Transcript of Being A Good Person Won’t Get You Into Heaven… But This Will | Discord Stage #44
Unlearned Wisdom by Johnny Chang
0:00Welcome back to another Discord stage.0:02This is where I talk directly with my0:03community. I tell personal stories,0:05share deep biblical learnings, and I0:07answer questions from the chat. These0:09episodes are audio only. So, thanks for0:10listening and you can join my Discord to0:13catch the next Discord stage live. Link0:15in the description. How to stay0:17motivated. I think motivation comes from0:20grace from God.0:22Uh once we recognize that everything0:25needs to kind of pass through the filter0:28of grace which is God then we start to0:31kind of appreciate respect and just be0:35thankful right so a lot of us we try to0:37stay motivated um we try to be diligent0:41get ahead on things which is beautiful0:44there's nothing wrong with that but0:46there's a level where you reach that you0:49do you you become motivated did after0:52you become thankful. So when you are0:56appreciative of every breath that you0:57have, if you're appreciative of waking1:00up, then that starts to make you move1:03differently. You operate from a position1:05of thankfulness and gratitude versus1:09like ah I got to do this, I got to do1:11that, I got to get up, I got to you know1:13study, I got to work, I got to like you1:16move into a better position. So, you1:19know, it's not how do I stay motivated?1:21How do I stay in alignment with God?1:23Because the alignment then brings1:25gratitude. And the gratitude affects how1:28motivated we are in how we move. All1:30right? How do I know I have faith? Um,1:32by confirming the word of God, trusting1:36the word of God. Uh, that's how you know1:39you have faith, right? Faith is not, oh,1:41I feel it and I have it. It's I believe1:44the word whether I feel it or not.1:46That's faith. true biblical faith.1:48What's the topic on your mind? What's a1:50scripture that's been resonating this1:52year? I mean, there's always multiple1:53scriptures. I guess the thing that's1:56most recent on my mind is um do animals1:59go to heaven? Cuz I got asked this2:01literally today. And so, yeah, that was2:04that one was on my mind. Um obviously,2:07it was really cool to be able to kind of2:09see those things. And do animals go? Do2:12your fur babies go to heaven? Does your2:14cat go to heaven? Does your dog go to2:15heaven? And there's actually a lot of2:17shocking things in the Bible that kind2:19of lean more towards that they do they2:21do go to heaven, right? So,2:24yeah. Uh, you're in Jersey. Did I hear2:27that right? No, I'm not. No, I'm in2:28California. Uh, what part of Phoenix are2:31you going to be in? Um, well, we'll be2:33in Phoenix. Um, just baptizing people in2:37uh Pastor Israel Church, which you guys2:39can find the information online. Uh,2:41link in the bio when you guys go in or2:43you guys can text. Uh, it's probably in2:46the minor announcements and major2:47announcements as well. So, yep, that2:50works. Um, had a good talk with my mom.2:53Amen. Very, very beautiful. Um, how is2:56my relationship with God supposed to be?2:57Because sometimes I don't seek. I just3:00be living day by day, knowing in my3:02heart but not seeking. Um, yeah, kind of3:04similar to what I said earlier. You only3:07seek God if you are appreciative of him,3:10right? If you if you're appreciative of3:12what he does for you, if you think about3:15all the times that he's helped you, when3:18you think about it in that way, then you3:19become very very thankful. You seek him3:21all the time. So again, it's just3:24something that, you know, we just got to3:27think about God and seeking him comes3:29natural after that. Hey pastor, I really3:31need to talk to you about something. Do3:33you think we can talk one-on-one,3:34please? Um, not not possible only3:37because there's just so much. If that's3:39the case, I would I'm pretty sure3:41everyone here would have one-on-one and3:44and it's really subjective, right? But3:46that's why I hold these things here so3:48that you can listen in and uh can be3:52able to kind of catch what we're saying3:55and and answer things foundationally.3:57So, yeah. Um, is living in Zen mode4:01correlate to anything in the Bible? Not4:03necessarily. Um, yeah, Zen mode is I4:07mean that's just takes a lot from4:10Buddhism. Um, but again, not really4:13biblical except if Jesus is the center4:16and you're pulling your Zen energy from4:18Jesus. Yeah. So, yeah, I think God is4:23leading me to give up gaming for good.4:25How do I get to the point of surrender?4:27I've been praying to God, asking him for4:29the strength and courage to go through4:30this. Everyone has been telling me to4:32just essentially pull the trigger, give4:33it up. I'm not sure if it's that simple.4:36Yeah, I'm not sure either. You know, I4:38think that um if you feel like he's4:41pulling you to give up gaming, um then4:47the way to do it is not to try and quit4:49and pull the trigger.4:52Again, it it comes down to what I4:53answered, you know, uh foundationally,4:57right? It's it's do I agree with God? Do5:01I think about God? Right? Like all the5:02like gaming is not bad in itself, but5:04you could spend more time or the amount5:07that you spend gaming, you could5:09probably spend it towards God, right?5:11It's pretty pretty simple, right? If I5:13spend, I don't know, 3 hours playing5:15Fortnite, I'm pretty sure if I spent 35:17hours, you know, serving God, praying to5:19God, thinking about God, I think all of5:21that would actually be better. So again,5:23when you think about these types of5:24things, it's not hard to like give up5:27certain things. It's just difficult5:29because we're not really thinking about5:30it in in that way, in that light at5:33least, right? So thank you, Pastor5:36Johnny, for everything. You're welcome.5:37Thank God. Glory to God. Amen. What does5:40believing you are already validated in5:42front of God look like? Um, again, same5:44thing. You notice how all of you guys5:46are kind of asking the same questions,5:48right? Uh foundationally like I said I5:50always answer being validated is5:53accepting God for what he says you are5:55not what you feel you are not what you5:56think you are not what other people5:57think you are and say you are right5:59everything has to come from the position6:01of gratitude and grace right everything6:04has to come from the position of6:05gratitude and grace and how do you do6:06that by thinking about what God did for6:09you whether it's the