothers and sisters, cuz we think we're33:23all that. So, I'm going to ask you, what33:25the hell did you do that was all that?33:27All of you guys. You're lustful. You're33:29angry. You're impatient. You judge. You33:32can't even save a soul. What the hell33:34you listening? You listen to people like33:36that. What the faith, bro? I don't even33:38know what the hell is going on. Do you33:40guys understand what I'm saying? I am33:42not your guys's enemy. I don't care how33:46my tonality sounds. And trust me, guys,33:49it is so much better to hear people's33:52tonality, even if they're mean. I was at33:54the DMV, right? I had to renew my33:57license. This lady was hella mean, bro.34:01Like she was older lady. She was I think34:03she was like in her 70s and she was34:07ruthless, bro. Straight up ruth.34:09Exactly. Ruthless. I went there. She's34:13like, "Do you have your number?" And I34:16was like, "Yes." She's like, "Do you34:19have did you have an appointment?" I34:21said, "Yes." And she goes, "What you34:24here for?" And I was like, I'm here to34:27renew my license. You know, you could34:29have did that online. Yes, ma'am. But I34:31want to get it right now because I'll be34:32traveling very soon and I just want it34:34to be updated. You know, they don't look34:37at the address when you're traveling,34:39right? I'm like, all right, I get it. I34:41understand, lady. Understand what I'm34:43saying? Your blood pressure skyhigh34:45right now just cuz Asian tatted guy is34:48trying to keep up to date and finally34:50keep the law, right? Genuinely. So she34:54was just like, "All right, I need this.34:57I need that. You need to, you know, at34:59the tablet." So mind you, there's two35:01tablets. There's one on the left side35:02and there's one in the front where you35:04they're both tablets where you do35:05payment processing. So you pay, right?35:08And then I was like, "Oh, here ma'am."35:10And she goes, "The tablet?" Now, right35:13there, I could be like, "What the man?35:16They're both tablets, bro." Right? But I35:20sat there and I thought about her heart,35:22right? And I'm not saying it's bad to35:23work at the DMV, but somebody who's 7035:26years old should probably be retired,35:29right? And she probably did some things35:32and made some problems in her life that35:35allowed her to have to then work and she35:38probably don't want to be there. Do you35:39understand what I'm saying? Right? She35:42probably doesn't want to be there and35:43she has to be forced to be there and she35:45has to deal with freak of nature's35:47people looking like me. When she looked35:49at me, she's like, "Why you got all35:50these tattoos?" She wanted to say it,35:51but she knew she couldn't. Who would do35:53that? Do you understand what I'm saying?35:55And so, of course, she's judgmental. And35:58I talked to her from a real heart36:00because you can sense the heart.36:02Understand? I said, "Ma'am, I really do36:04appreciate you for helping me." That's36:06all I said. And she kind of looked at me36:09like, "What the hell?" And I I was just36:12very like trying to be nice to her cuz I36:14saw her as my grandma, right?36:17Understand? I was able to to to think36:21about that for a second and go, "Okay."36:24And then even the heart that I had,36:26Satan tried to boost. Yo, Johnny, you're36:29on another level. You're thinking about36:30people. I said, "Shut the faith up cuz36:33what I want to do is mouth off at her.36:36But this heart that's inside of my heart36:38is not from me. It's from God." And I36:42thought about her and I felt sad. She's36:44a grandma. She's old. She probably36:48doesn't have salvation. She has to deal36:50with people giving her flack, right? She36:54probably has kids. She probably has36:55family members. She probably has people36:57who care about her, but she feels like36:59nobody cares about her. These things37:00just started to come out naturally.37:03Understand? So then I I I was like, you37:06know, ma'am, thank you for helping me,37:08right? And she kind of looked up at me37:09and she said, you're no no. She's she's37:12like, then her sweetness came out. I saw37:15that. She's like, "You're welcome,37:16sweetheart." You know, it's just, you37:19know, I said, "I know. It's it's it's a37:21it's a real cuz I got there early." And37:23I said, "You we y'all already serving37:26like 80 people." I said, "Man, it must37:28be tough working." She said, "You don't37:30even know." I said, "I feel you. I37:33don't, but I just looking up it looks37:35crazy." She said, "Yeah." And she37:36started to open her heart to me. Yeah.37:39You know, they they don't give you sick37:41leave here like that. And you would37:43think the government cares about you,37:44but the government don't care about you.37:46And I'm like, "No, I I understand. I I37:49hear you. You know, somebody got to run37:51something and they just not running it37:52correctly." She said, "Yeah, well,37:54that's" and she just like I could see it37:56in her face like, "Dang, I was wrong37:58about this kid." Like that was her38:00heart. I was wrong about seeing him like38:02that. I said, "Ma'am, you have a good38:04day. You know, try to enjoy your day. I38:06know it's difficult, but that's how I38:08said it. I hope you have a good day."38:09She said, "You too, honey. Thank you so38:11much. And then, you know, she's like,38:14"Oh, oh, you got to go on this side38:15right here." I was, "Okay, okay." So, I38:16went on the other side and she was nice,38:20right? But if I looked at her like my38:23initial thoughts, man, you freaking old38:25hag. You freaking b- word. You freaking38:28stuck up. You fre whatever it is that38:29whatever my thoughts came out,38:31understand? Then I would that would have38:33never happened. Do you understand what38:35I'm saying?38:36>> The streamathon is live. I'm streaming38:38on all platforms every single day for38:41the entire month of May at 9:00 a.m.38:43Pacific Standard Time. I'm walking you38:45through my morning routine that got me38:47to where I'm at today. I'm going to help38:49you make God a habit in your life. What38:51this dreamathon is is it's my morning38:54routine. It starts with a daily38:55devotional. We also have a gospel bot38:57where you can ask your questions. We're38:59going to read through the Bible. You're39:00going to be able to annotate it, take39:02notes, everything that's going to help39:03you in your spiritual walk. to join. You39:05guys can download Core of the Heart39:07daily on any app store for free. And39:09also, it's going to be 9:00 a.m. Pacific39:11Standard Time every single day live on39:14all platforms. See you there, buddies.39:17You guys got to understand something.39:19Most people are at war with themselves.39:24Like 100%. You know what I'm saying?39:27They they are at war with themselves.39:29They they don't even know. They're not39:31even happy with themselves. What makes39:33you think they're going to be happy and39:34respectful to you? They don't even39:35respect themselves. What makes you think39:37they're going to respect you? This is39:39the level up that we have to understand.39:42This is what we have to realize. How can39:44I expect somebody to respect me when39:46they don't even respect themselves? When39:48they look at their lives and they go,39:50"All I've ever had to do, and