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Transcript of How to Desexualize Your Brain and Control Lust | Discord Stage #056

Unlearned Wisdom by Johnny Chang

0:00Welcome back to another Discord stage.0:02This is where I talk directly with my 0:03community. I tell personal stories,0:05share deep biblical learnings, and I 0:07answer questions from the chat. These 0:09episodes are audio only. So, thanks for 0:10listening, and you can join my Discord 0:12to catch the next Discord stage live.0:14Link in the description. A lot of you 0:16guys know you can just ask your 0:19questions here. Um, please don't spam.0:21Look at the main stage rules. Um, and 0:24make sure to just kind of listen as I 0:27answer things foundationally. That's 0:29obviously what I'm always focused on.0:32Yes, please check the mainstage Discord 0:34rules. We got our mods here. They're 0:36going to be posting. So, should be able 0:38to kind of see here. All right. How to 0:40grieve a mother you didn't get along 0:42with. I think more than grieving, just 0:45understanding that most parents are 0:49struggling to be parents just like we 0:51were struggling to be parents ourselves.0:54Number one, sometimes it it takes 0:57stepping out of yourself and being the 0:59bigger person that allows us to 1:01understand what's going on. It's very 1:03difficult to be a parent. It's very 1:07difficult to, you know, think of other 1:10people if you only think about yourself.1:13We're being exactly like our parents in 1:15that way. uh a lot of the times they 1:19have very very good intentions and 1:21that's what's what we need to see behind 1:24the action. We need to see the heart 1:26posture, right? And this goes for 1:28anything. Your kids, your spouse, your 1:31parents, uh what is the intention behind 1:34it. It even it even goes for God. For 1:37example, sometimes God does things to us 1:40that we genuinely feel betrayed. Like if 1:42I pray for something and do God doesn't 1:44give it to me, like the natural feeling 1:47and reaction is, "Oh, he betrayed me.1:49He's not listening to me. I did 1:51something wrong or he thinks I did 1:52something wrong. That's why he's not 1:53giving it to me." But during those 1:55times, it's not the action that we have 1:57to look at. We have to look at the heart 1:59posture. Well, I'm questioning God's 2:02love. Let's say, I'm questioning my 2:04parents' love, my kids' love. But what 2:06is their actual heart? At least with 2:08God, we know that if you ever question 2:11his love, just look at the cross. That 2:13cross was something we didn't deserve.2:15That cross was him putting his only 2:17begotten son, hung him on the cross for 2:20us. So, it's very easy to kind of think 2:24foundationally outside of yourself when 2:26you do that, right? And then you're able 2:29to just kind of let it digest as I say,2:32right? The reason why we can't digest 2:34the decisions that God makes and has for 2:37us is because we think that we know 2:39what's best for ourselves. That's the 2:41problem. But same with our parents. Like 2:44our parents made a decision to do 2:46something to, you know, raise us a 2:49certain way and we disagreed. But what 2:51is the intent behind it? They thought at 2:53that time that's what was the best for 2:56them, right? And best for you. So at the 3:00end of the day, people are trying to 3:02they're trying their best, right? That's 3:04what it is at the end of the day. So,3:06you know, foundationally, it's one thing 3:09every human being struggles with in here 3:11especially is thinking outside of 3:13themselves. They don't know how to think 3:15outside of themselves. Whether it's 3:17through religion or through work or 3:20through parents or through kids or 3:21through family or through business, they 3:23only know how to think about themselves.3:25With business, how do I make the most 3:27money with parents? How do I be the best 3:29parent? With kids, you know, uh how do I 3:32raise them so that they can be the best 3:34people, right? With uh uh church, how do 3:37I get closer to God? How do I how do I 3:39be a real Christian? Right? It's it's 3:41always self at the center of everything.3:43And then we wonder why we're not getting 3:46anything. Because God doesn't want you 3:47to think about yourself. He wants to 3:49deny yourself and think about him.3:50That's the issue here moving forward. Am 3:52I saved if I've never had that light 3:54bulb moment? Right. Exactly. So that's 3:56question of self, right? Being saved has 3:59nothing to do with you getting it. Being 4:01saved has everything to do with him 4:02dying on the cross. But if you think 4:04about yourself, then you will think 4:06those ways, right? Oh, I didn't I never 4:08had the aha moment, though. I never had 4:10those feelings that everybody else had.4:12things didn't just pop up. My anxiety 4:14didn't just go away. So, does that mean 4:16I'm not saved? But who's at the center 4:18of that? You are. That's why I said I 4:20answer foundationally here, right, guys?4:22It's just just how it is. At the end of 4:24the day, you guys need belief more than 4:26prayer. That that's the one thing I'm 4:29seeing is people use even prayer as just 4:32a kind of they try to depend outcomes 4:36off prayer, right? They make their 4:37requests known to God. And prayer is not 4:39a bad thing, but belief is better than 4:41the prayer. when you believe because 4:43even prayer you have to believe 4:45foundationally it says Mark 11:24 4:48in whatsoever you desire pray believe 4:51and then you receive so you still need 4:53belief anyways why not just nip it in 4:55the butt and start with belief 4:57understand but our our our heart posture 5:00again is always well it's hard to 5:01believe well you believe it's hard to 5:03believe right if you think I've got you 5:06believe it's hard to believe then why 5:08can't you just believe with the same 5:09energy it's the same thing 5:11foundationally But again, we don't we 5:13don't think that. We don't even think 5:14deep like that. We believe the negative,5:17which takes faith anyways. Why not just 5:20believe in the positive? I'm 18 years 5:22old and and I've been babysitting my two 5:25younger siblings since the age of 15,5:2616ish, freshman in college, when to 5:28start school in August, and I want to 5:29start living my life, move out in the 5:30next 2 years without feeling guilty for 5:32leaving my siblings behind. But I'm 5:33getting tired of being home all day 5:34taking care of my and teaching a 13 and 5:365-year-old. Um, yeah, you have to 5:38realize that it's not you who's teaching 5:40them. Um, you have to explain to them 5:42that their true guide is Jesus and God.5:46And the quicker you teach them that, the 5:48quicker they're going to not lean on 5:49you, right? Because you can't be their 5:51savior. It's great that you're trying to 5:53babysit them and help them and they're 5:55your siblings, but your siblings have to 5:57actually go to God more than anything,5:59right? So, it's just kind of how it is.6:02Hey, pastor, my my heart has been a 6:03little heavy from hearing about the 6:04kidnapping/killing situations in 6:06Nigeria. I'm throwing um Jeremiah 17 and 6:09Proverbs at it, but it's not quite 6:10taking it away. Am I not trusting God 6:12enough? It It could be that. It could be 6:14that. When you think about those things,6:16you have to realize um again stepping 6:18out of yourself. We know how you feel.6:21You You feel frustrated. You feel sad.6:23You feel heavy. Sure. Uh have you ever 6:26thought about what God felt though?6:27Right. That's that's the thing we have 6:29to focus on more than anything is are we 6:33actually 6:35thinking about God and what he thinks 6:36about these things. And again, this is 6:38what I'm answering foundationally for 6:40everything. We don't, right? We don't.6:42Because if we truly did, it's not just a 6:45matter of like thinking what God thinks.6:48It's also believing what God's going to 6:49do on top of that. Right? So again,6:52notice how everything ties back to,6:54well, it's hard for me though. Sure. But 6:56what can you do about it? Nothing. If 6:59we're being honest, nothing. You're one 7:01man, right? But what can God do about 7:03it? When we tie things to self, that's 7:06what I'm saying. It becomes an issue.7:08But when you shift off of yourself,7:09that's when you're like, "Wo, God is 7:12going to take care." Does God not see 7:14the kidnappings and killings in Nigeria?7:16Absolutely he does. Is he just going to 7:18sit there and fold his arms? No. He 7:20definitely has his plan. I don't see it,7:22but I trust it. Right. That's that's 7:25literally what we have to do. But the 7:28issue with Satan is that he questions 7:30God number one, like he did with Adam 7:32and Eve. Does God did God really say 7:34that? Is God really going to do that?7:36It's this heart. He plants that. And 7:38then the second thing is he makes us 7:40good people. What? Satan makes us do 7:42good? Yeah. Because what happens is he 7:44puts us in direct competition with God.7:46If I'm from God, why the hell wouldn't 7:48God move a finger? And then we start 7:50judging God. Why would he let babies and 7:52children and what the hell is wrong with 7:54him? We start doing this because it's 7:57our own good. But all of that is from 7:59the enemy. Why can't it be God knows 8:01what he's doing? He He nothing surprises 8:03him. He's He's already seen the end. We 8:06haven't even seen the end. So it kind of 8:08comes down to that at the end of the 8:09day. And we are people who we have to 8:12think very very deeply here. And uh we 8:16have to really really understand 8:18truthfully what what it is that God 8:20wants, right? And then in that way you 8:23become free. But if you think about what 8:25you want, right, that that's very 8:27humbling, right? These main stages are 8:28very humbling because it proves that we 8:31don't really think about anybody else 8:32but ourselves. So why I put this 8:35perspective out there is because when 8:36you don't think about anybody but 8:38yourself and then God still thinks about 8:40you, then you start to think about God.8:42But if you fight that and you think you 8:44do think about other people, this 8:45message just goes over your head. It 8:47doesn't even make sense. It won't it 8:49won't make sense at all actually. Right?8:51[clears throat] Amen. So every single 8:53question to be honest is answered 8:56specifically through this. So ask your 8:58questions. I will answer it back to this 9:00foundation of think about Jesus, think 9:02about God, have faith in God and what he 9:04would do. As cliche as it sounds, ask 9:06any question, guys. I guarantee it.9:08It'll it'll be tied back into this. Do 9:10you guys understand what I'm saying? It 9:12will just tie back into this. I'm not 9:14saying it just to not answer your 9:16questions. I'm put here to steward and 9:18guide you guys, but I want to guide you 9:19guys correctly. Every single answer is 9:22answered this way. What would Jesus do 9:25and what can he do and can he do it?9:27Then the issue is not can he do it? The 9:30issue is did I even think he can do it?9:32That's the underlying issue, right?9:35That's the problem is the unbelief is 9:37the is the faithlessness that we have.9:39the you know God says oh ye of little 9:41faith right we we have very little faith 9:43towards this almighty God but yet we 9:44claim that he's our father we claim that 9:46he's powerful we claim that he's 9:48almighty we sing songs like I trust in 9:50God we we you know he can break down 9:53barriers and mountains and strongholds 9:55sure but in the in the process of it 9:57though as soon as something happens we 10:00then start to fix it ourselves that's 10:02proof that we just know head knowledge 10:04what it is about God we don't actually 10:06believe what he says and that's 10:08difficult 10:09for a lot of but that's what we need to 10:11hear because that's what's going to 10:12change. Do you understand what I'm 10:14saying? Right? Even this question,10:16right, as as Mark is asking is answered 10:18foundationally to what I'm saying.10:20Watch. Do you have friends in the gang 10:22that you still try to reach out from 10:24time to time even if they're still 10:25closed off to the gospel? I have friends 10:26that I want to reach out to, but oftent 10:28times I'm the one who falls back into 10:30worldly conversations. How do you 10:32usually start speaking to them about the 10:34gospel when you guys meet? Look. So, so 10:36he's his heart posture is he wants to 10:39save his friends. He wants to get them 10:41to engage. And also the heart posture is 10:45which I'm very thankful of is I myself 10:48can't even live a spiritual life. I'm 10:49actually the one that like leads it. I'm 10:52the one who falls back into the worldly 10:54conversations. Right? That's why I said 10:55you have to step out of yourself, right?10:58How much more so does your does God want 10:59to save your friends? And if you thought 11:02about them that way, why would you go 11:04back into worldly conversations? You 11:05wouldn't. It's because you're trying to 11:07help them. You're trying to save them.11:10Even this question, how do you usually 11:11start speaking to them about the gospel 11:13when you guys meet? Because you're using 11:14these things where it's like very, very 11:17black and white. It's, "Oh, if I can 11:19just take what Johnny says, I can do 11:21it." The truth is, and the reality is,11:23you can never save your friends.11:25[clears throat] That's the whole point.11:26Because you're not the savior. Because 11:28you we think only about ourselves. Do 11:31you guys understand? That's why we think 11:33like this. Well, then how do I start a 11:34conversation though? Right? And then 11:36frustration will either come out of this 11:38or surrender will come out of this.11:40Frustration and that so what I don't say 11:42anything to my friends then this comes 11:43out aka I still think I can save them.11:46Understand? Or man, you're right. I 11:49didn't even think about it like that. So 11:50if you guys want to learn, truly learn,11:53all you have to do is actually listen.11:55Every single question I'm going to 11:57answer this way, right? You don't save 11:58your friends. Jesus saves your friends.12:00You go there, you have conversations 12:02with them. You talk about what Jesus did 12:04for you. It's not hard, right? But why 12:07do you fall back into yourself and 12:08worldly conversation? Because you're 12:10thinking about yourself. Ah, this is 12:11lame. My homies don't want to hear about 12:13this. So, you're thinking about 12:14yourself. You think it's lame. You don't 12:16think they want to hear about it. So,12:18you fall back to worldly conversations 12:19because that's what connects with them.12:21And then you think, "Okay, I got to 12:22start speaking to them about the gospel.12:24How do I start speaking about the 12:26gospel? You don't. You allow the Holy 12:28Spirit to talk about the things that the 12:30Holy Spirit did for you. That's it,12:32right? You weave every conversation back 12:35to God. Cuz that's exactly what Jesus 12:37did. And Jesus never answered people 12:39fully. Jesus always answered with the 12:41question to lead them with that question 12:43to shift their perspective back so that 12:46they could figure it out themselves. He 12:47never forced anything upon people. If 12:49you watch Jesus's interactions, he 12:51literally leads with a question on top 12:53of a question. It's really beautiful.12:55And that's the wisdom I've learned is to 12:57do the same thing. People have to see it 12:58for themselves. It don't matter if you 13:00beat it into them. They're not going to 13:02listen. Right? Amen. So that's kind of 13:05what it comes down to. I have a family 13:06member who is going through crisis after 13:07crisis and she believes a god but not 13:09the god. When we chat, I don't preach. I 13:11just speak my truth. How how I've been 13:14rescued and by whom? What direction 13:15should I speak about? This is exactly 13:17what you kind of answered your own 13:19question. That's the direction. I have a 13:21question. My father is in the world.13:23Whenever I go visit him, he gossips and 13:24rarely acknowledges me like I'm 13:26bothering him. I call and he says I'm 13:27crazy for being a Christian. I think 13:29that I don't trust men as much because 13:31he disappoints me. But I think it's 13:33important to have a relationship with my 13:34family. I don't know what to do. Right?13:36Cuz you're thinking about yourself. Look 13:37at how many times you said I right. I go 13:40visit him. I feel like I'm bothering 13:41him. I call him. I think I don't trust 13:44men. I think it's important. So this is 13:46what I mean, right? Foundationally,13:48we're not even thinking about God. Your 13:50father is in the world. Who's supposed 13:52to save your father from the world? And 13:54who did already? Jesus Christ. He 13:56gossips. Sure. Can you stop him?13:58Probably not. But can Jesus? Absolutely.14:00He doesn't acknowledge you? Sure. But 14:02does Jesus acknowledge you? Absolutely.14:04You feel like you're bothering him, but 14:06do you ever bother Jesus? No, you don't.14:08You call and he thinks you're crazy for 14:09being Christian. God loves that. Again,14:11when you think about self, you can't see 14:14anything clearly. But when you think 14:15about what does Jesus think about this,14:18then everything becomes organized. Do 14:20you understand what I'm saying? Make 14:22sense? It's that simple. But again, a 14:24lot of us, it's very difficult for us to 14:26do this. And the reason why I'm telling 14:28you guys this is because I want you to 14:29get out of the the mindset of like self,14:32me and I. You're never going to get 14:34anywhere, guys. If you have that 14:35mindset, as hard as that is to accept 14:39and acknowledge, once you acknowledge 14:41that, oh, it ain't about me. Then you're 14:44really able to grow. Can you speak on 14:46speaking in tongues? how we'll say how 14:48some will say you need to be saved or 14:50identified with the Holy Spirit. That's 14:51just not true. No. Again, think about 14:54God. Let's think about that, right? So,14:57we think about what other people say.14:58Why do we plate so much to what other 15:00people think and say, even if they claim 15:02to be part of God? Just think about 15:04God's heart. Oh, okay. So, I could do 15:06everything right. I can believe that 15:07Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior, and 15:09yet if I don't speak in tongues, I'm 15:11going to hell. Does that even sound like 15:13something God would do? Like I said,15:15think about it, right? So, I believe 15:17Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I follow 15:20Jesus. But because I can't go,15:23then I'm going to die and I'm going to 15:25burn. It doesn't even make sense, right?15:27It doesn't even make sense. So during 