Transcript of What Trusting In Jesus Actually Looks Like (Pastor Explains) | Discord Stage #48
Unlearned Wisdom by Johnny Chang
0:00Welcome back to another Discord stage.0:02This is where I talk directly with my0:03community. I tell personal stories,0:05share deep biblical learnings, and I0:07answer questions from the chat. These0:09episodes are audio only. So, thanks for0:10listening, and you can join my Discord0:12to catch the next Discord stage live.0:14Link in the description. What's your0:16advice on living your life and enjoying0:18it? Um, the only way to really live life0:21is to borrow life from Jesus. To enjoy0:24life, you have to borrow it from God.0:27Um, we we all try we all try to live our0:31lives and it doesn't really work out0:33that way. Um, so it's it's always better0:36to leave our lives into God's hands and0:39to enjoy it is to basically follow God.0:42That's really the best way, you know,0:44just kind of how it is. Yeah. Can you0:46update us on what you do on streams? Um,0:49yeah. Just basically0:51walk spiritual life and walk you through0:54spiritual life through0:56you know, Bible class, through0:59devotions, through the routine that we1:02set up every single morning at 9:00 a.m.1:04So, yeah. So, good. Yeah, it's really1:06good. Um, yes, hangout will only happen1:08on Tuesdays. Yes. What does trusting1:11Jesus look like? Um, distrusting your1:13thoughts and following everything he1:15says. Believing in his word above what1:18you think and feel, your perspectives.1:21Uh, trusting Jesus is also trusting his1:23people. So like trusting the people he's1:26kind of delegated which is the servants.1:29Um pastors who who preach Jesus and1:31Jesus alone is also following him. Uh1:35yeah pretty much it pretty much it1:37struggling to understand that God1:39doesn't do anything for no reason.1:40There's always a blessing or a lesson in1:41it. I know this but I really don't1:43understand how I can lose both jobs in1:44the middle of getting a car loan and now1:46I don't have proof of income. I'm1:48already homeless and I am lost. Yeah.1:49It's just a season, right? Um, no one1:53deserves that. I understand that, you1:56know, those things are difficult, but at1:58the same time, um, it's it's as bad as2:03that sounds, it's good for you, right?2:05It's good because of what the Bible2:07says, right? Romans 8:28 speaks about2:09this. Um, we don't have to understand,2:12we have to accept because either way,2:14we're going to have to accept, right? If2:15you think about it, he's not going to2:17open up the sky and explain it to you,2:19right? that otherwise he would have2:21already done so. So what is he trying to2:23do? He's trying to lean on he's trying2:25to make you lean on him. And the only2:27way to do that is to do this, right? Um2:30the reason why we go through such2:32hardship is because we're that difficult2:33ourselves too. Like I had to go to jail.2:36I had to go to prison. Why? Cuz that's2:38the thing that could break me. And even2:39that didn't break me respectfully. I2:41came out. I was right back to the2:43streets. So again, it's it's it's really2:47difficult to break us as human beings.2:49We just very selfish. We only think2:51about ourselves. And so God tries to2:53remove certain things for us to lean on2:55him. But we still try to understand. We2:58sort of try to do these types of things.2:59And you know, [snorts] it's very3:01difficult. The thorn on the side um you3:04know that Paul is speaking about is uh3:07the enemy. It's the enemy. It's Satan.3:11[snorts] I've been struggling getting3:12into the word of God and I've been lazy.3:14Yeah. Um you can't think you're good,3:16right? If you guys think you're good,3:19you're not going to get into the word.3:20If you're comfortable, you're not going3:22to get into the word. The only time we3:24really seek God is when we have issues.3:26Like, we don't really seek him3:28naturally. And if we do, it's by grace,3:30right? So, yeah, if if if we're if we're3:32not getting into our word, it's because3:34we're we're fine. We don't need the3:36word. We don't see the word as like3:38life. We see we we again, information is3:41not the same as belief. We we know that3:43the word is good, but knowing that the3:46word is good doesn't make us apply or3:48rely. I know that the gas is the gas and3:51the accelerator is accelerator and the3:52brake is the brake and you know the3:54clutch is the clutch. But like that3:56doesn't make that doesn't move the car3:57just cuz I know I have to genuinely4:00apply it and go to it and step on it and4:03put pressure on it and and release and4:05like I have to do these things. This is4:07just naturally what it is. So so many of4:09us know but we don't do. That's the4:12problem. We're just very very like head4:14head knowledge. So it's difficult to to4:17do. Um because we think we're doing4:20something too. If we were though, we4:23wouldn't be getting lazy. We wouldn't be4:25we would be in our word. And the only4:28reason why we're not in our word is4:29because we're okay. We don't need it. We4:31don't need help. You don't go to the4:32doctor if you guys are healthy. You4:34don't you don't go to the doctor if you4:35need a checkup. Like if you don't need a4:37checkup, right? you you you just you're4:39good. You're fine. I feel fine. I don't4:41need to do that. I don't have any4:42growth. I don't have any, you know,4:44coughs, any symptoms, any I'm good. I4:46don't need to go. Like that's the4:47problem right there is the issue. If you4:50guys have like respectfully, laziness is4:52a luxury. People who are really busy,4:55people who are like in Africa, people4:57who are like struggling to get food,4:59like they don't have that luxury. Even5:02if they want to be lazy, they can't.5:03Why? Cuz they'll die. So what does God5:06do? He gives us situations where we feel5:08like we're dying. [snorts] We literally5:09feel like, "Yo, what's wrong? Like,5:11what's going on, right? It's just kind5:13of how it is. Why does it seem so hard5:15to see Jesus during the genealogy parts5:17of the of the Bible?" It's not hard. Uh5:20the issue is because we think it's hard.5:21We trust that more than anything, and we5:23want that to be on our own timing. The5:26genealogy stuff is very simple,5:27actually. But the problem is like we we5:30want things our way, and then we claim5:32that it's hard. Like we have to learn5:34how to not say those types of things,5:36right? I can go a little bit deeper into5:38the genealogy parts, but it's like why5:40would I do that if if the the lesson5:42here is to overcome and trust God that5:46Jesus is there? I don't need to know it,5:48but in real time and in his time, I'll5:50do it. Right. That's the problem. That's5:53just what it is, right? Yes, but right.5:55Exactly. Yes, but but we can either Yes,5:57but or we can go yes, God. Right. I6:01mean, yeah, I know your whole life6:02changed. My life changed too. All of our6:04lives. We all have issues. So either you6:06trust your your heart, your thoughts, or6:08you trust God. That sounds harsh, but6:11that is the reality. It's life or death.6:13It's Yeah, but yeah, but or yeah, but6:17God. But God. But God. You can use the6:19same. You can use but like yes, but and6:22affirm your situation. Or you can go6:24yes, but God. Yes, I lost my house. Yes,6:26I lost my car. Yes, I'm homeless. Yes,6:28but God. Or you can go, yeah, I know6:31God's going to help me. And I don't know6:32God is a universe and all that. But I6:34lost everything though. My whole life6:35changed. I literally do you not6:36understand? Are you not empathizing with6:38me? Like we can do only two options6:41genuinely. [snorts] Those are the only6:43two options that we have. The hardened6:46heart is going to go, "Yeah, but my life6:47changed." The heart that softens it6:50goes, "Yeah, even if my life changed,6:52like this is for the better. God is6:54going to help me." Right? That's just6:56kind of what it is, right? So you guys6:59want to rely on God, but I don't think7:01you guys want to genuinely rely on God.7:03I think you want to rely on the version7:05you think God is. Amen, brothers and7:07sisters. Right? That's that's what we we7:10we don't want to rely on God. We want to7:12rely on the God that we made or someone7:14else made in our head, which is I if I7:17if I follow you, I better not have any7:18issues. And if I do have any issues,7:20they better be ones that I can handle.7:23But then how is that relying on God if7:24he can handle all your issues, right?7:26Like how do you rely on God if you can7:28handle your own issues? That's the7:31problem here. Amen. Right? The whole7:33point is to rely on God cuz you can't7:35handle your issues. And then we can get7:37mad and say, "Oh, you know, like God,7:40like you know, why you make it so hard?"7:42It's like, well, I mean, why do we make7:44it so hard though, right? We actually7:47make it hard and then he has to clean7:49everything up. What people fail to7:50realize is we make it hard. We don't7:52make it hard for God, but we make it7:53hard on ourselves and therefore God has7:55to step in. That's the problem nine7:58times out of the 10, right? Cuz we could8:00make better decisions. We can, you know,8:03focus on God. We can like do these types8:05of things, but we don't we don't do8:07that, right? We think we do, and then8:09when things mess up, we're like, "All8:10right, God. You got to help me now."8:12It's like, "Yeah, but I didn't tell you8:13to get the car loan. I didn't tell you8:15to get that mortgage. I didn't like Do8:17you understand what I'm saying? Like8:18it's always like I'm going to do8:20whatever I want and then like what8:22happens when it doesn't work out? I'm8:24going to lean on you now. It's like how8:26about before we make those decisions, we8:28lean on God first. Seek his guidance.8:30Seek his validation. Seek what he wants8:32first and then because God says seek ye8:35the f seek ye the kingdom of God first,8:37right? Seek first the kingdom of God and8:39all else will be added unto you, right?8:41And his righteousness, right? But we're8:43backwards. No. No. I'm going to do8:45everything my way or what I think is8:46what you want God. And then when it8:48doesn't work out now I have to rely.8:50It's like right same thing with prayer.8:53We always pray last right? We don't pray8:55for we make a decision things mess up8:57now we start praying. Why not pray8:59first? That's the problem with us. Do9:02you do you guys understand what I'm9:03saying? That's the issue. Amen. So9:06that's the issue right? We we we just we9:08don't know sadly but that's why we have9:12to grow. You know, that's why we have to9:14learn and these are the things that we9:16have to really focus on more than9:18anything. Ezekiel 36:26. Yeah, that's9:21the new heart. Is that a verse in9:23chapter that explains and supports what9:24you teach about Jesus changing your9:26heart and taking your issues to God so9:27he can work on your heart to change? No.9:29So, it's literally Jesus and God giving9:31you the new heart. So, the original9:34heart was I trust myself. I follow9:35myself. The new heart is you don't trust9:37yourself anymore. You don't follow9:39yourself anymore. No one thinks like9:40that. No one thinks, "Oh, I need to stop9:42trusting myself." Everybody believes,9:44"No, I have some parts that I'm good.9:46Yeah, I messed up here and there, but I9:47who who else am I going to trust if I9:49don't trust myself? Who else am I going9:50to believe in if I don't believe in9:51myself?" Uh, maybe God. That's that's9:54what it is, right? It's just it's kind9:57of what it comes down to, right? So,9:59that's the new heart. The new heart is10:01to distrust the old one. The new spirit10:03is is not to go back to your old spirit,10:05but the new spirit which God puts in10:07you. Amen. So that's kind of what it10:09comes down to at the end of the day.10:11Yeah. It's very very uh difficult for10:13people to believe that though. That's10:15the issue. What they want is validation.10:18What they want is oh god I want this, I10:20want that. I do you know do things for10:23me. Like it's very difficult when we10:25have that. Okay. Next question.10:28All right. I'm trying to pray to to pray10:31and trust God, but I still don't know if10:32I'm trusting him or myself. Yeah. Yeah.10:34That's a that's good. That's valid. So10:36the way to trust God is no matter what10:39happens, we believe what he says above10:42what we feel. That's what trusting God10:44looks like. It's not really anything10:46huge. I know we're looking for this10:47huge, profound, deep. It's not. Trusting10:50God is simply, hey, I don't feel it, but10:53you said it, though. So, let me just put10:55the math together. If I don't feel10:57something, if I don't feel what you say,11:00does that mean you're wrong, God? No. It11:01means I'm wrong. Simple. Can you ever be11:04wrong, God? No. So right now I feel like11:07you're wrong though. So who's right11:09though, right? I don't think it's wine.11:11I don't think it's wine. You said it's11:14water. You I say it's water. You say11:15it's wine. I'm looking at it. It's w11:18It's water. It's in six water pots.11:20These are servants, right? At the11:21wedding at Canaa, right? I touch it.11:23It's water. I taste it. It's water. I11:25smell it. It's water. Right. In my11:27experience, it's water. It's in11:28literally six water pots. But you keep11:30saying it's the best tasting wine. You11:32said draw and serve. What's the problem11:34here? I don't see it. But you said it11:37though. So, do I believe or do I not11:39believe? Which one? I choose to believe11:41you then. Okay. Right now, I'm feeling11:43depressed and lonely. But you're telling11:45me, "Rejoice always. I'm with you till11:48the ends of the earth." Yeah. I don't11:50feel like you're with me right now,11:51though. I feel like you've In fact, I11:53feel like you've abandoned me. I feel11:55like you're punishing me. God says, "I11:58don't punish you. I love you." No, but I11:59feel punished right now. Do you12:01understand? Right. So, who's right then?12:04So then who's right? It's very simple.12:07Can it's either you're right and God is12:09wrong or God is right and you're you are12:10wrong. This is what what it comes down12:13to at the end of the day. Even we know12:16this, right? The problem is like we just12:20keep making excuses. Amen. Then what12:23you're going to do is I'm sorry to say12:24you're just going to struggle. You're12:26going to struggle until you go, man. For12:29for real though, God is real. So I'm I'm12:31I'm not a motivational speaker. I have12:33to be honest with you guys. If you have12:35that energy, yeah, but God, instead of12:39but God, you go, yeah, but God, I'm12:43still struggling. Yeah, but God, I still12:46this. I still that. Then I'm sorry to12:48say, you have faith towards your12:50situation more than you have faith12:51towards God. And there's no one in this12:53world or even in the Bible who's ever12:56had faith opposite of God who are happy.12:59People have faith in their fear. They13:02have faith in their anxiety.13:04They trust in their situations and13:05circumstances. They do everything to not13:07trust God. If you look throughout the13:10Bible, all those people who didn't trust13:12God, who followed what they saw and they13:14felt, they either died or they were so13:17miserable that they they were just13:20surviving. They weren't even thriving.13:22They were just existing. Like this is13:24what the Bible shows us, right? Like13:27that's just kind of what it is at the13:28end of the day. Amen. But people don't13:31care about that, right? We we we all13:34have our heart postures like this.13:36That's the issue. So, you know, your13:39questions are only usually for yourself.13:43Amen. Make sense, right? You want to13:46know the unlocks. You want to keep, you13:48know, if you guys think you're spamming13:50while I'm speaking about stuff that's13:52biblical, right? Like, I'm sorry to say,13:55like, you don't care about what we're13:57saying, right? you don't have listening13:59skills and then I can't sit there and14:01talk to you then it's just I'm gonna14:02waste my time like respectfully right14:06guys. Amen. It's just just God honest14:09truth guys. Everything I'm answering14:12here is always foundational. Amen.14:14Right. See these people got mental14:17illnesses for real. Keep on doing the14:19same thing. It's it's a mentally ill14:21issue. Right. It's like I don't care14:23what you say. I only care what I say.14:25That's a problem guys.14:27Amen. Understand what I'm saying? Right?14:31We just want big brain situations,14:34right? All we want is I want to know14:36this. I want to know that. No, you're14:38not even saved. Do you even care about14:41that? What if I was to teach you guys14:43the three levels of heaven, which there14:45are, the three books of Enoch, which14:48there are. What if I was to teach you14:50pre-trip, midrip, postrip? You'd eat it14:52up. Absolutely. Right. But what if I was14:55to show you right that you don't you're14:58not even saved?15:00If you know all of those things, do you15:02even care? Does that matter if you're15:04saved or not? Let's say let's say you15:07don't let's say you know everything15:09about the levels of heaven. Let's say15:11you know everything about pre-trip,15:13midrip, post-trip, let's say, right15:14guys? But you're not saved. Would you15:16want you want that instead? Or do you15:19guys want like the thief on the cross15:21who didn't even know anything about15:23preerttrip, midrip, post-trip? Didn't15:25even confess biblically correctly,15:27right? What what what did he confess? He15:29didn't say, "I was a sinner and prayed15:30the sinner's