validation whether6:11it's him waking you up whether it's him6:14giving you food6:16when you really think about it in that6:18Okay. It's really amazing, right,6:21Johnny? How do I go about preaching the6:22gospel without trying to exalt myself? I6:24want to exalt Jesus without letting6:24pride get in the way. Study more. I6:27study a lot more. When you study a lot,6:29you kind of learn. So, just study. Don't6:32preach just yet. Study, study, study.6:36Right? That's really important. And then6:38work on your testimony. Think about all6:40the times God helped you. And then think6:42about how other people would be able to6:44listen to the testimony6:47without you imposing on them. Right? So6:50yeah, how to pray for physical healing6:52for another person? Um, pray and then6:54believe. Believe that God will heal them6:56more than praying. Mark 11:24 says,6:59"Pray, believe, and receive." So pray7:01first, of course. Believe second, and7:03then you'll receive it. That's just7:05important, right? What does it mean to7:07have a relationship with like I said uh7:09earlier just you know trusting and7:12believing his word above your thoughts7:14trusting and believing his word whether7:16they match your thoughts or not and7:18that's just what it is. All right. Um7:22how are we built in the image of God but7:24I'm Asian and Jesus and I don't look7:25alike. Uh that's a big brain question7:27right. So um the image of God is a7:30spiritual image of God and after one7:33chapter we actually became the image of7:35Satan. uh because we accepted his word7:38um at least Eve and Adam did and we7:41actually became the children of Satan7:43right so again it's it's if you know7:47contextually and you study7:49you start to actually understand it but7:52it's very difficult when we have like7:53logic right logic is very hard right7:56what website do you use to translate7:58Hebrew in Coney Greek um I actually8:00would much rather you read the Bible8:03front to back five times and and study8:06the Coney Greek and Hebrew Aramaic. Um,8:08so yeah, if you finish reading the Bible8:10front to back five times, then come back8:13to me and I'll I'll let you know. Hey8:15pastor, I was wondering if you could8:17help explain James 1:27 because my8:18pastor was speaking on how there is one8:20pure true religion and if that's what8:22the Bible says, then that's what it is8:24and I'll have to believe. But I'm8:25viewing I view following Christ as more8:27of deepening my relationship with him8:28instead of traditional worldly religion.8:31Right. Right. The latter is correct.8:33there. It's not one true religion. It's8:35one true relationship, right? So, yeah,8:39you kind of answered it yourself. But8:41yeah, basically that's uh what it is,8:44you know. All right, Pastor Johnny.8:46Today, my wife called me, told me that a8:48church leader called her and started8:50asking asking her about her church8:52attendance. And I asked her, "How does8:54you feel?" When she asked you, she felt8:56judged, not not genuine or loving. And I8:58told her just to focus on Jesus. But9:00what advice can you give us? Yeah. just9:02to understand the validation aspect that9:04I was just saying. A lot of us want to9:06be validated in front of God and we want9:08people to respect us and we want other9:11people especially church people to9:12acknowledge us. But yeah, if you9:15realize, yeah, I don't go to church and9:18I, you know, I'm lacking and I don't I9:21am going to get judged and I am I am9:23going to be around disingenuous people.9:25That that's okay, right? And and amen.9:28You to focus on Jesus. But before you9:30say that, talk to her, too. Understand9:33that she's not as strong in her faith9:34maybe, and that's okay. And to be there9:37for her and support her, you know, it's9:40just what it is. All right.9:43Um, pastor, I am having trouble on9:48deciding how to tell my pastor that I9:49won't be going to church anymore. I've9:51been attending the LA church and I've9:53been at peace there. My old pastor9:55relied on my help with the youth9:56service. I don't want him to be9:57disappointed. Oh, just share your heart9:59with them. Just say, "Hey, I'm I'm I'm10:01just not going to be here anymore and I10:05know that God is working and I found10:06another church and I also will be10:08helping them." And you know, just let10:10them know because if he is gospel10:12centered, he'll be like, "Amen.10:14Hallelujah. Good stuff. Push forward."10:16You know, do what you got to do. It's10:18beautiful, right? So, uh, yeah, I would10:22say you can share your heart and, you10:24know, again, it's more of a validation10:27thing, right? Um, if he's mad for you10:30leaving, I mean, I would be happy if you10:32guys go and you guys, you know, learn10:35from God and you grow in in a specific10:37way, uh, I don't think that's a problem.10:40I think it would be great, right? I10:42would be rooting for you guys. Johnny, I10:44pray daily that my nightmares will stop,10:45but I keep having them every day. What10:47should I do? Um, read the Bible. It says10:49in Jeremiah 29:8 and 9 that the dreams10:52are not from God that we shouldn't10:54listen to those dreams. So again,10:56trusting the word of God above our10:58thoughts is what's really important. If11:00the Bible says, for example, that those11:02dreams are not from God, then we can we11:05can kind of chalk it up to say, okay,11:07this isn't a nightmare for sure isn't11:09from God, right? So why would we listen11:11to that, right? We don't need it to11:13stop. We need to stop listening and we11:15need to we'd be like, okay, this is fake11:17and it happens again. Okay, this is11:18fake. This happens again. Okay, this is11:20fake. And we do that every day. There's11:21evil in this world, right? And we don't11:24try to stop it, right? It's it's cuz we11:27know we can't. Well, what do we do?11:28Well, we don't listen to it. We don't11:30act evil. We we choose to, you know,11:33navigate through it, right? Uh, hey11:36pastor, is it weird that I start hearing11:37you like my subconscious? No, I don't11:39think so. It just probably means that11:41you listen a lot to what I say. And a11:43lot of people have that too, right? I11:45hear I hear pastor Kim in my11:47subconscious all the time. Pastor John11:48all the time, right? So yeah, Pastor11:51close friend of mine came to me and11:52asked for advice. One of her children11:54was accusing of molesting one of their11:56siblings and she feels torn between11:57supporting both of her kids. I don't11:59know how to pray or