15:29that time, what do you have to think 15:30about? You know what these people don't 15:32know? They focus mainly on gifts because 15:35it makes them look good. Oh, I got to 15:38watch that. I got to peep that. I got to 15:40clock that. I can't do the same. I don't 15:42have to argue with these people. I don't 15:44have to sway these people. I have to 15:45realize, oh, this these are they're 15:47living proof of what happens even when 15:49you go to church and you just think 15:51about yourself. They're living proof,15:53right? [snorts] I I know I've a lot of 15:55you guys have been in churches where 15:56it's it's it's been like that where 15:58people will literally sit there and say,15:59"You need to do this, this, and this 16:01otherwise you're not saved." Like as if 16:03they're the ones that determine your 16:04salvation. Doesn't even make sense. But 16:06what do we do? Trust ourselves. What do 16:08we do? Verify things in our brain. We 16:11have to verify things through the word.16:12And if you don't know the word, that's 16:14why you have to study, right? Amen.16:15Right.16:16>> Nobody told me that faith would be this 16:17lonely. I thought when I gave my life to 16:19God, everything would just click.16:21Community, peace, direction. A lot of us 16:23are out here just trying to figure it 16:25out alone. Your family thinks it's a 16:26phase. You go to church on Sunday.16:28You're smiling. And then on Monday,16:30reality hits and you're back alone in 16:32your home in your thoughts. I know 16:34exactly what that's like. I got out of 16:36prison at the age of 25. I didn't have a 16:38church home. I didn't have friends. I 16:39didn't even really have family to back 16:41me up. I had God. I had a Bible. But 16:43more importantly than anything, I had a 16:45pastor who I could lean on to ask 16:47questions and to just receive mentorship 16:49and have fellowship with. And the thing 16:50that changed everything for me wasn't 16:52just studying alone. It was actually 16:54having someone I could bring my real 16:55questions to. Not the Sunday school 16:57questions, the real ones, the ones that 16:59keep you up at night. The ones that make 17:01you feel unworthy because you can't 17:02figure it out on your own. Therefore,17:04you feel as if you're less of a 17:06Christian. That's why every single 17:07Saturday at 10:00 a.m. Pacific Standard 17:09Time, I go live inside the Core of the 17:11Heart Daily app. First, we do a full 17:12Bible class. Real teaching, not that 17:15surface level stuff. We go super deep.17:17Then, we open it up. Group mentorship.17:19You bring your real questions, not the 17:21polished ones, and I answer them with 17:22scriptures and honesty based off of real 17:24struggles that I went through in my 17:26life. You were never supposed to do this 17:28alone, and now you don't have to. Bible 17:29class every Saturday at 10:00 a.m.17:31Pacific Standard Time. Can't wait to see 17:32you guys there.17:33>> Johnny, I may be idolizing you and your 17:35teachings that led me to J, but 17:36idolizing you is not good. How can I 17:38stop idolizing you? You by thinking 17:40about Jesus. And I know the truth that 17:42I'm saved because of Jesus and his 17:43works, not mine. But internally, I'm 17:45still tied to works. And I know it's 17:46unbelief. And I'm not sure like you're 17:49you're talking a lot about what you 17:50know, but what about the things you 17:52don't know? Right? Make sense, right?17:54So, it's not about what you idolize,17:56what you don't. Can you stop idolizing?17:58I mean, honestly, guys, you guys think 18:00without the grace of God and the blood 18:02of Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, you 18:03can stop sinning. Then you don't know 18:05what sin is. Sin is an identity. You're 18:07born that way. Make sense? If I was to 18:10tell you guys, hey, how do I stop being 18:13Chinese? But that's what we are. We're 18:15born as sinners. Adam and Eve sinned.18:17Pass it down to me and you. We know 18:18this. But why do we ask those types of 18:20questions? Because we don't think about 18:22Jesus and God. We think about ourselves.18:24Well, if I stop smoking, I stop smoking.18:27Sure, you receive grace to stop smoking.18:30Everything good comes from God. But look 18:32at how convoluted it's become. How 18:34confused we become. We think that 18:36everything we do is because of us. Why?18:39because we only think about us.18:41Do you understand? It's very humbling 18:43when you think about it that way. Make 18:45sense, right guys? You you cannot I'm 18:47sorry to say nothing in your life,18:50right, is good because of you. Just so 18:53you know, not one thing in your life is 18:57because of you. Not one thing. The only 18:59thing you can do is to either deny your 19:01thoughts and trust the word of God or 19:03trust your thoughts and deny the word of 19:05God. That's the only choice you have.19:07Literally, the Bible talks about this in 19:09Psalm, right? That's the only choice you 19:11have is to choose whether you believe in 19:13the one that died for your salvation or 19:15you go and you work for your salvation.19:17Those are the only two choices we 19:18genuinely have when it comes to free 19:20will. It's just the God of God honest 19:22truth. So, you make a decision today. Am 19:24I going to trust the word of God or am I 19:27going to trust my thoughts? And it's not 19:29hard to trust the word of God when you 19:31recognize how far off the beaten path 19:34you and your thoughts and your feelings 19:35and your emotions has led you. Make 19:37sense, right? So, every question, every 19:40thought that comes to you have to bring 19:42it to the word of God, brothers and 19:43sisters, you have to verify that with 19:45the word of God. Amen. That's the 19:48questions you should be asking. Hey,19:49what does the Bible say about this,19:51Johnny? What does the Bible say about 19:52that? Right? Make sense? So, what I want 19:55you guys to realize is a lot of the 19:57questions we ask, I'm sorry to say, are 19:59very self-centered. That's what I want 20:01you guys to nip. Right? We are naturally 20:04opportunistic. Do you understand? Right?20:06We are naturally this way. Make sense?20:09That's the problem with us. So 20:11everything is always at when you sit 20:13there, my question if it's about me and 20:16if it's for myself doesn't even need to 20:19be answered. Do you know why? Because 20:20it's for yourself anyways. We're not 20:22really truth seeeking. Even this 20:24question like what does the Bible say 20:25about cremation? It's for yourself. But 20:27like I said, right, people can't hear 20:29what I'm saying. If you heard what I 20:31said foundationally about the Holy 20:32Spirit and speaking in tongues, do you 20:35really think a person who lives for God 20:38without even knowing the Bible? Let's 20:39just think about God's heart, not self.20:42Remove, oh, but my dad got cremated. He 20:44might go to hell. I want him to go to 20:45heaven. So, can you tell me like remove 20:47this heart of this opportunistic heart 20:49and just think clearly solely based off 20:52of God? Let's say, right? Do you think a 20:54person like me, if I sit here and I 20:55preach the gospel, I've met led millions 20:57of people to the go as you guys know.20:59But if I go and I get cremated, I'm 21:01going to hell. It's the same thing with 21:02the Holy Spirit. I serve God all my 21:04life, but I don't have the gift of 21:05tongues because it's a gift. I'm going 21:07to hell. But you can't even think 21:08outside of that. What do you think?21:10Myself, but my friend though, my mom, my 21:13grandpa, I want them to go to heaven.21:15Even that, even on that selfish tip, you 21:17can think this way. Well, how much does 21:20my my as much as I love my parents, as 21:23much much as I love the person who who 21:24got cremated, how much more so did God 21:27love them? and would he just allow them 21:28to go to hell? Even if you take that 21:30selfish and then step outside of 21:33yourself, you're able to be freed from 21:35it. But we don't even do that. And then 21:37when I correct, we don't even feel the 21:39correction. We go, "Yeah, amen." Right?21:42We just go, "Wow." But like still at the 21:44foundation, do you realize it was still 21:46for yourself though? Even the amen. Do 21:49you understand? So guys, this is why 21:51when I look at myself in front of God 21:53too, I I feel so disgusted with myself 21:56as well because everything is just for 21:58me. Does that make sense? Everything is 22:00just for me. Like it doesn't I I'm I'm 22:02only going to pray because it benefits 22:04me. I'm only going to like all of that 22:07and we don't even sense that. Whoa.22:09What's Well, I'm human. I'm supposed to 22:10do that. What are you talking about?22:11Well, God wants that. We start to even 22:13flip it so that we don't feel bad. But 22:15isn't that God's thing? No. God God 22:17wants to help us. Is like that's the 22:18whole point. He wants to love us. God is 22:20love. Like we start doing this. Have you 22:22guys noticed that? Pretty wild, huh?22:24Make sense? So when you recognize this,22:28all of these things, it comes down to 22:31what is God thinking about this? That's 22:33the unlock, right? But we try to solve 22:37our own problems. We try to think about 22:39things our way with our finite brain.22:42The whole point is you can't do it.22:44That's why we need a savior to do it for 22:46us. That's what I've learned in all of 22:48these years was that one foundational 22:51unlock. As soon as you start thinking 22:53for self, Johnny, you've drifted from 22:55the savior because self is not the 22:57savior. You don't save yourself. Right?22:59Amen. What does the Bible say about how 23:01to encourage or or support a loved one 23:03who is in the grips of drug addiction by 23:05thinking about what Jesus would say and 23:07and and do in that predicament? Right?23:09Same thing. How do we help somebody and 23:11point them to Jesus Christ? That's the 23:13most important thing, right? not not as 23:15a checkbox. You can you can sit there 23:17and do nothing for them but also be 23:19doing everything for them spiritually.23:21And what I mean by that is go to God,23:22right? The Bible is very clear. Says 23:25draw boundaries, right? Keep your hands 23:27off of them for this is my chosen 23:29vessel. And it says to believe for other 23:31people because there's numerous stories 23:33in the Bible and parables that teach 23:35this. the man with the with the 23:37infirmity and you know his friends broke 23:40down the roof and you know he says by 23:43the faith of your friends you are healed 23:44so faith for your friends also heals 23:47them number one Gyrus's daughter is dead 23:50Gyrus has faith becomes alive King David 23:537-day old son born out of sin obviously 23:56a sinful baby born out of adultery right 23:59he says I will not go to him um he 24:01cannot come to me but I shall go to him 24:03how does he get to heaven by faith So 24:06everything comes down to what is it that 24:08I need to do to to mentally trust and 24:11believe in God that he's going to help?24:14Because the question here isn't can God 24:16break drug addiction? We know that. The 24:18question is do you believe that God can 24:21break drug addiction regardless of what 24:22you see, think, and feel. That's the 24:24perfect opportunity to be able to meet 24:26God. Amen. Are we even capable of coming 24:29up with the question that at its root is 24:30not selfish? Yes. By thinking about God,24:33right? Where [clears throat] does God 24:34want us to go preach after? I don't want 24:36to preach. Where would God want me to go 24:38preach? Is it Chicago next? Is it That's 24:40not selfish. I don't want to go any of 24:41those places, but I'm thinking about 24:43what God wants. So, every question 24:45that's centered genuinely on what God is 24:47going to do and his will is not a 24:49selfish question. But on the same 24:51stroke, everything that's on even if it 24:54has God peppered in, but it's for 24:55yourself, right? You can just tell that 24:58it's straight up not from God, right? So 25:01even this question like how can we share 25:03the gospel without teaching someone 25:04sounds valid on the surface level right 25:07but when you think about it why don't 25:09you want to teach somebody let's say 25:10someone is open to teaching what's wrong 25:12with that right it's the assumption that 25:14teaching is already bad right it's under 25:16this so how do I guide someone like this 25:19let's say right with this heart I can't 25:22because they already made they have this 25:24preconceived notion that teaching 25:26someone is already incorrect no you can 25:28teach I teach a lot of people I preach 25:30that way. What's the problem? It depends 25:32on the heart posture. Right? So the 25:35better question would be how do I share 25:37the gospel to people who are not ready 25:38to be taught? Right? That's the better 25:40question because now it's not about you.25:43You don't care to teach or preach. It's 25:45more of how do I get them to turn to 25:47God? Not selfishly because I want them 25:50to turn to God because we all need to 25:51turn to God. That's not a selfish thing 25:52to think. But this would be selfish even 25:54though it sounds very similar. Hey 25:56Johnny, how do I remember scripture like 25:58you do so that I can preach the gospel?26:01Now [snorts] you're putting it not only 26:02into work. Salvation comes by how 26:04knowledgeable you are. That has nothing 26:06to do with God. Knowledge and all that 26:08is not going to change a person's heart 26:09posture. In fact, I would argue it 26:11hardens a person's heart. The more 26:13someone knows, the more defiant they 26:15become. Do you understand what I'm 26:16saying? Make sense? So, it's kind of a 26:18like a double-edged sword in this way.26:20Make sense? Yeah. And that's what you 26:22guys have to come to the right. I'm 26:24selfish as f. Very true. Yeah, we're 26:26very selfish. That's what you have to 26:28recognize. It's not then it's, oh, I'm 26:31super selfish, right? And that's where 26:33you start to think about God. Well,26:36although I'm selfish, let's put that 26:37aside. Why does God love me? Why would 26:39he choose a selfish being like me? Why 26:41does he not strike me down for being 26:42selfish? Now, you're thinking outside of 26:45your selfish. But people who aren't who 26:46who who are selfish but don't 26:48acknowledge that, you know what they 26:49think? But I do think about God. I love 26:51God. I care about God. No, you don't 26:53understand. The people who really 26:55realize that they're selfish are the 26:56ones that actually turn to God. Make 26:59sense, right? So, it's just kind of 27:00that. So, pastor, there's nothing I can 27:02really do is just running to God,27:05telling him to step outside of myself 27:06for self. I mean, but even that is for 27:09yourself. If you just acknowledge who 27:10you are, then it doesn't really come out 27:13like that. That question is still like 27:16loaded, right? Basically, it's saying 27:18like, "Oh, how do I how do I do 27:20something then? Is it that I don't do 27:22anything?" And then you want to be freed 27:24from that. But why do you want to be 27:25freed from that? Because you want to be 27:27freed from it. Inside of all of this,27:29where is God's heart? I don't see it.27:31All I see is how do I stop feeling bad 27:33about myself? Is it really that I don't 27:35do anything? Where is the next question 27:37that's going to unlock so I could feel 27:38better about myself? Well, then who's 27:40still at the center? Self. Even if you 27:42pepper in God, the whole point of the 27:44message is what does God think? Right? I 27:47honestly don't know God. Did you 27:48honestly think you did? That's crazy. Do 27:51any of you guys think you know God? I'm 27:53just curious if you really do. That's 27:55that's kind of wild. Listen, I've read 27:57the Bible 27 times front to front to 27:59back. I don't know God. I don't think 28:01anyone actually knows God, right?28:02Because the Bible says so, right?28:04There's nothing we can't understand him.28:06But then why do we think we do? Look at 28:08that. That's what I'm saying. Like this 28:10is why selfishness is at the core. It's 28:13very bad. Like like Satan for example. I 28:16understand why Satan thought he deserved 28:18the throne because he also thought that 28:20he loved God and he also thought that he 28:23his judgment was right. If you really 28:25think about it, Satan wasn't too evil.28:27He was too good. That's why he's like,28:29"Well, let me do the math. All the 28:31angels love me. I'm made of bag pipes.28:34I'm beautiful. I'm smart and wise. I 28:36pretty much am like second in heaven 28:38because God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit 28:40are one. There's no one really higher 28:42than me. Not even like the Archangel 28:44Michael. There's more talk about me than 28:46about him, even written in the Bible.28:48Respectfully, I need that throne. Why 28:50wouldn't I need the throne? I I I don't 28:53I don't understand. I've been doing 28:54good. I've been listening. I've been 28:56following. What What the heck's the 28:57issue? And that heart right there is 28:59what led him into pride, misery, and 29:01[clears throat] he literally died 29:02because of that, right? He's defeated.29:04We're just stuck in a realm of time. And 29:06not only did he think like that, a third 29:08of heaven thought like that, too. They 29:10went with him. That's true. Like God 29:12gave us all these things, but it's also 29:13because we praise him every single day.29:15It's also because we listen to him every 29:16day. It's also because we surrender to 29:18him every day. Like what the hell, dude?29:20How come he only gets a throne? As a 29:22matter of fact, like you're right,29:23Satan. Like, you're right. This is the 29:25issue with people, right? They measure 29:28off of their own standard. Amen. Make 29:30sense? They measure off of their own 29:31standard. And to some degree, we all do 29:34this. That's why I asked that question.29:36Do you guys really think you love God?29:38Really, I'm not saying like, of course 29:40you think you love God, but I'm saying,29:42do you think you can love God in God's 29:44standard? That's the that's the thing 29:45that matters. We don't even think that 29:47far. Do you understand what I'm saying?29:48We don't even care about God's standard.29:50We're like, in our standard, of course I 29:52do. But look at how we answer. We only 29:54answer with our own measure. We don't 29:56even think about God's thing. Right?29:59That's that's why if you think about uh 30:02when you look at uh Leviticus 18 and 16 30:06specifically those two chapters, God 30:08compares [clears throat]30:09sin to leprosy. Leprosy is an internal 30:14thing that once it reaches the surface,30:16it numbs everything else. But