prayer." He didn't even15:32profess Jesus as his Lord and Savior,15:35right? Respectfully, we don't even know15:37what he what he repented from. We just15:38know that he's a sinner and he was a15:40thief. We don't even know who he stole15:42from because he didn't confess it. So,15:44what did what it's not recorded, right?15:47But yet at the same time he doesn't know15:50preerttrip. He doesn't know midrip. He15:52doesn't know Enoch. He doesn't know how15:53Enoch ascended, where he ascended. He15:56doesn't know the three levels are sh15:57geenna and hades had he doesn't know any16:01of those things. He doesn't know who16:02John the Baptist is. Understand what I'm16:05saying? He didn't want to hear the16:06deeper meanings of John the Baptist like16:08the one that comes before Jesus with16:09repent and how there is a contrast with16:11after Jesus's death and resurrection. He16:13didn't know that. Right. What else? What16:14else? Let me see. Right? You guys got16:17that? He didn't know whether Jesus said,16:20"None has ascended except he who16:21descended." So where did Enoch and16:23Isaiah go? He didn't know that. He16:25didn't know when Zipper cut the foreskin16:28of her son and placed it at the feet of16:30Moses, which prevented God from killing16:32him in Exodus 4:25-26. He doesn't know16:34what that mean. Understand what I'm16:36saying? He doesn't. But yet, he's the16:39one that Jesus told specifically, "Today16:42you shall be with me in paradise." Amen.16:46Amen. Interesting, right? Interesting,16:49right? See, the thing about us is we16:51claim to be followers of Christ, but we16:53always want our own heart posture. Even16:56if it's mixed in with Jesus. Amen.16:59That's what we want, right? Watch this.17:02Okay, I'll show you. I'll show you. Hey17:04guys, you guys all need to preach the17:06gospel cuz if you don't, you're going to17:08burn in hell. And the reason why I17:11preach the gospel is, yes, of course, I17:12love Jesus Christ, but I also don't want17:14to burn in hell. And I want to see every17:16one of you guys in heaven. Did you catch17:18that? Did you catch my heart posture?17:21Why am I telling you guys to preach the17:22gospel? Because I love Jesus17:25because I'm scared. I'm scared to burn17:28in hell. Understand? Watch this17:30question. Hey, brothers and sisters, can17:34you guys teach me something? Can you17:35guys teach me how to preach to other17:37brothers and sisters? Because I really17:39struggle with it. And I know that if I17:40don't make disciples of many nations,17:43I'll burn in hell. And I don't feel17:45validated because God said, "Guys, God17:47said, "Seek, you shall find. I've been17:50seeking and I haven't been finding. I17:52have no disciples." So guys, please help17:54me. Help me so that I of course I love17:56Jes. And remember guys, Jesus told us to17:58do this, so we have to do it. Guys, I18:00want to be exalted. Understand?18:03Understand? Right there. Would I18:05wouldn't I be an idiot to be like, or18:07wouldn't you guys be crazy to be like,18:09"Yes, Johnny, be faithful. step out and18:12encourage that behavior, you guys will18:14probably go to hell with me. Do you18:16understand what I'm saying? Make sense?18:18Right? If someone and and people have18:20done this in the in the mentorship18:22classes, Johnny Chang, I want to preach18:25to my friends. Why do you want to preach18:26to your friends? Oh, you know, because I18:29have to be a faithful, humble servant,18:31and I'm afraid that when Matthew 7:21-2318:34comes, not everyone who says, "Lord,18:36Lord, shall enter my kingdom." And he18:38says, "Depart from me." I don't want to18:39hear those words, Johnny. So, how do I18:41preach to my friends right there? Are18:43they really preaching for the love of18:45the gospel or the fear of hell? Which18:47one? And if you don't think that's a18:49problem, there's a problem there.18:51Because God said, "I don't give you a18:53spirit of fear." Fear is not from God.18:55Do you understand what I'm saying,18:57brothers and sisters? Right? That's the18:59problem with people. Why do you watch19:02this? Watch this. I'm going to give you19:04guys this. Let's see if you can read my19:05heart posture. Hey guys, I really want19:08to learn scripture and I want to be able19:09to quote scripture like you. Let's say19:11uh let's say uh Zeke. Zeke here. I want19:16to let's say Zeke has read the Bible 2719:19times, 28 times, 40 times, 50 times,19:21let's say, and he can quote scripture19:23off top. So watch this. Watch this19:24question, okay? Hey, Zeke, can you give19:27me some pointers on how to quote19:28scripture like you? How do you memorize19:30scripture?19:32And then he goes, why do you want to19:34memorize? Oh, you know, it's just so19:35that like when I preach in front of19:36people, I I be able to I look like I19:38know what I'm talking about. Like I19:40genuinely love the Bible and I genuinely19:42want to like just know scripture right19:45there. What's the heart? Amen.19:46Exaltation, right? Amen. Let me ask you19:50guys something. How many scriptures did19:52it take for you to receive salvation?19:56One, maybe two, maybe three. Why do you19:59need to quote scripture? Because you20:00care about what you look like in front20:02of people. You want to walk the talk,20:04talk the talk, not for Jesus, for you.20:07Understand what I'm saying? How many20:08scriptures did the thief on the cross20:10quote? Not even one. Amen. Amen. And how20:14much scripture do you need to know about20:16the gospel of Jesus Christ? He died for20:18your sins, resurrected, he's your Lord20:20and Savior. You don't need to know any20:22scripture for that. So why do people ask20:25these things? Because they're leaking.20:27Cuz they want to know. Cuz they care20:30only about themselves. Do you guys20:32understand? And you think that that's20:34that's that's Christlike. You guys don't20:36know how much I've studied. I don't20:38think you guys actually can fathom and20:39grasp. I know a lot. I used to debate20:43people genuinely. And I would eat their20:47lunch. They were they were food to me.20:51Hebrew Israelites, everybody. It's20:53nothing. They don't they're they're20:56easy. It's easy to overtake them when20:57you understand the scripture for real.20:59Understand? But you know what that was21:02doing to me? All that was making me was21:05boosted during that time. I didn't even21:08know that I had pride. Do you know what21:10I hid behind? What? I'm supposed to be21:12studied. 2 Timothy 2:15 says, "Study to21:14show yourself approved." What's wrong21:15with that? I have to rightly divide the21:17word of truth. What do you mean? It21:18puffed me up. And you guys are begging21:20me to to do that to you. Oh my goodness.21:23No thanks. Understand what I'm saying?21:26You're begging me to teach you to do21:28those things to unlock those things for21:30you. I'm a shepherd. I'm not going to21:32lead you that way. I know these other21:34people do, and I know these other people21:35are all exalted, but I'm not trying to21:37do that to you. I have to answer for you21:39guys in front of God. Want me to show21:41you? Hebrews 13:7, Hebrews 13:17. I'll21:45show you. I have to answer for the21:47congregation. Are you kidding me? James21:493:12, watch. Read it carefully here.21:52Okay. Remember them which have the rule21:54over you who have spoken unto you the21:56word of God. So my job is in in ruling21:58over is to speak the word of God whose22:00faith has to follow. My faith has to22:02follow what I speak concerning the end22:04of my conversation. Their conversation22:06verse right 17 read it carefully. Obey22:08them that have the rule over you and22:10submit yourselves. You guys have to obey22:11me. Submit right? Not in a cult-like22:13way. Scripture says this for they watch22:16for your souls. So I have to watch for22:18your souls as they must give account.22:20Understand? that they may do it with joy22:23and not with grief. For it is22:24unprofitable for you, my brethren. Be22:26not many masters, knowing that we shall22:28receive the greater condemnation.22:30This is called discipling. This is22:33called stewardship. This is called22:36fellowshipping. This is called leading.22:38[snorts] Do you understand what I'm22:39saying, brothers and sisters? Amen.22:42Right. I'm finally bringing after22:44service to Europe this June. After22:46service is a free live event where22:48you're going to get a sermon from me, a22:50live Q&A, a meet and greet, and22:52basically we're bringing the online22:54community offline for you guys to come22:56and fellowship. I'm coming to Stockholm,22:58Sweden June 4th, which is a Thursday.23:00And we're hitting also Amsterdam, which23:03is Saturday, June 6th, and Sunday, June23:057th. For times, locations, and details,23:07RSVP through email link in the23:10description. I'm super [clears throat]23:11excited to see you guys there. Pack it23:13out, tell your friends. Let's go. So let23:16me explain to you guys, right? Let me23:18explain something to you guys. If you're23:19asking this question, it's already going23:21to be selfish. Watch. Watch. So in23:23Ephesians 6:10 to18, one of the things23:25mentioned was the sword of the spirit,23:26word of God. So with with memorizing23:29scripture, how exactly do we obtain23:31spiritual scriptural knowledge without23:33selfish gain? You saying you don't want23:35to be selfish is already selfish. Let me23:38explain why. Because now you're trying23:40to humble yourself. Do you understand?23:44Never thought about it that way, right?23:46Okay, Johnny, how do I get myself out of23:48depression? That's you saving yourself23:51out of depression. You're not the23:53savior. Even that little bit we can't23:56catch. Do you guys understand what I'm23:58saying? Pretty pretty pretty wild,24:00right? We we you trusting in yourself to24:02get yourself out of yourself is still24:04you saving yourself out of yourself.24:07Understand? No one's teaching you this24:09cuz they don't care. They don't care24:11about your soul. They care about views.24:13They care about the pulpit. They care24:14about your butt in the pews. They don't24:16care about you. We're here. We have to24:18teach you through structure. We have to24:21teach you guys these things. Understand?24:23We have to as a true shepherd. I can't24:25just sit there and be like, "Oh yeah,24:28watch me cook." Like, I'm not going to24:29do that. We have to look at Jesus. Eyes24:32on the prize. It's Jesus Christ. Amen.24:35Right. Give me the unlock. Why do I need24:37you to We need to unlock Jesus Christ in24:40everything. We have to fully surrender.24:42And to answer your question now that24:44we've corrected it foundationally, John24:465:39. So you said right, how do I keep24:49it so that I don't get high-hearted24:52essentially? Very simple. John 5:39,24:56Luke 4:24 and 40 uh 44, right? Search25:00the scriptures, for in them you think25:01you have eternal life, and they are they25:03which testify of me. When you read25:05scripture, scripture is not about you.25:08Okay? Who is it about? Jesus Christ when25:10you read Luke 24:27 and beginning at25:13Moses meaning Moses wrote the Torah25:15right five words amen brothers and25:17sisters right let's say right he25:19expounded unto them all the scriptures25:21and all the prophets the things25:23concerning himself we see that right25:25make sense brothers and sisters right25:28amen [snorts] right make sense so at the25:32end of the day it still answers the same25:34question John I'm sorry Luke 24:44 says25:37the same and he said unto25:39These are the words which I spake unto25:41you while I was yet with you that all25:42things must be fulfilled which were25:44written in the law of Moses Moses right25:46old testament in the prophets all the25:48prophets and in the psalms concerning me25:51so all of the old testament what he's25:53saying is about me so when you preach25:56the gospel if you're listening all of it25:59has to be about Jesus but what questions26:01am I receiving but don't I want to learn26:04more I want to learn more about the26:05Bible right and these are the verses on26:07how you learn more. It's not about26:09yourself. It's about Jesus. You don't26:11need to learn more about anything. You26:13need to point to Jesus who knows26:14everything. That's what I'm saying,26:17right? We're answering positionally,26:20foundationally from a foundational26:22position. Do you guys understand what26:24I'm saying? Right? That's just kind of26:27what it is. 100% Joey, that's a very,26:30very big unlock. He said, "It's so funny26:32and sad actually because when you hear26:34the true gospel, almost every preaching26:36you hear goes through a different lens26:37and you see how everything is feelings26:38based." Amen. That's what it is. Make26:42sense? That's the problem. But y'all26:44come in here, especially new people.26:46Trust me, I've seen it with this heart26:49of like I can be humble if I want to.26:52You can do nothing. You don't believe in26:54the word. I would I would I would argue,26:56are you even saved? John 15:5. How do I27:00humble myself? How do I make sure that I27:03pass on this non-ill intent to people?27:06You can't even do that respectfully. If27:08you could, you wouldn't ask me. You27:09would do it. You can't do it. And trying27:11is not doing. Make sense? So when you27:14look at John 15:5, look, I am the vine,27:16you are the branches. He that abideth in27:18me and I in him, the same bringeth forth27:20much. For without me, you can do27:22nothing. I mean, is he lying or is he27:25speaking figuratively or I don't27:27understand. Is he just like what does he27:29say when he says you can't do anything?27:32Understand what I'm saying? Make sense?27:34Right. And you're implying that I don't27:35understand the question, but I'm talking27:36about your heart, right? I wasn't asking27:39the question for me, brother. Yeah. And27:40brother, I'm telling you, you're not27:41listening. You think I'm not listening.27:44Understand? Don't harden your heart just27:46cuz you don't like my tonality. Make27:47sense? Listen carefully to what I'm27:49saying. I said I'm answering things27:51foundationally,27:52right? In front of God. It doesn't27:54You're like those people who use ill27:56intent. You understand what I'm saying?27:58Because you're asking the question27:59pertaining to you too. Even if it's28:01about other people, why are you asking28:02that question? Cuz it's for you is what28:04I'm saying. Make sense? Don't get if28:07you're not, if you guys are going to get28:08mad cuz I answer your question, don't28:10get mad I don't answer it your way. Make28:12sense, brothers and sisters. Type all28:14you want. I'm just telling you it's for28:16you. This has nothing to do with me. If28:19you don't if you can't handle the28:20answer, then don't ask the question.28:23Make sense? We're not We're not28:26misunderstanding.28:27Make sense? Understand what I'm saying?28:30Right? And I said, "Why you're28:31confused?" Amen. I'm said because you're28:33not listening. That's what I'm saying.28:36Right, guys? We don't listen. That's the28:38number one issue. And it's not a28:41problem. It's not a problem. But you do28:44understand that if you don't listen,28:46you're not going to be able to gain28:47anything. You guys got that, right?28:50Amen. cuz you're going to filter28:52everything through your listening. Then28:54then I'm cooked. Cuz I could say the28:56most bomb thing and you're like, "But28:59what the hell? Like that wasn't nice and29:00I don't even know what you're saying29:02right now." It doesn't matter. It's29:04almost like I'm speaking a different29:06language. I don't understand Russian. A29:08guy could be spitting bars in Russian29:10and I'm like, "What? What are you saying29:12right now? I don't even care what you29:13what like do do you guys understand what29:15I'm saying right now? Foundationally29:18then, how do we listen? Can I show you29:21guys how we're able to listen? Right? By29:23understanding one thing and asking29:25yourself one question. How have I led my29:28life? I've listened to myself all of my29:32life. I even thought that I was29:34listening to God all of my life. And yet29:37I have depression, loneliness, anger,29:39frustration, struggling, spiraling,29:42etc. And even if you don't have that, I29:44have this emptiness that I can't really29:46understand. Ah, everything's doing fine.29:48Why? How come I can't? I'm just not as29:50happy. Understand what I'm saying,29:52brothers and sisters? Amen. Right. But29:55people don't listen. Understand? Amen.29:59People think on a surface level even30:01that just because we're giving people30:03credit, watch this. Okay, let's see if30:05you're listening.30:07On a surface level, they think Johnny,30:10because you did this and this for me,30:11watch. Okay, I'm addressing this comment30:13here. on a surface level that because30:17they're giving out compliments to30:18people, they think that that's what it30:20means to read and grow. Guys, you can30:23read the Bible a million times and still30:27have no heart to listen to God. Just so30:29you I'm just letting you know. I'm just30:31letting you know. And I'll explain who30:33does this. The Pharisees. Do you know30:36who was praising Jesus when he first30:38came into town and they were laying all30:41of the things down at his feet? You30:43know, you guys heard this, right?30:44Hosana. Hosana. You heard this before,30:46right? When he was riding on the on the30:47donkey, you know who was praising him?30:49The Pharisees?30:52Praising him on Friday, crucifying him,30:54right? At the end of it, right?30:56Beautiful, huh? That's the problem with30:59people. That's the problem with people,31:01right? This is