this is no39:51disrespect to anyone here who works at39:53the DMV, is to be a a a person who's39:57worked at the at the DMV, right? And I'm40:00not if some people that's cool with40:01them, but I could tell that's not what40:03she wanted. Y'all understand what I'm40:05saying? That's not what she wanted. She40:08had dreams. She had aspirations. Now,40:11when you think about it in that way,40:13then it's very sad cuz what if I had all40:16these dreams and you guys had all these40:18dreams and it didn't go out the way you40:19wanted to and you're here 70 years old,40:2168 years old, whatever it is, like you40:23would be just as mad and if not worse.40:26the fact that she shows up, goes to40:29work, tries to do those things, I still40:31respect that as a human being. That's40:33just how I see it. Do you guys40:35understand what I'm saying? When you see40:36it from that perspective, then you're40:38able to go, I understand humans.40:42And guys, we're only where we're at40:44because of grace of God. God showed me40:46things like Johnny, you do realize, bro,40:49even if she was like that, she's better40:50than you. That came to my heart that40:53day. She ain't never shot nobody. I'm40:55sure she ain't never stabbed nobody. She40:58ain't never like ruined her life like41:00that. She ain't never probably even did41:02drugs. She just looks like a old grandma41:06who tried to live well and try to follow41:08the system and just got ate up by the41:10system, right? Like she tried. You ain't41:14even like that. You don't even got it41:15like that. You went against the system.41:17You you you you schemed. You plotted.41:20You're a complete opposite human being.41:22And yet you're in a position where it's41:24you're on the other side. You know,41:27that's really the grace of God. Do you41:29guys understand what I'm saying? So, I41:31was able to see myself as like, dang,41:35how thankful is it that I'm just here41:37because of God? Do you guys are you guys41:41hearing what I'm saying here? How it's a41:43little different, right? Me, too. You41:45know, I thought about it, right? So many41:48times like I was I was showering this41:50morning, too. woke up at 4:00 and I was41:53like doing certain things for the41:55business and I was very tired honestly.41:58And when you're tired, you know, you41:59have that feeling of like this is whack.42:02Ain't nobody even respect you like that42:05and people just want to use you just cuz42:07you know what I mean, right? we'll have42:09CLF in Hollywood this next year and of42:12course Pastor Kim's like hitting me up42:14but you know telling me to help out with42:16it and that's fine and all but it's like42:19for me I'm just doing my own thing right42:22we're we're we're planning with core of42:23the heart I have to make pastor John42:27CFO and I have to do all these things42:29right and so it's I we have our own42:31thing going on and uh you know I feel42:35like also thoughts come up you know42:37people don't respect you as much Johnny,42:39they just use you. All these thoughts42:41come up. Why is it that I got to sit42:43here and I got to like, you know, unhash42:46everything? Why is it that, you know,42:48people don't show me the respect that I42:50need? And all these thoughts start to42:51come up because it just happens, right?42:53As human beings, we naturally have that,42:55right? This guy, you know, takes your42:57content, does this, that person, that42:59sister says this about you, and it's43:01like, what the heck, you know? Right?43:04And when I thought about it, I was like,43:07you know what, God, if you don't help me43:10get out of my thoughts, then I'm going43:12to stay here. Like, I didn't even try to43:14fight it. Do you guys understand what43:15I'm saying? Right? I just acknowledged43:18it. Hey, Lord, you know, do I know that43:21I have this level of grace? Yes. But my43:24flesh is fighting it. Do I know that,43:28you know, uh everything has to come from43:30grace and that I have this audience43:32because of the grace? I do, but there's43:35still calluses in my heart. There's43:37still thoughts of like people don't43:38respect me. They just use me, right? Uh43:42there's thoughts of like, you know,43:45people don't really put their, you know,43:47they they don't they don't think the way43:49you think, right? There's all these43:50thoughts. And so I come to God, right?43:54And I just be real with him. Lord, I43:57honestly if you don't let me get free43:58from this, I'm not going to get free44:00from this. That's it. point blank44:02period. Right. The other day too, I woke44:06up with like a really really bad pain44:10like in my lymph node on the on the left44:13side and it was really painful. It44:16wasn't a sore throat, but it was just a44:18swollen lymph. Just that one. And I was44:19like immediately where do my thoughts44:22go, man? What the hell, dude? Like what44:24am I doing that's wrong? Am I chastising44:27people too much? All right, I won't44:28chastise them. Am I do? And I start to44:30try to figure it out because the brain44:31naturally does this, right? It goes to44:33these positions of like, where did I f44:35up? Do you understand what I'm saying?44:38Where did I mess up? Honestly, where did44:40I mess up? Right? But what I recognized44:45was it's not about you messed up, you44:49didn't mess up, right? It's not about44:52where did I mess up, where didn't I mess44:53up. I can have those thoughts. What I44:55recognized through all of this was if44:59God doesn't let me overcome anything,45:01then I'm not going to overcome anything.45:03Am I okay with that? And the unlock45:06deeper than that was even if he doesn't45:08let you overcome anything, it's still45:11okay that you're not okay with that.45:13That was the level up. That was the45:16thought, right? So, one more time, I45:19know it's kind of fast, but are you okay45:23with whether or not he does this or does45:25that in your life? And even if you're45:27not, that's okay. That's what he was45:30saying. Like, basically, it's okay for45:33you to be human. You can be mad at me.45:35It's fine. But it doesn't matter that45:38because that's not going to sway what I45:40do. You'll see, right? And then I45:44realized like maybe it was caused by a45:46tonsil stone cuz you know like I could45:48see it in the back of my my sight. I was45:50like tonsil and I have a gag reflex like45:52I can't nothing can go there. I'll start45:54like choking. So with that heart I was45:58like hey Lord I'm going to just try to46:00take this thing out cuz I think this is46:02what's really hurting me. I don't know.46:04I need your grace. I'm going to try.46:07Right. Right. And so I'm like trying to,46:12you know, do it and I'm just like to the46:14point where like my eyes are watering,46:16like snot down my nose. It was bad cuz I46:18just I I'm very sensitive, I guess.46:21Right. Right. And so I'm sitting there46:24and I actually went in and and I was46:28like I think it was like a good like 2046:30minutes of me just sitting there going,46:32"Oh my gosh, like this is too much."46:34Then I prayed to God and I was like,46:36"Lord, I don't know what it is, but I'm46:40going to stop using this little like46:42pick thing. I'm going to just use my46:44finger if you if you give me grace,46:47whatever." And then when I did, I pushed46:49it