it's 30:17literally rotting away. It's a virus in 30:20the skin in the human body. It's an 30:21autoimmune virus that you don't really 30:23feel it. So that once it reaches like 30:25let's say your nose, you can literally 30:27rip off your nose and you won't feel the 30:29pain. You can rip off your fingers.30:31Understand what I'm saying? And you 30:32wouldn't feel it. But why does God say 30:35right very clearly? Sin is leprosy and 30:38leprosy is sin. Well, if things make you 30:41numb, if leprosy makes you numb, that's 30:43what he's extracting from the lesson.30:45He's saying true sin is numbness towards 30:48the sin. True sin is I don't even know 30:51what's going on with my life and I don't 30:53care. You can literally pull off my 30:55finger and I don't care. I can literally 30:58be walking towards hell and I don't even 30:59know it. That's why he says sin is 31:01leprosy cuz we're numb to it. Yeah, I'm 31:03selfish, but I don't think so. You're 31:05completely numb to it, right? So, why do 31:07you think Jesus when he hangs on the 31:09cross in Luke? Why do you think he goes,31:11"Father, forgive them." And he doesn't 31:12say, "Forgive them because they lusted 31:13too much. Father, forgive them because 31:15they know what they're doing." What does 31:16he say? Father, forgive them for they do 31:20not know what they're doing. Understand,31:22right? Because they don't know. Because 31:24we're numb. That's why he says in Amos 31:273:7, he he establishes the servants and 31:30he tells the servants the secrets to 31:32tell you guys too. Think Moses. God is 31:34God of all. He can't and remove the 31:37Egyptians, please. Right? Of course he 31:39can. Why does he establish Moses? Slow 31:41in tongue, weak, old, lacking, and a 31:44murderer, by the way. Right? Make sense.31:46Right? So, was it really necessary to 31:48post that picture while I'm talking 31:50about this? Right? You see what's going 31:52on, right? Like I said, sin is leprosy,31:54right? no sense whatsoever. You guys got 31:56that right? Amen. Make sense? Just 31:58straight clown behavior genuinely. But 32:00that's what we do, right? We don't even 32:02sense it. We're talking about straight 32:04up, right, sin and we're like, anyways,32:07this is a dumb lesson. Let me go and 32:08look over this thing. I said, who really 32:10actually wants to hear this and listen?32:12Nobody. Make sense, right? So that's 32:14okay. I'm just saying like proves my 32:16point, right, guys? Proves our point.32:18Make sense, right? Is that we genuinely 32:20don't care. So don't say amen. Don't ask 32:22questions. just listen, right? That's 32:24why it's important for us to really hear 32:26this. So, moving forward, for us, we 32:29genuinely don't understand what we're 32:32really like, how evil we are. You know,32:35Pastor John says something that's really 32:37beautiful. He says, "We think sin is 32:39like this tip of the iceberg." That's 32:41just the tip of the iceberg. There's the 32:42whole iceberg that we don't see. It's 32:45truly truly, you know, kind of wild. But 32:48do you know how you overcome that? It's 32:50very simple to realize, oh my gosh, I'm 32:52this person. And the heart shouldn't be,32:55so what? I don't care. I guess I'm like 32:56that. Oh well. No, the heart is I'm this 32:59person. Jesus died for me and he chose 33:02me. Even though I'm this type of person,33:03you know, you shift your eyes off of 33:05yourself during that time and you go 33:07straight to God. Straight to God. You 33:09then can't judge other people. you can't 33:11really like really feel frustration cuz 33:14it's more of like wo I'm a selfish human 33:16being you know like Moses was like uh 33:19Abraham was like King David was and yet 33:22God used them mightily and he will use 33:24me too maybe I should stop trusting 33:26myself maybe I should stop moving 33:28forward with my own heart posture maybe 33:30I should you start doing this but most 33:32people they don't even get to that 33:34position they'll live 30 40 50 years 60 33:36years as a Christian and not even have 33:38that positioning which is very sad at 33:40the end of the day, right? So, we move 33:42forward by appreciating what Jesus did 33:45for us. Make sense? We grow because we 33:48think about again the lesson here is 33:50thinking about Jesus. We grow because 33:53once we realize how selfish we are, how 33:56shady we are, how angry we are, how 33:58manipulative we are and yet that angry,34:00manipulative, narcissistic, selfish,34:03immature, emotionally, spiritually,34:05mentally immature person, Jesus chose,34:07you know, this type of heart then starts 34:10to generate love. You don't have to 34:12generate, you don't even have to try to 34:13forgive somebody. You don't even have to 34:15sit there and, you know, try to 34:17understand your husband and wife and you 34:20just get it because it's the byproduct 34:22of going, "Yo, I'm literally worse." Do 34:25you do you guys like understand? You 34:28will get out of your depression, your 34:29addiction, your loneliness, your 34:31frustration. Right? A lot of people 34:33judge, you know, in so many ways. A lot 34:36of people judge, right? They judge my 34:38sermons. They judge what I do. They 34:40judge my tonality. They judge my past,34:42right? A lot of people [clears throat]34:43do that, too. What makes me kind of I 34:45guess shocked is the fact that people 34:48don't look at themselves. But what also 34:51shocks me is how accurate the Bible 34:54really is. When it says that people will 34:57lift their heel against you. When it 34:58says that people don't look at the log 35:00in their eye and they look at the speck 35:02of other people. It's so true. Right? I 35:05thought about that. You know, amen,35:07right? Nobody told you that faith would 35:09come with this many unanswered 35:10questions. You pray, you read, you fast,35:12you tithe, and yet you're still not 35:15growing. But there are things that 35:16you're still carrying that you haven't 35:17said out loud to anybody. Not because 35:19the answer doesn't exist, but because 35:21you don't know who to ask. That's 35:23exactly why every Tuesday I do a group 35:25mentorship session. You bring your 35:27questions and whatever you've been 35:28sitting on, whether it's a decision you 35:30can't make, past trauma you're still 35:32working through, or a relationship 35:34that's draining you, and I answer them 35:35scripturally, foundationally with 35:37biblical truths that meet you exactly 35:40where you are. Even if you're not ready 35:41to ask a question yet, come and listen 35:44in because chances are somebody else in 35:46that room is carrying the same weight 35:48you are. It doesn't matter if you're new 35:49in faith or you've been walking with God 35:51for many years. No question is too 35:53small, too messy, or even too 35:55complicated. The group mentorship is an 35:57exclusive benefit for gold members only.36:00To join, download Coreheart daily or use 36:02the link in the description. I'll see 36:04you guys Tuesday. No, that's not what it 36:06is. Transformation is not a long process 36:07brought on by abiding and keeping one's 36:09mind on Christ. Right? No, I I didn't 36:12even say that. Right? Transformation is 36:14instant. Wait, what? Transformation is 36:16instant. Absolutely. Sanctification is 36:19not a process. It's done right then and 36:21there. If you truly believe in Jesus 36:23Christ, it's done right there. Things 36:25change right away. Right. When you think 36:27about Jesus transforming water into 36:30wine, was it a long process? I think it 36:33took a couple steps and then it was 36:35transformed. But people because again 36:37they trust what they think and feel,36:39right? That that that line is just a 36:41pass pacify self if you're being honest,36:44right? Because you think you haven't 36:46changed. Understand what I'm saying?36:48That's why you're like, "Oh, let me see 36:50how I can make this make sense to my 36:52brain so I don't feel bad about it."36:53That's why you say that. No one would 36:55say something like that if they're not 36:57thinking that way. Make sense?36:58Understand? At the end of the day, we 37:01even with the message that I'm speaking 37:03here, it's getting filtered by our 37:05thoughts and our feelings, right? Make 37:07sense? I've I've took the whole time to 37:10answer all of your questions, right?37:11Even this one with from Cam, which I've 37:13seen pop up and I'm answering it 37:15foundationally, but they cannot hear 37:17what I'm saying, right? So, I'll show 37:18you, right? My question is this. As a 37:20husband, God, what does faithful 37:22leadership look like when your spouse is 37:24struggling with things you thought had 37:25already been healed? How do I continue 37:27loving, serving, leading, and trusting 37:29God without becoming emotionally 37:30depleted, resentful, bitter, or losing 37:32myself in the process? How do I discern 37:34the difference between patiently walking 37:35with someone through a healing journey 37:37versus enabling unhealthy patterns that 37:39continue to affect the marriage, family,37:41and home? How do I remain faithful to 37:43Christ while carrying legitimate needs 37:45for connection, affection, intimacy, and 37:47partnership and feel unmet? I literally 37:50answered that. I said, "Whether it's 37:52your spouse, whether it's yourself,37:54right? Make sense?" So the heart posture 37:57is how do I how do I how do I well what 38:00did I just say? What my question to you 38:02is how can you how can you how can you 38:05how can you be a faithful leader without 38:07Jesus Christ? How can you not become 38:10emotionally depleted, resentful, bitter 38:12or losing yourself in the process? And 38:14how can you discern without the Holy 38:16Spirit of Jesus Christ? How can you?38:19That's what I'm asking and that's what 38:20I'm leading to. The answer is you 38:22cannot. It's proof right now. That's why 38:26you're asking. If you could, you 38:27wouldn't be here. Make sense? But what 38:30happens is pride comes out of our 38:32hearts. You know why? Because we think 38:34we're faithful leaders. What did I spend 38:36the whole 30 minutes on here harping 38:38about? We are not. We don't even sense 38:40it. We think we are. Our standard, our 38:43feelings. All of that gets thrown out.38:45Why? Because workspace people do this.38:48Think about it. Jesus Christ, he 38:51performed miracles in front of the 38:53Pharisees, but somehow that went over 38:55their head. Everybody was in awe. They 38:58weren't. They studied day and night in 38:59scripture because they thought they were 39:01the faithful servants of God. They 39:04thought that they had intimacy,39:05affection, connection, and all the 39:07things you had mentioned. They thought 39:09that. So when Jesus came to teach them 39:12really what's real, they didn't hear 39:13anything. Do you know what you what your 39:15heart will react to, Cam? This is what 39:17your heart will react to. Watch. I'll 39:19give you a workspace answer. And you'll 39:21listen to this more than you'll listen 39:22to the grace that I just heard to give.39:24Brother, you have to fight the long 39:25fight. Remember, even King David and Job 39:28went through things. So you, brother, in 39:31order to be like King David and like 39:33Job, you must remember one thing. God is 39:36testing you right now. So you try 39:37harder. Even if you die, God will honor 39:41that. That's what you want to hear. Do 39:42you understand what I'm saying? Even 39:44though you say you don't, if 39:45[clears throat] I answered this way,39:47your heart would go, "Wow, I'm on the 39:48level of Job." That's right. Remember 39:50Jesus Christ, brother? He made him wait 39:5230 years to step into his ministry, the 39:56church. And the smallest form of a 39:58church is the household. You are a 40:01pastor. You're pastoring your family.40:04I'm sorry, but Paul says, "We die daily,40:07so you must die, resentful or not."40:10That's what you want to hear. But that's 40:11not that's going to kill you. just so 40:13you know. Make sense, right? No, I 40:16understand that doesn't work. I don't 40:17think you you you do understand. And let 40:19me explain why. Because I've been 40:20explaining it the whole time.40:23And [clears throat] you still spam the 40:25question. See your guys' questions.40:27Don't think I don't see it. I'm staring 40:28at at the screen, but I'm answering 40:31foundationally. And yet you guys can't 40:33sense it. Like I said, the leprosy 40:35aspect. Why did I bring that up? Make 40:37sense, right? I can, but yet you wrote 40:40about cremation three times. And then 40:42the last time you switched it to what 40:44does the Bible say instead of what does 40:47God say? Sure. Don't know ourselves.40:50Make sense? Yes. When you start reading 40:51the Bible, you start from Genesis and 40:53you go in order. Absolutely. So, I don't 40:55know if you guys are used to ministries 40:57that just boost you up, but we don't do 40:59that here, brothers and sisters. You 41:01really want to grow. You really want to 41:03have knowledge. It takes a lot of grit.41:05It takes a lot of being told, "Hey, you 41:06don't really know." Amen. Amen. Lemon.41:10That's just that's what the heart has to 41:12be. That's real. Yeah, Johnny. I'm still 41:14unlearning the sense of pride that's 41:15lying in me. That's lying to me. I'm 41:18thankful, Johnny. I know. I know. I get 41:20it. You know, and that's good. That's 41:22exactly what you have to recognize.41:25That's the honest truth. Make sense? Not 41:27just coming in here trying to get your 41:29answers answered because you saw a real 41:32about me or you saw me in live and I put 41:34things when I ask for surrender and 41:35obedience. You can't really you can't 41:38argue that. Most people don't want that.41:40So, think about it. They want to know 41:42scripture. They want to know about God.41:44But the number one thing that we need in 41:46order to have a relationship with God is 41:48literally to surrender to God. And 41:50that's the one thing we don't want. It's 41:52kind of like a guy who wants to just 41:53sleep around with women but doesn't want 41:55a relationship. Do you think that ever 41:57works? That never works. But that's what 42:00we do with God. I want everything that's 42:02good from you and all the blessings from 42:04you. But to be honest, I don't want you 42:06because what when you ask me to throw 42:08away my thoughts and my perspectives,42:10right? I I can't do that, right? It's 42:13too scary and it's too painful. Do you 42:14understand what I'm saying, brothers and 42:16sisters? Right? That's the problem.42:18Well, if you don't know how to surrender 42:19and you know all about God and you know 42:22the Bible and things like that, right?42:24Let's say then what happens is you then 42:28become like Satan cuz Satan had no 42:31surrender to God. But he had all the 42:32wisdom and all the blessings, right? He 42:34never surrendered to the word. If you 42:36actually look at how he moves in 42:38Ezekiel, he moves in Thessalonians, how 42:40he moves in Isaiah, you can see the 42:45pattern of Satan. Oh, he only wanted 42:48glory. Do you guys realize that's a 42:50demonic heart? And we don't even kick 42:52that out of our hearts. Well, what 42:54what's wrong with me wanting to know 42:55more about God? Yeah, that's the issue.42:57That's the heart Satan plants. Like I 43:00said, Satan is more comfortable in the 43:02church than he is in the world. Why? Cuz 43:05he was raised there. Heaven is like a 43:07church. He was raised there. He knows 43:10the ins and outs. Understand? The world 43:13is technically foreign to him. So that's 43:15why these churches are are are sending 43:18millions of people to, you know, the 43:19church sends more people to hell than 43:21they do to heaven. As crazy as that 43:23sounds, because not a lot of churches 43:24are preaching the true gospel nowadays.43:26What they're preaching is works. Isn't 43:28that that's what Satan gets off on. Just 43:30so you know, that's what he gets off. He 43:32that's what what what turns him on, if 43:34you will, cuz he's a lustful piece of 43:36garbage. What he loves is when a person 43:39comes to God and goes, "Look at my 43:42works. I was a faithful husband. I was 43:44undrained. I wasn't bitter. I was" And 43:46then God goes, "I never knew you,43:47though. Who are you? I never knew you as 43:50crazy." But God says, "I never knew you.43:52Depart from me, you who practice 43:54lawlessness." Right? Satan loves that.43:56What he wants is for you to waste 10,43:5820, 30, 40, 50, 60, 70 your whole life,44:01basically thinking you served God. And 44:03then when you meet him, he gets off off 44:05that. The crushed face that you have,44:08the crushed heart posture that you have,44:10the crushed heart posture that the 44:11Pharisees had when the whole time they 44:13thought that they were listening to 44:15Jesus and God, they were actually 44:16listening to Satan and the enemy. He 44:18loves that. Satan loves that genuinely.44:21Understand? That's why he's a deceiver.44:23You think he's going to deceive you with 44:24things that are easy to see? He's going 44:27to deceive you right where God puts you.44:29Right? Look at how he uses it against 44:31Eve. He doesn't say, "Hey, there's no 44:33God." What does he say? Are you sure 44:36that's what God said? No, I don't think 44:38God said that. I think God is scared. I 44:40think God is afraid that when you eat 44:42this fruit, you will become like him,44:43knowing good and evil. And actually, God 44:46is withholding blessings from you. He 44:48doesn't want you to be like that. What's 44:49wrong with you becoming God? What's the 44:51issue with you becoming knowledgeable 44:53and more knowledgeable? What's the 44:54problem? Right? And right there, he 44:56starts laughing at us cuz of that, we 44:59fell. Two things Eve could have done.45:01She could have said, "I don't know what 45:03the hell you're talking about. You sound 45:04right, but let me go ask my husband cuz 45:06God gave the commandment to my husband,45:07which is, you know, second Adam, Jesus 45:10Christ, technically." Or she can just go 45:12straight to God and go, "God, I don't I 45:14don't really know. um can you help me 45:16with this? Cuz he's saying some things.45:17He's trying to like I don't know. It 45:19just doesn't make sense. Like it makes 45:20sense, but it doesn't. But what does she 45:22do? She fornicates with him. Aka accepts 45:25his seed. You know, God plants seeds 45:27through his word, right? That's why we 45:28call it the seed was planted. But Satan 45:30does the same thing. He whispers, too,45:32and he plants seeds, too. But we don't 45:35know that. Amen. Make sense? It's 45:37difficult when we want to establish our 45:40thoughts and our feelings. That's why so 45:42many people will leave congregations cuz 45:44you're not established. If you're