advice. You have to12:01tell her straight up cuz it's now12:02protecting a kid. You have to tell her12:04like it's not about protecting other12:06people. It's it's about or your own12:08feelings. It's you tell the kid. You sit12:11them down and you go, "Hey, what you're12:12doing is wrong. I never taught you this.12:14you shouldn't be doing this. Okay? And12:17you have to you have to cut it right12:18there because that's that can be12:20perpetuated and as they get older they12:22can it can get worse. So you have to sit12:24there and say, "Hey, you need to stop.12:27You have to have her talk to talk to12:29them, you know." Um yeah, it's again12:32validation, right? You guys see how it's12:34like, "Oh, I don't want to look bad and12:36I want to support both kids." Like, but12:38you can't support somebody who's12:39molesting somebody else. That's just not12:41how it works. like you know so she has12:44to she has to speak up and she's the12:45mother she has to she has that right to12:47right and and she has to bring it up and12:50tell them hey stop doing that right12:52everyone has noticed being in my word12:54more uh so and all of a sudden I'm12:57getting asked questions like a biblical12:58encyclopedia I say I'm not comfortable13:00answering and it would be better if they13:02read more is that okay yep yeah that's13:04that's good why do I suddenly start to13:07feel sleepy when I read the Bible um two13:10things maybe the attention span isn't13:12there like practically speaking. And the13:15second thing is uh the enemy likes to13:17attack the flesh. So he'll make you13:19really sleepy even if you have like 1013:21hours of sleep and you go and you read13:23the Bible for 10 minutes. Uh it's a dry13:26book and a lot of the times it's just13:28heart posture doesn't match. So it's13:31important to realize those things. It's13:33real to realize that. Right. I have a13:35brother who tells me testimonies of13:37casting demons out of 7:22 came to mind13:40and I noticed I freeze up when trying to13:43continue in the convo. How would you13:44engage? Um just gain their hearts,13:47right? And talk more about the true13:49deliverance which is a fe which is13:51Colossians 1:1313:53and how Jesus delivered us from13:55everything, right? How to help someone13:57going through incarceration. Talk about13:59Jesus and God. um you know talk about14:02how although they're you know trapped in14:05this bondage uh what's more important is14:07the sin that they're trapped in and so14:11we have to kind of focus on that right14:13love the daily devotional amen what's14:15your gym routine trying to get swoll14:17like you oh I'm not big bro I just I I I14:20train um with my my my trainer George um14:26I don't know we just do we switch it up14:27man I don't even know what it's called14:29but I just follow him I and go to the14:31gym every other day. So, it's not really14:33crazy. But yeah, I think I I yeah, I14:36wouldn't be able to help you with that,14:38man. But I think it's important to just14:41what it is is corrective exercise is14:43important. Look up things more14:45corrective build from the foundation and14:47then your body will be able to uh14:49sustain the muscle that you do gain14:51because you can do really well and get14:53big and then it'll be shortlived, right?14:55So yeah guys, my core of the heart daily14:58app where you get free devotionals every15:01single day is almost here guys and join15:06the weight list right now. Link in the15:08description. So if you ever struggled15:09with your spiritual walk with God, my15:12app covers everything. A free daily15:14devotional tracker so you know how long15:16you've kept your streak. A Bible you can15:17highlight and annotate. Gospelbot, an AI15:20trained entirely on my teachings to15:22answer your questions anytime, 24/7. All15:26of that is free. And if you want to go15:28deeper, we have a membersonly Bible15:31class every Saturday and a group15:33mentorship where you can ask15:34personalized questions to me. To get on15:36the weight list, check the description15:38in this video. This is my life's work15:40and the best way to make God a habit in15:42your life. And I can't wait to share it15:44with you guys. wanted to get your take15:46on on after Jesus' death, did he ascend15:49to hell, save the souls that were15:50righteous, or did he go somewhere in15:52between and finish?15:54Um, so he goes to a place called Sh um,15:59Hades, Hades. Uh, it's basically the16:02land of the dead, the the spirits of the16:05dead. And he goes there, sure, to preach16:08the gospel. He goes there to like16:10rectify everybody. Um but he didn't go16:13there to get punished. He finished16:16everything on the cross and he explains16:19you know uh that he brings the person on16:23the cross with him to paradise uh16:26immediately right16:28but um yeah so he he descended 100%. He16:35went to the the realm of the dead 100%.16:38Yes. But but in 1 Peter 3:19, he went16:42and preached he didn't suffer, he he16:45preached to them, right? So yeah, it's16:48more of like just preaching the gospel16:49to these people. And um yeah, that's16:54basically what happened. All right. Um16:58baby Christian, no worries. Amen.17:00Pastor, is Israel 60 talking about the17:02earthly Jerusalem? It's really17:04confusing.17:06um is Isaiah is always talking about17:10Jesus, right? So when you read it all17:13together, Isaiah is the mini book of the17:16Bible. So there are 66 books in the17:18Bible. How many chapters are there in17:20Isaiah? 66. So it's basically just a17:24mini synopsis of the whole Bible. So17:26don't think of it too much as it's17:28Jerusalem, their chosen people,17:30whatever. It's more of like it's just17:32the Bible and all of the Bible is about17:34the gospel. Right. So, that's just what17:38it is. Right.17:41Right. Um, Pastor Johnny, I'm in need of17:44advice. My relationship with my17:46boyfriend is getting bad. I've been17:47trying to get closer to God, read my17:49Bible. He becomes angry, upset, feels17:50like he pulls me into worldly things. I17:53pray for him, but I feel like I have to17:54leave him. We have children together,17:56but I feel like I will not follow my17:57spiritual path if I stay. I don't know.17:59We're not married. Been together since18:0115. I'm 26 now. I feel like spiritual18:03eyes are open. I can't close them. So, I18:05see everything he does as spiritual18:07warfare. I don't know. I don't like it.18:10I'm going crazy. Um, I think what's18:14important is obviously you have18:16awareness now. The