out and it worked, right? And I was46:51like, "Oh my gosh." And honestly, after46:54that, I felt like better. I don't know46:57if it was a mental thing, but I felt46:58better. And I was like, "Dang, this is47:00crazy." And so through that I was able47:03to be like what was a lesson in this.47:06There doesn't need there there doesn't47:07have to be a lesson that was a lesson47:10that not everything has to be a lesson47:12and not everything even if it is a47:13lesson that you need to know the lesson47:15but just know that God is there. Do you47:17guys understand what I'm saying? Right47:19guys it's very simple. And so for me I47:22was just very focused on that. Right?47:25Like Lord, you you you don't have to47:28like teach me every single thing.47:31Understand, right? Cuz if I take this if47:34I take what this sister is saying that47:36the lesson was to me was to lean on God47:38for everything in every moment. Sure.47:40But the issue is can you do that? Like47:43these things are easy to say.47:46But can you guys do that though? And47:49what the lesson in that is even if you47:52can't that's okay too.47:55That's what God is trying to show you.47:57Do you understand what I'm saying?47:59That's not what the lesson is. The48:01lesson is deeper than that. It's whether48:03you lean on me or not, I will do the48:06things that I need to do. Do you trust48:08that? That's what it is. Do you48:11understand what I'm saying? Right, guys?48:13And all of that is subjective.48:16Understand? If it took you a while,48:17that's not leaning on God. Respectfully,48:20do you guys understand? That's leaning48:22on your own understanding of what48:23leaning on God is. That's what I hate48:25about Satan. Satan loves to go, see, you48:28got it. You got it now. Do you48:30understand what I'm saying? You got it.48:32But it's it's not easy to do that.48:35That's that's his that's our own thought48:36process, right? So that when you don't48:39get it, he can utilize that and work on48:41that and hurt you and do all these evil48:43things. Do you understand, brothers and48:45sisters? Yeah. I'm still taking this is48:49some form of transaction. from the48:50pastor. I see the heart of mine. Yeah,48:52that's good. It it is transactional.48:55There's so much transaction in this48:57world. Even what monks does understand49:01like transactional with Epstein files,49:04transactional with you know the war,49:08transactional with God. Like everyone's49:10transa you're transactional with me. Oh,49:13I'll listen to Johnny if it makes sense49:15to me. I'll listen to Johnny if he has a49:16spotless record. I'll listen to Johnny.49:18If he's not, you know, X, Y, and Z. If49:20he isn't, if he isn't those things, then49:24I'm going to go against him. Actually,49:26do you guys understand what I'm saying?49:28So many people are like that. People49:31they every single day come to me, yo,49:35bro, like you said something to me and I49:37may have chastised them two weeks ago.49:39Like, you know what I mean? Like, and49:42then they'll hold on to it for two49:45weeks. research, do this, do that. Oh,49:49this is this, this is that, and then49:50bring it up because they got chastised49:53two weeks ago and they couldn't drop49:55that. It's it's it's it's just how human49:58beings are. We're all like that in so50:00many ways. We're just like that. If I50:03chastised you, I I expect you to go and50:06research and talk trash about me, find50:07dirt about me so that you could be50:08right. That's expected. That's how50:11people are. You won't do the same. You50:14won't do that. You guys do the same50:16thing. Do you understand what I'm50:18saying? Right, guys? We're all the same.50:21We are like that. You don't edify me.50:24Trust me. You don't know who I am. And50:27you don't realize that either. Right? A50:28lot of us have this art. We don't even50:30realize we're doing that. That's the50:32scary part. Like, we're so good. Do you50:36understand what I'm saying? That's the50:37problem, right? We're so good and yet50:42it's weird. So, so again, right, it50:44comes down to to that type of thing,50:47right? Like people will will will see us50:50and they'll they'll, you know, my church50:52specifically, the church will just50:55chastise one time or two times or one50:57too many times. And right there, people51:00will come to me and message me and go,51:03"Bro, the church you sent me to is a51:05cult, bro. How do you how did you find51:07that? I found out. There's proof of it."51:10Really? Right. Okay, cool. What? Why did51:15you go and research? Oh, because you51:16know they they they and then that's51:18where they get stuck.51:21Do you understand what I'm saying?51:23Right. So, it it's it's it's very51:27difficult, right, for people to do this51:30type of stuff. When you think you're a51:31good person, you think you're all that,51:33then of course you're going to measure51:35other people. So, you know, someone came51:37up to me recently and they were like,51:40you know, they talked about George Jenko51:44and they said that they found some dirt51:46on him from years ago when he was, you51:49know, claiming to still be Catholic and51:51Orthodoxy or whatever and he was like51:54with Logan Paul and Jake Paul and they51:57showed me all this type of stuff. Right.52:00Right. And they were talking hella trash52:04about him. It was one of the Cth members52:06too, right? And I was like, and they're52:10like, their their qual was, why do you52:14gain the heart of this type of person?52:16Like, so it makes me question you as a52:19leader, will you gain the heart of a52:22person from the a PDF file? Then will52:25you then gain the heart of somebody52:26who's a rapo? Will you gain the heart of52:29a serial killer? Like, why do you stand52:32up for that? That person was not ready52:35to hear what I had to say. Right. Right.52:38That person was not ready. The truth is52:41in front of God. Are you better than52:44that person? Are any of you guys better52:46than anyone here or even anyone in those52:49those files? In front of God. Yes.52:51Horizontally as human beings. Morality.52:54Yes. Morally, sure. But if you have sin52:57and I have sin and that person has sin52:59and this serial killer has s whatever53:01we're all going to the same hell like53:04it's I don't think that's debatable53:06right so what makes you so well I'm53:09repented I'm better than them right but53:11there was a point where you weren't53:12repented either right there was a point53:14where you did follow yourself for many53:16many years right make sense so if you53:19guys want to go deeper with the Bible53:21unlocks and just having these biblical53:23resources guys we created an app called53:25Core of the Heart Daily. Every single53:26morning, I write a personal daily53:28devotional. It helps you start your day53:30with God and make God a habit in your53:32life. We also have the King James53:34version Bible where you can annotate,53:36you can highlight. We also have a gospel53:38bot where it's trained on my teachings53:40for the past 10 years. All my secret53:42notes, my sermons, all the lives and the53:44Q&As's, everything is in there. So, it53:47will answer your questions when you53:49don't have that pastor at 2:00 a.m. in53:51the night time and you're spiraling. And53:52check it out, guys. If you want