being 45:46honest, right? Not only did you leave 45:48because you know they weren't talking 45:49about God. If they keep exalting you,45:51you'll love that. You'll stay. You'll 45:54stay if they if they make you if they 45:56show you respect and they care about you 45:58because you're now being respected. But 46:00look at that at the core though. At the 46:03core of that is you being exalted, not 46:05God. Do you understand what I'm saying?46:07We don't do that here. That's why people 46:09don't like staying in here. sometimes is 46:11because they realize, "Oh, this isn't 46:13about me. This really is about Jesus 46:14Christ. It's not even about Johnny,46:16right? It's about Jesus." But people who 46:18only care about themselves,46:21they they can't listen to to that. They 46:23can't hear this. This message becomes 46:25abrasive to them. That's why Paul says,46:27"Have I become your enemy by telling you 46:29the truth?" Make sense, right? That's 46:31that's genuinely what Paul says. He 46:33says, "Are you guys mad at me because 46:35I'm I'm telling you that you are all 46:36garbage and you are foolish?" He 46:38literally calls in Galatians chapter 3,46:40"Oh ye foolish Galatians." So the 46:42chapter before he tells them, "Am I your 46:44enemy?" Is because he's telling them,46:46"Bro, you guys only care about 46:47yourselves. You want to exalt your 46:49flesh. You don't care about the spirit."46:50Brothers and sisters, can I be honest 46:52with you? That's how you feel, too. You 46:54want your flesh to be exalted. You want 46:56to be on top. You want to be that good 46:57husband, that good wife, that good mom,46:59that good dad. That's what you want. I'm 47:01a horrible leader to then show God 47:03working as the leader, then steal his 47:05shine. I don't know about you guys, but 47:07you have to make that decision in your 47:09life. That's what you have to do, right?47:11That's just the Bible. Just how it how 47:13it is. You guys, a lot of you guys 47:15struggle with validation, but you don't 47:17realize that you don't struggle with 47:19validation. What? You just said you 47:21struggle with valid, but you don't. No,47:23there's an underlying issue to your 47:24validation. Let me explain. You struggle 47:26with faith. Do you know why I say you 47:28struggle with faith? It's very simple.47:29You don't believe the man that created 47:33the heavens and the earth has validated 47:36you. And that's why you go out and seek 47:38validation from your spouse, from your 47:39kids, from the world. So, you really 47:41don't struggle with validation cuz 47:43you're validated. You struggle with 47:44believing that you're validated by God.47:46That's the problem. So, it stems from 47:49not thinking about God. Do you 47:50understand what I'm saying? Right?47:52Understand? I don't want you guys to 47:53just say things like this. Look at 47:54Christ. It's a reminder to self too.47:56Like, everyone can say that. This should 47:59bring conviction. Do you guys understand 48:01you guys? None of you guys should be 48:02either amening or going, "Dude, that's 48:04how I am. It doesn't need an echo,48:07right? We got to really really think 48:09about things deeply here. We we are like 48:11that." Understand? Make sense? I agree 48:13with you. But what you're saying, but 48:16what about the people who seriously have 48:17a good heart but were taught a false 48:19gospel? The generation of baby boomers.48:21No. So, so I don't deny that people 48:23genuinely were taught correctly or 48:26incorrectly. That that's true. What I 48:28have is where is this good heart being 48:31pulled out from? Right. So Denise, you 48:33you have to you have to present what the 48:35scripture says or you have to present 48:37what you think and feel. So right now 48:38you're giving your perspective, we we 48:41would go down rabbit holes if that's the 48:42case. When you look at Jeremiah 17:9,48:45when you look at Psalm 58:3,48:48right? Let's just read this and let's 48:49see if it matches what we're thinking.48:52The heart is deceitful above all things,48:53desperately wicked who can know it. The 48:55wicked are estranged from the womb. So,48:56they're born that way. They go as soon 48:59speaking lies. King David was always 49:02part of God. Never did he really go 49:03against God. But look at what King David 49:05says here. And then seven chapters 49:07before Psalm 51:5. What does he say?49:10Let's read this, right? Behold, I was 49:12shapen in iniquity, and in sin did my 49:14mother conceive me. So, can a person 49:16who's born sin have good a good heart?49:18Intentions and heart are two different 49:20things, by the way. No. So, then where 49:22are you drawing that from? self. You're 49:25basically saying, "I don't think I had 49:27bad intentions, though, and I never said 49:29you did." The Bible says, however, we're 49:31born that way. We don't even know the 49:32intention we actually have. This is 49:34under the pretense of people want to 49:37really love God. But again, what does 49:40the Bible say about that? Isaiah 53:6.49:43Let's read Isaiah 53:6. Do we really 49:45want to follow God and love God? Psalm 49:4814:2-3, load that up as well. And let's 49:50just look at it carefully. All we like 49:52sheep. All means everybody like sheep 49:55because we're all sheep have gone 49:56astray. We went crooked. We have turned 49:59everyone to our own way. So selfishly we 50:01turn to our own way. All of us. And the 50:02Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us 50:04all. So the only reason why we would 50:05even love God is because of Jesus 50:08Christ. The Lord looked down from heaven 50:09upon the children of men. We're all 50:11children of men. Jesus is the only one 50:13that was born of the spirit to see if 50:15there were any anybody that did good or 50:18understand and seek God. They are all 50:21everyone gone aside. They are all 50:23together become filthy. There is none 50:24that doeth with good. No, not one. Not 50:26even one. So when you think about it in 50:28this perspective, that answers your own 50:30question. But what it tells me is you 50:32don't really believe that. Do you 50:33understand what I'm saying? I think you 50:35know that. I don't think you believe it.50:36Make sense? Do I believe people have 50:38good intention? Absolutely. But good 50:40intention, as I say, is not God 50:42intention. What's good to me 50:43intentionally, even if it's for God,50:45does not validate the goodness of me.50:48Does that make sense? I can choose to 50:50try to do good but I'm not good regard I 50:53fall short right which is what the Bible 50:54says right so so asking that question is 50:57more it's more of a deeper rooted issue 50:59of like but but not everyone's bad 51:02though and um I'm not saying everybody 51:05is the word of God is saying it 51:07[laughter]51:08I'm if you're willing to go against that 51:10that's fine I don't think you are but we 51:12have to think like I don't think 51:14everybody's blatantly evil I don't think 51:15babies are born evil that's but that's 51:17Johnny's standard are you guys going to 51:19agree with me just cuz I say it. No, you 51:22better agree with what the Bible says,51:24right? That's how you know we're 51:25heavenly servants. Make sense? I don't 51:28make you guys agree with me. I I want 51:30you guys to study to then check the 51:33scripture to then agree with the 51:34scripture. That's how you know. But you 51:37guys want to listen to yourself, what 51:40you think, what you feel. Do you 51:43understand what I'm saying? Make sense?51:45Sure. And I answered all of that 51:47earlier, right? I see what you're 51:49saying. I'm not going against I agree 51:50with the Bible. Problem is, there are 51:52still a lot of Southern Baptist churches 51:53that are teaching works based salvation.51:55So, you're not believe the Bible. Then,51:57let me explain why. What I just spent 52:00the past hour talking about, which is 52:02that Jesus Christ, he knows exactly 52:04what's going on. So, can he snap his 52:07finger and stop these people, these 52:09churches from teaching? Of course. But 52:12why doesn't he? Have we ever thought 52:13about that? No. We try to make excuses,52:16but no, they're they're they they're 52:18misled. Of course, and God says that too 52:21in James chapter 3, do not be many 52:23teachers because of Right. But [snorts]52:25we have to think about it. I'm really 52:27glad that God doesn't stop these 52:28churches. Wait, what? Because do you 52:30agree that they're teaching evil works 52:32based salvation? Of course. Of course.52:34But if he has to stop evil, he has to 52:37stop all none of us, if that's the case,52:39would make it to heaven. So, I'm glad 52:41that he's allowing that. See, that's how 52:42you have to see the perspective here.52:44Instead of judging other people, you 52:46have to realize, I receive grace. That's 52:49the only reason why. But there's pride 52:51inside of us. There's no way that you 52:53can't see this unless it's pride. Do you 52:55understand? Because we're literally the 52:57same as these people. We were once from 52:58those churches, right? How can we then 53:01say instead, if we had faith and we 53:03thought about Jesus, hey, I was once in 53:05those churches, but look at me. I'm at 53:07core of the heart now. I'm learning. I'm 53:09guiding. I'm being guided. How come they 53:12can't be? This is the problem though.53:15And people who can't see that is because 53:17they think that they have faith. They 53:19think that they're studied. They're not.53:21Right? Deep in the core of your heart,53:22you probably think that that you're 53:24studied and you believe. And that's why 53:26I said you don't. Because if you did,53:29the reaction cannot be this. It would be 53:31it would it would go something along the 53:32lines of this. Hey Johnny, you know 53:33what's really crazy is I used to think 53:36that uh I was just better than these 53:39Southern Baptists. I see that they have 53:41good intention, but good intention is 53:42not God intention as per Psalm 14:2 to3 53:45as per Jeremiah 17:9. And I'm so very 53:48blessed that I was part of those 53:50congregations, but yet God saved me out 53:52of it. And you know what's even more 53:54better, Johnny, after hearing what 53:55you're saying, you're right. When I 53:56think about Jesus's heart and God's 53:58heart, he would completely lead them 54:00just like he led me out. And people need 54:03to become sinners. People need to see 54:05that there's false teaching to be able 54:07to differentiate what is real and what 54:09is false. Right? As you just had 54:10mentioned, Johnny earlier that Satan did 54:13not see any evil. That's why he couldn't 54:15understand how evil he was. He still to 54:17this day doesn't think he's evil. He 54:19thinks he's doing the right stuff.54:20Rightfully so, because he deserves the 54:22throne till this day. That's how he's 54:24operating positionally. Man,54:25[clears throat] you know what? It's so 54:26true. I'm so thankful that God will also 54:30save those people. In fact, that could 54:32be part of my ministry. I can go and I 54:34can preach the gospel to these people.54:36But if you have the heart that you have,54:37you cannot even reach one soul like 54:39that. If you don't, if do you understand 54:41what I'm saying? Because the heart is is 54:43is going to be they're evil. They're 54:45freaking horrible. Now it becomes a 54:46divide and there's a holier than now 54:48energy. No, no, no, no. We're all 54:50sinners in front of God, right? But 54:52that's why he sent Jesus and laid the 54:54iniquity of us onto his right thing. But 54:57you know, that's why, guys, and I'm not 54:59saying this to to throw shots or be 55:01disrespectful. You can be in this 55:02congregation and still not know the 55:04heart of the servant. You can be in this 55:06congregation and still question the 55:08heart of the servant. And you can be in 55:10here for years and you still not 55:12understand what salvation truly is. It's 55:15not just I'm righteous, I'm perfected 55:17because that's for you, too. I'm 55:19righteous, I'm perfected, I get to go to 55:20heaven. That's only one part of this the 55:22equation. There's another part that's 55:24called surrender and spiritual life.55:25That's God talks about this all 55:27throughout Jeremiah, all throughout 55:29Isaiah. Jeremiah is known as the weeping 55:31prophet. He had zero disciples. I don't 55:34know about y'all, but if you're 55:35preaching and no one gets saved, you 55:37will be crying, too. That's why he cried 55:39so much. He even went against God. Curse 55:42my day. He did the same thing Job did.55:43Curse my day that I was born. Why the 55:45hell did you choose me when nobody even 55:47listens to me? Nobody even cares about 55:49me. Right? But when you look at Jeremiah 55:51now, he's dead wrong. How many of us got 55:54saved through Jeremiah's book? A lot of 55:56us. Jeremiah 31:134 gets quoted by the 55:59great Paul, right? So, he didn't have it 56:01right then when he saw God said, "I'm 56:03going to take you and then you're going 56:04to see, right? The great poets, the 56:06great disciples, a lot of them quoted 56:08Jeremiah, specifically Paul, right?" And 56:11so, so again, he didn't want Jeremiah 56:14cuz Jeremiah struggled with that too. He 56:15wanted disciples. God said, "I'm not 56:17going to give that to you and I'm not 56:18going to let you enjoy that because I 56:20love you so much." So in Song of 56:21Solomon, right, whether whether the 56:24trees, you know, but and they have fruit 56:26or not, I will praise thee. He learned 56:29in his heart, too, man, from authors 56:31like Isaiah, all these people. Wow. I I 56:34don't need to see anything. I need to be 56:37able to believe everything. He saw that,56:40right? He gained a massive no like 56:43massive revelation, which is I don't 56:46need to see. I just have to believe that 56:49through these books they will touch many 56:51many people and when you look at it now 56:53I would say millions of people were 56:54saved by Jeremiah. Could he calculate 56:56that the way he did with his little 56:58finite brain? Absolutely not. That's why 57:00he would cry cuz he couldn't understand.57:02Make sense? So it's this type of thing.57:05Now I teach this is because like I said 57:07so many people do that right? So many of 57:09you guys have been in here have 57:11resentment towards me because I spoke 57:12about the gospel, right? Which which 57:15which which challenged you to be honest,57:18right? Other people get frustrated about 57:20whatever other things, right? But at the 57:23end of the day, just because you're 57:25sitting in core of the heart, just 57:26because you sit at other our other 57:28churches does not mean salvation just 57:30imputes unto you. True biblical 57:32salvation, guys, is two things. Knowing 57:35that you're perfected and righteous and 57:36the blood of Jesus Christ is enough. But 57:39even on the salvation side on living 57:41spiritual life, it's also that Jesus is 57:44enough. Make sense, right? That's what 57:46it is. That's also what we have to 57:48realize is if you don't get anything 57:50else from here on out, that's enough.57:53I'm not saying to be crazy and force 57:55yourself, right? But you have to be 57:57honest like, yeah, if God gives me what 58:00he gives me, that's enough. That's more 58:01than enough. Amen. more than enough.58:04Unfortunately, this message will get 58:08will fall on dead ears or it will make 58:10people frustrated because of one thing.58:12You don't want Jesus to be enough and 58:14you don't care. You want to be enough.58:16That's why this is difficult to hear.58:18This is actually very freeing. Wow,58:20you're right. Jesus is enough. I got to 58:22stop trying to do this. But the truth 58:24is, no, I want to be enough. I've had 58:26people judge me my past. I've had people 58:28say that my past was fraudulent. I've 58:30had people say that my past, you know,58:32that I'm I'm a false preacher, that the 58:34truth is I didn't I'm just putting on an 58:37act, right? In terms of like, you know,58:40one guy spoke up about me before who 58:42who, you know, I've seen this comment 58:44before where, you know, I shot at their 58:46house and I, you know, did stuff like 58:47that and on multiple occasions and he 58:50literally said, "Don't look at Johnny 58:52and how peaceful he looks. Bro, bro's 58:54fake. Like, he's just using Christianity 58:55to make money, right? Cuz he knew." And 58:58then I have other full on threads about 59:01me. Oh, he's a fraud. Look, there's 59:03photos of him. There's this. There's all 59:04this. So, which one is it? Right? Am I a 59:07gang member who shot at this guy's house 59:09or am I someone who, right? Am I not? It 59:12can't be both. But let me explain to you 59:14guys why people struggle with even 59:17either or, right? Is because in their 59:19hearts they think of Johnny as he needs 59:23to be molded to what I think and feel.59:26understand what I'm saying, right? He 59:28needs to mold to what I think and feel.59:30Amen. If he doesn't mold to what I'm 59:32feeling and what I see, then 59:34respectfully, he's out the door, right?59:37That's what it is. Amen. And some of you 59:39guys don't even know this cuz you have 59:40the right heart posture. We don't even 59:42we're not focused on that. We're focused 59:43on the gospel and salvation, right? But 59:45most of us are like this. Now, other 59:48people, they're not. They will actually 59:50search things up, right? Why? Why do 59:52people do that? Let me explain. because 59:54they're trying to mold things to 59:57themselves. It's always the people that 59:59get either chastised or corrected. I 1:00:01noticed that. Exactly. They kind of want 1:00:03you to be wrong. Make sense? So, what 1:00:06they do is and and and I'm going to be 1:00:07honest, you guys are all like that. You 1:00:09guys have all done that where you sit 1:00:11and you think, man, I don't want to be 1:00:13wrong. I need to find some dirt on this 1:00:16person. It wasn't with me, but with 1:00:17other people. Make sense, brothers and 1:00:19sisters? It's with other people. Make 1:00:21sense? Right? So it's this type of 1:00:23thing, right guys? But it's deeper than 1:00:25that though, right? Someone who's lying 1:00:27wouldn't have a problem with being 1:00:28questioned. Not necessarily, right? It's 1:00:31more of heart posture. So for example,1:00:34you know, if I get into it with Jeremy 1:00:37and let's say I have a heart posture 1:00:39that he's trying to snake me from my 1:00:41business, right? I'm sure if I was like,1:00:43"Hey, bro, are you trying to snake me?"1:00:45He would get offended. Why? Because of 1:00:48everything that he's poured into the 1:00:49business. Does that make sense? Right?1:00:52like that that doesn't make like if your 1:00:54wife is sitting there right and she's 1:00:56been loyal to you ladies and your man 