heart is changing and18:18the things that didn't bother you before18:20are now starting to bother you, right?18:23Um, and obviously when your eyes are18:25open, you can't pretend that you don't18:26see things anymore. what you're18:29experiencing is not spiritual warfare.18:31It's uh misalignment. So, you're moving18:33towards God and then he's pulling you18:35away from God. Right. Right. So, and18:38that that creates what we call18:39resistance. Amos 3:3 is very clear. Can18:42two walk together except they be agreed.18:45So, that doesn't mean you can't love him18:46and it doesn't mean you have to leave18:48him, right? Um but you have to realize18:51that it's not spiritual warfare. It's18:53just different values and then you guys18:55have different direction. So, right,18:58you've been with him since you said you19:00were 15. You're 26 now. So, what? That's19:0211 years. You guys have history19:05together. You guys have identity19:06together. You guys have comfort19:07together. You have kids together,19:08family. Right. So, it's not, you know,19:11do I stay or do I leave? It's more of19:13like who am I without all of this?19:16Right. Right. You're you're a lot of19:18things, right? You're not just a woman19:20anymore in a relationship. You're a19:22mother with the person who you're in a19:25relationship with as well. Right? And so19:27you have to be able to kind of think19:28like the decision that you make is going19:31to affect yes your spiritual life, but19:32it's also going to affect your children.19:34Right? So when you think about it in19:35that way, I think you have to make a a19:38clear decision, not a fast decision. You19:40have to sit there and you have to think,19:42okay, right? And and ask yourself19:44honestly, right? Is is he open to talk19:46about God at all? Does he respect your19:48walk at all? He will resist it because19:51that's normal. And he may not be open to19:53talk to God all the time, but if he's19:55able to talk about it sometimes, then19:57there's hope, right? And is he really20:00pulling you away or is he just not20:02coming with you? Right? A lot of the20:03times people think like, "Well, he's not20:04coming with me. That means he's pulling20:06me away." No, that's not necessarily20:07true, right? Is he pulling you away? And20:10if he's not pulling you away, is he at20:12least just not coming with you? As long20:14as he doesn't pull you away, you'll be20:15okay, right? So, I think you don't have20:18to decide everything today. what you can20:21do is kind of continue to read, continue20:23to pray, continue to join here. And I20:25think when he starts to see you change,20:28he'll also recognize and all you have to20:29do is just sit there and explain to them20:31like, "Hey, I I just want to change. I'm20:33not I don't care what you do. You do20:35what you got to do. I'm not going to20:36judge you. All I ask is that you don't20:38judge me and you allow me to grow."20:40Right. Right. So, you just have to20:43really have that conversation of like,20:46"Hey, you can do whatever you want.20:48let's agree to do, you know, what you20:51want to do. I'll do what I want to do.20:53But I just, you know, right? It's just20:56it's just how it is, right? Like, just20:59don't pull me away, you know? I'm I'm21:01I'm trying to grow. I'm trying to be a21:02better mother to my my kids and I'm21:04trying to be a a better girl to to my21:07man, right? Which is you. And talk about21:09that, right? So, yeah. How can I email21:12you? I sent one message asking earlier,21:14but you scrolled down, so I figured I21:16would ask. Yeah. put it here. Yeah. I21:18don't I again, if you guys are trying to21:20email me, you got to get in lines with21:22like 27,000 other people. I get emails21:25every single day. I get uh DMs every21:29single day. Like the world doesn't just21:31revolve around, you know, us genuinely.21:33I get so many emails and I can't even21:35get to them straight up. Right. So,21:37yeah. Uh yeah. Aligning with God is21:40trusting the word of God above your21:41thoughts and above your feelings. So,21:43whatever you feel and whatever you21:44think, you trust the word of God. even21:46if it goes against what you feel and21:48think, right? So, yeah. Um, I'm in the21:53middle of hiding from an abusive21:54partner. We have a kid who is21:55traumatized from getting hit by by a21:57belt. Bruises are gone, but fear is21:59visible for sure. He was he will go out22:02and look for us. How do I deal with this22:04situation biblically? Um, probably get a22:07restraining order. You got to kind of22:08be, you know, cautious about these22:11things. I think you should also make a22:13phone call to them because the more22:15people feel like you're taking the kids22:17away, the more they're going to come22:18after it. So, you have to you have to22:19draw some boundaries. You have to go,22:21"Hey, respectfully, you're not going to22:22hit me anymore. You're not going to do22:23anything anymore. And if not, I have to22:26take this to the cops. I have to like I22:28genuinely don't want you to touch me22:30anymore. I don't want you to touch the22:32kid anymore. And I don't mind seeing you22:34and us working it out, but I'm and I'm I22:36don't I'm not going to tell you where22:37our location is. We can have22:38conversations over the phone. Yes. But22:40as soon as you sit there and you don't22:41respect the boundary and just that's22:44just what it is. And if he's like, "F22:46you, I'm going to do this. I'm all22:47right. Well, click." That's it. Right.22:49You have to you have to draw the22:50boundary. And then you have to pray. You22:53have to also, you know, really receive22:54grace from God. You have to realize, oh,22:57I'm a person who chose, you know what I22:59mean, someone like this. So don't judge23:01them for it because we chose people like23:03this, right? And um not don't feel bad23:06for it but you have to be honest. Oh,23:08every time I chose and I trusted myself,23:10look what happens, right? You have to23:12learn from this, right? And so all of us23:14have to grow in that way, right? Uh why23:18is it recently when I try to talk to23:19Jesus about anything, I'm not sure what23:21to say? I felt as I tried to ask this,23:24it's because he wants to talk and I23:26should read the word. He left me. But23:28what's your thoughts? I mean, you can23:29talk to God about anything. You can talk23:31to God about what exactly what you said.23:33Hey Jesus, how come every time I try to23:34talk to you, I don't know what I'm23:35supposed