the prophet that God31:03said. Got it. Here's the unlock here.31:07Right. This is the prophet that God sent31:10who comes from Jerusalem, who comes from31:12Galilee, the Galilean, right? Whatever.31:14Whatever. Jesus of Nazareth, right?31:18Let's say, right? And then what did they31:21realize about him? He rode in on a what?31:25Donkey. Not a waror.31:28Donkey was is like dumb, right? Not this31:31prestigious31:33horse, but a donkey. Okay. H there's a31:37there's a little bit of huh kind of31:38weird.31:40Oh, he's going to overthrow Rome. He is31:42the Messiah that's going to come and31:44lift us out of our sins. It says out of31:47our oppression. It says now Jesus, did31:50he lift us out of our oppression? Yes.31:54But do you guys know that those Jewish31:56people that at that time were oppressed31:58by Nero, by Caesar, right? They were32:02getting oppressed by Rome. So what was32:04their logic and their filter? Ah, when32:07Jesus comes, he's going to lift me,32:10right? And us out of the control of32:14Rome. So they saw him as like a war32:16general, right? Amen. They thought he32:19was the war general. But when he came,32:22do you know what he preached? Peace,32:25gospel,32:26turn the other cheek, pray for your32:28enemies. And what happened to them? And32:31then he preached, I can forgive sins. I32:34love God and you guys don't love God and32:37you don't know God and you need to32:39follow me. And what did they do? They32:42crucified him. Make sense? Now you think32:46that's just the Pharisees? That's you32:49and me. Understand what I'm saying?32:52Yeah. Wow. I'm following these people.32:54Okay, cool. Okay, cool. Wow, he did an32:56unlock. All right, pastor. Now, I want32:59to get on your level. I want to be able33:01to exedge scripture, make things simple,33:03and I want to get on that level cuz33:04people will uplift me. I see how many33:05people follow you. I want people to33:07follow me, too. Okay? And I want to be a33:09good Christian because that's what we're33:10called to do. Now, let me see. And then33:13Johnny goes, "Nope. No speak of English.33:16Only speak of the gospel, no speak of33:18anything, and no speak of works. Only33:20speak of the gospel knees. Sorry. Only33:22skipping at the gospel." Oh, well, I was33:26just asking a question for like other33:28people. Okay. It wasn't. Do you33:31understand now? Right. It becomes this33:34right? Amen. You guys got that right?33:37That's the problem. Y'all read the Bible33:39to to uplift yourself. You have to read33:42the Bible to edify the gospel. And the33:45gospel is very simple, brothers and33:47sisters. It's Jesus Christ died for your33:49sins, who knew no sin, became sin for33:51you, was delivered for your offenses,33:53raised again for your justification.33:54That's all you have to do. Amen. Hold on33:56real quick. Let me remove this person33:58over here. Just you see what I'm saying?34:00Like people are just burnt out. Gibson,34:02see you later, buddy. Right. Right.34:06People are only here for what?34:08Knowledge. Knowledge. Amen. Now, why34:12would I give you guys knowledge that's34:15going to destroy you and take your mind34:18off of Jesus and onto yourself and34:20realize how smart you are and amazing34:22you are? Why would I do that? Are you34:25asking me guys, asking me to curse you34:27guys? Do you know what the Bible says to34:30grow in? Huh? What do you guys think the34:33Bible says to grow in? Very simple. I'll34:35show you guys. Okay. Right here. Very34:37simple. Okay. Second Peter 3:18 says,34:40"But grow in grace and in the knowledge34:42of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To34:44him be the glory now and forever. Amen."34:46Right? So, who who who are we growing34:50in?34:52The knowledge and the grace of what?34:54Jesus Christ. Do you understand what I'm34:57saying? So the next time you guys ask,34:59right? The next time you guys ask, it's35:01very simple. Whatever questions you guys35:04that you have that are asking, you're35:06asking, just know one thing. It points35:08to Jesus. Every single thing points to35:10Jesus. Every single thing. Everything35:13from Revelation to Malachi to everything35:16points to Jesus. But what do you want to35:17do? You just want that. You just want35:20that unlock. Do you guys understand what35:22I'm saying? Good. Good. Very good.35:25You're destroying me. No, no, no. That's35:26not what I'm trying to do. I want to35:27break you down to build you guys up,35:29man. What kind of heart is that, bro?35:32Honestly, what kind of heart is that,35:33guys? Right, let's say, right? Where35:35we're sitting there and we're just like,35:37"Yeah, I don't care about Jesus. I just35:38want to know more information. I don't35:40care about relation. Give me more35:42information so I can boost myself and35:44then pepper Jesus into that so that I35:47can look great." Y'all really want me to35:49make you a Pharisee, huh? You guys do35:51though, lowkey. Lowkey. The ones who ask35:53these questions, you do. You want to35:55know what's up. That's what you want. I35:58am not going to make you a Pharisee.36:00You're already ferocical in itself. Make36:02sense, brothers and sisters. That's the36:04unlock, right? I never point to me,36:07right? I love you guys, obviously. But I36:10need to be clear about one thing because36:13I care about you guys and your souls.36:15I'm not the savior. I'm not the36:16mediator. I'm I'm not even the one who36:18God sent to replace your relationship36:20with him. I am a servant. I am a swer. I36:23am a messenger. But the G but Jesus is36:25the message. Watch. I'll show you guys,36:28right? 1 Corinthians chapter 3, chapter36:313 6-7 is a really good verse here.36:34Watch. So why I say this is cuz you guys36:37have to realize that you're nothing.36:39Amen. 1 Corinthians 3 6-7. I planted,36:43Apollos watered, but God gave the36:45increase. Read read this part right36:46here. This is for all of us here, myself36:48included. So then neither is he that36:50planteth anything, neither he that36:51waterth. None of those two people are36:53nothing. The people who help you are36:55nothing, myself included, but God that36:58giveth the increase. So what's the most36:59important thing? God. Understand what37:02I'm saying? Make sense, brothers and37:04sisters? Make sense? Right? Amen. You37:08guys got that right? So this verse Paul37:11says, "The planter is nothing. The water37:13is nothing. God gives an increase." That37:15doesn't mean the servant has no role. It37:17means the servant is not the source of37:19that role. It's God. Understand? A lot37:22of people mistake the person who helped37:24them see God for God himself. That is37:27normal in a wounded heart. When somebody37:30finally explains grace the way I do,37:32your heart can attach to the messenger.37:35But the messenger did not bleed for you.37:36I didn't bleed for you. The messenger37:38did not rise from the grave. I didn't37:40rise from the grave. The messenger did37:42not seal you with the Holy Spirit. He37:44did. And I definitely didn't remove your37:46sins. Right? Jesus did. So, honor the37:48servant. Yes, but worship the savior. Do37:50you guys understand what I'm saying37:51here? That's what a real servant does.37:53Y'all want to be the servant because you37:56think the servant gets praised. I'm37:57saying he doesn't. It says right here in37:59the Bible, the servant and me and you38:00are nothing. We're nothing. Understand38:02what I'm saying? So, I'm saying this38:04with love. I am thankful that God uses38:06me in this ministry. I am thankful that38:08some of you feel seen, heard,38:10understood, you know, recognized,38:12relatable, all that. Especially here in38:14Core of the Heart. But I need to make38:16something very clear, right? Do not38:19idolize me. Do not make me the person38:21you depend on more than Jesus for38:22scripture, for unlocks, for anything. Do38:24not make me my voice louder than the38:26word. Do not make this community your38:28God. Understand what I'm saying? I am38:31not the one who saved you. Jesus is. I'm38:33not the one who's going to give you38:34unlocks. Jesus does. Right? I'm not the38:38one who sustains you. Jesus does. Right?38:41Make sense? Because the moment you make38:44a messenger like me your source, you38:47will eventually get hurt. Do you38:48understand what I'm saying? You will38:50eventually get hurt. Oh, he was so nice38:52to me. And then all of a sudden, what38:53happened? You will start sending creepy38:56messages to me. Oh, you you God made you38:59for me, Johnny. What? Right? Thinking39:02that it's all good and it's okay. Like,39:05how weird is that, bro? Right? You will39:08get banned. It's that simple. Make39:11sense, brothers and sisters? Right.39:13Amen. Right. Right. And I love Paul,39:16man. That's why I love Paul. Here,39:17watch. Let me show you guys. I think39:20it's uh let me double check here. 139:22Corinthians 12:13-14. I love Paul. I'm39:25saying the same thing Paul is saying.39:27Ready? Watch this. Okay. Now, this I say39:30that every one of you saith, I am of39:32Paul, and I am of Apollos, and I am from39:35Cphus, and I have and I of Christ. Is39:38Christ divided? Was Paul crucified for39:41you or were you baptized in the name of39:43Paul? Bro is so gangster. I love Paul.39:47Paul is saying what are you idolizing39:50me? Was Johnny crucified for you? No.39:52Was Pastor Johnny buried for your sins?39:54No. Is Pastor Johnny your spiritual39:55husband? Absolutely not. Did Pastor39:58Johnny rise again on the third day? No.40:00Why are you building right? Why you get40:03angry at me? Because you build that on40:04me. Amen. Johnny, you but I'm I You40:08inspire me. I'm trying to learn. I'm No.40:11I'm pointing you to Jesus. You guys40:13understand now, right? Amen, brothers40:15and sisters. You guys got that, right?40:19Did I rely too much on Pastor Kim? No.40:21You know why? He wouldn't allow me to.40:23Just like I'm not allowing you guys to.40:25Hello. You're so smart. Can't figure40:27that out.40:29Where do you think all of this energy40:31comes from? I walked it, too. Amen.40:35Amen. If my voice, my teachings, my40:38unlocks become louder than scripture in40:40your life, I have failed you.40:42Understand, brothers and sisters, I have40:45failed you. If that's the case, how's40:48that for being real? Right. Right. My40:51job is to not make you guys loyal to me40:54or unlock things for you. You guys know40:56what I want you guys to do. My goal, my40:59job is to make you more rooted in41:01Christ. So, so kill me just cuz I won't41:05unlock things for you. Okay, but that's41:07not on me. I'm supposed to do that. I'm41:10supposed to sit there and go, "Hey, it41:12ain't about all of that. Focus on41:14Jesus." I know, but I'm just asking, you41:17know, the the the question because it's41:19like, dude, why can't you just take a L?41:22Understand, guys? Make sense? Why can't41:25we just hold the L? Like, yo, okay,41:27fine. Yeah, bro. I I All right, fine.41:30Amen. Right? I'm not here to unlock41:33anything but Jesus Christ. That's it for41:35you guys. Okay?41:38That's just what it is. We we we read it41:41today. 1 Corinthians 3, the water, the41:44planter and the water, Apollos and the41:47planter, Paul, they're nothing. It says,41:50"But God who gives the increase, that's41:52who matters. That's who's the substance.41:54That's what's going to substain you,41:57right?" Okay. That's just the truth42:00here. So yeah, people, you know, they42:02they do that and it's normal. I get it,42:05right? But not everyone's trying to42:07idolize people on purpose. That's42:09unintentional, right? But the thing is42:11they're they're wounded and then oh,42:13they finally you guys feel seen. You42:16finally say, oh, somebody explains God42:18in a way that we understand they42:19understand me and then your mind starts42:21to go haywire. Understand what I'm42:23saying? You start to feel abandoned42:25after that. But I'm just keeping it42:27real, though. I know what it is, guys. I42:28have compounded trauma. I can't speak42:31about this unless I've been through it.42:33Do you guys understand what I'm saying?42:35I know what it is, right? I tried to42:38make Pastor Kim my dad cuz I didn't have42:41a real dad. And you know what he told42:42me? Your real father is God. Stop42:44freaking leaning on me. I was like, "You42:46don't love me." Started getting mad. You42:49don't love me. You You lied to me. You42:52love bombed me. Like, what the hell,42:54dude? The hell's wrong with you, bro?42:57Understand? So trust me, I know what it42:59is. I know what time it is. You orce you43:02spoke to me so harshly today. What? What43:05do you mean? I could speak to you43:06however I want respectfully. Go to God43:08if you have a problem. What the the43:11servant of God must not strive and be43:13meek and be nice and be Yeah. And you're43:16a servant of God, too. The servant of43:18God should not idolize other people,43:19too. Which43:22like a little little kid, bro. Straight43:25up. You understand what I'm saying?43:28Right? You're not going to win. The one43:30thing about people who are really,43:32really good at preaching the gospel and43:34know the scripture is you're doomed.43:36You're cooked. Understand what I'm43:38saying? You're cooked. You think you can43:41outar argue someone who understands43:42scripture, you're literally going to get43:44cooked, bro. You're just going to be in43:46your feelings. That's it. You43:48understand, right? And we don't talk43:50about feelings here. We talk about faith43:52and scripture, right? Guys, I just want43:55you guys to grow in that way. That's all43:56I'm saying. [snorts]43:58You understand, brothers and sisters?44:00Y'all want to grow or you guys want to44:01sit there and just be like, "Feelings,44:03feelings, feelings, feelings. Edify me,44:04edify me. All about me, me, me. I I I."44:07No, it's not about Jesus. I'm not a44:08Christian. I'm a Misin and a44:11core of the core of the fart. Cult of44:15the heart. That's what it would turn44:16into. Not core of the heart. Cult of the44:19heart. Core of the fart, right? It would44:22just be, you know, pelito. Understand44:26what I'm saying? Amen. Right. Okay.44:30Nobody told me that faith would be this44:32lonely. I thought when I gave my life to44:34God, everything would just click.44:35Community, peace, direction. A lot of us44:38are out here just trying to figure it44:39out alone. Your family thinks it's a44:41phase. You go to church on Sunday,44:42you're smiling, and then on Monday,44:44reality hits and you're back alone in44:46your home in your thoughts. I know44:48exactly what that's like. I got out of44:50prison at the age of 25. I didn't have a44:52church home. I didn't have friends. I44:54didn't even really have family to back44:55me up. I had God. I had a Bible. But44:57more importantly than anything, I had a45:00pastor who I could lean on to ask45:01questions and to just receive mentorship45:03and have fellowship with. And the thing45:05that changed everything for me wasn't45:06just studying alone. It was actually45:08having someone I could bring my real45:10questions to. Not the Sunday school45:11questions, the real ones, the ones that45:14keep you up at night. The ones that make45:15you feel unworthy because you can't45:17figure it out on your own. Therefore,45:19you feel as if you're less of a45:20Christian. That's why every single45:22Saturday at 10 a.m. Pacific Standard45:23Time, I go live inside the Core of the45:25Heart daily app. First, we do a full45:27Bible class, real teaching, not that45:29surface level stuff. We go super deep.45:31Then we open it up group mentorship. You45:34bring your real questions, not the45:35polished ones, and I answer them with45:37scriptures and honesty based off of real45:39struggles that I went through in my45:40life. You were never supposed to do this45:42alone. And now you don't have to. Bible45:44class every Saturday at 10:00 a.m.45:45Pacific Standard Time. Can't wait to see45:47you guys there. Every main stage is45:49always going to be deep.45:50And it's always going to be humbling,45:53but those who listen, you guys will45:54appreciate it later. Man, I'm so45:56thankful that God utilized Johnny to45:59push me closer to him. That God through46:02Johnny taught me what a real46:04relationship with God is. Yeah. I felt a46:06little sting. Yeah. I felt a little cut.46:08Mhm. He made a couple jokes and it felt46:10like it was some shots thrown at me at46:11at me. But I needed that cuz it's46:13surgery. Y'all don't understand. It's46:15surgery here. Oh, we're gonna cut. We're46:18gonna cut and it's gonna hurt, but it's46:20always to heal. It's never to break you46:22guys down. I'm telling you, it's just46:25true, you know. It's just true. It's s46:27think about it like surgery alignment.46:30But if your heart goes, what makes you46:32validated? What makes you validated to46:34do this and this and this? I will say46:37God and studying and understanding the46:40the heart posture and putting in the 1046:43years of work to learn the Bible, to46:46learn the Hebrew, to learn the Coney46:47Greek, to understand what rabbitic Jews46:49believe, to understand what Messianic46:51Jews believe, to sit there and and grow46:53with each other, to be chastised to46:57death, to go to short-term missionary46:59and live there for 6 months in Liberia,47:00Africa. I would say a lot of these47:02things help us. Amen. I think those47:05things when you weather through those47:07things, you have to but can't help but47:09right respect that. I am here to help47:12you guys. But I'm not here to help you47:14guys in your way. I'm help I'm here to47:17help you guys in God's way. That's what47:19I'm saying. And that's just