1:00:58comes to you and goes right hey I know 1:01:02you've been cheating on me I seen this 1:01:05this and that ladies would be like oh 1:01:06it's okay you'd be like wait what so you 1:01:10mean to tell me me raising your kids 1:01:12staying home doing this doing that so 1:01:15would that mean and would they be right 1:01:16if the and then the guy goes well if I'm 1:01:18questioning you you wouldn't be getting 1:01:20frustrated it's like What? Nah. Why 1:01:23would you even think to question 1:01:24somebody who's done nothing but support 1:01:28you? In the same stroke, brothers and 1:01:29sisters, when I'm sitting here and I'm 1:01:31preaching the gospel to you guys and all 1:01:33I ever do is preach the gospel. Make 1:01:35sense? It says more about other people 1:01:37trying to do other things. Does that 1:01:40make sense? Right? So, don't let your 1:01:41trauma leak out. Right? That's another 1:01:43thing that I noticed with people is that 1:01:45they think like every man is the same.1:01:48So, they're like, "Oh, he's like that."1:01:50No, understand. I'm not the one who hurt 1:01:52you. Straight up. Right. So, we have to 1:01:54realize that, right? That a lot of women 1:01:56and men too, they have a hatred for one 1:01:58another. Oh, this girl, she's a hoe. So,1:02:00everyone else is a hoe. Like, that's not 1:02:02true, though. There are real godly women 1:02:04like you guys in here, right? And and 1:02:06women, too. Oh, all guys are like that.1:02:08Oh, he's got tattoos. He's for sure he's 1:02:09a narcissist. For sure he's a 1:02:11manipulator. For sure he slept with 1:02:12multiple women. It's like, yeah, but 1:02:14I've been molested. Like, what are you 1:02:15talking about by a woman? Right? It's 1:02:18like, how do we You know what I'm 1:02:19saying? like how do we reconcile that?1:02:22Right? So again, it's it's this this 1:02:25type of thing of like people just make 1:02:27their own mindsets that way. So I want 1:02:30you guys to understand that there's a 1:02:31lot of people who they have this hidden 1:02:33vendetta of other people. Understand?1:02:36And that's what they focus on more than 1:02:38anything. Everything can be explained,1:02:40right? If you focus on Jesus Christ, but 1:02:43the problem is they don't want to,1:02:44right? It's [clears throat] just kind of 1:02:46how it is.1:02:46>> Guys, our live events are getting super 1:02:48packed. We genuinely need some help. So,1:02:51we're looking for a live events 1:02:53producer. So, I'm going to be completely 1:02:54honest about this. There's a lot of 1:02:56moving pieces from booking a church,1:02:58finding the vendors, scanning in the 1:03:00people, the volunteers, the merch. Like,1:03:02there's so many moving pieces that I'm 1:03:04just going to say right now, we're 1:03:05looking for a professional. We're 1:03:06looking for someone who has done this 1:03:07before. If you're watching and you're 1:03:08like, "Oh, I think I can help their live 1:03:10events." Honestly, you're probably not 1:03:11the pick. But if you're watching and 1:03:13you're saying, "Oh, I've done this 1:03:14before. I've thrown live events. I've 1:03:15even maybe worked in a church space."1:03:17Please reach out. We're looking for a 1:03:18killer, someone who can really 1:03:20coordinate everything. It's a ton of 1:03:21moving pieces. At the end of the day,1:03:23it's nothing too hard or complicated,1:03:24but it's a lot of details, a lot of 1:03:26moving pieces. And for us to be doing 1:03:28this every single month, once a month or 1:03:29even more, it's almost impossible 1:03:31because we each run different branches 1:03:32of the business. So, for us to do these 1:03:34ourselves, it's becoming unscalable. So,1:03:36if you think, you know, you know, I can 1:03:38come in, take this over, I'll learn from 1:03:40them, we'll teach you everything, and 1:03:41you think I can take the information and 1:03:43go throw them live events every single 1:03:45month in a different city for the rest 1:03:46of the next 10 years. If you're hearing 1:03:48this and you think that's you, please 1:03:50reach out. We pay super competitively.1:03:52We have honestly a really good pay for 1:03:53you guys cuz we really want to do this.1:03:55Live events are super important to 1:03:56Johnny and all of us and all of you 1:03:58guys. So, we want to keep doing them. We 1:04:00want to keep making them super amazing.1:04:01And that's why honestly, we're looking 1:04:03for a killer. like it. We're not really 1:04:05going to hire anyone to test them out or 1:04:06try to train. We're looking for someone 1:04:08who has done this before and is ready to 1:04:09do it for us and we're going to pay you 1:04:11very handsomely for it. So, please reach 1:04:13out. The best way to do it, there's a 1:04:15link in the description. There's a job 1:04:16application that details everything and 1:04:18the pay. So, please fill it out. Please 1:04:20pay attention to the instructions.1:04:22There's a lot of instructions that if 1:04:23you don't pay attention to them, we're 1:04:24not even going to look at your 1:04:25application. So, cutting to the chase,1:04:27we're looking for a live event killer.1:04:29If you are that person or if you know 1:04:31that person, if someone at your church 1:04:32maybe throws the events, if you want to 1:04:34recommend it to a friend or a family 1:04:35member, we want an awesome beast live 1:04:38events producer. The last thing I'll add 1:04:40is you're going to be handling 1:04:41everything from thousand to 5,000 person 1:04:44live events. We do prison ministry,1:04:46overseas trips. We want to do we have 1:04:48big plans to take Core of the Heart 1:04:50Global and you would be the lynch pin 1:04:52that controls all of that. So, with that 1:04:55being said, again, like Aaron said, I'm 1:04:57only harping it. Again, there's a lot of 1:04:59people that are applying because you 1:05:00have a heart for the mission, which is 1:05:02great, but only because of past 1:05:05experiences. We have a very particular 1:05:07vision of what this person needs to be.1:05:09We're also being advised by people that 1:05:11have done this at extremely high level 1:05:13who are helping us vet the applications.1:05:15So, it's going to be a very like select 1:05:19group of people that are looking at your 1:05:21application. So, please do not be 1:05:22offended if we don't pick you. Just 1:05:24understand we have a lot of input and we 1:05:27are very specific on what we need. So,1:05:29we're very appreciative if you try, but 1:05:31please again understand that we've we've 1:05:33gone through a lot of ups and downs to 1:05:35understand what we need or want.1:05:36>> So, if you want to apply, the link is in 1:05:38the description. And also for anyone 1:05:39else still listening, if you want to 1:05:40come to these awesome live events, text 1:05:42in afters to 323-6133577 1:05:47for free live events in a city near you 1:05:49>> or download Core of the Heart daily.1:05:51>> I genuinely want to thank you guys for 1:05:54tuning in and just supporting Core of 1:05:55the Heart. Without you guys, we 1:05:58obviously we wouldn't be able to go 1:05:59global and so we are looking for that 1:06:02that perfect piece, right, to uh take us 1:06:05global and help us with the live events.1:06:07So, if that's you, we really do 1:06:09appreciate you guys for for applying and 1:06:12um hope to work with you guys soon.1:06:13>> So, why I say this and why I'm bringing 1:06:15this up is there's a lot of people who 1:06:19it ties back into what sister Denise was 1:06:21saying that they have a intention inside 1:06:24of their heart to do X, Y, and Z. The 1:06:27issue is good intention doesn't come 1:06:30from God always, right? Because if God 1:06:34says we're not good, then no one's good.1:06:36Like you guys for example, what is the 1:06:38worst thing? Like let's say the worst 1:06:41thing for you, the worst type of sin is 1:06:43probably messing with like innocence,1:06:45right? Or like killing somebody. That's 1:06:47probably the worst sin, right? Some 1:06:49people think lying, sure, those are 1:06:51evil, but like there's levels to this,1:06:52right? But did you know in front of God,1:06:54it's all the same. Like think about it,1:06:56though. A child molester is going to go 1:06:58to the same place as a narcissist. And 1:07:01where is that? Hell. There's no levels 1:07:03to it. They just all go there. Make 1:07:05sense? You guys understand, right? But 1:07:07why is it that we think that? That's my 1:07:09point is because we put our intent into 1:07:13things and we don't even realize that's 1:07:15us becoming God. When you look at James 1:07:184:12, it's so it's so clear what the 1:07:21Bible says about this. But we don't 1:07:23care. What do we care about? Our own 1:07:25heart posture. Right? Some of you guys 1:07:27are awfully quiet in here cuz you know 1:07:29what I'm saying is it's about you,1:07:31right? But look, there is one lawgiver.1:07:32the one who created the laws, which is 1:07:34God, who is able to save. He's the only 1:07:36one that can save. And he's also the 1:07:38only one who can destroy. He can cast 1:07:39your your your your life into hell 1:07:41forever and destroy you. So, he's saying 1:07:42it. Who are you to judge? But what do we 1:07:45think? But I could judge, though. What 1:07:46are you talking about? I I I'm right.1:07:48No, makes sense. Like, what are you 1:07:50talking about? You can't judge. There's 1:07:52one lawgiver, one judge, basically who 1:07:54created the laws. One who saves the 1:07:56savior. You're not the savior. And one 1:07:58who destroys. God is also a destroyer.1:08:00He can destroy things. He can just he's 1:08:01going to destroy Satan. So how can you 1:08:04reconcile those things? Amen. Without 1:08:07understanding the context, right?1:08:09Exactly. That's what I say. Sinners 1:08:10judging other sinners for sinning 1:08:12differently. That's the problem with 1:08:13people. Right. Now, there's a difference 1:08:15between judgment and observation.1:08:17Absolutely. Right. Calling a spade a 1:08:20spade is important. Like if a if a 1:08:21person is a pathological liar and you 1:08:23call them a pathological liar, that's 1:08:24not a judgment. That's the truth. Right.1:08:27So that's obviously different. But what 1:08:28I'm talking about is when you're sitting 1:08:30there and you're not doing that, you're 1:08:32just running off of emotions. Whether 1:08:33it's your trauma, whether it's something 1:08:35that led you to judge based off of 1:08:37something that you think and feel or 1:08:39that you're better, right? Like I get a 1:08:42lot of comments back then. I used to 1:08:43have my youngsters come on with me,1:08:45right? I don't know if you guys remember 1:08:47that, but I would let people on and I 1:08:49wouldn't um live stream to multiple 1:08:50play. I would just be on Instagram and I 1:08:52would let them jump in and they would be 1:08:54literally like drunk, smoking weed,1:08:56flashing guns, throwing gang signs on my 1:08:59thing. And one time I remember somebody 1:09:01wrote like, "Hey, I mess with you,1:09:04Johnny, but like I don't know why you 1:09:06wouldn't tell your friends to stop doing 1:09:08those types of things, you know?" Right?1:09:10And I remember just kind of laughing to 1:09:13myself like, "Wow, these people really 1:09:15think that number one, I can sit there 1:09:17and just tell like like a meth addict to 1:09:19stop doing meth." Like as if I can just 1:09:22address them to say no because I'm big 1:09:24homie. They will maybe in front of me 1:09:26not do it, but that doesn't do anything.1:09:28They're still going to do it, right?1:09:30They're still going to do it. Make 1:09:32sense? When you think about it, you 1:09:33know, I was like thinking to respond to 1:09:35this person, but I didn't. I I actually 1:09:37didn't. When I looked at my friends, I 1:09:39realized something. The only reason why 1:09:42I would be angry at my friends is 1:09:44because one thing, the Bible says that 1:09:46we all have gone astray. They're living 1:09:48out technically what the Bible is 1:09:50saying. But I don't believe that or I 1:09:52have my expectation or my trauma. I 1:09:55think I know what's best for them, of 1:09:57course, because I I was them. I led 1:10:00them. I bailed them out in many 1:10:01situations. But if that was the case,1:10:05why wouldn't God work on my timing? It 1:10:07means I'm wrong. It means that the way 1:10:10that they are right now is very, very in 1:10:14line with what God is trying to do. Make 1:10:17sense, right? That's what God is saying.1:10:19He's saying, "Johnny, I will take care 1:10:22of them." Do you believe? Your husband 1:10:24who's not listening, your wife, your 1:10:27kids, in my timing, I'll reconcile it 1:10:30back to me. Do you believe me? How can I 1:10:32tell my homies to believe when I don't 1:10:34even believe? Make sense? I'm telling 1:10:37other people to believe. I'm telling my 1:10:39homies to believe. And yet, I don't 1:10:40believe that God will change them in his 1:10:42timing. I need them to do it in my 1:10:43timing, which is unbelief at the end of 1:10:45the day. At the core of it all. Amen.1:10:48Right? So, that's what it comes down to 1:10:50at the end of the day. Speaking on sin,1:10:52what did Jesus mean by a greater sin in 1:10:54John 19:11? I was a little bit confused 1:10:56on that. Right? You're confused cuz you 1:10:57don't know the context of it. Make 1:10:59sense? So, who is he speaking to right 1:11:02now? He's speaking to Pontis Pilot. It's 1:11:05in John 19. You just right quoted John 1:11:0819:11, right? He tells him, you have no 1:11:10power against me unless I give it to 1:11:12you, right? And that's given to you from 1:11:14above, right? And he's saying the one 1:11:17that delivered me has the greater sin.1:11:19But because we read things so 1:11:21transactionally, when you look at things 1:11:24as a greater sin, literally means God 1:11:28has put the greatest sin on top of Jesus 1:11:31Christ. That's it. If you read it black 1:11:33and white, that's what it means. Greater 1:11:35as in more sin, right? [clears throat]1:11:38Amaria onto Jesus. He has the greater 1:11:41sin. Meaning God is the one that takes 1:11:44care of all the sin. Make sense? The 1:11:46thing is when I'm speaking about 1:11:48something, asking the question is okay,1:11:50but this type of question in the middle 1:11:53of what I'm saying can be like a wrench 1:11:56into what I'm saying. Make sense? Right?1:11:58Although we're speaking about sin,1:12:00there's [clears throat] this time and 1:12:01place where when you question, it's okay 1:12:03to question, but there's a there's a 1:12:05timing behind it. And so, a lot of 1:12:08people who aren't studied, that's why I 1:12:09said you guys have to learn to be able 1:12:11to think about other people, right? Cuz 1:12:13this question can then make other people 1:12:14go, "Oh my gosh, so not all sin is sin.1:12:17Oh, that's true. Cuz blasphemy is the 1:12:19only sin that's un Oh, and then without 1:12:21us even realizing it, we had just made 1:12:24somebody else spiral straight into 1:12:26something that they didn't need to,1:12:27right? So, Pontis Pilate thinks that 1:12:31he's the judge, which ironically if we 1:12:34if we heard what I was saying would 1:12:36completely make it would it would make 1:12:38sense, right? He thought that he was the 1:12:41judge. He thought he can judge Jesus's 1:12:43sin. He had the power to save Jesus or 1:12:46not. That's the greater sin. You think 1:12:48you're God. You're not God. God has the 1:12:51greatest sin. He's carrying the sin.1:12:54He's going to wash it for you. That's 1:12:55the context here. But people who don't 1:12:57know and if I don't answer let's say or 1:13:01I skip the question and someone reads 1:13:02that they'll spiral right away.1:13:05Understand? Right? Sometimes you guys 1:13:06don't realize your own questions lead 1:13:08other people to spiral. Have you noticed 1:13:10that? Some of you guys have read other 1:13:12people's questions here and go, "Huh,1:13:13that kind of makes sense." And then you 1:13:15start to spiral. But God says confusion 1:13:17is not from God. Right? Amen. So I think 1:13:20a lot of the times it comes down to 1:13:23Right. We have to think, right? See,1:13:25see, look. And then this is what 1:13:26happens. Look, but didn't Pontis have 1:13:27the ability to stop the crucifixion? You 1:13:29see, but look look what happens, right?1:13:31Now it becomes this. Now it's it's all 1:13:34now we shift from that to logical now.1:13:36Make sense, right? Didn't didn't he 1:13:38though? I mean, didn't he? Yeah. So then 1:13:40so then let's follow that rabbit trail.1:13:42Yeah, he did. So Jesus didn't have 1:13:45authority [snorts] to be honest. Pontis 1:13:47Pilate did, right? And if Pontis Pilate 1:13:49had authority, then Jesus is a liar.1:13:51Then truthfully, all of Christianity is 1:13:53a lie. Let's let's agree with that. No.1:13:56No. Let's do that. Right. So, legally,1:13:58does he have the power? Sure. But what 1:14:01is Jesus saying? That power doesn't 1:14:02start with you, bro. Relax. That power 1:14:05was given to you. And you truly don't 1:14:07have power cuz God would take it. You 1:14:09don't think that God would stop.1:14:10Understand? Make sense? So again, why do 1:14:13people think this way? Cuz they don't 1:14:14think about other people. Why even think 1:14:16to ask this question? Cuz they don't 1:14:18think about other people. They just 1:14:20think about themselves. What? It's just 1:14:21a question. understand what I'm saying,1:14:23right? Very selfish, by the way. You 1:14:25shouldn't be happy that you got the 1:14:27unlock. You should be convicted.1:14:30Make sense, right? [clears throat]1:14:31That's what people don't understand,1:14:33right? But they just want the unlock.1:14:34That's what they want. Again, very 1:14:36selfish, right? Sometimes I I I I'll be 1:14:38honest with you guys. I contemplate 1:14:40whether or not I should do these main 1:14:41stages. Sometimes I think about it like,1:14:43am I really creating a generation who 1:14:46just wants to know about God but don't 1:14:48actually know God? I do really think 1:14:50about that. That's something that I 1:14:52genuinely struggle with. Make sense?1:14:54Every unlock is like your heart breaking 1:14:56open for good. Again, that's what they 1:14:57think. Even though the servant just said 1:15:00it's not, but you see what I'm saying,1:15:02right? That's how people are. Cuz to 1:15:04them, that's what [clears throat] it is.1:15:06But I'm matching it up with scripture,1:15:08though, right? It's easy for the 1:15:10congregation to say things like that 1:15:11because you're not the shepherd. You 1:15:13don't care. These people on on Discord 1:15:16hop off and they struggle and that's on 1:15:18them to you, but not to me. That's the 1:15:20difference, right? Make sense? Like like 1:15:23it's like when people work and they 1:15:25complain about the CEO, right? I used to 1:15:27do the same. You work, you're like, "Oh,1:15:29they're so they're so this." But the CEO 1:15:31takes the biggest risk. That's why he 1:15:33takes home the biggest the lion share of 1:15:35things. Understand what I'm saying?1:15:37Because they have the most like live 1:15:39paycheck to paycheck. That's actually 1:15:41easier. Trust me, guys. I I run a 1:15:43company technically with 38 employees.1:15:4638 different people that can mess up. 38 1:15:49different people that sometimes don't 1:15:50feel like working. 