to say to you? That's talking23:37to him. Do you want me to read? Do you23:39want me to do that? That's also talking23:40to him. And if so, can you teach me what23:43it is that I'm supposed to be reading?23:45I'll wait for you. And if I don't have23:46patience, can you give me patience, too?23:48Like, it's very simple. You can have23:50full conversations with them. Right.23:52Right. What's your best advice for23:54someone struggling with porn addiction?23:56Uh, I I just fell into it. I feel23:57ashamed and been wrestling with it for 223:59years. Um, yeah. So, it's just to prove24:02that you can't do it. I mean, you can't24:04overcome the the porn addiction. That's24:07why you've been wrestling for years. I24:09think a lot of the times God uses things24:11to humble us. And if it's the porn24:14addiction, uh or it could be drug24:16addiction or something, it it's it's24:18actually a tool for God to use to humble24:20us because we tend to want to be good24:24and want to do things well and overcome24:26things by ourselves. And God's not going24:28to allow that because as soon as you24:30overcome something by yourself, right?24:32You don't need him anymore. It's just24:34the truth. And so,24:37uh, what I see is it's not about, you24:39know, trying to overcome and and you24:41have to kind of see like, okay, what is24:43it that God is trying to teach me here,24:45right? If you fall into your porn24:46addiction, it's proof that you just24:49you're not you're not strong enough to24:50overcome it. You're weak. And that's why24:53we need God, right? So again, and then24:56people are addicted to porn because they24:58are looking for the self-release.24:59They're looking for um it's not even25:02just the pleasure. It's what the porn is25:05giving them. So people are not addicted25:07to porn, they're addicted to what porn25:08does for them. They're addicted to25:11something that that comfort that it25:13gives. But it's a temporary comfort. And25:15until you recognize that it's temporary,25:18you can't really overcome it. You're25:20just going to be like, "Ah, what do I25:21do?" And then you'll fall into it. What25:22do I do? Fall into it. What do I do?25:24fall into it. But you'll get to a25:26position where it's like this is not it.25:28Like this is just not a good thing,25:30right? It's constantly makes me feel25:33sad, fix me makes me feel miserable and25:35I just I need that, you know? So yeah.25:39Is uh born again a religion? I remember25:41what my pastor said that there are no25:42religions but have a relationship with25:44God. Um25:47yeah, religion is not being born again.25:49Religion is kind of like a set of rules25:51and it can include a relationship with25:53God, but nine times out of 10, it's more25:56like tradition and teachings that are25:58passed down. All right. I've let go the26:02people who I thought were close but were26:04not. Anger and bitterness builds. I'm26:05trying to forgive what happened and seek26:07God through prayer because I can't do it26:10on my own. Which part of scripture can26:11help my support support my situation?26:13So, I I think it's not just about26:15overcoming. Sometimes God wants us to26:18recognize and reflect like what happened26:21when we chose people and we trusted26:23people, right? Sometimes it's important26:25to sit there cuz God, if he thinks it's26:29not good, he'll remove it away from you.26:31Anger and bitterness and stuff like that26:33is not good. He would just take it out26:35of you. But he doesn't for a reason26:36because he wants us to learn. That's the26:39thing that perks up our ears, right? And26:42that's the thing that makes us listen,26:43believe it or not, and makes us seek26:45him. So I think that's the most26:47important thing, right? So I think it's26:51just, you know, I think it's just26:53important to realize those things,26:55right? God is uh he's going to allow us26:58to kind of struggle. He's going to allow27:01us to have anger at times, bitterness,27:03but it's so that we can choose, right?27:06Can you give a breakdown on how Jesus is27:08God, but how he was also praying to God?27:11Was he praying to himself just to be a27:13good example to us? Why did he have to27:16endure all the pain? I just want to hear27:18you break it down. I feel like I've27:20heard it so much. But so it's a little27:22bit of a two too big brain question to27:26be honest. Um but it it's it's first off27:31Jesus is not God the father. He is God27:34in relationship with the father. Right?27:36So the Bible teaches one God, three27:38different persons, right? Three distinct27:39persons. So there's the father which is27:41Yahovah God. There's the son Jesus who's27:44also God but he's the son not the27:46father. And then there's the holy spirit27:47which is also god but not not god the27:51father. Right? 1 John 5:7 speaks about27:54that. Right? So there are one. These27:58three are one. Right? Um so again three28:03different persons one god in essence and28:06nature. Right? So if you think of like28:10uh let's think about this what are some28:13good examples I don't know the mind the28:17words the breath right all of them are28:19you right cuz you have a mind you also28:21have words you also have breath but the28:24word is not separate from you your mind28:26is not separate from you your breath is28:27not separate from you all these three28:30things make you one person right but28:32they all relate differently because the28:34mind is not the word and the word is not28:36the breath and the breath is not the28:37mind So, right, they all have different28:39functionalities, but they're all the28:40same. They're still part of like Johnny.28:42Johnny has a mind. Johnny has word.28:44Johnny can breathe. So, all of that is28:46one, right? And so, yeah, it's it's it's28:51very simple. And praying is for28:52alignment. So, as a man, he had to live28:55in alignment, in dependence with the28:57father, right? So, he wasn't talking to29:00himself. He was the son in a real29:02relationship with the father, right? So29:06again, a real son and a real father,29:09they're in the same family. They're29:11technically the same nature. The son29:13came from the father, but there still is29:16a different aspect to it and a29:17relational relational aspect to it. We29:20don't say, "Oh, the father talked to29:23himself because when he talked to his29:24son cuz the father the son came from the29:26father. Why does he have to talk to the29:27son? Like he just talked to himself."29:29No, we don't do that. The son