the real47:21y'all. That's just the real. Amen.47:24That's just the real, right? Amen. I47:27think I need to go to Africa. Amen. You47:30because they don't even have internet47:32connection out there. They eat half a47:34meal to one meal a day and their their47:36dirt their only dessert is sugar cane.47:38They're known for sugar cane, right?47:40You're able to sit here and listen to47:41the gospel no matter how much you're47:44homeless, you don't you have a car loan47:45you can't pay, etc. Like at the very47:48least, you're able to sit and hear the47:50word, right? Like in so many ways,47:53right? You're able to see, oh, I'm47:55really not I'm blessed more than like47:58beyond what I think it is. But I can't48:00say that to you unless your heart48:01posture is right. [snorts] Amen. When I48:04try to, people think we're stupid. Oh,48:07easy for you to say, Johnny Chang,48:10you're you have a house, right? But when48:12I put it in this predicament and I and I48:15put it in this perspective and when your48:17heart reaches this position now, I can48:19say it. You understand, guys? Do you48:21guys know what the most difficult thing48:23for any servant is? is the servant48:26understands the antidote. But we're like48:29kids who don't want to take shots. No,48:33that it hurt me. No, I don't like it.48:35No, don't be nice to me. No. Right. But48:37you need a shot right now. I need to48:39give it to you. No, I don't like it. I48:42don't like it. It hurts. Understand?48:45That's how we are. That's the most48:48difficult thing for any servant who48:51really stewards people is to go, "Man,48:54if they just listen to this thing, I48:55promise you because it's scriptural."48:57They would get the unlock and they would48:59grow. But what are they doing, man? What49:01do you know, dude? No, don't say that to49:02me. I came to you to be nice. Why are49:04you freaking mean to me? See you later.49:05Bye. That's the hardest thing to deal49:07with. You guys understand what I'm49:09saying? Make sense, brothers and49:11sisters? Right? Amen. Right. So, I49:15really hope that you guys can grow,49:17truly truly grow, right? And genuinely49:20like have a relationship with God. Okay,49:23I'll answer your questions now. Now that49:25we set the tone and for people to49:26understand what heart posture is, right?49:29And watch us just resort back to I49:31didn't hear any of that anyways.49:34How do I know if the job I'm going after49:37is from God or not? Here's the thing,49:39right? That hard posture is basically I49:42want to choose the right positioning. I49:44want to choose to do things for God. And49:45that in itself is not inherently evil.49:49Okay. But you're right. How do you know?49:52So what should you do then? If it's not49:55from God, don't you think God would have49:58faith to direct you to the job that he50:01wants you to be at? Let's say I'm50:03supposed to go right, but I end up going50:05left. Isn't God strong enough to lead me50:08back to the right? Or is he just like a50:09puny,50:11you know, beta male God? You think about50:14it in this way, right guys? God is very50:17powerful. Make a decision, move forward,50:19and if it's wrong, oh, you messed up and50:22you were wrong. Story of your life.50:25Amen. How do I move out the way and let50:27God work? Exactly what I'm saying here.50:29Exactly what I'm saying, right? Exactly50:32what I'm saying is to go, "Hey, Lord.50:35Hey, God. I can't get out of my own way,50:38but can you move me out the way?" Yeah.50:42Today, Father God, I surrender my life50:43to you. You move me out the way. Then I50:46can't I can't even get out of my own50:47way. I don't even know which way to go.50:50I genuinely don't even know. You know,50:53it's okay to say, "I don't know." And50:55then God goes, "Good. Now that you don't50:57know, and when I move you, you can't50:58boast like you moved." You can't be51:00like, "Oh my gosh, I'm so obedient. Look51:02at me. I I went to Johnny Chang's Bible51:04class and I learned everything and I51:06heard this and you won't do that." You51:08would go, "Dang, I could do nothing and51:10you helped me." That's all you got, not51:12me. And that's what he's waiting for.51:15For anyone who's asking, "How do I? How51:17do I?" That's the problem. What I'm51:20going to respond with is what can you51:22what can you? So, how do I right do51:25this? And I'm going to go, "What can you51:28do?" That's the difference, right? Make51:31sense? What can I What can I What can I51:35Right? I'm going to be like, "How do you51:37how do you how do you right?" Amen. or51:40vice versa. I'm sorry. If you ask how do51:42I, I'm going to say what can you make51:44sense? I mean, what can you do?51:48Genuinely, I'm not trying to be mean,51:49but what can you do? If you could, you51:50would have did it, right? Right. All51:53right. So, all right, let's read this51:54one. This one's very, very deep. Okay,51:56but it's very simple cuz scripture is51:58already super duper popping up for this52:00one. Okay, before I'm even reading it,52:03I'm looking at 2 Corinthians 5:17.52:05Watch. I'm going to tell I haven't read52:07it yet. Matthew 7:3 is coming up. 252:09Corinthians 5:17 is coming up, right?52:12Okay. These are things that are coming52:15up. Okay. Okay. Now, I don't know why I52:18just quoted it. Let's see. Okay. So, now52:21let's read. My parents are proud Hindus52:24and it's [snorts] a big part of their52:25identity. Going back to India for52:27generations. Pastor tells me to preach52:30the gospel to them. What does that look52:33like? Wow. Nice. God has to heal my52:36heart as I get triggered at my parents'52:38faithfulness. Okay. And their anxious52:40ways and condemning way of talking to me52:42due to their fears. My heart is so quick52:44to judge them. But I am the light of52:46God. So God has to help my heart. I52:50don't want to be quick to judge. I don't52:51want to be frustrated. I don't want to52:54resent and have be resentful towards52:55them. God is allowing this and I'm a new52:57creature. So God is working. I would52:59love your thoughts on what preaching the53:02gospel to my parents look like. [snorts]53:05Okay. So, couple things here. Okay,53:09thank you for sharing that. Preaching53:11the gospel to your parents starts with53:12your heart posture before it ever comes53:15out of your mouth. Understand what I'm53:17saying? Yes, you want them to know about53:19Jesus. That's beautiful. But if your53:22heart posture, which you had mentioned,53:23is triggered, resentful, frustrated, or53:26looking down on them, they will feel53:29that before they hear the gospel. That's53:32what you're going to preach first. Do53:34you understand? And you know that.53:36That's why you're asking this question.53:37Very good. Right. Very good. Now, when53:40you do that and you have that type of53:42heart, now the gospel that comes out of53:44your mouth is going to sound like53:45judgment, not good news. Do you53:47understand? When you say your parents53:49are and their faith, which is Hinduism,53:52it's no longer just a belief. I know53:53Hinduism, it is an identity for them. It53:56is a cultural thing for them. It's a53:58family orientation. It's a generational54:00thing. It's how they literally54:03understand life. So if you being54:07Christian and you thinking you being54:09Christian is not going to attack them by54:11itself, it's already attacking them. Do54:14you understand? Do you understand? It's54:16already you just breathing and saying,54:19"Mom, it's not about Har Krishna Ganesh54:22and it's about Jesus." What? Right54:25there, it's already attacking them. Why?54:28Your existence is already attacking54:31them. Do you understand what I'm saying?54:33[snorts] Right? Cuz here's the issue,54:36right? Right. They're going to think my54:39child is throwing away our identity.54:43It's throwing away our family. That's54:45what they think. That's just how it is.54:48And that's why they try to condemn you54:49because they're mad deep down. Your54:52first sermon is not your words. You know54:56what it is? It's your heart. It's your54:58patience. It's your gentleness. It's55:00your peace. your ability to not react55:04the same way you used to, the same way55:06they assume you're going to, that's what55:09they're going to see. That's what55:10they're going to see. Do you understand55:12what I'm saying? My friends did the same55:14thing to me. We were gang members. That55:16was life. So when they would pick on me,55:19what's up, fool? You You be all of a55:21sudden, what? You believe in that white55:23Jesus? And the first thing I said was,55:25"Bro, he's not even white. He's Jewish.55:26Know the difference, fool? You're55:27uneducated." Oh. Oh, what happened? I55:29thought you were a Christian. Huh? I55:31thought you're Oh. Oh. Uh-oh.55:33Did you guys hear that? I think that55:34sounds like pride. They start doing55:35this. They try to troll me. They're rage55:37baiting me. Why? Cuz they know. They're55:40trying to see. And they're testing me.55:43This guy says he's Christian. Why is he55:44still getting mad the same way he is,55:46though? He's not Christian, bro. This is55:48a phase. This ain't real. Look at him. I55:52scratch him a little bit. He says he's55:53Christian. He's peaceful. And yet me,55:56little old me, gang member, can get him55:58out. can get him out of his, you know,56:00position and get him in his feelings56:02again. Yeah, that's what God does. Why56:06would I follow God then? Do you56:08understand? That's how they think56:09genuinely.56:11Understand what I'm saying, right? Okay.56:14So, we're going to continue here. What56:16did I say, right? Matthew 7:3. And this56:20may be a little harsh to hear, but it56:22came out. That was a thought, so I have56:23to run with it, right? Which was a56:24scripture. I said it before I even read56:26your question, right? In 2 Corinthians56:285:17. If I'm not mistaken, why beholdest56:31thou the moat that is in thy brother's56:33eye, but considerest not the beam in56:35thine own eye? Sister, do you know why56:37I'm saying that? I'm not saying because56:39you judge your family and you think56:41you're better than them. Okay? I'm not56:43saying that. I'm saying if you look at56:45yourself, sister, genuinely, and you56:49grew up in that family genuinely,56:52right? Foundationally speaking, what56:55makes you different than them? Because56:56you have Jesus. Yes, because you have56:59Jesus. But you have to remember that57:01that's the only thing that separates me.57:04I am just like them before. Unequally57:07yolked. I was just like them thinking57:09that this was right. This was right. And57:11maybe it wasn't with Hinduism, but it57:13was definitely with my own thoughts and57:14my feelings. I worshiped my own religion57:17before I worshiped Hinduism. And that57:18religion was self idolatry. Now, what's57:21the difference between us and them?57:23Nothing. Understand what I'm saying?57:25Nothing. Right. Jesus. What's beautiful57:29about Jesus is that he knows us. He57:31knows how we're going to be, but he57:34doesn't judge us. He loves us. Amen.57:37Amen, sister. That's why these57:39scriptures hit you differently, right?57:42Amen. So, think about this for a second.57:45Think about this for a second, right?57:48So, this verse is not talking about57:49ignoring their unbelief and their57:51disrespect. I mean, they disrespected57:53you. But how many times in your heart57:56and even in your actions have you57:57disrespected God and ignored God and57:59thought that your way was better than58:00his way too? Doesn't that level the58:03playing field? Then we did it more to58:05God. That's why it's a beam versus a58:07moat. Right? Do you understand? So we58:10have to check our own heart first58:11because the gospel has to come through58:13humility, not superiority. Do you58:16understand? It has to come through58:18humility. You have to remember where you58:20came from. Yes, you're a new creature. 258:22Corinthians 5:17.58:24But you didn't save yourself. You didn't58:27open your own eyes. You didn't make58:28yourself spiritual. God had mercy on58:31you. That's the only difference. And now58:34we're parading that around. Stupid58:36parents. Idiots. What? Imagine if God58:38had that heart. Stupid Johnny Chang.58:40Stupid. I died for you. Does you not58:42even know? Why do you still join a gang?58:43I I can help. I'm stronger than any58:44gang. He could do that, too. But he58:47doesn't.58:49Amen. Vandu, that's how it is. Amen. You58:53know what's funny? You know why I say58:55the moat thing? Grace should make you58:57softer toward the lost, not harsher cuz59:00you were once lost. That's what I'm59:02trying to say. When I look at my59:04youngsters and they're still carrying59:05gang uh, you know, Glocks and and living59:08that gang life and they got the59:09switchies and they got the extendos and59:10they're over here, you know, shooting at59:12whatever and doing whatever. I don't go59:14stupid little idiots. You know what I59:17think, man? Dude, I was just like that.59:20And I pray and I hope that they don't59:23end up locked up like I was because59:25they're handing out sentences now like59:27candy. They're giving LWAP life without59:30parole like it's nothing. Man, I hope59:32these kids can make it out, man. Cuz59:34shoot, I know how it is. I know that59:37seeking attention and validation, right?59:40There's times where you guys probably I59:42don't know if you've seen it, but early59:44on for the original COTH member, this is59:46before even Cth was Cth, right?59:49my my uh my homies would jump on, my59:52little youngsters would jump on. They59:53would say crazy stuff, right? I'd59:56connect with them and then, you know, I59:58could let them on. They'd [snorts] be59:59throwing gang signs and, you know,1:00:01pointing the gun at the camera and all.1:00:03And I'm like, bro, this is a Christian1:00:04community.1:00:06Understand? It's little kids, man. Wild.1:00:09Understand? Wild, man. Right. And they1:00:13would say crazy stuff like, "Yeah, my1:00:14big homie is a pastor, but don't get it1:00:16twisted. We'll smoke anybody for him."1:00:18Blah. They would say stupid stuff like1:00:19that on a Christian platform. It's so1:00:22incriminating. I'm like, "Yo, you guys1:00:23need to shut up. What the heck did I1:00:25teach you guys? Loose lips, sink ships.1:00:27What you doing?" Understand? Wild kids,1:00:30bro. Wild kids. But why don't I judge1:00:34them? Because I was like that and1:00:36probably worse. I was lost, too. But I1:00:40have faith, though. I have faith that if1:00:43God can save someone like me who's worse1:00:45than them, what can he not do?1:00:49[snorts] That's the difference here,1:00:50Vandu. If that heart comes to you,1:00:52sister, you will not judge your family.1:00:56You would go, you know what? Yeah,1:00:58they're bad, but is that a problem to1:01:01God? Yeah, Johnny Chang was worse. He1:01:04hated Christians. He thought they were1:01:06weak. And now look at them. Amen. Right.1:01:11Right. So in the beginning, say less.1:01:13Don't say so much. Instead, this is what1:01:16I would I would go back and I would say1:01:17this. Hey, I know this is a big part of1:01:19our family, Hinduism. And I'm not trying1:01:21to disrespect you. I just want you to1:01:23know that my life has changed, right?1:01:25I'm not asking you to agree with me1:01:27right now. I'm not even asking you to1:01:28hear me out. Right? And if what I do,1:01:31whether it's sharing Jesus or any of1:01:33those things hurts you, I really1:01:36genuinely apologize. In fact, in front1:01:38of you, I won't talk about Jesus. Right1:01:40there, they're going to go, "What?"1:01:42Because they can't do that with1:01:44Hinduism. They can't come to you and go,1:01:46"Hey, Vanu, respectfully, I know that1:01:48you're happy. I'm not going to talk1:01:49about Hinduism in front of you." They're1:01:50not going to do that. So, when they see1:01:52you lower that pride and go, "Okay, if1:01:55you don't want to hear about Jesus, I1:01:57won't talk about him." That's when1:01:59they're going to see Jesus in you.1:02:00That's when they're going to go, "Oh my1:02:02gosh, this woman would fight us tooth1:02:04and nail judge us." That's when they're1:02:07going to see Jesus in you. Understand?1:02:09Understand? That lowers the wall. And1:02:11then you have to apologize to them. Hey,1:02:13I used to think honestly that faith was1:02:15trying to be good and be spiritual and I1:02:17thought it was pushing it on to you1:02:18guys. And I apologize, Mom. Take them1:02:20out to a really good dinner. And say, I1:02:22realized I need a savior, too. It's not1:02:26just religion, so I'm sorry. See if that1:02:29doesn't crack their hearts. See if that1:02:31doesn't open them up. How's that for1:02:34biblical wisdom for you? Understand? You1:02:36don't start with debates. You don't even1:02:37start with facts. You know what? You1:02:38start with fruit. Start by showing the1:02:42fruit. Start with what God changed in1:02:43you. Not you're wrong, but I was lost.1:02:47Not your religion is false, but God1:02:50showed me that all religion is wrong. I1:02:53couldn't save myself. Do you understand?1:02:56Easy, right? Not easy.1:03:00Not easy, right? Not easy. But if you1:03:04really accept this, you will see you1:03:07will see how God works. Amen.1:03:10>> So if you guys want to go deeper with1:03:12the Bible unlocks and just having these1:03:14biblical resources, guys, we created an1:03:16app called Core of the Heart Daily.1:03:17Every single morning, I write a personal1:03:19daily devotional. It helps you start1:03:21your day with God and make God a habit1:03:23in your life. We also have the King1:03:25James version Bible where you can1:03:26annotate, you