38 people that clash 1:15:52with other people. 38 people that you 1:15:54have to gain their hearts. 38 people 1:15:55that will be late on certain things 1:15:57which pushes everything back. Do you 1:15:58understand what I'm saying? Make sense?1:16:00Right? It's not as easy as what people 1:16:02think. And then I have your guys's 1:16:04problems to also right kind of like deal 1:16:06through. And then the people I mentor,1:16:08it's a lot, right? But people who don't 1:16:10walk that, they don't care. What do they 1:16:12think? I have questions and they need to 1:16:14be answered. Do you understand what I'm 1:16:16saying? What do they care about? You 1:16:17didn't do this for me, so f you. Do you 1:16:19understand? Like that's how it is. So 1:16:22you you guys have to learn if you can't 1:16:24claim to love Jesus Christ if you don't 1:16:26think about the things again. Intention 1:16:29doesn't matter though. Do you guys 1:16:30understand what I'm saying? It doesn't 1:16:32matter. Right? So if I don't intend to 1:16:34shoot somebody, but I end up shooting 1:16:36them and killing them, do they not die?1:16:38Like let's say I shot someone in the 1:16:39face, but I didn't intend to. Negligence 1:16:41discharge, boom, gun goes off. They 1:16:43didn't die, right? Because I didn't 1:16:44intend to. No, you're still going to 1:16:46prison and you're still gonna There's 1:16:47still consequences to this, right? It's 1:16:49the same thing. That's why I think we've 1:16:51been tricked by intention too in this 1:16:53world. Make sense, guys? That's the 1:16:55problem here. But good people, they 1:16:58can't acknowledge this part. You know 1:16:59why? Cuz what happens then is it makes 1:17:01you a bad person and they can't 1:17:02acknowledge that. That's the issue.1:17:05There's nothing wrong with being bad 1:17:06because you're born bad. Challenges the 1:17:08identity you've built on the false 1:17:10identity that I'm a good person.1:17:11Understand what I'm saying? Even this 1:17:13this this this this sentence of I want 1:17:15to grow closer to God. Let's say, right,1:17:18guys? Amen. That in itself is also 1:17:20selfish, right? Can I ask you guys an 1:17:22honest question? And and really think 1:17:24about it. And the answer to this is no,1:17:26but I I'm going to ask you and I'm going 1:17:28to see how much you guys based off of 1:17:30your intentions and your feelings,1:17:32right? But or how much you you interpret 1:17:35it as a word. Watch. How many of you 1:17:37guys today, if Jesus just stopped your 1:17:39blessings, every blessing that you've 1:17:40had, he just lets you live, but you 1:17:43don't have any blessings anymore? How 1:17:45many of you guys would still want to get 1:17:47closer to God? Would you still love God?1:17:49I would say no. And I'll prove it. I'll 1:17:52prove it to you. Why? The what the Bible 1:17:54says about that, right? When you look at 1:17:55Job and he had things taken away from 1:17:58him. You guys tend to just read the 1:18:00first chapter, but you don't read verses 1:18:02like Job 27:4. You don't read certain 1:18:05things like, you know, without the the 1:18:07chapters, right? You have to read the 1:18:08context of Job. Let me explain something 1:18:10to you guys. You're sitting here, right?1:18:13And you're thinking about, you know, you 1:18:16would love God, the ones who said yes,1:18:18no matter what. You wouldn't give up 1:18:19faith, let's say, right? You wouldn't do 1:18:21those things. You would still be 1:18:23thankful for him if he stopped all of 1:18:24your blessings. But you're not even but 1:18:27you question him dayto-day. You don't 1:18:29obey him every single day. You still 1:18:30struggle in sin. and you make that 1:18:32you're in your flesh even though he does 1:18:34give you everything every day. So, do 1:18:36you really think if he stops the 1:18:37pipeline of blessings now that somehow 1:18:40you're going to sit there and bless him 1:18:41more and be like, "Thank you, God." No 1:18:43way. You complain even now when he 1:18:45doesn't give you the things that you 1:18:46need? What makes you think when he fully 1:18:48doesn't give you everything, you're just 1:18:50going to be like, "I love you. I love 1:18:51you so much." Yeah, right. There's no 1:18:52way, right? Solomon was the same. Are we 1:18:56better than Solomon? He was wiser than 1:18:58us, more richer than us, and he still 1:18:59wasn't thankful to God.1:19:01Job was the same. Way stronger than us.1:19:05King David, Elijah, a prophet was like,1:19:08"Let me just die solely because one 1:19:10girl, Jezebel, was like, I'm going to 1:19:13chase you and hurt you." Right? So like 1:19:16if you think about that, we we think so 1:19:18highly of ourselves, but the Bible is 1:19:21like, "You don't know yourself and I 1:19:23stature. You are dust. You're dirt.1:19:26You'll return to dirt like a dog returns 1:19:28to his vomit." He knows that. But we 1:19:31don't know that. That's the problem. He 1:19:33says it in Psalm. I know your stature. I 1:19:35know that your form, you're made out of 1:19:36dirt. You without me, you can do 1:19:38nothing. Because you know what? Dirt is 1:19:40so amazing. Dirt, if you just leave it 1:19:42there, it literally does nothing. But 1:19:44when it receives a seed, it produces 1:19:46life. When it receives water, right, it 1:19:48it waters life. Make sense, right? It's 1:19:52really cool. It can't do anything on 1:19:55itself. So that's why he created us out 1:19:58of dirt to show us you're the lowest 1:19:59substance. You can't do anything. Make 1:20:02sense, right? So even this person,1:20:04right? Sorry, I will brother. I already 1:20:06lost everything 3 years ago. Seven 1:20:07surgeries literally God took everything 1:20:09from me. Almost alive myself 3 years 1:20:11after that. I'm living every second of 1:20:12my life in gratitude. I love God with 1:20:14all my soul. You do? So turtle, you love 1:20:17God with all of your soul, right? Are 1:20:19you sure? Where are you basing that off 1:20:22of experience? That's what it seems 1:20:24like. That's what it seems like. Do you 1:20:26know what it means to love Jesus 1:20:28scripturally? Remember, this isn't me 1:20:30saying it. What does it mean to love 1:20:32Jesus Christ? Don't get quiet now. Amen.1:20:35Right? But [clears throat] let's think 1:20:36about that. This is the issue with 1:20:38feelings based up. Well, I feel like I 1:20:40love God, too. And you feel like you 1:20:42love God. Where does center line? We got 1:20:43to draw the line somewhere. Pull up the 1:20:45scripture, Ella. What does it mean to 1:20:47love God? John 14:15. Read it carefully 1:20:49with me. If you love me, keep my 1:20:52commandments. Now, let me ask you 1:20:53something. Have you kept all of God's 1:20:55commandments? Therefore, you're not a 1:20:56sinner because you've kept all the 1:20:57commandments. There you go. Has any of 1:20:59you guys kept the commandments 1:21:00perfectly? I'm just curious. So then 1:21:02what are you basing your love off of 1:21:04then? Probably your own feelings. Would 1:21:06you agree? Feelings that come from the 1:21:09heart. Amen. So that's why I said the 1:21:12thing about scripture is that it it's 1:21:14it's 4:12. It's very piercing. It's not 1:21:17like I'm trying to make sense, right?1:21:20Amen. Yuli, please don't have darkness 1:21:22towards me. He says, "Genuinely, you 1:21:24know, I know there's things you don't 1:21:25agree with with with what I say, but 1:21:27we're discerned here. You know, sister 1:21:29Julie, I hope you can really think about 1:21:31that, right? Respect the servant as we 1:21:34understand what's going on." Amen. You 1:21:36can't see the heart posture. That's the 1:21:38problem. Amen. Um, he literally said,1:21:40"Sorry." Why does he have to s say 1:21:42sorry? Cuz he's going against what I'm 1:21:44saying. He's saying respectfully and and 1:21:47it's nice. He's being respectful. What 1:21:49you're saying is not true. I love God.1:21:51That's what he's saying. Understand?1:21:54Make sense? All right. Let me see. So,1:21:56uh, where is it? Hebrews 4:12. For the 1:21:58word of God is quick and powerful and 1:22:01sharper than any two-edged sword,1:22:03piercing even to the dividing of the sun 1:22:04of a soul and spirit and of the joints 1:22:06and the moral. So, when you think about 1:22:07this, what does this mean, brothers and 1:22:10sisters? The word it pierces. Why?1:22:13Because it will divide and discern the 1:22:16thoughts and the intents of the heart.1:22:18Make sense? But turtle that it's not 1:22:20about me being right. Make sense? The 1:22:22fact that you sit there and you say that 1:22:25proves the heart posture that you can't 1:22:27sense right what you're even feeling and 1:22:30saying. If you guys think I'm only 1:22:32speaking based off of my experience and 1:22:34my perspective. Don't project onto me. I 1:22:36don't do that guys. I may give my 1:22:39testimony. Sure. But it's always weaved 1:22:41with scripture. If you go off of your 1:22:43feelings and emotions respectfully,1:22:46that's what you do. I don't I'm not 1:22:47going to do that and I'm teaching you 1:22:49guys not to do that. Make sense? You 1:22:52guys got that? Right. I'm talking about 1:22:54the guy and I'm saying I think he 1:22:55replied in the Oh, gotcha. Gotcha.1:22:57Instead of this chat, gotcha. Okay,1:22:59understood. Yeah. So, right. Like it's 1:23:02it's difficult because we have to feel 1:23:05the conviction, right, Turtle? Is that 1:23:07about it? Dang. I only just go off of 1:23:10like what I think and feel. I don't even 1:23:14care about the scripture. And isn't it 1:23:16ironic? In the same stroke, you're 1:23:18saying, "I would love God. I love God."1:23:20Let me ask you something. How do you 1:23:22visit Jesus? How do you know that you're 1:23:25even hearing from Jesus? Please answer,1:23:27guys. How do you know that you're 1:23:29hearing from Jesus Christ? I don't.1:23:31Good, good, good, good. Positive 1:23:33thoughts, right? The [clears throat]1:23:34word. When you look at John 1:1, no, no,1:23:38it does, it doesn't even have to point 1:23:40to the word. It is the word. Let me 1:23:41explain. Do you know how you visit 1:23:43Jesus? How you touch Jesus, how you 1:23:46converse converse with him by cracking 1:23:48open your Bible. Look, in the beginning 1:23:50was the word, capital W, by the way. And 1:23:52the word was with God and the word was 1:23:55God. So who is God? Bible. The word it 1:23:59literally says logos, a written 1:24:00scripture. Now when you look at the same 1:24:03chapter, John 1:14, what does it say?1:24:05What does it say? And the word was made 1:24:07flesh. So the word was made flesh,1:24:10Jesus, and dwelt among us. Who is this 1:24:12word? Jesus. And we beheld his glory,1:24:15the glory as the only begotten of the 1:24:17father. So the only son of the father 1:24:18which is Jesus is word full of grace and 1:24:20truth. Do you guys understand that? So 1:24:23who is the word? Hela pull up John 6 uh 1:24:25John 1:24:27uh John 6:63, right? So who is you want 1:24:31to have a relationship with Jesus, but 1:24:32you tell me you've never really studied 1:24:34the word. You don't have a relationship 1:24:35with Jesus. That stings, but that's 1:24:38true. John 6:63. Read it carefully here.1:24:41It is the the spirit that quickenth,1:24:42right? The flesh profiteth nothing. So 1:24:44the flesh is nothing. Meaning feelings 1:24:46are nothing. Cuz flesh feels. Spirit 1:24:49doesn't really think about it. You 1:24:51struggle with lust. But if you go to the 1:24:53cemetery, no one struggles with lust cuz 1:24:55they're all dead. Lust only lives in the 1:24:57flesh. Do you understand? Right?1:24:59Anxiety. None of these guys at theos at 1:25:02the at the cemetery or the morg are have 1:25:05anxiety cuz they're dead. So that's a 1:25:07fleshly thing, right? So So think about 1:25:09follow me here. The words that I speak 1:25:11unto you, this is red lettering, James,1:25:13I'm sorry, uh Jesus is speaking in John,1:25:16they are spirit, they are life. So the 1:25:20word of God is the spirit and gives 1:25:22life. The Bible, brothers and sisters,1:25:24John 16:13, it says, "The Holy Spirit,1:25:28which is called the spirit of truth,1:25:29shall lead you to all truth." Well,1:25:32these are spirit and life. These are 1:25:34true, right? So the Holy Spirit will 1:25:36lead you back to the word, right? And 1:25:37then 1 John 5:7 literally calls Jesus 1:25:41the word, right? This is the Holy 1:25:42Trinity verse. So as we piece these 1:25:45verses together, we start to truly know 1:25:47how to hear from God. It's through these 1:25:49verses like this. For there are three 1:25:51that bear record in heaven. The Father,1:25:54the Word, and the Holy Ghost. And these 1:25:56three are one, Holy Trinity. So if you 1:25:59tell me you love Jesus, you love God,1:26:01you care about Jesus, you know Jesus,1:26:04the first thing I'm going to ask is I'm 1:26:06going to check and test your spirit.1:26:08Notice how it says trust not every 1:26:10spirit, but test the spirits. Well, how 1:26:13do I test the spirit? By the knowledge 1:26:15of the word because he says your word is 1:26:17spirit and life. That's how you test the 1:26:20spirit. It's not do I feel good about 1:26:22them. What how many times did you ladies 1:26:25feel good about a man who just used you?1:26:27Many many times feelings change the word 1:26:30remains. Do you understand what I'm 1:26:31saying? Make sense? Right? So when we 1:26:33read the word for me I feel something.1:26:35Well it depends on the feeling. What is 1:26:37the feeling drawing you towards? Right?1:26:39You have to give an honest again we have 1:26:40to test the spirit. So [clears throat]1:26:42people don't even realize how to test 1:26:44the spirit. What they do is oh this 1:26:46doesn't match what my pastor says.1:26:47That's not testing the spirit. Testing 1:26:49the spirit is do I know the word? That's 1:26:51why I I tell you guys how can you test 1:26:53the spirit or my spirit if you don't 1:26:55even know your word and you're not in 1:26:56your Bible. You can't. You can't.1:26:58[clears throat]1:26:59So, the smart thing is just to accept.1:27:01Do you understand what I'm saying? This 1:27:03isn't like on no no like nefarious stuff 1:27:05and being like wrong. But if you really 1:27:08think about it, there's no ill intent 1:27:10here. What I've ever told you guys to do 1:27:12was study the word and point to Jesus.1:27:14Have I not said that? I've never said 1:27:16follow me, worship me, listen to me.1:27:18I've never said that. I've always said 1:27:20you better be in your word. You're not 1:27:21in your feelings. I've always said that.1:27:24If I was a person who wasn't studied, I 1:27:27would be afraid. Do you understand? I 1:27:29would never tell you guys to study the 1:27:30word because I know you'll rugpool me as 1:27:32soon as I talk about my feelings. It 1:27:33takes a simple, "But doesn't the Bible 1:27:35say this, and I would get wrecked,1:27:37literally." But I tell you guys all the 1:27:39time, study the word. You know why? Cuz 1:27:40I'm confident in the word. I'm confident 1:27:43that I study the word. I know that I'll 1:27:46be able to test through the word. Make 1:27:48sense? And I want you guys to do the 1:27:49same. That's not a false preacher.1:27:51That's actually a godly preacher. Even 1:27:53Jesus quoted scripture. Paul quoted 1:27:56scripture. Peter quoted scripture. He 1:27:58quoted Isaiah many many times in second 1:27:59Peter, Third Peter, First Peter, right?1:28:02It's literally that that simple. So, I 1:28:05get it. If you're not in your word,1:28:07you're in your feelings, right? But if 1:28:09you're in your word, that's what's going 1:28:11to develop you. Make sense? That's just 1:28:13what it is at the end of the day. And 1:28:15even if you read the Bible just to 1:28:16accept it for yourself, it's just still 1:28:18for self. You should really treat the 1:28:20Bible like it's Jesus. I know that 1:28:22sounds crazy, but it is according to 1:28:24scripture. That's what it is. Every time 1:28:26I crack it open, I'm like, "Whoa, I get 1:28:27to meet Jesus." Make sense? I read it 1:28:30and I'm like, "Whoa, I'm visiting Jesus 1:28:32right now." It's really, really good.1:28:34It's a good posture to have. Then you'll 1:28:36treat it very respectfully. You won't 1:28:38try to fall asleep. You won't scroll 1:28:39off. You You'll try your best to like 1:28:41read. Do you understand? It's very 1:28:44beautiful. But we don't even think about 1:28:46it like that. Make sense, right, Johnny?1:28:48I'm too I'm literally too good for 1:28:50Jesus. It burns me out to even Exactly.1:28:53So what are you going to do about that?1:28:55Right. No, notice how we point to Jesus.1:28:58We we bring up Jesus and all you talk 1:29:00about is your heart. That's where that's 1:29:02who your servant is. Don't worry. You 1:29:05will come to the conclusion you're just 1:29:06very strong. As weak as you think you 1:29:08are, you're extremely young. You're so 1:29:11strong that even this word can't break 1:29:13you. That's that's the problem, right?1:29:15Because you haven't seen truly. You 1:29:17don't think deep deep down that you're 1:29:19really broken, right? So that's that's 1:29:22the issue. Yeah. So you will literally 1:29:24rot. I'm sorry to say. I have to keep it 1:29:27real with you. You will rot. You haven't 1:29:28rotted enough. That's why. Right.1:29:30Because you're the judge. You think what 1:29:32you're doing right now is pain. God is 1:29:35going to show you what real pain is. And 1:29:37you're going to have to let go. Trust 1:29:39me, you will. Make sense? You will. And 1:29:41you only want to rot to be better. So 1:29:44even that's not happening. It's a slow 1:29:46burn. 100%. Right? But the Bible is 1:29:48clear about these things. Amen. The why 1:29:50you're confused, Braden, is because you 1:29:52don't know the word. That's all. And the 1:29:53only reason why a lot of people don't 1:29:55know and they're confused is because 1:29:56they don't know the word. If you knew 1:29:57the word, you would you would get it 1:29:58right away. Oh, I get what he's saying.1:30:00He's actually quoting Ecclesiastes right 1:30:02now. There's a way that seemth right,1:30:03right? In Proverbs 2, there's a way that 