is the son29:31and the father is the father even though29:33the son came from the father. they still29:35have conversation right so yeah he29:38wanted to show us dependence that's why29:40he prayed that even God himself will29:42pray basically that's what it means29:45right in this way what's your outlook on29:49getting a degree degree in Christian29:50counseling my job pays for tuition and I29:53want to work with children in the29:54juvenile I think I think more so than29:56anything29:58I think receiving the gospel um learning30:02about the gospel is what's going to set30:03you free So, I actually mentor30:06counselors, I mentor psychiatrists, um I30:10do one-on- ones with these people. So,30:12that that's just what I do. And a lot of30:16the stuff that like how can I who has no30:18degree or background in counseling be30:21able to mentor like I'm the therapist30:24therapist, right? It's like how is that30:25possible? Because the Bible. So, I mean,30:28it's up to you. I think we're getting30:30into the knick-knacks here and the30:31semantics. Of course, you can study to30:33become a Christian counselor, but if you30:35don't even know how to read a person's30:36heart posture, what what good does that30:38do you, right? It just makes me feel30:40good cuz I am a Christian counselor now,30:44right? If you're still at the center of30:46it, then it's not really good, right?30:48You had mentioned you want to help the30:49children at the juvenile detention30:50centers. Helping them uh bring them back30:54to God is most important. Now, you can30:56utilize a Christian counseling, but you30:59could just volunteer now and do it. You31:01don't even need to do that. But again,31:03learning more about the gospel is most31:05important. I can know all about31:06counseling and therapy, but if I don't31:08know anything about the gospel, then it31:10doesn't do anything, right? It's just31:13how it is, right? So, yeah, it's just31:16what it what it comes down to, right?31:19Okay. There is only one person for sure.31:21I'm not strong enough to overcome, but I31:23but I realize the damage it does and31:25hate it at this point. I I would31:27disagree. I don't think the realization31:29comes. I think um if we did hate it, we31:32wouldn't do it. Uh there's a there's a31:35good heart. That's why we keep following31:37ourselves. You we only fall into sin31:40because we're good. Like that's really31:42mainly the main issue, right? Cuz you31:44won't listen to yourself if you know31:46that you're evil. You only listen to31:48yourself because you're good. That's31:49just the God honest truth. You won't31:51listen to yourself if you genuinely31:53believe that you're evil. Cuz you won't31:54listen to evil people. You only hear it31:57out. So, of course, we know what to say,31:58but there's hearts where we don't really32:00know what we're saying, right? We we32:03know what to say, but we don't know what32:04it means sometimes. And that's32:06everybody, myself included, right? It32:08happens all the time, right? Yep. How32:11can you distrust your thoughts, but hear32:12the voice of God at the same time? I32:14believe that I have thoughts. The devil32:16plants thoughts and then I believe God32:17talks to me through thoughts. Um, yeah.32:19So, so the Bible doesn't say it like32:20that. The the way that the that God32:22speaks is actually through the word. So32:24when you look at Hebrews 1:1 and2, he32:27speaks through the son and the son is32:29the word in John 1:14, John 1:1 and John32:311:2. So if you think about it, he speaks32:35through the word, right? Um even Jesus32:39quotes scripture when he speaks to to32:42Satan, he says, "It is written. It is32:44written. It is written." He doesn't say,32:46"God told me, God told me. God told me."32:50Right? So it's kind of like this. Do it.32:52I'm a Christian counselor been it's been32:54a rewarding uh experience. It's a32:56calling for some again you know that's32:59subjective but I think uh it comes down33:02to the heart posture right it's not33:04about rewarding we don't do anything for33:07reward guys right we we have to preach33:09the gospel we have to learn the gospel33:11so yeah all right I just want to say33:13thank you for existing preaching the33:15gospel I listen to you all day every day33:16long at work and I couldn't have been33:19this close in my faith without you amen33:21that's all God amen guys so when we pray33:25what do we say other God or we we pray33:28while we're talking. So again, too many33:30semantics, right? Um it's it's think33:33about it as Bank of America. If you have33:35Bank of America in LA and somehow you're33:39in Florida, if you deposit the money33:41into that Bank of America, does it is it33:43does it only go to the Florida Bank of33:45like Bank of America? No. It it goes to33:48one central account. That's the same33:50way, right? One nature. So when you talk33:52to one, you talk to all three is what33:54I'm saying.33:55Yeah. All right. All of us are humans,33:58but each of us are different persons and34:00personalities. Right. Right. Right.34:04Fairfield University. It is strong in34:06clinical mental health counseling. I did34:08not recommend it for Christian34:09counseling. It's a secular pro. However,34:10they did connect me with a Christian34:11counseling agency called I recommend34:13Liberty University. For sure. For sure.34:16Uh Johnny, how do I navigate life when I34:18can barely get by? I work two jobs. I34:20can't even pay my bills. I know Matthew34:226:30 says not to worry but I struggle34:23with trusting God when I can't even get34:26by living. Right? So your issue is not34:28struggling paycheck to paycheck. It's34:30living by sight not by faith. 