can highlight. We also1:03:28have a gospel bot where it's trained on1:03:31my teachings for the past 10 years. All1:03:33my secret notes, my sermons, all the1:03:35lives and the Q&As's, everything is in1:03:37there. So, it will answer your questions1:03:40when you don't have that pastor at 2:001:03:41a.m. in the night time and you're1:03:43spiraling. And check it out, guys, if1:03:44you want to download it. It's on the app1:03:46store called Core of the Heart Daily.1:03:48Link is in the description. Back to the1:03:49episode. I can't teach you guys this1:03:54unless I went through it. I had to do1:03:55that with my dad.1:03:57You think I can preach to my Korean? My1:03:59dad is Korean. Korea has the most cults1:04:02in the world. Did you guys know that it1:04:06has a huge footprint of Christians? My1:04:09dad from a young age has been taught1:04:12that Christians are all about money,1:04:15money, money. So, how you think I'm1:04:17going to preach the gospel to my dad who1:04:19would literally beat my mom when she1:04:21would open the Bible? Did you guys know1:04:23that? Did you know that? How you think I1:04:26talked about Jesus to my dad? Excuse me,1:04:29Mr. Chang, Mr. Papa Chang, do you1:04:33believe in Jesus? Do you know what Jesus1:04:35did for you? You think that's going to1:04:36work? Soon as I mentioned Jesus,1:04:39you know what that means? Sagun, it1:04:42means scam artist. Con artist. Really?1:04:46Oh, the scam artist Jesus. Huh? The con1:04:49artist right there. What if I get mad?1:04:53Right. What if I get mad? What' you say,1:04:56Dad? Man, scam artist, bro. You're an1:04:58alcoholic, bro. You beat mom. You can't1:04:59even handle your liquor. You beat us1:05:02right there. What's going to happen?1:05:03We're going to fight. That's it. And I1:05:06would be right, too. Did he beat my mom?1:05:07Yes. Can he lead his life? Well, no. If1:05:10you don't listen to God and you keep1:05:12saying Jesus is a scam artist, dad,1:05:14you're going to burn in hell. That's the1:05:16truth, too. Is that going to open him1:05:18up, though? Sure. Right. Yeah. Right.1:05:20You understand? That's all pride, too.1:05:24So instead, you know what I did? I went1:05:26to pastor and I did exactly what you1:05:27guys did. Pastor, what do I do? Pastor1:05:30says, "What can you do? Just live. Just1:05:34be happy and you will see God work."1:05:37What?1:05:38That's not going to work. What the What1:05:42the hell you talking about? What? It1:05:45says to go and preach the gospel.1:05:47Johnny, you haven't even read the Bible.1:05:48Shut the faith up. Shut the mouth. You1:05:51don't even know what the hell you're1:05:52talking about. You quote scripture, you1:05:53don't even know what the hell scripture1:05:54is talking about. Shut the mouth. Right.1:05:57Right. Think about it. Okay. Watch.1:06:00Right. And then and then what happened?1:06:04Stop partying. Stop drinking. Stop1:06:06having my homies come over. Stop, you1:06:08know, stepping on and bending bricks and1:06:11stop, you know, hopping around with1:06:13different women and carrying my gun1:06:14around. Literally didn't say anything to1:06:17my dad, right? My dad goes to my mom.1:06:20Yo, what the hell's gotten into Johnny?1:06:24I kid you not. What the hell happened to1:06:26Johnny?1:06:28How come he's not doing a Did he finally1:06:31grow up? That's what he thought at1:06:33first. Oh, he finally wised up. No, but1:06:35then this is kind of weird. Like he1:06:37doesn't do anything. He's not with his1:06:39friends anyway. He's not really like1:06:40He's kind of like just going to church,1:06:42coming back. What the hell? He's growing1:06:43out his hair. I used to be bald. What1:06:46the Oh, he looks pretty handsome. Wow,1:06:49he has like curly wavy hair. That's my1:06:51dad said. Oh, pretty Oh, pretty1:06:52handsome. Oh, okay. Interesting, huh?1:06:56He's not Oh. Oh, interesting. Right. And1:06:59then, right, look at this guy. Dude, are1:07:02you saying Christian shouldn't be1:07:03strapped? Oh my gosh, bro. I'm not even1:07:05finished with my Oh my gosh, dude. Stab1:07:08me with the spoon. Stab me with the1:07:09spoon right now, dude. Stab me with the1:07:12spoon right now. Stab me with the spoon1:07:14right now. Let me just go play on the1:07:16frame. No, no, no, no. Let me go play on1:07:18the freeway right now. I'm going to go,1:07:20guys. I'm going to go make my bed in the1:07:21freeway. Yep. My goodness, dude. Oh my1:07:25gosh, dude. I'm not even I didn't even1:07:27start my freaking I didn't even start my1:07:30freaking thingy, dude.1:07:32I'm kidding, guys. I'm I'm trying to1:07:34make you guys laugh, [laughter] right?1:07:36Trying to lighten the mood here.1:07:39No, no, no. That's not what I'm talking1:07:41about. I'm trying to get to the point1:07:42here because he saw me not carrying a1:07:45gun anymore, which was so vital to me.1:07:48He saw that I stopped throwing house1:07:49parties, stopped bringing home other1:07:51women, and right, he started to see what1:07:54the hell is Johnny doing. He asked my1:07:56mom, you know, my mom, this is where my1:07:58mom came in clutch. My mom realized, oh1:08:01snap, he's asking about Johnny. He knows1:08:05how Johnny is, right?1:08:08And she tells him the truth. You know,1:08:11he's been receiving guidance from our1:08:13pastor. He's like, "Who?" Kim Chongyong1:08:15Moa, which means pastor Kim? Yeah. What?1:08:20How come he's listening to him? He don't1:08:21never listen to me, man. Who is this guy1:08:24right there? It piqued his interest. He1:08:26went to church. He got saved. He went to1:08:29church. He started looking. Hey, who's1:08:30this Pastor Kim? Hey, Pastor Kim. What1:08:32did you do? Pastor Kim told him the1:08:33truth. No, I just, you know, I really1:08:36care about Johnny. really. And at the1:08:38end of it, you know what he said? I like1:08:40this pastor Kim. He's not like all those1:08:42fake pastors. That's what he said. I1:08:44could genuinely sense that he was real.1:08:46I was like, "Facts. That's my pastor.1:08:48Big dog. Let's go." I like him. My dad1:08:51never likes anybody. My dad is the type1:08:53of dude, he's a Asian dad. Super1:08:56critical. My dad will go to the best1:08:59restaurant. I took him to go eat1:09:00unlimited sushi with like grade A1 level1:09:04sushi. Cost like 80 bucks ahead. And1:09:06he's like, "Uh, it's really good." Until1:09:09he heard the price. I said, "Dad, you1:09:12know how much?" Well, he asked me, he1:09:13goes, "You know how much?" He goes, "How1:09:14much was this?" And I go, "You know how1:09:16much it was?" $80. He's like, "What?"1:09:19$80 freaking dollars. Bro, it cost1:09:20probably like 20 bucks for them to get1:09:22all this food. Man. Man, next time,1:09:24Johnny, pay me the $80. I'll make the1:09:26freaking sushi for you. I'll go to the1:09:28pier. I'll catch it. I'll cook it right1:09:30there. I I'm like, "Oh my, this food1:09:32over here. Asian dad, dude. 80 freaking1:09:35dollar. What the man? Are we made out of1:09:37money? Oh my gosh, Dad. Why are you so1:09:40cheap, dude? That's my dad. He never1:09:43likes anything. He sits there, he's1:09:46like, "Oh, Kobe Bryant, he's okay." I'm1:09:47like, Kobe Bryant is goated. Ah, LeBron,1:09:50he's a big crybate. My dad likes1:09:51basketball. Ah, he's not that good. He1:09:53should do this. In my time, I'm like,1:09:54"Dad, you're 5 foot nothing." Like, how1:09:57you going to tell me, bro? LeBron,1:09:59LeBron would demolish you. What are you1:10:01saying right now?1:10:03Oh, you know, like that's the type of1:10:05No, I'm serious. That's the type of1:10:06person my dad is. He's a A1D1 hater. Ah,1:10:09he's not that good, right? That's how my1:10:12dad is. And then to give you just1:10:14perspective.1:10:16Then he goes to my pastor and he goes, I1:10:18like him. That's that was rare. That1:10:21that was right there. I was like, that1:10:23Jesus is real. Understand? Right. But he1:10:27sits there, right? And he's like comes1:10:31back home. You know, my mom comes in,1:10:34Johnny, right? You know, your dad said1:10:38he's perfected and righteous. You know1:10:40what my dad's saving verses? Romans1:10:423:24.1:10:45My dad said, according to the scripture,1:10:47Romans 3:23, for all have sinned and1:10:49come short of the glory of God. He said,1:10:52"So, have you do you have sinned?"1:10:54Right? Pastor Kim, Pastor Park was1:10:56there, too. is yes I do. I have sin.1:11:00Have you messed up? Yes, I've messed up.1:11:02I've killed somebody when I was 19. Blah1:11:04blah blah blah blah. Okay. But right1:11:07here it says right being justified1:11:10freely. So are you justified by Jesus1:11:12Christ? Do you understand now why Jesus1:11:14Christ had to die? He said yes. So are1:11:16you righteous or a sinner? He said well1:11:18according to these words I'm righteous.1:11:22Do you believe that though? Yes. If1:11:24Jesus says so and God himself says so, I1:11:26believe. Dang, [groaning]1:11:29my mom cried. Understand what?1:11:33It was beautiful. I didn't preach the1:11:36gospel once to my father. Not one time,1:11:39not one time did I say, you know what,1:11:42Jesus did do you believe in Jesus1:11:43Christ? I didn't. Not one time did I1:11:45bring up Jesus in front of him. All I1:11:47did was I just worked, right? I just1:11:50grew. I went to church. I just walked. I1:11:54just believed. And he saw that before I1:11:57even opened my mouth because he's a1:11:59visual learner. And now you guys seen1:12:01him. Papa Chang episode if you haven't1:12:03seen it. He's like, "I didn't believe in1:12:05those things. I hated those things. I1:12:06beat him. I beat my wife. I beat He was1:12:08he kept it real. And he changed1:12:10completely. My dad changed completely."1:12:13And he said, "I'm wrong. You guys have1:12:16to fellowship with your children, not1:12:18just tell them, do it my way." You know,1:12:19he's projecting. That's what he was1:12:21doing back then. My dad would do that.1:12:24You're wrong. Shut up. You listen to me.1:12:27Right. He ruled like a dictator for1:12:29real. And now what is he saying?1:12:31Parents, please. I have a message. Don't1:12:33repeat the mistakes that I did. Talk to1:12:36your kids. You know why? Cuz he would1:12:38never talk to us. He would never talk to1:12:40us. You know why I cried on that1:12:42episode? Cuz I was so thankful. That is1:12:45not my dad. I knew right there. He's1:12:48saved. That's not my dad. That's not my1:12:51dad. He would never talk like that.1:12:54Jeremy cried. He was there, too. He's1:12:56like, "Dang, bro. It's so wild to see."1:13:00Man, God is real. Cuz I know how your1:13:02dad is. He's like my dad. To for him to1:13:05say that is crazy, bro. We know what's1:13:07up. All Asians, we you guys can relate.1:13:09Mexicans, too. Most of you guys can.1:13:11Forget the race. But Asians1:13:12specifically, there is a strict rule of1:13:14for some reason saying I They can't say1:13:16I love you. It's weird. They can't say1:13:19it. I've never heard my dad say I love1:13:21you up until he got saved. I've never1:13:24heard my dad say that. Nowadays, he'll1:13:27call me Johnny.1:13:30That means I miss you and I love you.1:13:33What the hell? If it makes me feel1:13:35weird. [laughter]1:13:37Understand what I'm saying? Wait, what?1:13:39Dad, are did you are you drinking again?1:13:41No, you stupid idiot. You're always1:13:43messing around. Stop messing around, you1:13:44clown. Sorry, Dad. I sometimes I mess1:13:47with him.1:13:49That means like are you drinking again?1:13:51Are you drinking right now? No, you1:13:53idiot. Like1:13:55right cuz I don't understand that even1:13:57now it's it's foreign to me. Amen. But1:14:01what I realiz is oh this is how God1:14:03changes. So why am I saying this? Going1:14:05back to the point it's very simple1:14:07brothers and sisters. You think you have1:14:09to change people. You don't do the1:14:12changing. God does that. You think you1:14:15have to transform people. That's God's1:14:17specialty. You can't even change1:14:19yourself. Do you guys understand what1:14:20I'm saying? Brothers and sisters,1:14:22understand right1:14:26so beautiful is right that God really,1:14:29really loves us. So he lets people like1:14:31me go through things so that you guys1:14:33can see it from a different perspective.1:14:34Amen. I'm just being honest here. You1:14:37guys are in the best congregation. Why?1:14:40Not cuz we're the best, but it's the1:14:41best for you, right? You're able to sit1:14:44here. You're able to listen. You're able1:14:45to go, "Oh, wow. Oh, I understand now.1:14:48You answered my question without even me1:14:50asking the question. But God Amen.1:14:54Right. God did. God did it. [snorts]1:14:58Amen. That's what it comes down to. So,1:15:01anyone who denies Jesus, what I I don't1:15:04get mad at them when they're like, I1:15:07hate Jesus and this and this and that.1:15:09I'm not mad. I'm not mad about that.1:15:12Right? That's normal. You know what I1:15:14feel? I feel sad that they have never1:15:17even experienced 1% of what I've1:15:19experienced. How sad is that? Cuz if1:15:21they experienced just even 1% of Jesus,1:15:24bro, they would love him so much. So we1:15:29are all mad at them. Yeah, you don't say1:15:31that. You Yeah, I hate you. Right.1:15:34That's not the right heart to have. It's1:15:36cuz we forgot we we received grace, too.1:15:38And we need grace, too. You think about1:15:40it. Dang. They don't know Jesus like1:15:42that. They must think if right now1:15:45people might think like atheists or1:15:46whoever might think we're stupid and1:15:48crazy. Why you guys sitting here? You1:15:50can't even see this person. All you hear1:15:51is him talking. You can't even ask him1:15:53questions. You can't even talk. What the1:15:54hell? You sit here for 3 hours listening1:15:56to this guy. You're a maniac. You guys1:15:58are psychopath,1:16:00right? [snorts]1:16:02But it's because we know the word of1:16:05God. Amen. What if someone is goes the1:16:07opposite and are they're mad at God?1:16:09Then you can kill them last air bender.1:16:11You can beat him up.1:16:14No, dude. Is that what you're It's the1:16:17same thing. What kind of question? It's1:16:19the same thing. They're mad at God cuz1:16:22they've never ever sat there, right, and1:16:27actually experienced God. Do you1:16:29understand? Now, if they're sad, it's1:16:32cuz they never experienced God. If1:16:33they're angry, it's cuz they never1:16:34experienced peace, which is God. God is1:16:36the prince of peace. God is the God of1:16:38peace. Hello.1:16:40It's all the same. Either way,1:16:43foundationally. Oops, that's funny.1:16:45Either way, foundationally, they don't1:16:48know God. That's the problem, brothers1:16:50and sisters. That's the problem.1:16:53That's what it is. And even if they knew1:16:56God, they might have forgotten about1:16:57God, too. Some people are like that,1:16:59too, right? They forget about God, too.1:17:02Okay. And what's the problem? We forgot1:17:05about him, too. How many times have you1:17:07forgot about God? I'll tell you.1:17:08multiple times just today.1:17:11Hello. Am I lying? Just today, you1:17:14probably forgot about him. Sheesh. I'm1:17:18pretty sure you forgot about him, right?1:17:20You forgot to thank him. What do you1:17:23mean I forgot to thank him? You did.1:17:25When you went to the restroom today,1:17:27were you like, "Thank you, God, for my1:17:29bowel movements." No, I guarantee you.1:17:31So, you forgot about him. [snorts] When1:17:33you turned on the shower today and the1:17:36water came out, were you like, "Thank1:17:37you, Jesus.1:17:39for the not only are you the living well1:17:41of everlasting life, you also give me1:17:43the shower of everlasting life. Like,1:17:45were you like that? No, you didn't. Stop1:17:47playing. Okay, stop. Okay, stop. Don't1:17:50play with me. Pray with me. Okay. No, I1:17:53when you woke up this morning, were you1:17:55like, "Thank Yes, Lord, I did say thank1:17:57you. I did. I did." Yeah. One thing. Did1:18:00you thank him for every step that you1:18:02took? You know, some people can't walk.1:18:04You know, some people don't have running1:18:05electricity, running water. You know,1:18:07some people that can't even use the1:18:08restroom. There's people that I know who1:18:10are in wheelchairs who have to pee and1:18:12poop in a bag for life who like I like I1:18:15do. I have a California zipper. You know1:18:17what that's called? A California zipper.1:18:19They've been shot and they're always1:18:21going to have that zipper. When you look1:18:23at my hip, I have a zipper. Do you know1:18:25what that means? It means you're going1:18:27to have a forever zipper, a scar that's1:18:30always going to remind you of the1:18:32trauma. Looks like a zipper, right? got1:18:36two holes on the side and a big long1:18:38line running down it just like a zipper.1:18:40We receive so much thankfulness in our1:18:43lives. Okay? And we're not thanking God1:18:46every single day. So what you mad about1:18:48if they forgot about God? What you sad1:18:50about? No. Even though we forget about1:18:52God, does he smack us? Does he backhand1:18:54me? Pay attention, Johnny. Are you1:18:57thankful for that heartbeat and that1:18:58heartbeat and that heartbeat and that1:19:00heartbeat and that heartbeat? He'd have1:19:01to backhand me to death.1:19:04Understand what I'm saying? No, he's1:19:06very gentle. He loves me. He loves you.1:19:10Amen. What what what you guys will1:19:13realize, right? Is that they don't know,1:19:18right? With the Muslim situation too,1:19:19it's the same thing as Hindu. It's a1:19:21part of their lifestyle, right? Amen.1:19:25Right. It's just a problem with their1:19:26lifestyle. So, if they're