1:30:05seemth right to a man, but the end of it 1:30:07is death. Literally says that. So, until 1:30:10you reach death, that's when that's 1:30:12because Jesus didn't come to make better 1:30:14sinners. He made He came to make dead 1:30:17people alive. You literally have to be 1:30:18dead. That's why you can't change. You 1:30:21haven't died. That's the [clears throat]1:30:22issue, right? You just That's the 1:30:24problem. God is going to make us die.1:30:27Like, we have to die. He came to make 1:30:30sinners alive, dead sinners alive into 1:30:32righteous brothers and sisters. But 1:30:34until you recognize that, he will let 1:30:36you handle things. He will let you do 1:30:38those things. Amen. It's very simple to 1:30:40repent. It's to look at your life and 1:30:42see how good am I? Am I really good? I'm 1:30:46not a good person. Right? That's all you 1:30:49got to think about. I'm not a good 1:30:50person. That's how what I'm answering 1:30:52to. Right? How do you read to accept and 1:30:54not to understand? How you say to do to 1:30:57realize you're not a good person. Like 1:30:59why do you want to accept? That's that's 1:31:02what you have to ask yourself. Don't 1:31:04just focus on the benefits, right?1:31:06Obviously accepting you'll grow. You 1:31:08have wisdom. That's what we care about.1:31:10but actually listen to my message. You 1:31:12even want the Bible to it in the first 1:31:14place genuinely. And then I'll I'll help 1:31:17you. I'll peel back every layer. If you 1:31:19answer honestly, I will answer you back 1:31:22and I'll peel back every layer. And I 1:31:24guarantee you it's still going to come 1:31:25back to you. The whole time I've been 1:31:27harping on this, right? Want to come 1:31:29closer to God to be saved. Okay? Why do 1:31:32you want to be saved? And why do you 1:31:33want to come closer to God? Watch us 1:31:35keep peeling. Just keep peeling for 1:31:36discernment. Why? Why do you want 1:31:38discernment? Keep going. Keep going. Not 1:31:41to be in hell. There you go. Why don't 1:31:43you want to be in hell? Why do you want 1:31:44to know God? Cuz the world is evil,1:31:46right? Why does that matter, though?1:31:48Because we're selfish. There you go.1:31:50Ding, ding, ding. So, if you guys want 1:31:52to go deeper with the Bible unlocks and 1:31:54just having these biblical resources,1:31:56guys, we created an app called Core of 1:31:57the Heart Daily. Every single morning, I 1:31:59write a personal daily devotional. It 1:32:01helps you start your day with God and 1:32:03make God a habit in your life. We also 1:32:05have the King James version Bible where 1:32:07you can annotate, you can highlight. We 1:32:09also have a gospel bot where it's 1:32:11trained on my teachings for the past 10 1:32:14years. All my secret notes, my sermons,1:32:16all the lives and the Q&As's, everything 1:32:18is in there. So, it will answer your 1:32:20questions when you don't have that 1:32:22pastor at 2:00 a.m. in the night time 1:32:23and you're spiraling. And check it out,1:32:25guys, if you want to download it. It's 1:32:26on the app store called Horror of the 1:32:28Heart Daily. Link is in the description.1:32:30Back to the episode. Now, let me ask you 1:32:32something. If you do something solely 1:32:35because you're selfish, do you think God 1:32:36will bless that? Does it make sense now 1:32:38why it's not coming to you? Does it make 1:32:41sense now why it's not going to come to 1:32:43you? Let's say I'm here and I'm only 1:32:46doing this for fame. I will fall right 1:32:48away because God doesn't want me to have 1:32:50fame. He wants me to preach the gospel 1:32:52to people so that they could know. Do 1:32:54you guys want me to be honest? I don't 1:32:55care about preaching the gospel. That's 1:32:57the difference. I don't care about 1:32:59having a relationship with God. I don't 1:33:01I know that I'm wicked and I'm selfish.1:33:03I know that. All I care about is if you 1:33:06strip me away and you don't give me 1:33:07hell. I mean, you don't give me heaven 1:33:09and you send me to hell. To be honest,1:33:10I'll be cursing at you. I know that 1:33:13about myself, though. I'm not good.1:33:14Like, you guys are really good. I I 1:33:16honor that. I'm not though. I'm not 1:33:18like, "Yeah, I want to love God." Yeah.1:33:20Like, I'm not like that. That's hella 1:33:21fake to me. I just rather keep it real 1:33:23because I genuinely believe one thing.1:33:25God will see my real heart anyways. But 1:33:27you know what makes me preach the gospel 1:33:29is that I'm this wicked and this 1:33:31corrupted and he still blesses me. This 1:33:33is what makes me love God. I feel like 1:33:35Peter when Peter had the nets and they 1:33:38broke with fish and he didn't cheer like 1:33:41his brothers. He said, "Step away from 1:33:42me. I don't even believe you. I'm the 1:33:45only the only type of person who will 1:33:47cheer and be happy cuz you blessed me. I 1:33:49thought I was so good. I'm not even 1:33:50good. I'm garbage." And that's why he's 1:33:53one of the strongest disciples. King 1:33:55Saul was the same way. Um um Saul who 1:33:57turned into Paul was the same way too.1:33:59He recognized something about himself.1:34:00Dude, I persecute you. I thought I was 1:34:02killing Stefan and stoning him to death 1:34:04in Acts chapter 7 because I was doing 1:34:06your will. I realized that I am 1:34:09literally nothing. I I deserve to be 1:34:11blind. He didn't even complain that he 1:34:13was blinded. God said, "You're truly 1:34:15blind. I'll even show you." Boom. And 1:34:17made him blind. He recognized I don't 1:34:19deserve anything. I was a persecutor of 1:34:21I am the chief sinner. He says he's the 1:34:23worst. But you guys don't think like 1:34:25that. If you thought you were the worst,1:34:27you wouldn't ask those questions. How do 1:34:29I get better? What the hell? You would 1:34:31be like, I can't get better. And that's 1:34:33when God, good. You understand now,1:34:35right? You understand, right? You're 1:34:37evil, right? You could never serve me,1:34:39right? Okay. So, now everything that 1:34:40proceeds out of you is me, not you.1:34:43That's humility. But we're we're asking 1:34:45him to bless us with our prideful,1:34:47selfish heart. Sure. Good luck with 1:34:49that. I want God to break me down so 1:34:51that what? so that I can be humble. Do 1:34:53you understand what I'm saying? That's 1:34:54what it is. That's why we want to be 1:34:56broken down. So we can show people we're 1:34:58humble. So that we don't feel isolated 1:35:00anymore. And then even then we fight.1:35:02But isn't it is it wrong then to want to 1:35:04feel that? Is it wrong then to to what 1:35:06are you saying? We should just be 1:35:08isolated then we start getting like this 1:35:09too which is not what I'm saying. When 1:35:12you realize right it's only for you but 1:35:16God still is also only for you. You 1:35:18start to despise yourself. You don't 1:35:21have to try to distrust. You start to 1:35:23distrust yourself. Damn, I'm hella 1:35:25selfish. What the hell is wrong with me?1:35:27I don't even care about God. All I care 1:35:31about is what God can give me. Vending 1:35:33machine, transactionalized heart. I 1:35:35don't even care. I don't care about God.1:35:38Respectfully, if I can have peace 1:35:39without God and money without God, I'm 1:35:42straight. And that's 99% of you guys if 1:35:44you're real. Make sense? If you 1:35:46recognize that and God still chose you 1:35:50to love you, to die for you, there is a 1:35:53different type of love that pops up in 1:35:55our heart that is not from us. So I know 1:35:59Johnny 1:36:01right doesn't care about God. I know 1:36:03that Johnny cares about lust. Johnny 1:36:05cares about money. Johnny cares about 1:36:07fame. That's what Johnny cares about.1:36:10Understand? But the heart now to be able 1:36:13to fly across still not recovered from 1:36:16jet lag to be able to work my butt off 1:36:19literally to where like I'm permanent 1:36:21bags under my eyes and people can't read 1:36:23the room. You look so tired. Yeah, hurry 1:36:26up and become a disciple so I don't have 1:36:27to work so hard, right? They can't even 1:36:29understand, right? You're so tired,1:36:31brother. But I'll continue to trust my 1:36:33thoughts and follow my feelings. So you 1:36:34have to keep working. It's okay,1:36:35brother. No, I love you. I follow I 1:36:37watch every single one of your videos.1:36:39They always do that. I love everything 1:36:41about you, brother. I swear I just But 1:36:43the truth is I I disagree. And it's okay 1:36:45to disagree cuz I'm a piece of garbage 1:36:47and I never read the Bible. And I'm 1:36:49going to question, are you selfish, too,1:36:50Johnny? So I can pacify myself to feel 1:36:52selfish and good about myself. You 1:36:54shouldn't feel good about being selfish.1:36:55What the hell? Are you selfish, too,1:36:57bro? So that I could feel selfish, too.1:36:59And then I'll feel better about myself.1:37:01And then I hope we won't struggle so 1:37:03hard, right, bro? Crabs in a bucket.1:37:06Like, no, bro. You should feel 1:37:07completely bad about being selfish 1:37:09respectfully asking these loaded ass 1:37:12questions. Seriously, why? Cuz we want 1:37:15to feel good even now. Make sense,1:37:18right? So, we have to be real, brothers 1:37:20and sisters. Right, guys?1:37:22[clears throat]1:37:23None of you guys would serve Jesus. Just 1:37:25acknowledge that. Just acknowledge that.1:37:27And that's how you serve Jesus. Damn, I 1:37:29don't serve Jesus and he still blesses 1:37:31me. God, thank you. You don't know how 1:37:33many times I'm in the shower and I like 1:37:34think about that. Dang, Jesus. Like, I 1:37:36literally don't even care about you and 1:37:39you platformed me. Is this how Paul 1:37:42felt? I don't know Paul, but when I read 1:37:44his books, it's like I kind of know him,1:37:46man. Thank you. Thank you, God. Like,1:37:49you use a wretch like me. Sometimes I 1:37:51laugh to myself. For real. I read the 1:37:54Bible 27 times. What the? I wouldn't 1:37:57believe myself either. I get it. I get 1:37:59why people don't believe me. Damn, I 1:38:00don't even believe it. Why did I learn 1:38:02the Septuagent? Why did I learn Coney 1:38:04Greek, Hebrew, Aramaic? What the hell is 1:38:06wrong with me? Am I stupid? Why would I 1:38:08even spend my time? Why did I spend 1:38:09$1,500 a month on on on Skype back then 1:38:13before Zoom ate its lunch? You know, why 1:38:16did I go on Skype?1:38:18Do you guys remember Skype? Showing my 1:38:20age now. We would meet in Skype, right?1:38:22[clears throat] The little jingle. And 1:38:24then Zoom ate its lunch just like 1:38:27Instagram ate Vine's lunch, right?1:38:29Meatloaf, right? Just like Facebook ate 1:38:32MySpace's lunch and then Instagram and 1:38:35Tik Tok ate Facebook's lunch, right?1:38:36It's just how it is, right? Make sense,1:38:39right? Why did I do those things?1:38:41Because of one thing. I had no other way 1:38:43to go. I had no other way. God showed me 1:38:46you suck. So even when pastor chastises 1:38:49me today or whatever, I get frustrated.1:38:53But people, they cannot accept this. I 1:38:55remember chastising a brother, not even 1:38:57chastising, just telling people, hey,1:38:59don't do this, don't do that, and uh 1:39:01core the heart member and they got 1:39:03frustrated, they got embarrassed. But 1:39:05why are you shameful of yourself? Very 1:39:08simple, because you can't acknowledge 1:39:09yourself. You're too good. Okay, you're 1:39:12weak. So what? You're weak. What? What's 1:39:15the problem with that? But that's the 1:39:16problem. I can't be weak. Do you 1:39:18understand? Okay, I pop off. Okay, I'm 1:39:20emotionally immature. So what? Okay, I'm 1:39:22lustful. So what? What's the problem?1:39:24It's the fact that you can't acknowledge 1:39:25that because somehow that's an attack on 1:39:27your identity. But that's not though 1:39:29your identity is grounded and rooted in 1:39:30Christ no matter what. It should it 1:39:33should be okay, right? And I get it too.1:39:36Even with Jeremy, right? He's he's truly 1:39:38very very based when it comes to 1:39:40business, right? The way that I am 1:39:42spiritually is the way that he is 1:39:43business and financially very very 1:39:45amazing. Honestly, he's great. But 1:39:47there's times where I also have this 1:39:49heart that I want to be really good at 1:39:50business too. And I don't see certain 1:39:52angles. So what do I do? I question 1:39:54myself too, man. Dude, am I just 1:39:56discern? A am I just good at one thing,1:39:58which is the gospel? I'm a horrible 1:40:00leader. But then what do I do? I confirm 1:40:02with Jeremy. Jeremy, am I a horrible 1:40:03leader? No. What, bro? It's solely 1:40:06because of you that all of us are in 1:40:08line. We work 14 hours, 16 hour days 1:40:11because of you and we don't feel it. We 1:40:13want to do these things, right? How can 1:40:15you say that? We work for you right 1:40:18there. I have a decision. I can either 1:40:20trust my thoughts. uh he's just saying 1:40:21that because he has to say that bro 1:40:23needs a job or I can really believe what 1:40:26he says and goes, "Amen. I'm not going 1:40:28to trust what I think and feel even 1:40:29though it makes sense to me. I'm not 1:40:31going to think, oh, because he's not 1:40:32discerned and he's only come to Christ 2 1:40:34years ago that he doesn't know what he's 1:40:36talking about. I'm just going to 1:40:37acknowledge what he says because yeah,1:40:39even if I'm a bad leader, but don't I 1:40:41have Jesus Christ in my heart? And 1:40:43doesn't he make me lead correctly?" Then 1:40:45what's the issue? And are me leading it 1:40:47or is it Jesus leading it? right there.1:40:49I also have to think, right? But again,1:40:52the issue is we don't think or we react 1:40:56right away. Something about when I say 1:40:58you you guys aren't listening triggers a 1:41:00lot of you guys, too, cuz you think 1:41:02you're a good listener. But the truth 1:41:03is, you know, you're not. Otherwise, you 1:41:05wouldn't get triggered, right? Make 1:41:08sense? So, it's just how it is. Amen.1:41:11Our identity is in Christ. Okay. I I 1:41:14mess up tomorrow. Okay. So, what? That's 1:41:16what the Bible says I'm going to do,1:41:18right? And that's fine. Jesus says he 1:41:21loves me the way that I am. And he knows 1:41:23that I would never serve him, that I 1:41:25never want to serve him, that I complain 1:41:27every day. There's nothing wrong with 1:41:28that. He knew that. That's why [snorts]1:41:30he died for me, right? And that's what 1:41:32makes me love him more. Not me trying.1:41:36He loves me. Why would he love me? Why 1:41:39would he love me? A person like me, I 1:41:42don't even love me, but he does. Then 1:41:44that's what creates the love. That's why 1:41:46he says in 1 John chapter 4, not that 1:41:49you love God, but God loved you and sent 1:41:52his only begun begotten son. So you guys 1:41:55stop telling me I love God. You don't.1:41:58You don't love him in your st in in your 1:42:00standard. Sure. But your standard 1:42:02doesn't matter anyways. I can't go to 1:42:04even the courthouse today and go, "Well,1:42:06in my opinion, yeah, I did this, but I 1:42:08don't get to go to prison because of 1:42:10that." Like that doesn't they're going 1:42:11to laugh at you. So, how much so in 1:42:13front of God? Well, God, in my opinion,1:42:15I feel like I loved you. Okay, too bad.1:42:18Like, what do I say go? What I say goes.1:42:20Amen. So, I think you I think that if 1:42:23you if you guys truly think this way,1:42:25then you'll really really grow and all 1:42:27of your problems will be solved. You'll 1:42:29sit there and you'll go, "Dang, I'm such 1:42:32just a human pile of garbage." But God 1:42:35loves this human pile of garbage so much 1:42:38that he sent his only son for this human 1:42:40pile of garbage. And man, like there you 1:42:44go. Every one of us has the opportunity 1:42:46to turn away from God. And we have. And 1:42:49every one of us has the heart to do not 1:42:51only God dirty, but everyone else and 1:42:53ourselves, including ourselves, dirty.1:42:55You just have to know that. You have to 1:42:57know that about yourself. Dang. I I 1:42:59could like turn against Johnny at any 1:43:01moment. I can see a real and it'll 1:43:03change my heart. I can get chastised one 1:43:05day by Johnny and turn like, you know,1:43:08like that. Every one of us is like this.1:43:11every single one of us. But even when 1:43:13you do that, God goes, "I love you." Do 1:43:16you guys understand? Right? That's the 1:43:18the center line right there. That's what 1:43:20makes me want to live for him is because 1:43:22I don't even want to live for him. And 1:43:25he's like, "But I want to live for you."1:43:27Right? In my last interview, I said it,1:43:29right? It was a bar. A lot of you guys 1:43:31were quoting it, right? I want to do 1:43:33life without God, but God said, "I don't 1:43:35want to do life without you." It's true,1:43:38right? As much as I wanted to do life by 1:43:41myself, I don't want God. But God's 1:43:43like, "But I want it with you." Right?1:43:45That right there is is what's going to 1:43:46love you. Change you. That that if that 1:43:49doesn't change you, you're a rock.1:43:51You're not a human. You know, you it's 1:43:53like what the hell, right? And and if 1:43:56and even if you come to like I'm a rock 1:43:57and I'm not a human, that's good, too.1:43:59Then you'll stop trusting yourself. But 1:44:01it's weird. We don't we feel like we're 1:44:03we're rocks and we're evil, but then 1:44:04we're like, nah, we're not. We're we 1:44:06still have some good in us. It's like 1:44:07what the doesn't even make sense. Amen.1:44:10Right. Nothing hit. It's like nothing 1:44:11hit. I truly am strong. Like how you 1:44:13said super trust your thoughts. If 1:44:16nothing in your life and you still trust 1:44:18yourself is kind of crazy to me. You 1:44:20know, it's sad, right? Think about it,1:44:22guys. These messages don't hit because 1:44:25number one, you're focused on what you 1:44:26feel and number two is because you think 1:44:28you're good. Amen. Man, I'm a grown ass 1:44:31man out on my front porch tearing up.1:44:33That's okay because the word of God 1:44:35opens our hearts like that. You know,1:44:37you know, it comes to a position where 1:44:39it's like, it's like God is that that 1:44:42never cheats, but we're the one that 1:44:43always cheats. Sooner or later, you're 1:44:45going to look at the person that you 1:44:47cheated on. Like my father looked at my 1:44:48mom, cuz my dad would cheat on my mom.1:44:50He gave her like STDs and done a lot of 1:44:53evil things to my mom, but one day I 1:44:55saw, and you guys saw it, too. And he's 1:44:57never really said sorry to my mom, but 1:44:59in the Papa Chang interview, he says,1:45:01"The person I