234:32Corinthians 5:7 speaks about that.34:34Right? Right. That's just how it is.34:37It's just about you know are you going34:40to trust what he says? Are you going to34:42trust what you see? That's just what it34:45is. Right. Right. So yeah, the Muslims34:48like to make an argument for this34:49separation and separating the34:51distinction between God, Jesus, and the34:53Holy Spirit, right? But a Muslim is34:55going to talk about Christianity is not34:57it's not the correct thing. They may34:59think that they're study, but they have35:00a lens already to be tainted because35:03they trust in their religion, right?35:06Their whole premise is to disprove. So35:08when you start with that energy, it's35:10already just going to be like that,35:11right? You know, have you ever like be35:12talking to these people and they already35:16have their mind made up about you? Like35:17you can't really talk to them. They35:19literally lead with now I know you're35:22going to say this, but I already know35:23this about you and I feel this about35:25you. Now I know you try to do this, but35:26I already believe with this about you.35:28Like they'll straight up tell you to35:29your face. You know, I know you talk35:31about God, but I know you're not about35:33God. Like they they'll they'll do this35:34because they they already have that35:36preconceived notion about you, right?35:39How can I support my stubborn Catholic35:40friends and family even relationships35:42without arguing who's right all the35:43time? You got to just make sure that35:45like I said, I'm addressing it now.35:47People make their they make their35:49decisions if they want to, right? They35:51they're going to choose what they want,35:53you know? Just how it is. It's just how35:55it is, right? Understand, right? So,35:59it's just kind of what it comes down to,36:02right? Let's continue. My pastor says36:03you must be baptized in the remission of36:05sins because he explained if you write a36:06check to someone, you don't write dad,36:08father, or son. You must write your you36:10must write your name. In this case,36:12Jesus. Well, I mean, is the baptism what36:15saves you or is it the blood? Right.36:18Again, it's the it's the it's the blood.36:20Yeah. And and what they're talking about36:22is Acts 2:38, but they don't realize the36:25whole context. Acts 2:14-31,36:28I'm sorry, 14 to 41 is the context. They36:31don't know, right? So, it happens. It36:34happens. We're not saying we're better.36:35It's just people don't really know,36:37right? So, yeah. How did you deal with36:40your friend group when you started in36:42your walk? I love my guys. I feel like36:43they're there for me more than my36:45family, but I do recognize that they36:46sometimes negatively influence me. Yeah,36:48but you got to tell them. You got to36:49draw that line. Be like, "Hey,36:50respectfully, I don't want you guys to36:52negatively influence me, right?" And36:55just hope that, you know what I mean?36:58Just hope that uh you guys don't37:00negatively influence me. Amen. Right.37:04Romans 7:15. Oh, so your point is you37:06hate it. Okay, for sure. Yo, Johnny, uh37:09rumor has it your gym routine is the37:11same when Samson was on. That's37:12hilarious.37:14Are you enjoying learning Hebrew? Are37:16you enjoying I found learning languages37:18that we don't. Um it was really fun to37:20learn Hebrew 100%. Hundo P.37:24Hey, pastor. I I took in my six nieces37:27and nephews in almost in almost 6 years37:29ago. Um I'm 30 and I have no kids on my37:33own, but I do have custody of my nieces37:34and nephews. I've always had the desire37:36to be married and have children, have a37:38child. I tried to give up the desire,37:39but it never goes away. I've been single37:41for 10 years, accepted Jesus in my life37:43during that time. My question is, how do37:44I navigate this? Are apps okay? I37:47wouldn't. I wouldn't. And if God's not37:49given it to you for 10 years, um I would37:52just stay in that position and I would37:54just go to God about everything cuz that37:56relationship is very important, right?37:58And it may turn into an idol. That's the38:00scary thing, right? That's the scary38:03thing. So, you know, it it it comes down38:07to, you know,38:10if God's not given it to you, we have to38:12ex acknowledge that and we can ask God38:14why, right? Why has he not given it to38:16us, right? um and not try to seek to38:19solve the problem but seek to learn from38:21God what he's trying to say what is he38:24teaching what is he doing what is he you38:26know trying to kind of you know right38:30focus like focus on what is it that he's38:32trying to show us and that's the most38:35important thing Johnny why can't I stop38:37being performative like I make sure to38:39read and at least once a day because of38:41performance and fear still feels like my38:43relationship with God isn't going38:45anywhere cuz you're used to that right38:46so we're used to being performing38:47atmative with God naturally. We're just38:49like that, you know, it's just how it38:52is, right? So, comes down to that at the38:55end of the day. Um, we're we're just38:58born into it and we we have to kind of39:00unlearn it and then we, you know, it39:04takes time. It takes time to kind of39:06overcome that and that's just kind of39:09what it is at the end of the day, right?39:12So, uh, little by little, you'll see,39:15uh, we went over, I think it was Numbers39:1729, this last Bible class, and I spoke39:20about that and and when it gets posted,39:22re-watch it, but it's very deep. Very,39:24very deep. Um, people acting like they39:27learned you, and they don't even know39:29you by their perception or who they39:31think you are for real. Yeah, I guess39:34I'm struggling with my feelings and39:36thoughts of what happened to the women39:38and children in the Epstein files. I39:39want the people who are guilty to be39:41killed, but I know that Jesus forgave39:42everyone so long as they don't blasphe39:45the Holy Spirit. So, I know I shouldn't39:46want that. How can I fight off Satan39:48feeding hate to me for those people? By39:51thinking about that constantly by going,39:53"Yeah, I'm those people. I should be39:55also killed." But God didn't do that to39:57me. And that thankfully God also wants40:01to give them mercy even though they're40:02evil, which they are. I agree with you.40:04Those things are bad. But that's why40:06they need God and that's why we need40:08God. In front of God, we did evil,40:10heinous things, too. Maybe not to that40:11extent, sure. But sin is sin to God,40:14right? So, it's all the same at the end40:16of the day. It's just how it is, you40:19know? It's just how it is. So, ask God,40:22too, as you're speaking like tell God40:24that too. Lord, I don't want to have40:25this heart. This is from the enemy.40:27Please help me rebuke it and please help40:28me not trust my thoughts. Right? Um, how40:31do we deal with close relatives being40:33manipulative in our lives biblically?40:35Drawing boundaries,40:37telling them, "Hey, please stop doing40:39this," you know, and ask them questions.40:41Why do you do this? What makes you What40:43are you trying to gain out of this?40:44These things allow them to reflect,40:46right? It's just kind of how it is,40:49right? Pastor, what do you think of40:50affirmations and declarations? As long40:52as