not ready to1:19:28hear it, truth at the wrong time is also1:19:31can be poisonous. It can be bad. Right.1:19:34Again, Muslims are also very very1:19:38um it's ingrained in them. You know1:19:40this. It's a lifestyle. And so, you1:19:44know, it's right that you have fear, but1:19:47the fear can't be a a scary crippling1:19:49fear. It has to be cautious. Okay, Lord,1:19:52please help them. And like I said, it1:19:55still applies. It still applies to what1:19:57I said to the other sister, whether it's1:19:59Hindu, Muslim,1:20:01other Catholic. Some Catholics don't1:20:02like Protestants, like Christians. So,1:20:04they're like, "You guys aren't the real1:20:05Christians. Where are the real1:20:06Christians? Don't listen to this guy.1:20:07He's here." There's that, too. You have1:20:09to be cautious in all things, right? You1:20:12don't have to be bold. You have to be1:20:15anchored in Jesus. That's what brings1:20:18the boldness.1:20:20No, I need to tell them that they're1:20:21going to burn in hell if they1:20:23alhamdulillah.1:20:25Understand what I'm saying? No, they1:20:26have to, right? Don't do that. Rather,1:20:30no. I'm going to sit there and I'm going1:20:32to Right. Think about this. Right. Amen.1:20:36See, I told you. Told you. See, this1:20:39question is one of those questions1:20:40again. It's your heart posture. I1:20:42genuinely have problems with one of my1:20:43close friends who is a Muslim. He1:20:45believes Jesus was taken up and spared.1:20:46And I just don't understand where they1:20:48get that from. You don't have to. I1:20:50know. I know. It's hum to Allah. Porn on1:20:54the cob. Check in with me then do your1:20:57job. I'm just kidding. Totally kidding.1:20:59I was a Muslim back then. Okay. All1:21:01right. Sunni Islam, right? Okay. Okay.1:21:07But Right. That's the thing, right? You1:21:10don't have to understand them. Okay. You1:21:12don't have to understand. I don't know1:21:14where they get that from. It doesn't1:21:16matter where they get that from. Can I1:21:17tell you? They get that from shaitan.1:21:20That's where they get it from.1:21:22Right now, what are you going to do to1:21:24change that? Nothing.1:21:27Right? You're not you can't exactly pray1:21:31for them. See, everything is always kind1:21:33of like entit ingrained in we we have to1:21:36under we don't have to understand any of1:21:38those things. We don't have to do any of1:21:39those things. We don't have to like do1:21:41those types of things. We just have to1:21:43believe. I spent the whole time talking1:21:45about God [snorts] and living as an1:21:48example. I gave my dad as a an example.1:21:51And what do we still care about, right?1:21:54We miss the forest for the trees.1:21:56Understand guys? Why do we do that? Why?1:22:01Why? Cuz we still feel like we need to1:22:04understand. We still It's rooted in not1:22:06even control. It's rooted in I'm a good1:22:08person. I need to know. I deserve to1:22:10know. Guys, all of your problems is1:22:14honestly I am good. That's just what it1:22:18is at the end of the day. Like do you1:22:21guys think a pathological liar deserves1:22:24respect? Yes or no?1:22:26Do you guys think a murderer deser1:22:28deserves respect? No. Would you respect1:22:32the pathological liar? Yes. Pathological1:22:35liar. I respect you. Keep lying to me.1:22:38Yes. Is that what you1:22:41Is that Is that what it is? Like, yeah.1:22:43No. Yeah. Yeah. Keep killing everybody.1:22:45Yep. I respect you for all the bodies1:22:47that you, you know, killed and all the1:22:49lies and and and and and gaslighting and1:22:52and narcissism that you've spread and1:22:55and trauma that you've created for1:22:57people. Yes, I respect you, right? No,1:23:01they don't deserve respect. But you know1:23:03what the Bible says? You are those1:23:05people. Me, you, all of us without1:23:07Jesus. And yet, for some reason, we1:23:10demand respect. We demand love. We1:23:14demand God to answer us. Amen. When you1:23:18look at Paul's heart, I love Paul so1:23:20much. Paul is still really one of the1:23:23goats. I'll explain. 1 Corinthians 15:9.1:23:27Let's read that carefully here. Ella,1:23:29pull that up for us, please. Are you1:23:31ready? Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Caltech,1:23:33that's okay, bro. That's what I'm trying1:23:34to free you from. Thank you. Amen. Right1:23:37here. 1 Corinthians 5:9. Watch. Or I am1:23:40the least of the apostles. So out of all1:23:43the apostles,1:23:44every single one who was an apostle, who1:23:47do you guys think is first and foremost,1:23:48let me ask you guys something. Who do1:23:50you guys think is the least apostle? Who1:23:53do you think it was the worst one? Oh,1:23:55there you go. Judas, right? Bro is1:23:58saying here that I am worse than Judas.1:24:00Look, I am the least of the apostles.1:24:02He's not lying. that I'm not meat to be1:24:05called an I'm not even meat to called an1:24:07apostle because I persecuted the church1:24:10of God. Right? Right? Understand? Let's1:24:14think about that for a second. Right?1:24:17What what what does this mean? Like what1:24:19is he saying right now? Paul1:24:23wrote more than half of the New1:24:25Testament. Think about that for a1:24:28second. Do you guys know anybody else1:24:30who's wrote more books than Paul? If you1:24:32wrote there's how many books are in the1:24:34New Testament? 271:24:3727 right? Has anyone let's say half of1:24:41that what 14 13 let's say. Anyone in the1:24:46Bible wrote 13 books by themselves. You1:24:49know what's even more goated about Paul?1:24:52He has apostles who also wrote books.1:24:54Now John had Polycarp. Is there a1:24:57Polycarp book? No. But Paul had1:25:01Timothos. Timothy is there Timothy. Paul1:25:04had Titus. Oh yeah, there's Titus.1:25:07So his own disciples made it into the1:25:09book. That's how gangster he is. He's1:25:12that guy. Okay, understand brothers and1:25:15sisters. What did Paul mean in 11:25:17Corinthians 5:5? I don't know. I don't1:25:19know what it means. Talk about something1:25:21else right now. I don't know what it1:25:22means. Okay. All right. So Paul is1:25:25saying, "I wrote more than half of the1:25:27New Testament, but I am worse than1:25:30everybody else." Why does he say that? I1:25:32disagree. But what is he acknowledging1:25:34in his heart? I was a persecutor of the1:25:37church. I'm not where I'm at because I'm1:25:40good. I'm I'm where I'm at because he's1:25:43good. Do you guys understand what I'm1:25:45saying here, brothers and sisters?1:25:48H Do you understand? Right? Watch this.1:25:52Let me show you guys what he did. What1:25:54was Paul's old name before? He was1:25:58Palito.1:25:59Saul. Wow, you guys. So smart, man. Wow.1:26:02So fast, man. Oh, man. So fat. Okay, now1:26:08watch this. Okay, we give you scripture.1:26:11Acts 7:58-59.1:26:13Watch this. You guys know who Stefan is?1:26:14He's an apostle. Watch this. And cast1:26:17him out the city and stoned him. And the1:26:19witnesses laid down their clothes at a1:26:21young man's feet whose name was Saul.1:26:24And they stoned Stefan calling upon God1:26:27and saying, "Lord Jesus, receive my1:26:29spirit."1:26:31Who stoned Stefan to death? The1:26:34Sanhedrin, right? They killed apostles.1:26:39Anybody ever killed an apostle before?1:26:42This man held the coats and the robes of1:26:46the Sanhedrin while they were doing1:26:48this. He ordered Christians to die as1:26:52well. Right. Right. And then he's being1:26:56used to preach the gospel. Do you1:26:58understand what that does to a man? When1:27:01you experience murder and you've killed1:27:04women, children, and people, you think1:27:06you can never boast again. Yeah. Right.1:27:10Understand? He knew himself accurately.1:27:13I'm not a person who can do anything. I1:27:15was put here even though I killed the1:27:18same people that want to kill me and1:27:21[snorts] were like me and by grace I am1:27:24what I am. Do you understand brothers1:27:26and sisters? Any of you guys have Paul's1:27:28heart? I'll answer for you. No, you1:27:31don't understand. You know what kind of1:27:34heart you have? Answer my question. I1:27:37didn't do evil things. I didn't kill1:27:38apostles. Sure. Right. That's why you1:27:41can't be used by God, right? Because you1:27:44don't have the you don't have to kill an1:27:45apostle. But in your heart though,1:27:47didn't you kill people? Have you guys1:27:49Have you guys ever hated somebody? If1:27:51you did, you killed somebody.1:27:53Understand? So, you're a murderer, too.1:27:55But in your head, no, not that bad. I1:27:57only did it once. I only did it once.1:28:00Okay. Imagine you stand in front of a1:28:01judge. Hey, judge. I just killed one1:28:03person. It's not that big of a deal. He1:28:04deserved it.1:28:06You're going to I know people who who1:28:08didn't even who didn't even kill anybody1:28:11who shot at somebody. It says with the1:28:13intent to kill and they got attempted1:28:15murder and got 19 to life, 25 to life1:28:18just for attempting to kill somebody. We1:28:21did that. Amen. Right. Took it to trial1:28:24and got washed, as they say in in1:28:26prison. Right. And we're over here1:28:29killing multiple people in our hearts1:28:31and going, "What? What's wrong with1:28:32that? I didn't do it anyway. I mean, not1:28:35a big deal." Yeah, in front of other1:28:37people. Sure. In front of God who saw1:28:40you and your thoughts doing that to1:28:41somebody. Yeah. How you going to explain1:28:44that? You're not. You're going to cry1:28:46your eyes out. And those tears from your1:28:48eyes won't quench the fire that's1:28:50burning you. But that's why we don't1:28:54need to kill apostles like Paul. We need1:28:57to have the heart of Paul and go, "Dude,1:28:59I'm just like you, Paul. I killed a gang1:29:02of people, too. I killed Johnny Chang1:29:04how many times in my heart? Because he1:29:07freaking didn't answer my question. Do1:29:09you understand? He thinks he's the only1:29:11one that knows the Bible.1:29:14He thinks he only HAS THE HOLY SPIRIT. I1:29:16HAVE THE Holy Spirit, too. IT'LL TELL ME1:29:20WHAT I FEEL.1:29:22UNDERSTAND? RIGHT. UNDERSTAND?1:29:26RIGHT, GUYS? RIGHT. EXACTLY, TONY. DANG,1:29:31BRO. This actually deep. This hits me1:29:33hard. Yes, that's us. We are Paul. We1:29:37are worse. That's what I love about1:29:40Paul. So, same with me.1:29:43I can fill out Zoom. We had 1,1601:29:48plus people today in Zoom. We started1:29:51with seven people.1:29:53Seven people, brothers and sisters.1:29:56Understand? I can say that too. You1:29:59know, pastors look at our congregation,1:30:00go, "What the hell?" Discord has 30,0001:30:04members in here. We are a mega church,1:30:07guys. Believe it or not, we just don't1:30:09have a building. Make sense? We go to1:30:12Santa uh not Santa, El Paso. We pack out1:30:15churches, 5,500 people. But do you know1:30:18what my heart tells me? You know what it1:30:20tells me, Johnny? You think they're here1:30:22for you? Honey, without Jesus, you think1:30:25they would even hear you? think they1:30:28would even care about you? Oh, you1:30:30packed out 5,500?1:30:33Get over yourself, bro. You're a clown.1:30:36Without the blood of Jesus Christ,1:30:38without God giving you enlightenment to1:30:40understand his gospel, what the hell do1:30:43you think you're doing now? Are you1:30:45guys, is that just for me? You guys,1:30:47too. You think you chose your husband1:30:50really well? You think you chose your1:30:52wife really well? Oh, you think you1:30:54raised your kids really well?1:30:56You did that. Oh, interesting. You think1:31:00you work really hard in your life? You1:31:02think you stopped sinning? You stopped1:31:04backbiting by yourself without the Holy1:31:07Spirit, man. Come on, bro. How are you1:31:10like without Jesus? That's what you need1:31:12to remember. [snorts] This is what keeps1:31:14me humble, too, right? Amen. Amen. Guys,1:31:19our live events are getting super1:31:20packed. We genuinely need some help. So,1:31:23we're looking for a live events1:31:25producer. So, I'm going to be completely1:31:26honest about this. There's a lot of1:31:28moving pieces from booking a church,1:31:30finding the vendors, scanning in the1:31:32people, the volunteers, the merch, like1:31:34there's so many moving pieces that I'm1:31:36just going to say right now, we're1:31:37looking for a professional. We're1:31:38looking for someone who has done this1:31:39before. If you're watching and you're1:31:40like, "Oh, I think I can help their live1:31:42events." Honestly, you're probably not1:31:43the pick. But if you're watching and1:31:45you're saying, "Oh, I've done this1:31:46before. I've thrown live events. I've1:31:47even maybe worked in a church space."1:31:49Please reach out. We're looking for a1:31:50killer, someone who can really1:31:52coordinate everything. It's a ton of1:31:53moving pieces. At the end of the day,1:31:55it's nothing too hard or complicated,1:31:56but it's a lot of details, a lot of1:31:58moving pieces. And for us to be doing1:32:00this every single month, once a month or1:32:01even more, it's almost impossible1:32:03because we each run different branches1:32:04of the business. So, for us to do these1:32:06ourselves, it's becoming unscalable. So,1:32:08if you think, you know, you know, I can1:32:10come in, take this over, I'll learn from1:32:12them, we'll teach you everything, and1:32:13you think I can take the information and1:32:15go throw them live events every single1:32:17month in a different city for the rest1:32:18of the next 10 years. If you're hearing1:32:20this and you think that's you, please1:32:22reach out. We pay super competitively.1:32:24We have honestly a really good pay for1:32:25you guys cuz we really want to do this.1:32:27Live events are super important to1:32:28Johnny and all of us and all of you1:32:30guys. So, we want to keep doing them. We1:32:32want to keep making them super amazing.1:32:33And that's why honestly, we're looking1:32:35for a killer. like it. We're not really1:32:37going to hire anyone to test them out or1:32:38try to train. We're looking for someone1:32:40who has done this before and is ready to1:32:41do it for us and we're going to pay you1:32:43very handsomely for it. So, please reach1:32:45out. The best way to do it, there's a1:32:47link in the description. There's a job1:32:48application that details everything and1:32:50the pay. So, please fill it out. Please1:32:52pay attention to the instructions.1:32:54There's a lot of instructions that if1:32:55you don't pay attention to them, we're1:32:56not even going to look at your1:32:57application. So, cutting to the chase,1:32:59we're looking for a live events killer.1:33:01If you are that person or if you know1:33:03that person, if someone at your church1:33:04maybe throws the events, if you want to1:33:06recommend it to a friend or a family1:33:07member, we want an awesome beast live1:33:10events producer. The last thing I'll add1:33:12is you're going to be handling1:33:13everything from thousand to 5,000 person1:33:16live events. We do prison ministry,1:33:18overseas trips. We want to do we have1:33:20big plans to take core of the heart1:33:22global and you would be the lynch pin1:33:24that controls all of that. So, with that1:33:27being said, again, like Aaron said, I'm1:33:29only harping it. Again, there's a lot of1:33:31people that are applying because you1:33:32have a heart for the mission, which is1:33:34great, but only because of past1:33:37experiences. We have a very particular1:33:39vision of what this person needs to be.1:33:41We're also being advised by people that1:33:43have done this at extremely high level1:33:45who are helping us vet the applications.1:33:47So, it's going to be a very like select1:33:51group of people that are looking at your1:33:53application. So, please do not be1:33:54offended if we don't pick you. Just1:33:56understand we have a lot of input and we1:33:59are very specific on what we need. So,1:34:01we're very appreciative if you try, but1:34:03please again understand that we've we've1:34:05gone through a lot of ups and downs to1:34:07understand what we need or want.1:34:08>> So, if you want to apply, the link is in1:34:10the description. And also for anyone1:34:11else still listening, if you want to1:34:12come to these awesome live events, text1:34:14in afters to 323-61335771:34:19for free live events in a city near you1:34:21>> or download Core of the Heart daily.1:34:23>> I genuinely want to thank you guys for1:34:26tuning in and just supporting Core of1:34:27the Heart. Without you guys, we1:34:30obviously we wouldn't be able to go1:34:31global and so we are looking for that1:34:34that perfect piece, right, to uh take us1:34:37global and help us with the live events.1:34:39So, if that's you, we really do1:34:41appreciate you guys for for applying and1:34:44um hope to work with you guys soon. Has1:34:46the Lord ever taken away your ministry1:34:48to consecrate you and rebuild it on a1:34:49firm foundation? God never gave me my1:34:52ministry cuz this is his ministry. Bar1:34:58you think core of the heart is my1:34:59ministry. That's what I'm saying. Please1:35:03listen to me, okay? I know my English is1:35:05not so good, man. I know my ingrate not1:35:08so good but please listen I tell you1:35:12deep I say this not mine I just say okay1:35:16I just say man I go there I pre bring1:35:205,500 no me that did that understand I1:35:25just said it1:35:27right what I'm saying is all jokes aside1:35:30this is not my ministry this is not my1:35:33my church core of the heart is not1:35:36Johnny's That's what you guys have to1:35:37understand. Your life is not yours. Your1:35:40kids are not yours. Your car is not1:35:42yours. Your house