to53:53download it, it's on the app store53:55called Horror the Heart Daily. Link is53:57in the description. Back to the episode.53:59So, it's so difficult for specifically54:04for people who think this way, right?54:07Like, like even this question, so we're54:09all the same. No. Stand in front of God.54:11Stand in front of God. Do you have any54:13sins in front of God? Of course you do.54:16So, if a thief steals in front of God,54:19where are they going? They're going to54:20hell. And a person who's a child54:22molester, where are they going? They're54:23going to the same hell. No. Or am I54:26tripping? Maybe I'm wrong. I'm54:27teachable. I could be wrong. Right.54:30Right. So, it's not about a heart issue.54:33It's not even about a logical issue.54:35It's just simple. Simple. Right. If I54:40get shot, I'll end up in the hospital.54:43If I break my arm, I'll also end up in54:45the hospital. Don't we go both to the54:47same hospital? I mean, it's not that54:49hard to understand that if I fall down54:51from a 50story floor or I put a shotgun54:54in my mouth and I blow my brains out,54:55don't we both end up dead? What's the54:58difference? It's still suicide, isn't54:59it? One's more heinous than sure, but we55:02both end up dead, though. Isn't that55:03true? That's how sin works. Yeah. I I55:06didn't touch on these people and these55:08but I I put somebody in a wheelchair and55:11forever they're going to have to pee in55:12a bag and poop in a bag. And guess what?55:15If I'm not saved by Jesus, I'm going55:17straight to hell for that because I put55:19I did traumatic but great body GBI,55:22great bodily injury, great bodily harm.55:25Do you understand what I'm saying?55:27Right? And a person who's a kleptomaniac55:29who steals every single day from his55:30mom, from his people, who steals55:32people's things, who scams people out of55:33their money to where they even cause55:35people to commit suicide. Isn't that the55:37same thing? Are are they not going to55:39hell, too? I mean, they didn't put55:40anybody in a wheelchair. They didn't55:42gang bang, but they're going to hell,55:44too. So, so where do we get all of this55:47entitlement? It's because we're pieces55:49of garbage. That's why a piece of55:52garbage thinking other people, you know,55:54are worse than them. That's the worst55:56type of person. That's the worst type of55:59person. I think that's worse than a56:00serial killer. Do you guys understand?56:02That's why God name He doesn't go, "Ye56:04ser serial killers, ye rapists." Do you56:08know what he names in the Bible? Three56:09things. murderers, hypocrites, and56:14liars. Right? Those are like the main56:17thing he keeps saying. Liar, hypocrite,56:21murderer, right? What is a hypocrite?56:24It's someone who does the same thing56:27someone else does and then complains56:28about it. That's what a hypocrite is.56:31Yeah, guys, you know this guy's freaking56:32lazy and you're over here super lazy,56:34too. That's a hypocrite. Yeah, guys, I'm56:37a sinner. Duh. But you sin way worse56:40than me. So what? We're all the same56:42then. Yeah, you are. Why is it quiet all56:44of a sudden? Are we not all hypocrites?56:47Then what the faith you talking about?56:49Respectfully. Do you guys understand56:51what I'm saying? You just don't think56:52you're a hypocrite.56:54That's the problem that those types of56:57people God burns. You guys have to56:59understand that he burns hypocrites.57:01Those Pharisees went to hell. They're57:03not He's not playing with them. And he57:05just It's weird how he names them by57:07name. hypocrite. Like he could have57:09named anything else. You child murderer.57:12You, you know, whatever it is, right? He57:16doesn't say that. He calls them brutal57:18vipers, which is a liar. Snakes. He57:21calls them hypocrites. That's what a57:23snake is. A snake is a hypocrite. A57:25snake acts good on the outside to then57:28rob you in your house when you're57:29sleeping. A snake is a person who will57:32rob you and then help you look for the57:33thing he robbed. That's called a snake.57:36They're they're they're they're fake. Do57:38you understand what I'm saying? Well,57:40how about a sinner who calls other57:43people sinners, but they're sinning,57:44too? Isn't that a snake, too? And that's57:47for sure a hypocrite. But isn't that a57:50snake, too? Right. There was a Catholic57:52guy who who was making videos about me.57:55Donnie Chang is a fraud. Blah blah blah57:57blah. And it came out that he was57:58touching on little girls respectfully.58:01So, what the faith are you talking about58:03right now? Understand? So I I'm a58:06hypocrite. I do this. I'm a heretic. And58:08you went and you did some chumo stuff,58:09respectfully. And now you ain't got your58:11platform no more. That's what happens to58:14people. The people who are judging58:16others are always the worst ones. Just58:18so you know, right? It's so funny. I was58:21at South by Southwest. There's a guy,58:23right, who who led all of this. And he58:26got mad because that one Dreams and58:29Visions clip came out. Do you guys58:30remember where the lady was like, I had,58:33you know, ever since I was young, I was58:35dreaming and and I had all these things58:37and blah. And I told her, just focus on58:40Jesus. And she said, yeah, but I did58:42this. And then Jeremy made the joke, if58:44you can see dreams and visions, can you58:47tell us the winning lottery numbers like58:49he's kidding, you know? But like that58:51clip, those that clip went kind of58:53viral, right? Super viral, actually. And58:55that was a clip that had all these58:57people who were super dreams and visions58:59based come after me, right? They came59:01after me. Johnny, he's a cessationist,59:03which I'm not. He doesn't believe in59:05dreams and visions, which is not true,59:07right? Like, and they got pissed. And so59:12when it came to dreams and visions,59:15right, they're focusing on these things,59:18right? And they're saying things like,59:20"Yeah, it's this, it's that, it's this."59:22But later what happens is people start59:26to see. Do you guys understand what I'm59:29saying? They started their own59:31congregation. People will come to me and59:33go, "Dude, I'm noticing that bro was59:34literally just attacking you. Made six59:38videos of you. The Avengers video came59:40out for 1 hour. He was already on top of59:42it talking trash about you." That's what59:44people do, right? And so what I was able59:48to see is people are hypocritical,59:52right? They judge based off of what?59:55Their own feelings.59:57And God forbid you tell them that their59:59feelings are false, right? Anyone in1:00:02here too, if you have a heart that1:00:05you're good, right? Then everything I'm1:00:08saying is is almost going to feel like1:00:10I'm attacking you. Respectfully, that's1:00:12just the truth. It's just how it is,1:00:15right? Like if you agree with the left,1:00:19then everything the right says, even if1:00:21they're right, is going to feel like an1:00:22attack. Do you guys understand what I'm1:00:25saying? Right? If you have a a a1:00:29struggle with atheist, then everything1:00:32an atheist says, you're just like, "Shut1:00:34the faith up." Like, you're going to1:00:35naturally have that energy. But if you1:00:38see it from a biblical perspective,1:00:40we're