pity the most is my wife,1:45:04their mom." That's what made me cry. I 1:45:06was like, "What the?" He would never say 1:45:07that before. But he knew as much as like 1:45:10my dad did that to my mom. My mom never 1:45:12cheated on my dad. She held it down for 1:45:14him. And all those years in the same 1:45:16way. That's like how God is towards us.1:45:19Like we just cheat. We do whatever. We 1:45:20we we abuse him. We betray him. We spit 1:45:23on him. And he's like, "It's okay. I'm 1:45:25going to wait for you." At some point,1:45:28you got to come to that realization of 1:45:29like, "Dang, [clears throat] man. I keep 1:45:31doing God dirty, bro. The hell is wrong 1:45:33with me? I got to stop. You know, it's 1:45:36it's literally that like forget all your 1:45:39trauma. Like you're like hurt people 1:45:41hurt people, but dang like change people 1:45:43change people, right? It's like why 1:45:45would we say that, right? We just stay 1:45:47in the hurt position. But God has really 1:45:50motivated me to grow. When I truly saw 1:45:52how evil I was towards God, that's what 1:45:55made me change. Like you can't just see 1:45:56how evil you are towards God. You also 1:45:58have to see although you were evil like 1:46:00that, he was so good to you. That's what 1:46:02changes people. That right there. So, it 1:46:06was kind of crazy to be able to see 1:46:08that. And I think God borrowed me the 1:46:10lens one day to be able to see, dang.1:46:13[clears throat]1:46:13And guess what? We forget. We forget.1:46:16Make sense? Sometimes we forget too how 1:46:19wicked we were to God. We do a little 1:46:21bit of good, especially someone in my my 1:46:23position and we think we weren't wicked.1:46:25But I sit there every night and what I 1:46:27do is I do a heart set to zero exercise.1:46:31I think about what did for God today and 1:46:34the answer is always the same. Nada.1:46:37Absolutely nothing. Do I truly love God?1:46:41Nope. And does God truly love me? Well,1:46:43if he didn't, why would he let me go and 1:46:46travel and, you know, be treated like a 1:46:49celebrity everywhere I go? It's because 1:46:51he's good, not me. I'm not good. Right 1:46:55now, who am I then without Jesus? Oh,1:46:57that's right. a gang member who will 1:46:59literally shoot anybody. I don't care.1:47:01As long as you're not Superman and 1:47:03bulletproof, I won't be afraid of you.1:47:05That That's what I would say to people.1:47:07Like, oh yeah, this foo's 300 lb food.1:47:10Oh, yeah. Is he bulletproof? If he is,1:47:12then yeah, bro. I I'll be afraid, but 1:47:14you know what I mean? Sorry to say,1:47:17right? So, in my heart, too, as we're 1:47:21talking about this, Oyama's like, "Are 1:47:23you from San Antonio? What are you 1:47:26trying to do? What do you from? South 1:47:29Africa. Just kidding. Not San Antonio.1:47:31South Africa. That's what you saw. Did 1:47:34you see your wife in a little in a 1:47:36little one by one in box? Oh my gosh.1:47:40Here comes a defense. Watch. Watch.1:47:41Let's see if he he practices what I 1:47:43taught or if he starts to defend. Let's 1:47:46see. A Don't Don't erase it now. Please 1:47:51focus on the message. Okay. Don't look 1:47:53at someone's profile pick. I'm seriously 1:47:56going to do this where I'm just going to 1:47:58make everybody's profile.1:48:00Just not their pictures straight up.1:48:02Then you can't come to me and say,1:48:04"That's my wife. God, God made my wife 1:48:08for me. I seen her." Makes sense. That's 1:48:12my wife. How do you know she's your 1:48:15wife? The one by one picture. But what 1:48:18did you guys do? Did you ever talk to 1:48:19her? No. God told me in a dream.1:48:23How long have you been in this 1:48:24congregation? two years. God, you don't 1:48:28know that I God only speaks to us 1:48:30through words nowadays. No, I was so 1:48:32right. [snorts] He told me today that it 1:48:36was going to be a a sister from South 1:48:38Africa. Really? Specifically South 1:48:41Africa, huh? Yeah. Interesting. Yeah.1:48:44And then I'm like, by the way, she's 1:48:46married. Oh, well,1:48:50this crickets she's already taken. Oh,1:48:52no. God said she'll divorce him for me.1:48:55It's like, wait, what? No, no, no, no,1:48:56no. The the god of this world, maybe 1:48:59Satan. Sure, he probably said that,1:49:03right? I'm poking fun at this because I 1:49:05want you guys to realize if I don't poke 1:49:08fun, then I'll be very, very serious 1:49:10mode and I'll chastise and you guys 1:49:12won't like that. Okay? Please, brothers 1:49:15and sisters, don't do that. Okay?1:49:17[clears throat] Please, please don't do 1:49:19that. just focus heavily on the gospel.1:49:24Okay? [clears throat] All right. If 1:49:25anything is confusing to you guys to sum 1:49:28it all up is this and I'll finish with 1:49:30this. Think about Jesus and God first 1:49:33above all else. Number one. Number two,1:49:36when you think about Jesus and God, then 1:49:3899% of your problems is going to be 1:49:41solved. Right? So if you do have a 1:49:43problem, it goes on the back end, too.1:49:46It's because you didn't think about 1:49:48Jesus solving your problem. Confusion 1:49:51comes when you become Jesus trying to 1:49:53solve a problem and you can't. That's 1:49:55that's when confusion comes. So if you 1:49:57hear my message and you hear I now have 1:50:00to do something, you've already shifted 1:50:03your eyes off of Jesus is what I'm 1:50:05saying. That's why confusion comes.1:50:07Don't come and be like, Johnny, I'm 1:50:08confused. you are confused not by my 1:50:11message but because you interpreted my 1:50:14message as saying you need to do 1:50:15something when I literally harp on you 1:50:19can't do anything understand it's just 1:50:21how it is and your biggest problem is 1:50:24one thing you're too good for God only 1:50:27the good people crucify Jesus no one 1:50:30else if you think you're following God 1:50:33and I bring word that says you're not 1:50:35you're going to kill me too just so you 1:50:36know that's how it works understand 1:50:38Because works always does this from Cain 1:50:41and Abel. Cain from the sweat of his 1:50:44brow just brought a substitute grace.1:50:48Something died in his place. Blood 1:50:50sacrifice. Cain was like, "Man, I got to 1:50:54make some taheen and chammoy and and 1:50:57give some fruits to God. Does he know 1:50:59how good this is?" The combination of 1:51:01taheen and chammoy. So fire, right? So 1:51:04delicious. Meat is great, but fruits are 1:51:07sweet. Who doesn't like sweets? And God 1:51:10rejected him. Why? Think about that for 1:51:12a second. Why? Right? Because he brought 1:51:14everything from his own hands, his own 1:51:17work. Make sense, right? That's the 1:51:21issue here. So, he saw Abel. It wasn't 1:51:25like Abel was clowning him.1:51:28[clears throat] Abel wasn't like, "Hey,1:51:29stupid brother. Did you not hear mom and 1:51:31dad tell what God wants?" Remember in 1:51:33Genesis 3 when they literally sinned and 1:51:36they try to make fig leaves with their 1:51:38hands? Fig leaves that come from the 1:51:41ground. You idiot. Hello, dummy. Are you 1:51:44stupid? Dang. And you're the older 1:51:46brother. The hell, dude? Are you stupid?1:51:49And look at you. You went and planted 1:51:51and did the same thing that they did.1:51:53And then he literally killed something 1:51:55to cover them. Bro, are you dumb? If if 1:51:58he said that, then he had a right to 1:52:00kill him cuz he would have been 1:52:01prideful. Abel not once is what he said 1:52:04what he says recorded because he didn't 1:52:06say anything. He didn't say jack diddly 1:52:09squat. But that's what happens, right?1:52:12People attack me the same. This guy 1:52:13thinks he knows the Bible. He don't 1:52:15freaking know the Bible. So when they 1:52:17can't attack my message, what do they 1:52:19do? Attack the messenger. Discredit me.1:52:22He's not a gang member. He's a liar. He 1:52:24manipulates. He is a gang member and he 1:52:26is lying. Manipulating. Don't believe 1:52:29him. He doesn't. He's calm, but bro's 1:52:31wicked. Bro cusses. Bro yells at people.1:52:36Bro, you understand? Like they start 1:52:37doing this. Why? Because that's what 1:52:41happens when you preach grace. When I 1:52:43preach, if you really think about what 1:52:45I'm preaching here, guys, I'm preaching 1:52:47none of what you guys do matters. None 1:52:49of you guys care about God. And only 1:52:52Jesus cares about you and what Jesus did 1:52:54matters. That pisses people off who 1:52:56think they're all that. Do you 1:52:57understand? Because I literally just 1:52:59said whatever you do don't mean jack 1:53:01dilly squat and you ain't jack dilly 1:53:03squat on top of that. Do you understand 1:53:04what I'm saying? That's it. That's what 1:53:06you're mad about. So people get mad 1:53:08because and then what do they do? Start 1:53:10searching, start finding dirt. Oh yeah,1:53:12Johnny's a fraud. Johnny, they start 1:53:13doing this because you didn't get 1:53:15exalted. But I don't exalt myself 1:53:17either. I exalt only Jesus Christ.1:53:20Understand what I'm saying? Make sense,1:53:21guys? So if I'm not going to exalt 1:53:23myself and I'm not going to exalt you,1:53:25but I exalt Jesus, what's the problem 1:53:27with that? The problem is you don't care 1:53:29about Jesus. You want to be exalted as 1:53:32Jesus because you think you deserve it 1:53:33and you're good. You know who [snorts]1:53:35else had that heart? His name was 1:53:37Lucifer. I want to be the most high with 1:53:39or without you, God. I don't care. Move 1:53:41aside. Let me do it. That's all of us.1:53:44You guys have that same heart, too. I'll 1:53:46take the blessings without the blesser.1:53:48That's cool. Hey, man. If you can heal 1:53:49my my cancer, I don't need to I'm not 1:53:51going to pray. If I have money, I'll 1:53:52just go to the doctor. We literally 1:53:55literally have the same heart Satan does 1:53:58when it comes to exaltation.1:54:00Ladies, too, how many of you guys ever 1:54:02cheated on a man because he didn't 1:54:03choose you or he broke up with you 1:54:06honestly and you went and you slept with 1:54:08everybody else just to wanted cuz you 1:54:11weren't exalted. How many ladies have 1:54:12been in here and was like, I love this 1:54:14man, but he doesn't love me. So, you 1:54:16know what? I'm going to just do whatever 1:54:17I want. Be honest here. A lot of you 1:54:19guys, right? Men, too. You know, you 1:54:22felt emasculated by your girl because 1:54:23she told you to do something and you 1:54:25didn't like that. And because of that,1:54:26you went and you slept around. That's 1:54:29happened too, right? A lot of a lot of 1:54:31women, not everybody. Understand what 1:54:32I'm saying? Make sense, right? I know I 1:54:35do. I feel like more like Satan than 1:54:37Jesus, to be honest. I follow Satan far 1:54:38more than Jesus, right? And so did I.1:54:41That's that's that takes a bold heart to 1:54:43say that, but it's true, CJ. We're all 1:54:44the same. And that's okay, right? I 1:54:47would do the action and justify it. So 1:54:49foul, right? But that's beautiful.1:54:52Someone who's come to the end of 1:54:53themselves can say that, right? Other 1:54:55people, they're still like, you know,1:54:57it's like, but he deserved it. He hit 1:54:59me. It's like, of course, you couldn't 1:55:02just leave and find someone better. You 1:55:04had to go and do way crazier stuff,1:55:06right? No, of course not. Right. No, no,1:55:08no, no, no. Hit back is crazy. And you 1:55:11100 that too is crazy. Psychopathic 1:55:15people you guys are honestly. They hit 1:55:18you, you hit them back. No, you leave.1:55:21What are you talking about, ladies?1:55:23Don't ever fight men. Okay, that's not 1:55:25First off, you should never even be in a 1:55:26predicament like that. Understand? You 1:55:28should never even be in a predicament 1:55:29like that. Number one. Number two, you 1:55:31have to recognize that we've done evil 1:55:34things. We have to acknowledge that in 1:55:38front of God and men, too.1:55:40[clears throat] And we are brothers and 1:55:42sisters. But if you objectify either one 1:55:45of the race, either one of the the the 1:55:47sorry, the um genders, then what happens 1:55:50is you don't see people as brothers and 1:55:53sisters anymore. You see them as toys,1:55:56right? And 1:55:59things for your own gain and pleasure,1:56:01which is horrible. you know, that's 1:56:02somebody's mom, you know, that's 1:56:04somebody's dad, that's somebody's child,1:56:07you know, like if you think about it 1:56:09from that perspective, then you'll keep 1:56:11it real. It's just [clears throat] how 1:56:13it is at the end of the day. You'll keep 1:56:15it real. Like, oh dang, that's someone's 1:56:18child, you know? But people sadly again 1:56:21don't think like that. And I hope you 1:56:23guys can think like that. Make sense? I 1:56:25hope you guys can truly think those 1:56:27things, right? Um once you do that, then 1:56:30people change. even around you and the 1:56:33way you treat people changes too. That 1:56:35person that you hate on, that person 1:56:37that you that's how you keep yourself 1:56:39from watching porn and lusting. Yeah.1:56:41And also thinking very extreme like for 1:56:43men and women, let's say for easier, but 1:56:45women it works too. Let's say men that 1:56:49was your mom on the screen, you would 1:56:51kill the director. Do you understand?1:56:54You would kill the guy doing that. You 1:56:56would be like, you wouldn't be like,1:56:57"This is amazing. Wow." Like, no. You 1:56:59would literally be like, "What the?"1:57:01Like, you would be so mad, right? If 1:57:02that was your sister, your sister that 1:57:04you love, you would freaking be like,1:57:06"What the?" Right? You would literally 1:57:09go crazy probably. Okay? In the same 1:57:12way, if you're a girl who struggles with 1:57:14porn, if that was your daughter getting 1:57:17taken advantage of like that, they're 1:57:19called actresses for a reason. They have 1:57:21to act. Understand? You'd literally be 1:57:24like, "What? I failed as a mom. I can't 1:57:26like you would not definitely would not 1:57:28be lustful. Make sense? If that was your 1:57:31son, ladies, you want your son to just 1:57:34have sex with hundreds of women and not 1:57:36be locked down to one good wife? Really?1:57:39Are you kidding me? No way. If he can do 1:57:42that to hundreds of women, there's 1:57:43something wrong with him internally.1:57:44That means you failed as a parent.1:57:46Understand? Wouldn't you want him to 1:57:48experience true love with one woman who 1:57:50will hold him down? Who But bro is over 1:57:52here piping multiple women. Come on.1:57:54Nobody would want that. Understand,1:57:56right? Even men wouldn't want that for 1:57:57their children. Hey, find yourself a 1:57:59good girl. Make sense? So, if you just 1:58:02think of again, if you if you have the 1:58:04skill to think outside of the box, to 1:58:07think about other people, you you you 1:58:10can't fall into those things. You just 1:58:12can't. It's it's almost impossible. But 1:58:14the one thing is I don't care. I care 1:58:17about my pleasure. What this makes me 1:58:20feel right now, that's what I care 1:58:21about. Do you understand what I'm 1:58:23saying? Like that's why we get stuck,1:58:25man. I don't care, dude. This is what it 1:58:28does to me. This is this is the the root 1:58:30of a lot of people's evil. How beautiful 1:58:32would it have been with Satan if Satan 1:58:35sat there and just lived under God? If 1:58:38bro could just live under his roof. But 1:58:41instead, what did he think? I want me 1:58:43though. Like, I want what I want. I want 1:58:45the throne. Like all of it was I and me.1:58:48Those were the sentences that ruined 1:58:50him. How many sentences like that ruined 1:58:52you? Same thing. No, I'm gonna Okay,1:58:54this guy cheated on me. I'm gonna cheat 1:58:56back then. And how do you feel after 1:58:58that? Like doodle garbage. Straight up,1:59:02right? It ruins everything about you.1:59:04So, I hope you guys can really learn 1:59:06that and understand like, dude, I got to 1:59:08really think outside of myself to be 1:59:11happy. I know that sounds crazy cuz the 1:59:13world teaches you you got to think for 1:59:15others to be happy. No, for yourself to 1:59:17be happy. No, you have to think for 1:59:19other people. You have to. If you don't,1:59:21you're cooked always. You will 1:59:23literally, every one of us knows, and 1:59:25we're probably these people in here now.1:59:27There's that person that just always 1:59:29fights and always thinks about me me.1:59:32Like, you might be that person, but I'm 1:59:35telling you, you guys know there's that 1:59:37one guy or girl who's always right no 1:59:39matter what. And they're super duper 1:59:42egotistical and selfish. Make sense? And 1:59:44you never want to be around those 1:59:46people. understand it's just true. Don't 1:59:49be that person. Okay? I hope you guys 1:59:51can learn and see that that there's 1:59:54greater purposes in life. There's 1:59:56greater things in life than you. And uh 1:59:59if you don't get attention, it's okay 2:00:01cuz God gives you the attention you 2:00:03need. If you get triggered cuz you don't 2:00:04get attention, that's proof that you got 2:00:07to go to God. There's something that you 2:00:09got to work on obviously inside of your 2:00:11heart. Just think about those things,2:00:13brothers and sisters, and you'll be 2:00:14happy. Acknowledge where you mess up,2:00:17where you struggle, X, Y, and Z. Those 2:00:19are important things. But more 2:00:20importantly, who died for that struggle,2:00:23and who lives through that struggle with 2:00:25you, who steps into the pain with you 2:00:26every day. God, Jesus. And then you 2:00:28won't really feel so crazy. You'll 2:00:30actually be really, really centered and 2:00:32grounded. You'll be happy. You'll love 2:00:34God when you realize you can't. And if 2:00:37you have a hard time doing that, that's 2:00:38why we do these main stages. So, you're 2:00:41welcome. Deposit $1,000, each of you,2:00:44please. So, we're going to lock the 2:00:45doors. There's uh let me see. 534 of you 2:00:49guys in here. That should be should be 2:00:5253,000.2:00:53No, that's actually 54,000.2:00:57Damn, son. Hey, that was lowkey a hack,2:01:00bro. Literally got a millie from that or 2:01:02something. Okay, I could do a lot with 2:01:05half a million, guys. All right, I could 2:01:07travel to every [clears throat]2:01:09single state and have it completely free 2:01:11with the best stuff. So, come on now.2:01:14Have anybody got a doubt? Just kidding.2:01:15Totally kidding. Right. But I I would 2:01:17let me out. It's crazy. All right, guys.2:01:20I'll see you guys later. Take care.2:01:22Okay. Bye, everybody. Take care. Peace.

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