is not yours. All of1:35:44it belongs to God. But that's the1:35:46problem. Understand? Now, obviously,1:35:50he's given us provision over it. Sure.1:35:54But it's still not mine. I have the1:35:56grace to be able to right preach the1:35:59gospel. Amen. If I ever were to think1:36:03like that, this is my ministry and God1:36:06has to build it off of my foundation or1:36:09Jesus's foundation. First and foremost,1:36:11the foundation is Jesus. That's the1:36:14point that I'm trying to make here. No1:36:16matter what, this gospel is about Jesus1:36:18Christ. Amen, brothers and sisters.1:36:21Amen. Right, guys? It's all about1:36:24Yeshua. That's what I've been saying1:36:26this whole time. Right? Every single1:36:28thing here is about Jesus. It's always1:36:31been, right? We tie everything back to1:36:34Jesus.1:36:36Amen. Even the genealogies tie back to1:36:39Jesus Christ. Did you guys know that?1:36:42Right, guys?1:36:44Alex is funny. Oh, man. Alex, man,1:36:46you're getting mad. What happened, Alex?1:36:48What happened? I asked Johnny, not you1:36:51respectfully. Okay, I understand. What1:36:53happened? What happened? Are we fighting1:36:56here? You know, you don't tell me what1:36:58to do. username X, Y, and Z.1:37:03What's the issue?1:37:05Right.1:37:07Joy, I reached out to you through1:37:09messages. I explained that I was in a1:37:11church community that I didn't believe1:37:12in the gospel. You told me to go and1:37:13gain their hearts, but actually going1:37:15has been very hard. I hate it. Hearing p1:37:17hearing the pastor talk irks me. I1:37:19genuinely don't care about being there,1:37:21and it's getting tired to make up1:37:22excuses every time they ask me if I'm1:37:24coming to church. I don't know what to1:37:25do, pastor. You need to learn to listen.1:37:28understand that's what you need to learn1:37:30to do. I was literally talking about Let1:37:33me see. Did you just join? How long have1:37:35you been in here, Alex? It's been a1:37:37minute for sure. I know you have. You've1:37:39been in here for a while now. A little1:37:41bit. Understand what I'm saying? So,1:37:44that's the issue, bro. Do what you want.1:37:47Don't gain their hearts. That's fine.1:37:50Get frustrated. Don't go. Okay. [snorts]1:37:54Right. But I wasn't saying just to go1:37:57and gain their hearts, right? I was1:38:00saying when you go, you have to think1:38:02about their hearts. That's what gaining1:38:03their hearts is. Why do we get1:38:06frustrated, right? It's not that hard.1:38:10Think about it. I was saying this and1:38:11I'll repeat it. I guess I have to repeat1:38:12it again. But think about this, right?1:38:15You're at a church that doesn't believe1:38:17in the gospel. That therein is the1:38:19problem. I just said we should feel bad1:38:22for them. They don't know the gospel.1:38:23They just have a church thinking that1:38:25they do. Right? It's getting very hard.1:38:28I hate it. Right? So, think about it.1:38:31Are we not different than them? Right?1:38:34They don't know the gospel. Amen. So,1:38:37because they don't know, they harden1:38:40their heart. Right?1:38:43And when they're preaching the gospel,1:38:45they think what they think is the1:38:46gospel. You think what you think is the1:38:48gospel. So, now there's there's a little1:38:50bit of a problem here. They think what1:38:53they're preaching is true. You think1:38:55what you're preaching is true, right?1:38:58You go to them trying to gain their1:39:01hearts, but then they sit here and1:39:03they're trying to gain your heart. They1:39:05hate it, too.1:39:07Right? [snorts]1:39:08You don't care about being there.1:39:11You care about being at a church. They1:39:13don't care about being here. They care1:39:14about being at their church. What makes1:39:16us different? Understand what I'm1:39:18saying? I mean, what makes us different?1:39:19It's the same heart. But the problem is1:39:22I have salvation.1:39:24I know the truth. So therefore, I'm1:39:27right. Do you understand? Right? I've1:39:29been saying this from the jump. I've1:39:33been saying this, but you can't hear it.1:39:36Right? You have this entitlement. I1:39:39reach out to you through messages. I do1:39:40this and this and that. Why would you1:39:42reach out to me if you're not even going1:39:44to listen to me is what I'm trying to1:39:45say. Do you understand what I'm saying?1:39:47Huh?1:39:50That's what I'm trying to explain here.1:39:52Amen. Right? You say again that I'm1:39:54tired of it. Right? Why are you tired of1:39:57it? Because [snorts] they don't know.1:40:00They don't know. But you don't know1:40:02either. You don't know the love of God,1:40:05too. If you get tired of them, do you1:40:06know why? They think they're serving1:40:08God. You know how to serve God, and1:40:11you're still getting tired of them.1:40:13What's really worse? Respectfully,1:40:15what's really worse? Amen. Imagine if1:40:19God had that heart. Do you guys think1:40:21that's a heart from God? Alex, you think1:40:23that's a heart from God? Oh, I'm so1:40:26tired of this person, man. Seriously,1:40:28I'm tired of hearing their BS. They're1:40:30fake. They're false BS. Right. Right,1:40:33bro. Right. Imagine God did that to Oh1:40:36my gosh, I'm so sick and tired of Alex,1:40:38man. Alex doesn't realize that I've1:40:40given him grace. He's supposed to show1:40:43that grace to other people. So, he1:40:44claims to follow me and love me, but he1:40:47gets tired of people. You know what? I'm1:40:48tired of Alex. I'm tired that I've given1:40:51him the grace so much and he said it so1:40:53many times and the pastor has explained.1:40:55I've even sent the pastor through the1:40:56Holy Spirit to explain it. Bro, still1:40:58not listening. Just like that church1:41:00that doesn't listen, he also doesn't1:41:02listen. You know what? I'm tired of him.1:41:04In fact, I hate this. I hate this. What1:41:06happens then? You're cooked, bro. That's1:41:08what I'm saying. Thank God he doesn't1:41:10have our heart. Thank God that that's1:41:12not God's heart. cuz all of us would be1:41:14dead if that's the case. Thank God1:41:16you're not God. Thank God. You see,1:41:19that's how we discern, right? Somebody1:41:23checks you. Amen. I'm not listening. I'm1:41:26not asking you. Right? Amen. Right1:41:30there, bro.1:41:32That's how we are. Right. If What did I1:41:35just get through telling you guys about1:41:37my youngsters, telling about my dad?1:41:39Those people at that church were you at1:41:42one point. Hello.1:41:45You came from that church. Do you1:41:48understand? You grew up there. You1:41:50learned from there. Hello. That was you.1:41:53And you're tired of them now. You forgot1:41:55who you are. That's what I'm The whole1:41:57point and the whole message of what I'm1:42:00talking about Paul is is about this. And1:42:02you're over here like, I don't care. I'm1:42:04going to ask my question. Y'all1:42:06understand how much you guys don't1:42:08actually listen? You see what I'm1:42:11saying, Alex?1:42:14Wild, huh? I'm addressing it in real1:42:16time and you can't hear it. You know1:42:19why? Cuz you don't want to hear that.1:42:20You know what you want to hear? Yes,1:42:22Alex. H. That's how people are. Alex,1:42:25just leave. Leave. Leave them, brother.1:42:28You know, no pearl to swine.1:42:31Dust off the feet of your sandals. Yeah,1:42:33but what about your heart? If I tell you1:42:35that, you're going to die. You1:42:36understand what I'm saying? You will rot1:42:38in self-righteousness, in ego, in pride.1:42:41So, as a minister and a pastor, I'm1:42:44sorry. I have to tell you the real cuz1:42:46we care. And I know you might hate me1:42:49for saying this, but I got to say it1:42:51because I care about your soul because I1:42:53went through the same exact thing. What1:42:56if they always talk negative with1:42:57whatifs and get mad at you because I try1:42:59to be positive with the whatifs? I don't1:43:01know. I don't want them to just be1:43:02negative cuz I'm so good and I'm so1:43:04amazing and I'm my name is Lexa. Doesn't1:43:06matter, dude. Doesn't matter. You just1:43:09want to be good. All of you guys always1:43:12want to be good. Understand what I'm1:43:14saying? I'm not a troll. I'm telling the1:43:17truth. I got to make it simple and1:43:19understandable for you guys, right? It's1:43:22not It's not that hard to understand.1:43:24Y'all can't understand. That's the1:43:26problem. You know why? Cuz you think you1:43:29do. You think you're, like I said, you1:43:30think you're so good, brothers and1:43:33sisters. We're not good people.1:43:37Hello. If we're good, we would be able1:43:39to listen. The first time around, gosh,1:43:42the fifth time around, I went through1:43:45this the whole time here. I was1:43:46literally talking about this the whole1:43:49session1:43:51for like two hours and we're still1:43:54asking the same question. You know why?1:43:55We can't hear it. Why? cuz all we do is1:43:59filter things. Am I wrong? If someone1:44:02tells you the same thing in like 101:44:04different ways, 10 different ways, let's1:44:08say, right? I even say my little tick,1:44:10right? Understand, makes sense.1:44:12Understand makes sense. Understand makes1:44:15right. Amen. Amen. Amen. I do that. Why?1:44:20So you guys can process. And even then,1:44:23even then, understand? Nah, I'm good.1:44:27That's the problem. And guess what I do?1:44:30Keep on speaking. Keep on speaking and1:44:34telling you guys. Keep on trying to1:44:37nurture you guys. Alex, it's very1:44:39simple. Okay, here's the here's the1:44:41answer to your question. Were you not1:44:43like them without Jesus? Yes, you're1:44:45exactly like them. So, what makes you1:44:47better? The only thing is Jesus Christ.1:44:49Now, do you have faith that God will1:44:51also change them? I would say you don't.1:44:54I would say you don't have faith. Good.1:44:57That's what you need to acknowledge. So,1:44:58who's worse? Who's worse? The person who1:45:01knows Jesus and knows that God can1:45:04change everybody but still doesn't1:45:05believe them or the one that doesn't1:45:07even know and thinks they believe them.1:45:09I think the one who knows Jesus. Would1:45:11you agree? That's what's going to humble1:45:13you. Understand? Got it now? That's1:45:16what's going to humble you. Oh, I'm1:45:19worse than them. Father God, today I1:45:22repent in my heart. Yeah. I'm not better1:45:24than them. Yeah, pastors irk me, but I1:45:28never irk myself. And I'm just like that1:45:31pastor. Interesting. Double standard1:45:33much. Lord, please help me. Please guide1:45:37me. Truly, God, I don't. You didn't save1:45:40me to then for me to not think about1:45:42other people's hearts. You saved me so1:45:45that I can go back to these churches and1:45:47actually help them. You You understand1:45:49now, Alex? That's the heart, broki.1:45:52Amen. Amen. Right. That's the heart,1:45:56bro. Okay. You pray about that. Yeah,1:45:59it's going to sting. Yeah, you're going1:46:01to get frustrated. Yeah, you're going to1:46:03get tired again. Sure. And so what? So1:46:07what? So what if you get tired? Get1:46:10tired. Go back to God. Speak to him.1:46:14Open your heart to him. Try to listen to1:46:16what I'm saying. Try to think deeply of1:46:18what I'm saying. You can't grow without1:46:21God, right? And you guys will never be1:46:24able to grow if you guys don't see1:46:26yourself accurately according to the1:46:27Bible. Guys, we are not better than1:46:30other people. All these people making1:46:32videos about us, calling us a heretic,1:46:35this and that. I'm worse than that.1:46:38That's why I don't respond to them. Who1:46:40cares, bro?1:46:42Do you understand, man? And if you if1:46:45they played my life on a highlight reel,1:46:49first and foremost, they wouldn't call1:46:50me a heretic cuz they know what I would1:46:52do to them. Understand? There's little1:46:55kids hiding behind a cover. Johnny A1:46:57Chang is a heretic. Here's why he's a1:46:59heretic. Submit to Rome. I'll be like,1:47:01I'll send you straight to your daddy.1:47:03How about that? Right? Make sense? How1:47:06about that? Send you straight to your1:47:08daddy. You could pray to him. Right?1:47:11Understand? These people, man, don't1:47:13even understand where we come from. John1:47:15A. Chang is a heretic. He got He's1:47:17wrong. Understand? Make sense? But when1:47:21I sit here, what do I think? Oh, I'm1:47:24evil. Am I not a heretic in front of1:47:26God? Hundo P. I am. Amen. Am I not a1:47:32lustful, lying, cheating, manipulating1:47:36sinner in front of God? Absolutely.1:47:41Absolutely.1:47:42So what's wrong if they're calling me 1%1:47:45of what I am without Jesus Christ? And1:47:48that was the old me.1:47:50That's not the old me. If God doesn't1:47:53hold on to me, I go right back to that1:47:55person who talks with violence cuz1:47:58violence is a universal language. You1:48:01think I'm going to sit here and try to1:48:02explain to you something? It's so much1:48:04easier to just beat your face in, be1:48:06like, "Understand now, right? Got it1:48:08right. You're going to sit there, right?1:48:09Read your Bible, right? Y'all don't read1:48:10your Bible. All right, you're going to1:48:11get DPS. I'm I'm going to have the1:48:13little homies come through and I'm going1:48:15to beat the dogish out of you. Let's see1:48:16if you could read your Bible now. Oh, I1:48:19promise. Okay, I promise I won't do it.1:48:20Exactly. You get beat the dog inch of1:48:23your life and then be like, "Okay,1:48:24cool." You'd finish the Bible 100 times1:48:26by then. Way easier. Understand? But1:48:30that's not us anymore, right? Only1:48:33because God held us. [snorts] Understand1:48:36what I'm saying? Make sense? Right? God1:48:38held us. I told you guys in the1:48:40beginning how stupid I was. I'm not1:48:42kidding. I lined it up with my friends1:48:44because they made fun of Jesus. I1:48:47literally was like, "If you guys All1:48:48right, we're going to get down, right?1:48:50We're going to fight. And if you guys1:48:53win, I'll never talk about Jesus again."1:48:56Cuz that's how gang members roll. We1:48:59just fight. We just get down. Okay, you1:49:01got Hey, I feel disrespected. All right,1:49:02cool. You feel disrespected? Me, too.1:49:05So, let's get it off our chest right1:49:07now. Okay, cool. No guns, no knives on1:49:10none. Let's fight. Let's get down. And1:49:12we get down, right? And if you win,1:49:15that's where the respect is. All right,1:49:16you beat you you beat each other up to a1:49:18bloody pulp. And then you squash it. And1:49:20that's it. You're still the homie. I'll1:49:22still die for you. I'll still, you know,1:49:23do a 100 years for you. Cool. We got to1:49:25get it off our chest, though. And that's1:49:27what I did. I would sit there and I1:49:28would go, "All right, I'mma line it up1:49:30with every one of you guys." And I did.1:49:32Busted nose, broke him all that. And in1:49:35the end, you know what happened? Nobody1:49:37came to church with me.1:49:39Nobody came to church. Even if I won, no1:49:42one came to church with me. Do you1:49:44understand what I'm saying? Because it1:49:46doesn't matter at the end of the day.1:49:48You know what they said? Man, this was1:49:49weird, dog. We're not going to talk to1:49:50him, man. Just don't even talk about1:49:51Jesus in front of this food, dog. Don't1:49:53disrespect him. He's going to get mad.1:49:54Did they really respect me? Nah. They1:49:57were like, all right, whatever. We just1:49:58don't want to fight with you. Forget it,1:50:00man. It's cool. Leave it alone. We won't1:50:02talk about Jesus no more. that closed1:50:05their hearts up more, right? It was so1:50:08stupid. But again, that was early on,1:50:11one year into my walk, not even one1:50:13year, like months into my walk. And I1:50:15thought, "Oh yeah, I'm still going to1:50:17weed out and handle these fools like1:50:18gangsters." And I would tell pastor,1:50:19"Pastor, you don't know. These are gang1:50:21members." Gang members are not good with1:50:23their words. They're good with their1:50:24fists. You got to get your your point1:50:26across through violence. Pastor, these1:50:29guys are murderers. Like you're not1:50:30going to sit there and go um uh1:50:32respectfully the vernacular and the1:50:34millu and the continental things are the1:50:36like you're not we're not going to do1:50:37that. That's not going to happen with1:50:38gang members. There's no talking. It's1:50:41just it's it's hard to explain these1:50:43things. Well, the conceptually and1:50:45contextually and foundationally like1:50:46there's none of that. It's straight up1:50:48like, "Hey, do you respect me or not?1:50:50You don't? All right, we got to handle1:50:51business." Like that's it. That that's1:50:53what it is. And pastor's like, "You are1:50:55so stupid, John." He straight up told1:50:56me, "You are so dumb. You're an animal."1:50:59What, pastor? No, you don't. No, you1:51:02don't understand. You're an idiot.1:51:05Straight up told me you're an idiot for1:51:06doing that. Well, pastor, you don't1:51:08know. You know this is how we handle1:51:09disrespect. If I let them disrespect me1:51:11once, they're going to disrespect me all1:51:12the time. I'm all trying to explain gang1:51:14politics to my pastor who's never1:51:16stepped a big toe in a gang life ever.1:51:18He's like, "Dude, Johnny, you have no fa1:51:21Yeah, I do have faith. I had faith that1:51:23if I fight them that they would come to1:51:24church." What? What the hell is wrong1:51:27with you? Do you understand? No.1:51:29Genuinely, you guys think it's funny,1:51:31but I I'm serious. God is my witness.1:51:33Strike me down if I'm lying. I had to do1:51:36that. I had to