all the same at the end of the1:00:43day. That's what God is trying to show1:00:45us. But if you don't think it's the same1:00:48and you just surface level go, "Of1:00:50course we're the same in front of God,"1:00:52you will not get this message at all.1:00:55You will, in turn, mark my words, turn1:00:57against us. Because sooner or later,1:01:00you're just going to get tired of1:01:01hearing, "I'm a bad person cuz that's1:01:04all you're going to hear from this." Do1:01:06you guys understand what I'm saying?1:01:07Mark my words, there's so many people1:01:09like that in here, right? There's so1:01:12many people who follow Cordar for two,1:01:13three years and go, I'm convinced now1:01:17that you are a cult leader.1:01:20Do you guys understand what I'm saying?1:01:22I'm convinced. And 99% of the time, it's1:01:26because they weren't edified. You guys1:01:28know that, right? If I was to edify you1:01:31guys, you would never say that against1:01:34me. Did you know that? You would never1:01:38say those things against me. If you sat1:01:40there, right, and I placated to your1:01:44feelings, right? Do you understand? If I1:01:47placated to your emotions, you would1:01:49never go against me. Every single one of1:01:51you guys, you wouldn't. Do you1:01:54understand? It's the fact that I draw1:01:55the line for you guys. That's what1:01:57pisses people off. Everybody's like1:01:59that. Amen. So, why do you Anyone be1:02:02honest, anyone left a one-star Yelp1:02:04review before? Of course. Right. Of1:02:08course. So Leela, right? Leela, right,1:02:11sis? Laya, I'm sorry. Is it Leela or1:02:14Laya? I'm sorry. Laya. Okay, Lyla. Let's1:02:17say you left that one star review. Can1:02:20you share a little bit as to why? Why1:02:22did you leave that one star? Because1:02:24they didn't provide the service.1:02:26Granted, right? And they were probably1:02:28disrespectful, right? I didn't feel1:02:30appreciated. Good. Good. Now, let's say1:02:33they appreciated you. Would you ever1:02:35leave that one star? Of course not. So1:02:38that's called edification. Do you guys1:02:40understand what I'm saying? So if1:02:43somebody asks a question and I don't1:02:46answer it the way they want to, let's1:02:48say, then of course they're going to1:02:50come after me. So one of you guys ask1:02:53ask an absurd question, just some1:02:56question that you know that would get1:02:59chastised. Somebody asked something and1:03:01I'll show you how the difference between1:03:04drawing the line, right? Okay. Okay, so1:03:06Tissa asked this question. How to get to1:03:08Mars? Right, which is funny, right?1:03:12Okay, so how do you get to Mars? Right,1:03:16guys? Oh my gosh, Sister Tissa, that is1:03:19it's so amazing that God has given you1:03:22the brain to really think about Mars.1:03:25Amen. Honestly, everyone, we all need to1:03:29think like Sister Tissa, out of the box,1:03:32and she's very like smart. She's very1:03:35educated. Brothers and sisters, this is1:03:36what happens when you follow God. You1:03:39know God, it says in Hosea chapter 4:6,1:03:42"My people are destroyed for lack of1:03:44knowledge." Brother, brothers and1:03:47sisters, listen to the sister here. She,1:03:49this is God edifying her. We all must1:03:52think deeply like this. How do we get to1:03:55Mars? Trust. Y'all say y'all don't like1:03:57it, but that's only because I trained1:03:59you guys enough to understand what's1:04:02real and what's not. Understand? Like1:04:04Jenny, right? Jenny Serret, she put I1:04:06did, meaning she left a negative review1:04:08because this woman gave me a hard time1:04:10about my diet, my dairy allergy and not1:04:13knowing how to say it in Spanish. Good.1:04:17You know what I hear from that? You1:04:19weren't edified. Understand what I'm1:04:21saying? You weren't edified. Cuz if she1:04:23sat there and she responded like this,1:04:26oh, it's okay. I'm I'm also a no sabo1:04:29kid. This is how you say dairy leche in1:04:32in Spanish. Whatever milk, whatever,1:04:34right? It's okay, sis. I got you. Don't1:04:38worry about it. You would be bad. Oh my1:04:40gosh. Thank you. Do you understand the1:04:42fact that she was like, "You don't know1:04:44how to speak Spanish." Aka, what you1:04:46felt was you're dumb. What kind of1:04:49Mexican? What kind of Hispanic are you?1:04:51It's this that came to you. And you're1:04:53like, man, what the don't talk to me1:04:56like that. Do you understand what I'm1:04:58saying? It's this type of heart. Amen.1:05:01Again, it's always about1:05:03self-atification. Now, I'm not saying1:05:04they're right. They shouldn't have done1:05:06that to you, hundo p. But at the same1:05:08time, we we it it moved us to go and1:05:11write a review to then try to destroy1:05:12their business because based off of our1:05:14feelings and our emotions, that's what1:05:16happens when you look at anybody that1:05:19talks about core of the heart. It's1:05:20always like that. Johnny didn't help out1:05:22the homie, so he's a fraud now. But it's1:05:25funny cuz 10 years ago when I was1:05:27helping out the homies, ain't nobody say1:05:29that. And we got receipts when I was1:05:31bailing people out and giving them 7,5001:05:34and $10,000 for their lawyer retainers.1:05:36Ain't nobody talk about that though,1:05:38right? But when Juanito don't want to1:05:39give money anymore because he realizes1:05:41this is not what it is. Then all of a1:05:43sudden he's a fraud. Do you guys1:05:45understand what I'm saying? Right. So1:05:49it's always like that. Right. Amen.1:05:53Right. Right. I understand, Jenny, but1:05:55I'm saying there's a heart behind all of1:05:57that. If you move by grace, you would,1:06:00let's say, back then, right? You would1:06:01realize, oh, it's okay. God has to give1:06:03her the heart to cooperate with me. And1:06:05just because somebody works there,1:06:07there's people like this who aren't1:06:08supposed to be working there. I'm going1:06:09to leave it up to you, God. And yes, I1:06:11may not have ended up eating my1:06:13breakfast sandwich because I wasn't1:06:14sure. But, Father God, that's okay1:06:16because I was able to eat breakfast1:06:18yesterday and I could and there's some1:06:20people that can't even eat. There's1:06:22people who eat through a tube. Father1:06:24God, thank you. You could have saw it1:06:26that way. But instead, what was the1:06:28heart posture? You made me not be able1:06:30to eat. Okay? And because of that, I1:06:34deserve to eat cuz I'm a human being and1:06:35you are to respect me. But that made you1:06:38feel angry though versus the way I'm1:06:40saying it would have actually made you1:06:41feel happy and it would have made you1:06:43pity that these people would trip about1:06:46a small thing like Spanish and they were1:06:48that that were that judgmental and damn1:06:50there discriminatory just cuz you didn't1:06:52speak espanol palabra. So you can see1:06:56how people are messed up and you1:06:58wouldn't feel angry. You would feel sad1:06:59for them because they're pieces of1:07:01garbage human beings. And if those1:07:03little things don't get them mad, what1:07:05other things in their lives get them1:07:06mad? Do you understand? Now, that's why1:07:09we we do this. People talk hella trash1:07:11about me all day because they're not1:07:14edified. Watch every single review. They1:07:16they they talk about it. He yelled at1:07:18me. You know, he goes and he cusses at1:07:20people in his mainstages, in his lives,1:07:22guys. What kind of leader does that?1:07:24Basically, what they're saying is you1:07:26didn't respond to me the way I wanted1:07:29you to respond to me. I deserve and1:07:30demand respect and you didn't respect1:07:33me. And because of that, you're a piece1:07:36of ish. And not only that, you ne I'm1:07:39going to make sure that you're never1:07:40able to do that to anybody else. Is this1:07:43like being exactly that is what pride1:07:45is.1:07:47Pride is you didn't acknowledge me. You1:07:49made me feel stupid for asking a1:07:51question. And I'm not stupid. Do you1:07:54understand what I'm saying? That's how1:07:55people are. Amen. Right. Amen. Right.1:08:00So, it's it's it's it's how people's1:08:03hearts are. So, like I said, that woman1:08:07who was having a bad day at the DMV,1:08:09let's run this scenario one more time.1:08:13Does she does do does is she supposed to1:08:15respect me? Of course. In a God-given1:08:18world, yes. Is she supposed to respect1:08:21me? Of course. Right. That's her job.1:08:24She was hired there. If you don't like1:08:26your job, get the f out your job.1:08:28Understand what I'm saying? You don't1:08:29like what you do, why you sign up for it1:08:30then? That's easy to say. Amen, brothers1:08:33and sisters. But how would Jesus see1:08:36that? If Jesus was at the DMV that day,1:08:40would he say the same thing? I guarantee1:08:43you he wouldn't say that. I guarantee1:08:45you he would understand them. I1:08:46guarantee you he would see through their1:08:48pain. I guarantee you. And we're called1:08:50to be Christlike. He would see that and1:08:52go, "This person, I died for this1:08:54person. She just doesn't know. and I1:08:56live for this person and she doesn't1:08:57know. And that even if she has breath in1:09:00her lungs to work at the DMV at 70 years1:09:02old, that's grace and she doesn't know.1:09:04You see how that you see the difference1:09:05now? You see the difference in heart1:09:08posture, right? We don't even we don't1:09:10even think that far. That's what I'm1:09:12trying to get you guys to think about.1:09:14You got to think that far. If Jesus was1:09:16here, how would he handle it? But then1:09:18Satan slips in that, too. He slips in1:09:21that in that mindset, too. Okay. Now,1:09:23you you got to be Christlike. Remember1:09:25what Johnny said? You got to make sure1:09:26to love them. You got Now, that's how he1:09:28works. So, we mix it with works. No, no,1:09:31no. We would just think about God. Amen.1:09:35Like, any of you guys have kids here?1:09:37Any of you guys have kids here? So, when1:09:40you go and you buy something for your1:09:41kids, right? Do you think of it like1:09:45this? Do you go, I'm supposed to be a1:09:48mother, so mothers have to provide and I1:09:51have to go and I got to buy this. You1:09:53don't do that. How do you think of it?1:09:55Oh, my baby would like this. Oh, they've1:09:58been talking about Pokemon cards and1:09:59it's so hard to get them. Wow, I'm going1:10:00to get them the Pokemon cards cuz I love1:10:02them. Do you see the different heart?1:10:05Right. But then what Satan makes you do1:10:07is, hey, you call yourself a Christian,1:10:10you better treat people respectfully1:10:12because that's what Christians do. You1:10:13see the difference now? That's like a1:10:15mom going, okay, I'm a mom. I had them.1:10:17I'm responsible for them. I have to do1:10:19this. That's not a real heart. In fact,1:10:21if you have the heart, you better not do1:10:23it because later you're going to use it1:10:24against your kids. I PROVIDED FOR YOU. I1:10:27DID THIS FOR YOU. I DID IT ALL. AND then1:10:30it's like, what the hell, dude? Relax.1:10:33Do you guys understand what I'm saying?1:10:35Right? So, you have to realize1:10:38you do it because you love them. You1:10:41don't do it just because it's it's out1:10:43of, how do I say, out of routine.1:10:47But so many people are like this. Do you1:10:50understand? They're like, "Okay, I see1:10:53this woman. I need to be loving because1:10:56that's what Jesus would want me to do."1:10:57Like, it's like, it's not that. It's not1:10:59an obligation.1:11:01It's if Jesus was here and I love Jesus,1:11:05I should match that. Do you guys1:11:07understand what I'm saying? It's not1:11:10It's Jesus would love this if I did1:11:12this. not I need to do this because you1:11:16know otherwise I'm not a real Christian1:11:18and I didn't listen to Johnny Chang and1:11:19I'm not a real I'm a horrible person.1:11:21It's like if you do that you're horrible1:11:23for thinking that cuz that's1:11:24transactional. Do you guys understand1:11:26what I'm saying? Amen. Now there's so1:11:29many levels to this that I think it's1:11:32it's hard to explain clearly but a lot1:11:36of us are this way. We are very1:11:38transactional with God. Again, is that a1:11:41problem? No, not necessarily. But if you1:11:44recognize that about yourself, then you1:11:47become really really happy and then you1:11:49become you you become wise about that,1:11:51right? You realize that, right? You do1:11:55things because of God. You don't do1:11:57things for God.1:12:00You do it because God would do that.1:12:02Right. Right. Make sense? Understand?1:12:07Amen. We are going back on the road for1:12:10Johnny Chang live events. Woo! Johnny1:12:13Chang live events are back. All of his1:12:15neighbors just heard that, by the way.1:12:17And I just wanted to say we're going to1:12:18a lot of different places. I won't1:12:20really announce them all right now, but1:12:21we're going back all across the country1:12:22again. And we are looking for a live1:12:24event coordinator to work at Core of the1:12:27Heart. So, if you saw the past live1:12:29events, it's thousands of people coming1:12:31to churches around the country, bringing1:12:33donations, live Q&As's, meet and greets.1:12:36It's amazing opportunities for the local1:12:38communities. Food trucks come out.1:12:39There's fellowship. Um it's just a1:12:41really really awesome event all the1:12:43time. And if you're the type of person1:12:44who has thrown events like this, if you1:12:47have experience coordinating events like1:12:49this, we are looking for someone to1:12:51literally book one to two events every1:12:54month for the rest of the year and1:12:55potentially the rest of all time. You1:12:57got to be good at talking to churches,1:12:59cold reaching out. We're also doing1:13:01prison ministry, so coordinating with uh1:13:03the prison wardens, things like that.1:13:05Attention to detail attention to detail.1:13:07Setting up volunteers, setting up the1:13:09live stream, setting up the cameraman. I1:13:11don't want to make it seem overwhelming.1:13:12>> Yeah. No, we have all the checklist.1:13:14It's a pretty It's Me and Aaron do it.1:13:15We figured it out. We do it. We want1:13:17someone. So, if you you can look at us1:13:19and be like, "They did it and I do this1:13:21for a living. I can do it." Yes. It's1:13:23it's it's1:13:24>> and and I'll just be really honest.1:13:26We're not really looking for people who1:13:27will come try this. Oh, maybe I can be1:13:29good at that. Or, oh, I could probably1:13:30do that. I