because that's how we do.1:51:38That's how we handle things, right? And1:51:41so, what did all of that lead to? Closed1:51:44hearts. Understand? Amen. I was able to1:51:48go, man, I'm stupid. Now, when I look at1:51:51it, I get really, really big secondhand1:51:53embarrassment about it, too. Like, dang.1:51:55I couldn't if I knew what I knew now, I1:51:57wouldn't have done what I did then. I1:51:59would have sat there and been like,1:52:00"Hey, you're right." But you know what1:52:02the truth was? I felt like that they1:52:05were disrespecting me because I was1:52:08insecure1:52:09because I actually cared about my1:52:11friends uh what they said about me. Do1:52:15you guys understand? Like I I was I was1:52:17kind of fearful that they would that I1:52:19would lose like street credibility1:52:21because of this, right guys? That's what1:52:24it was. So at the at the end of it, did1:52:25I really care about their salvation?1:52:27Nah, I cared about them not1:52:29disrespecting me. So it was me at the1:52:32center of it. When I look at that, I1:52:33feel very ashamed. Like punching on1:52:36people just cuz I want didn't want to be1:52:38wrong, just cuz I wanted respect. That's1:52:41it's stupid, right? It's like the1:52:44dumbest thing, right? That's another1:52:46thing, too. I started to realize like a1:52:48lot of that stuff was ingrained in that.1:52:50I wasn't crazy. I just wanted respect. I1:52:53didn't want people to look at me like I1:52:54was weak, right? That's that's what it1:52:57was at the end of the day. I wasn't a1:52:58man. I was scared of things. I carried a1:53:02strap because I thought people were1:53:03going to do me, right? Cuz I got shot.1:53:06So I'm like, "Oh, they're for sure going1:53:07to try and kill me, right?" And that's1:53:09just what it was. And so, yeah, I would1:53:11shoot, but I would only do it because1:53:12I'm like, "Man, I got to get them first1:53:13before they get me." That was that's the1:53:15real If I'm being honest, that's how1:53:17most people think, right? And so a lot1:53:20of the times this fear-driven thing,1:53:23this respect thing, this ego thing is1:53:26such a very very difficult thing to1:53:31overcome. But once you realize what it1:53:33leads you to, then you're like, "Okay,1:53:37I'm done genuinely." And then you1:53:39receive the grace through that. Right?1:53:43Guys, we are all this way some way,1:53:45shape, or form. Maybe not to that1:53:47extent, okay? or that extreme. Some of1:53:49you guys, yes. But either or. It's1:53:52basically I don't want them to1:53:56disrespect me by not acknowledging me.1:53:58So, I don't like them and I don't want1:54:00to go to their church anymore and I1:54:01don't want to. It's like, yeah, you1:54:02don't have to go to their church, but in1:54:04your heart, you have to be like, didn't1:54:05God die for them, too? He did. Didn't1:54:08God Isn't God waiting for them, too? He1:54:10is. And it's not I'm not saying you have1:54:12to be their savior, but you have to at1:54:14least acknowledge that truth. Yeah. you1:54:16don't like your your your your wife or1:54:19your husband or your whatever it is like1:54:21you don't like certain people. Sure,1:54:23that's that's normal. You you're1:54:25entitled to that. But understand that at1:54:27least God didn't keep that energy with1:54:29us. And if he did, we'd be cooked. That1:54:31that has to at least be there. I'm not1:54:33saying be nice to the whole world and1:54:34love the whole world. And I'm not saying1:54:37that. I'm saying you are of the world1:54:40too, right? Before Jesus Christ. And the1:54:42only reason why you're not of the world1:54:43anymore is because of Jesus Christ. Now1:54:46that same Jesus Christ can help those1:54:48people. That's all. Amen. Can I get an1:54:51amen? Amen. Right? You acknowledge God.1:54:57That's how you stop caring about things.1:54:59You acknowledge what God says about you.1:55:01Nowadays, I don't care. I know some1:55:04people hate on me. I know some people1:55:06judge me. I know some people are like,1:55:08"Yeah, forget you. You think you're so1:55:09much better." Like, sure, you can say1:55:11all of that. Amen. I used to I I1:55:14remember one time I said this to Pastor1:55:15Kim, right? I was like, "Pastor Kim,"1:55:17and I'll finish with this, "Pastor, like1:55:20I can't ever be like you. You know,1:55:23you're so much better than me." And you1:55:25know what he told me? I thought he was1:55:27going to say something like, "Yeah,1:55:28true." You know what he said? I am1:55:30better than you. But you know what the1:55:32funny thing is? [laughter]1:55:33I was like, "Dang, this guy said now I1:55:35can't even hear you. You said I am1:55:36better than you. What the hell?" He's1:55:38like, "Think about it, Johnny. You1:55:40spiral. I don't. You struggle with lust.1:55:43I don't. Right? And he's like, and I1:55:46know what you're going to say. It's by1:55:47the grace of God. But what I want to1:55:49point out is this. You struggle with all1:55:51these things and yet you still listen to1:55:54the person who struggles with all those1:55:55things more than the person who doesn't.1:55:57He's like, that's what doesn't make1:55:59sense. I'm like, sheesh, that's a bar.1:56:03So true. You still listen to Johnny1:56:05Chang who does all these things that you1:56:07suck but you're not listening to me1:56:10who's like there's something wrong with1:56:11you Johnny that's what's wrong with you.1:56:14A normal person doesn't do that. A1:56:16normal person like he asked me he's like1:56:18when you get a haircut. Do you go to the1:56:20haircut the barber that does the worst1:56:21job on you? No. Right. You go to the one1:56:23who's the best. Why do you keep choosing1:56:25the barber that keeps cutting your hair1:56:27wrong? No. Makes you look like a fool.1:56:29Makes you look like a freaking orca1:56:31whale. don't know how to blend just1:56:34two-tone hair,1:56:36right? Look like a dolphin, right? Like1:56:40why why do you go to that, right? No,1:56:43you don't. You go to But like1:56:45interestingly enough, he said, right?1:56:48I'm here. I'm leading my life better1:56:50than you and you're still like, "Nah,1:56:52I'm going to trust myself." Like that1:56:54doesn't make that's like you going to1:56:55the barber shop, spending extra amount1:56:57of money, ruining your hair, and then1:57:00getting mad about that. That's what you1:57:01do every day. And I'm like, woo, sheesh.1:57:04Talk about perspective. So, yeah,1:57:06Johnny, I am better than you. But in1:57:08your heart, I'm sorry to say, you don't1:57:10think so. I think you should probably1:57:12think so, and then you might respect me.1:57:15I don't think you respect me. That's1:57:16what he said. Cuz if you did, you would1:57:18look at me that way. That convicted me1:57:20to the core, y'all. He said, "Johnny, if1:57:22we switched the roles, we switched roles1:57:25today and you had and I had to live in1:57:28your house and I was just like you,1:57:29would you let me live in your house?" I1:57:31was like, "Damn, no, but I let you live1:57:33in mine." Which is true. He let me live1:57:35in the church for the first year. You're1:57:36in some change, right? He said, "But1:57:39look at you. You expect everybody to1:57:41accept you. You expect everybody to love1:57:43you. And yet, you don't do anything."1:57:46Right? That was a deep conviction I had1:57:48to hear about myself. And that's what1:57:50I'm telling you guys, too. Y'all don't1:57:52want to listen to me, right? But I don't1:57:53spiral like you guys. Just like Pastor1:57:56Kim said, I don't I don't go like and1:58:00and and you know, go crazy with people1:58:02and swipe right and go and just sleep1:58:04with every other person and have a porn1:58:06addiction. Do you understand? Like, but1:58:08you listen to yourself more than me.1:58:09It's weird. I don't struggle with1:58:11smoking weed. I I quit that 2015. I quit1:58:14drinking in 2015. I don't do the1:58:16bumpies. I don't do any of that stuff.1:58:18But you over here doing all that and1:58:20going, "But you know, pastor, but my1:58:22thoughts, pastor, and my feelings,1:58:24pastor, and all about me, pastor." Like,1:58:26what are you talking about right now?1:58:28You talk about only yourself. You don't1:58:30even do you can't even live that life.1:58:33Understand? That's why I have to tell1:58:34you guys this. Not in a hating way,1:58:36condescending way. I'm better than you.1:58:39But do you guys understand the1:58:40perspective here? How you going to1:58:42listen to yourself? If you're doing1:58:44better, then listen to yourself. Amen.1:58:46You're not even doing better, though.1:58:48What do you what is the grounds and the1:58:50and the foundation? Right? That's what1:58:52pastor had to tell me. He opened my eyes1:58:54100%. I was like, "Dang, you're right."1:58:56And then it became easy for me to listen1:58:58to him. Do you guys understand what I'm1:59:00saying? I didn't even know I wasn't1:59:02respecting him. I thought I was. He told1:59:05me to clean the toilets. I clean the1:59:06toilets. He's like, "That doesn't mean1:59:08Jack did squat. You still listen to1:59:10yourself when push comes to shove above1:59:12me." I was like, "Sheesh." Amen. And so,1:59:16yeah. I hope you guys can can think1:59:17about that too, right? Think about this,1:59:20right? Think about this. Amen. Right. I1:59:24pray for you guys all the time. I really1:59:26do. Right. Not individually, but but you1:59:30know, kind of like umbrella prayers.1:59:32Father God, if there's anybody in the1:59:33congregation who's struggling with lust,1:59:35addiction, frustration, loneliness,1:59:37please help them, Lord. And I always1:59:38say, please be gentle with them. I ask1:59:40God to be gentle with you guys. This is1:59:43me being gentle, by the way, just so you1:59:45guys know. You guys don't know what it1:59:46is to be chastised. Look at literally1:59:50look at the way Paul chastises people.1:59:53Paul is super gangster man, right? He1:59:57says a lot of harsh things to people.1:59:59Look at how Jesus chastises people. You2:00:02brood of vipers, snakes, right? Who's to2:00:06warn you about the impeding doom, right?2:00:08You're going to burn in hell. Basically,2:00:09he calls a woman a dog.2:00:12Understand? Amen. Like, bro, I don't sit2:00:15there and be like, "You guys are dogs.2:00:17You guys are all snakes." Like, I don't2:00:19do that. When when you ask a question,2:00:22I'll be like, "Hey, snake, pipe down." I2:00:24don't do that, right? But Jesus would do2:00:26stuff like that. I've never called any2:00:28of one of you guys Satan. Jesus2:00:30literally goes, "Get thee behind me,2:00:32Satan." to Peter. Bro, if I called you2:00:34guys Satan, you'd be swinging on me.2:00:36Stop playing. Oh, I'm sorry. That's a2:00:39demonic question. You're a demon. You'd2:00:40be like, "What? I have the blood of2:00:42Jesus Christ. I am the daughter of2:00:44Christ. I am It would be this. I've2:00:46never done that to y'all. Stop playing.2:00:48You understand what I'm saying? Right.2:00:50It would be that. You know, I What do2:00:52you mean? You don't tell me that. You2:00:53You would get frustrated. He was2:00:55serious. He said, "Get thee behind me,2:00:57Satan. I rebuke you." What? Do you2:01:00understand what I'm saying? Come on,2:01:01y'all. Amen. Right. Facts. Right. You2:01:07guys got that? Right. So chastisement2:01:12is for love. Even though Peter did that,2:01:15even though Paul did that, Paul and2:01:17Barabah, right, Barnabas, they went2:01:19their separate way because he couldn't2:01:22take the chastisement too. They2:01:24disagreed on the semantics. Paul said,2:01:26"Let's focus on something big." Baraba2:01:29was like, "Nah, man. We good. I want the2:01:30entity." Okay, then do your thing.2:01:32Handle your business. Lot and Abraham2:01:34also separated, right? I don't want you2:01:37guys to separate. But usually it's over2:01:40semantics. It's over you don't respect2:01:42me. Talk to me nicely. Do the things I2:01:44want to do. That's when separation2:01:46occurs, right? That's how relationships2:01:48break down. Hey babe, I want to2:01:50celebrate Valentine's Day. No, I don't2:01:51want to. It's just another day. Right2:01:54there, things become a problem, right?2:01:56One has to bend or they both break.2:01:59That's just how it is, right? And so in2:02:01this way too, I'm trying to teach you2:02:03guys genuinely how to grow. how to grow,2:02:06right? Trust me guys, we went through a2:02:09lot. I know I joke around a lot. I know2:02:11that I don't have much, but the one2:02:13thing is we are tried and true. I went2:02:15through a lot of pastor pastors who2:02:18literally like taught me what it really2:02:22meant to have a relationship with God,2:02:24right? And I'm trying to teach you guys2:02:26that to be able to read scripture,2:02:28exeute scripture, to grow for real, not2:02:31just be like, "Oh, I want to be big in2:02:33my head and be like, "Yeah, look at me.2:02:34I'm so smart. We can do that all day. I2:02:37can fill up your head all day. I can2:02:40give you guys super deep unlocks. But2:02:42you will know nothing about spiritual2:02:44life. Like genuinely, you will know2:02:46nothing about spiritual life, right?2:02:49Amen. That's just what it is. Spiritual2:02:52life is important because that's your2:02:54actual walk. Knowledge and unlocks2:02:57doesn't open people's hearts. You know2:02:58what does? Peace. Wow, this person looks2:03:02so peaceful.2:03:04Wow, this person, even though things are2:03:06happening, has learned through Johnny2:03:08how to accept and receive things with2:03:10grace. Wow, this person's being so mean2:03:13to this other person, but the other2:03:14person has learned how to just let it2:03:16go. What the I wouldn't let it go. Why2:03:19is he just letting Why is he also cool2:03:21with it? Oh, let's go eat ice cream.2:03:23What? This guy literally just cheated on2:03:24you. Oh, it's okay. You know, God2:03:26allowed it. It's fine. What? You I'd be2:03:29crying right now. What are you like,2:03:32that's what I'm trying to teach you2:03:33guys. You understand what I'm saying?2:03:35Not Yeah. You know the what? You know2:03:37what the Bible says about cheating?2:03:39Adultery. There's two types. There's2:03:40spiritual cheating. Okay. Okay. And then2:03:42there's fleshly cheating. If you do that2:03:45in front of someone and then you get2:03:47cheated on, right? You get cheated on,2:03:49right? Then the person is going to go,2:03:51uh, they're not going to say it, but2:03:53they're going to think this. So, you2:03:54know all about this cheating, but you2:03:56couldn't prevent it. [laughter]2:03:59Legit. Legit though. So, you know all2:04:01about you know the spiritual adultery,2:04:03you know this adultery, but you couldn't2:04:04prevent it. Well, well, and then that's2:04:07when you you use Johnny's things out of2:04:08con. Well, well, Johnny Chang said um uh2:04:11that God allows everything for a reason2:04:13in a season. It's like I've never said2:04:15that. I've never said for a reason in a2:04:17season. I don't say stuff like that, but2:04:19he said it it's it's an a reason for a2:04:21season and then it's either for the2:04:23bleeding or the blessing. No, it's a2:04:25lesson or but it's the bleeding or the2:04:26blessing. You have to bleed in order to2:04:28get the blessing. What? I've never said2:04:31that. Right. You're They're like Romans2:04:338:57. It's like, uh, it doesn't go up to2:04:3657, but that's okay. Romans 8:58. No,2:04:38it's Romans 8:28. Romans 8:58. Uh, uh,2:04:42uh, uh, trust in yourself and believe in2:04:44God with all of yourself. What? Do you2:04:47understand what I'm saying? Right.2:04:50I understand.2:04:53Right. Newer Testament. Not the New2:04:54Testament. The Newer Testament. They're2:04:56like the newest Testament.2:04:58King Johnny virgin. It's like what? Nah,2:05:01bro. Stop, bro. Right.2:05:05Anyways, I hope you guys can understand2:05:08that um living spiritual life is going2:05:11to show a lot of people, right? It's2:05:13going to show them. Oh, this is how I2:05:17live. Watch. You guys watch, man. You'll2:05:19thank me later. Seriously, you're going2:05:22to sit there and go, "Dang, Johnny, I2:05:24know exactly what you're saying now."2:05:26Whoa. I don't struggle with that2:05:28anymore. You'll see. You'll see. We got2:05:31kids in here who are like reading the2:05:34Bible front to back now like clockwork.2:05:37You'll get there too, right? You'll get2:05:40there, too. Amen. You will. All of you2:05:42guys will because why? I believe Romans2:05:4510:17. You don't believe, I'll believe2:05:47for you. Don't worry. In the Bible, it2:05:49talks about that, too. Romans 10:17 is2:05:52very clear, right? You know what it2:05:54says, brothers and sisters? Now faith2:05:56cometh by hearing, hearing the word of2:05:58God. You don't have faith, don't worry.2:06:01You come in here, you hear faith, you2:06:04will grow and you will gain faith. All2:06:07you got to do is come in here, hear, and2:06:10listen and you will grow. You will grow.2:06:13[snorts] Understand? You will. You will.2:06:15You'll see. You can't help but grow. You2:06:18can't help but grow. But you have to2:06:21come. You have to come. Understand?2:06:24Right. Okay. All right, guys. I gotta2:06:27go. I'll see you guys later. Take care.2:06:30Bye, everybody. Please download the app2:06:32if you haven't done so and please join2:06:35and help support the ministry because2:06:37literally all of our things that are2:06:39free is because of the app. It's because2:06:42of, you know, Bible classes. Okay,2:06:44please have a good night. Okay, see you2:06:46guys later. Bye.
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