really, we want someone who1:13:32has done this before, who can look at1:13:34our events and say, "Oh, I can level1:13:35that up. I can make that better." Oh,1:13:37why would they do that like that? We1:13:39usually do it like this. That's what1:13:40we're looking for. If you've done live1:13:41events, please call us. We pay super1:13:43competitively. Leave your job. if you1:13:46wanted to do something spiritual and1:13:47throw live Christian live events around1:13:49the country. So1:13:49>> the the other thing too is you just got1:13:52to love people because you know with1:13:54these events when you're dealing with1:13:55all kinds of people from different1:13:57churches and prisons and walks of life1:14:00it just just requires you to be love1:14:02people. So1:14:02>> yeah s servant mindset guys uh pastors1:14:06we all are servants at the end of the1:14:08day. So, we just have to serve people1:14:10and if you have that heart to serve1:14:12people and make sure they have a good uh1:14:15you know, if our our podcast or the way1:14:17I serve has touched your guys' heart to1:14:19then replicate that for the millions and1:14:22hundreds of thousands of other people to1:14:24also experience that, that's that's1:14:26important. If you would like to apply,1:14:28the link is in the description. You1:14:29click on it and follow every single1:14:31instruction. If you don't, we'll know1:14:33that you don't have attention to detail1:14:35and we just skip right over you. M it's1:14:37>> very you be like what does that mean?1:14:39You know you'll just see it's very very1:14:40clear.1:14:41>> So true.1:14:42>> Yeah. And and by the way we have been1:14:44hiring amazing people from the1:14:45community.1:14:46>> Yeah.1:14:46>> We're finding good amazing editors. So1:14:48thank you to everybody that is also1:14:50taking the time to apply and start to be1:14:54a part of this.1:14:54>> And again if it's if you know someone1:14:56like this who you know does event it1:14:58doesn't have to be you right like spread1:15:00the word for us too. That also helps1:15:01too. So yes.1:15:03>> Yes.1:15:04>> All right guys. And and and the last1:15:06thing is the sooner we get that person,1:15:07the more live events.1:15:08>> Yeah, true. You'd help us tremendously.1:15:12So, it's it's important to recognize1:15:16that about yourself.1:15:18Understand? Right, guys? Right. Right1:15:22now, I'm not giving out1:15:25church uh recommendations.1:15:27So,1:15:29uh yeah, it's it's okay. Um you know, I1:15:33can try to figure it out. I know there's1:15:35a Jersey church.1:15:38Um I don't have the information right1:15:40now, but um we don't just give out the1:15:44information1:15:45uh right away1:15:48just cuz we have to vet, right? And I1:15:51don't mean it this in no disrespect to1:15:52any of you guys, but it's because1:15:57a lot of us are not ready. You guys are1:16:00are are not in a lot of terms. I know1:16:03that's crazy. We're not ready for the1:16:05church, right? They chastise. They go1:16:09kind of wild and it can seem a little1:16:11difficult for people. Amen. I think you1:16:15guys have to nurture a little bit here.1:16:17Grow a little bit and then when I give1:16:19you guys a church, ask LA church people.1:16:22They're the same. I didn't give it to1:16:23them right away. And when I did give it1:16:25to people, they always end up mean. It's1:16:28just how they are. They they go to the1:16:29church and they get frustrated and1:16:31they're not welcoming people. They1:16:33gossip about other people, you know what1:16:36I mean? Like, it's it's it's kind of1:16:37sad, honestly. It's just how it is, you1:16:41know? I've heard, you know, sisters1:16:44calling out other sisters, sisters1:16:46judging other sisters, sister talking1:16:48trash about other sisters, other1:16:50brothers, even pastors. I've seen all of1:16:52that. And that's a problem that other1:16:54people have to deal with. You know, the1:16:56one thing I love about my my church1:16:58pastors, whether it's, you know, LA1:17:02church or Alaska church pastor or New1:17:05York church pastors or, you know,1:17:07wherever, is that they came here with1:17:11nothing. I want you guys to to really1:17:14envision this for a second. They came to1:17:17church1:17:18with nothing. Now, imagine they're sent1:17:22with a one-way ticket. They have to1:17:25uproot their whole lives. So wherever1:17:27you guys are at in California, let's say1:17:29you are all from California, you're from1:17:31LA, you're from United States,1:17:34and you get a call from me, Cth Cor,1:17:37Johnny Chang, pastor, and I say, "Hey1:17:39guys, sisters, sisters, sisters, and1:17:42brothers, you guys uproot everything.1:17:45Move to Iran right now because Iran's at1:17:49war and we need to preach the gospel to1:17:51them. We're going to fix them from1:17:53inside out.1:17:54You don't know the language. It's okay.1:17:56God will work. And if God doesn't work,1:17:58rip up your Bible. A lot of you guys1:18:00think you would go and of course you1:18:02would fly there. But when bombs start1:18:05dropping and the language you see1:18:07doesn't make sense and you can only use1:18:09one toilet, you know, sheet of toilet1:18:12paper a day, when you start to be able1:18:14to see that the luxuries in your life,1:18:16you will fold like a piece of paper. I1:18:19guarantee you, you will fold. I don't1:18:21care if you think you're all that,1:18:23right? The sun beating on you, sunburnt.1:18:26Now, imagine what my pastors did. That's1:18:29what my pastors did. Every single one of1:18:32them here, put some respect on their1:18:34name genuinely. They don't even speak1:18:36English and they're there preaching the1:18:37gospel. We speak English and we can't1:18:40even preach the gospel as boldly as1:18:41them. They don't even speak English and1:18:42they preach the gospel boldly. We're1:18:45made different and built different. Do1:18:47you understand what I'm saying? And when1:18:50we go there, we then trauma dump onto1:18:52them. Think about this for a second. We1:18:54dump our trauma or we recluse. We run1:18:57away. Those are the two things we do. If1:19:00we dis if we don't respect them and we1:19:02don't agree with them, we run away. And1:19:04if we dump our trauma, they'll let us1:19:06dump for many, many weeks. And then when1:19:08they finally check us, we'll think that1:19:09they're piece of garbages. They that1:19:11they're a cult. They don't like us. They1:19:13don't respect us. Do you realize how1:19:15hard it is to deal with us as human1:19:17beings? You don't even like yourself.1:19:19You can't even get yourself out of your1:19:21own intrusive thoughts and feelings,1:19:23right? How much more so somebody else1:19:25got to deal with you and you're not even1:19:26their kid. You don't have any moral1:19:28obligation, any even spiritual1:19:30obligation to them. You don't even love1:19:34yourself respectfully and you want other1:19:36people to love on you is crazy. It is1:19:38exhausting, right? So a lot of people1:19:41that's the thing about why I don't I1:19:44stopped kind of sending people was cuz I1:19:47realized not a lot of people respect the1:19:50leadership at all actually. Do you1:19:52understand? They don't really see it.1:19:54They see they love it when it matches1:19:56them. Hell yeah. And then when it's like1:19:59hey respectfully you're wrong. It's like1:20:01no I don't like that and you're a cult1:20:04now. You're you're evil. You play1:20:06favorites. You do fill in the blank1:20:09that's going to make you feel better and1:20:10sleep at night. Right? A lot of us do1:20:12this. We close the hearts of so many1:20:15people by doing that. And I get the1:20:18calls later. Johnny, what are you1:20:19teaching them? What do you mean? Why do1:20:22you teach them that it's okay to just1:20:23sit there and and trust their thought? I1:20:25never said that, pastor. Let me explain1:20:27the situation. Okay. And then I received1:20:29the chastisement, too. Yes, pastor. I1:20:32hear you. Yeah. When you talk to these1:20:34brothers and sisters, you're too nice to1:20:36them. What? Ask my congregation. They1:20:38think I'm mean.1:20:41I know, but you have to tell them. You1:20:44have to be honest with them,1:20:47right? And so, of course, I have to1:20:49switch up certain things, but it's like1:20:51I do have a soft spot for you guys cuz I1:20:54don't I know how it feels to sit there1:20:56and not understand and just be told that1:20:58you have to believe. So, I try my best1:21:00to be thorough and still there's a heart1:21:03of like I don't know about that. you1:21:06know, we we really have to see how evil1:21:08we really are. I think you know what I'm1:21:10saying? Like there there's there's1:21:12there's not enough real and raw1:21:14nowadays. It's it's more of just like1:21:17just being nice, you know what I mean?1:21:19And like trying to understand and and of1:21:21course I started talking about that1:21:22earlier. Like we have to think about1:21:24other people, but there is a time where1:21:26you have to draw the line too, right?1:21:28Where you have to go, hey, respectfully,1:21:30like it's it's too much. You're you're1:21:32clearly you know what it is. Now a lot1:21:34of us if you guys are like me and and1:21:37and a lot of you guys are I see this in1:21:39a lot of you guys is it's very difficult1:21:42for you guys to accept the blemishes of1:21:44yourself because you hate that in1:21:46yourself right that's the issue. Amen.1:21:51Like you know that that's the problem.1:21:54You know that you're judgmental. You1:21:56know that you're edifying and but1:21:58there's this heart that comes up that1:22:00goes so the f what? So what? Yeah. I'm1:22:04like that. So what? It's this heart. I1:22:06know. Trust me. I'm I'm all my whole1:22:08life is built off of that. So what? Do1:22:10something about it, right? It's this1:22:13energy. And it may not be that crazy,1:22:15but it's on that level, though. Yeah, I1:22:18do that. And what? Well, I guess I'm1:22:20just like that then, huh? I guess I am.1:22:23It's like this energy.1:22:25You know, that thing is from the devil,1:22:27though, is what I'm saying. That's1:22:28something we have to really acknowledge.1:22:31That's what the devil does. You know1:22:33you're going to lose, right? So what?1:22:35You know it's written in the Bible and1:22:37nothing in the Bible is ever flawed. So1:22:39what? I'm still going to do it. Okay,1:22:42that's the devil's energy. So what? You1:22:45did me wrong and I'm going to make1:22:46everybody know that you did me wrong and1:22:48I'm going to show you that I could do1:22:50you worse cuz you you you took that. You1:22:52shot the first shot. There's this energy1:22:55always. Every one of us has this guys.1:22:57Me too. You know, you know who wins at1:22:59the end of the day? Satan. That's who1:23:01wins. You guys got that? That's what we1:23:04we need to realize. Rather, there is a1:23:07heart posture that has to go. Not so1:23:09what? Not so what? No, I'm a person who1:23:14Yeah, I'm that. I acknowledge that. You1:23:17know, I talked to Pastor Kim yesterday.1:23:19He tells me the same thing every single1:23:21day. Remember who you are and God loves1:23:24you in that in that in that uh order,1:23:30right? remember who you are and God1:23:33loves you. Understand what I'm saying,1:23:36right? Why? Because when you remember1:23:38who you are, right? Then what happens?1:23:43Then everything becomes freeing. Oh1:23:46yeah, that's right. Okay, so that person1:23:48doesn't listen to me. So what? They're1:23:50not supposed to listen to me anyways. I1:23:51would have been robbing them or judging1:23:54them or hurting them in some way, shape,1:23:56or form. Why would they listen to Would1:23:58I listen to someone who's judging me?1:24:00No, that's who I am. But because of God,1:24:03I'm not like that. And I better remember1:24:04that. Right. Right. Amen. So that's what1:24:08it comes down to. Right. We have to It's1:24:12what keeps us humble. So you guys sin,1:24:15let's say. Right. Right. You guys, you1:24:18guys sin every single day, right? But1:24:22does that change because you feel better1:24:25or worse? No.1:24:27So then why do you put so much emphasis1:24:29on your feelings then? That's that's the1:24:31unlock. So if I feel worse, I'll sin1:24:34less. No, I still sin. And if I feel1:24:37better, I'll sin more. No, not1:24:38necessarily. Right? We place too much1:24:41emphasis on what we feel and think. We1:24:44place everything like we don't know how1:24:46to act. We don't I think the hardest1:24:48thing is for us to be able to see who we1:24:51really are in front of God. So that's1:24:54why we give all of these things. Like1:24:56what I'm talking about is more important1:24:58because that's the thing that's going to1:25:00make you think deeply and really free1:25:02you from everything.1:25:05But we only think about ourselves.1:25:07That's just how it is, you know, at the1:25:09end of the day, right? And the questions1:25:12that I bring to Pastor Kim are nothing.1:25:14I don't bring any questions to him,1:25:16right? Of course, there's things that1:25:18like if it's if it's like business1:25:20related things, then I just go to him.1:25:22Hey, pastor. So, you know, they they1:25:24said I need a secretary and a CFO. Uh,1:25:27what should I do, pastor? Okay, cool.1:25:30Thank you so much. Appreciate you. And1:25:32when he goes, Johnny, how are you? I'm1:25:34good. I'm good, pastor. Everything has1:25:36been good. And then he goes on and just1:25:38preaches to me. You know, I was reading1:25:40Zechariah today, and it talked about X,1:25:44Y, and Z. And, you know, what it meant1:25:46to me, Johnny, was this. and you know I1:25:49thought about you when you when I was1:25:50thinking about this and I miss you and I1:25:52wanted to just let you know and blah1:25:53blah and he talks to me like that right1:25:56and of course there's times where you1:25:58know maybe it something happens oh you1:26:00know a brother came to me and wants to1:26:02marry this sister hey pastor uh what do1:26:05you think about this this brother from1:26:07this church wants to marry this sister1:26:09and what do I do with that maybe some1:26:11guidance like that but overall what I've1:26:15learned was you just listen Right. And1:26:18it's really good. It's really really1:26:20good. Right. So I I I just I I just1:26:24answered that. Right. I just answered1:26:27what I said. So you said pastor based on1:26:29what you shared about accepting. So okay1:26:31guys. Well that's my cue to leave. See1:26:35you guys later. Bye everybody.
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