it's a declaration of faith, meaning40:54it has to proclaim and affirm and40:58declare Jesus Christ. I have no issues41:00with those things. When it's for41:01yourself, that's kind of a problem,41:04right? So, yeah, my church is focused on41:06serving in small groups. Is this41:08biblical? Uh, it should be focused on41:10the gospel. They should focus on that,41:11yes, but it should be focused on the41:13gospel first, like Jesus, right? I'm new41:15to God through you preaching. Um, but41:18I'm having a hard time like James Ston.41:20Um, I don't know. I don't want you I41:24don't want to go through the motions. I41:26want to gain true faith. So, Romans41:2810:17 says, "Faith comes by hearing,41:30hearing the word of God." You have to41:32realize every time you trusted yourself41:34and things made sense to you, they led41:37you into a miserable way. So, we just41:39have to focus on that, you know, to to41:41overcome those things and realize, oh,41:44I'm a person who I think I'm right, but41:46that's what led me to misery in a lot of41:48ways.41:50Uh, pastor, I believe in Christ and now41:52starting to feel less guilty for my the41:54sins I commit. Porn, dark humor, etc.41:56Since I'm not a sinner due to Jesus41:58Christ dying for all our sins, what are42:00your thoughts on this? Yeah, I mean,42:01that's kind of the natural shift, right?42:04Um, it should propel you into growing42:06closer to God, not doing more sins. You42:09get what I'm saying? Just kind of what42:12it comes down to. So, it's normal to42:14feel less guilty cuz guilt doesn't I42:17mean, you guys felt guilt before and you42:19still would sin. So, it doesn't do42:20anything. Guilt doesn't do anything,42:22right? So, it's just how it is. It's42:24just how it is, right? Um, but you know,42:28you have to realize, oh, I'm free now,42:30which is why I won't feel guilt, but42:32that's why I should thank God because I42:34remember when I felt guilt, and I42:35remember when I was performative, and I42:37remembered when the guilt would just eat42:39me alive all day and all night. and now42:41I don't have that. Thank you, God. And42:43that's what keeps you going, right? Hey,42:46if you're enjoying this episode, I have42:48a whole other video episode on all42:50platforms, YouTube, Spotify, Instagram,42:53all that every single Monday. Each42:55episode is a gospel- centered lesson42:57that you could apply to your life today.42:59So, this is more conversational. You43:01guys know my team, Jeremy and Aaron. We43:03just have a lot of fun. We joke around,43:05but we get serious. We get vulnerable.43:08It's just very, very different, and it's43:10beautiful. So I hope you guys can tune43:11in and we made this for you guys. So43:14please enjoy. How can we put aside our43:16feelings? Stop trusting in ourselves and43:18stop trusting and accepting my thoughts.43:20Um by submitting to God by like I said43:23realizing who we really are, right? It's43:26just how it is at the end of the day.43:28Just how how we are, right? We have to43:30see who we are accurately. We're evil.43:34Like I said, you only fall into your43:36sins because you think you're good. We43:37all struggle with this. I mean, I'm not43:39just saying single-handedly you or you43:40or you. Like, we're all like that. You43:43won't fall into your sins if you know43:46what kind of piece of garbage human43:47being you really are. If you believe43:49what the Bible says you are, you won't43:52fall into that. You won't question your43:54salvation. You won't get mad. You would43:56literally just accept it. But I know43:58it's hard. Trust me, even in my life,44:00it's very difficult. But just because44:02you get mad also doesn't mean that you44:04don't know yourself either. That's also44:06the the kind of confusing part, right?44:08It's like just because you do mess up44:10doesn't mean that you're you're you44:12don't know yourself. Sometimes the flesh44:14is also very powerful and that's just44:16what it is. But for the most part,44:18right, you have to realize those things,44:21right? So yeah, the commandment that44:24states love your neighbor as yourself,44:25does that mean your actual neighbors or44:26is neighbor like people? No, we got to44:28back it all the way up. Can you even44:29love somebody like yourself? So the44:32question is not do I do it which44:33neighbor? Show me which one. And the44:35question is, can I even do that? Then44:36why did Jesus say to do it? To prove44:38that you can't. And that's why you need44:40him to do it. So watch the salvation44:42video when you guys can. All right.44:46Whenever you guys can watch, watch the44:49salvation video. All right. Um I had44:52another question. Wanted to get your44:54take in this. Jesus find those moments44:57Jesus looked up to his father said, "Why44:58have you forsaken me?" In that moment,45:00did Jesus not know the whole plan? I45:02know he knew a great amount of the plan,45:04but did he not know? No, he didn't know.45:07He didn't know anything,45:10right? I mean, is that how you want me45:12to answer?45:13God didn't know. Jesus didn't know45:15anything. That's why he said,45:17right, why have you forsaken me? Why,45:20God, I'm questioning you. I don't know45:21anything. I mean, it's pretty simple.45:25Some things we don't need to know.45:28Understand what I'm saying? Some things45:30we don't need to know. whether or not45:32he's relating to us or not, those are45:33also our things, our thoughts, you know.45:36We don't have to worry about that.45:37Genuinely, we don't, you know. All45:40right. Uh let's see here. How do you45:45answer someone that tells you why does45:46God allow destruction? I don't. Again,45:49these are things that like people45:50already have their mind made up, right?45:54Make sense? People just have their mind45:57made up, right? Like I said, all of you45:59guys have your minds made up about46:00something, right? Like Hilda, for46:02example, this question, right? You It's46:04because you want to answer them46:05correctly. You have your mind made up to46:07answer them correctly, but I'm trying to46:08shift you out of it. Like the Suzie0446:10sister here, I'm confused about the46:12dreams. I thought it said people will46:13dream dreams in the end times, right?46:14She's talking about Acts chapter 2, 16,46:1617, 18, 19, 20, 21, right? Because they46:20have their minds made up already. Do you46:22understand what I'm saying? Right? So46:24when a person has their mind made up and46:26they're trying to figure something out,46:28what can you do? Nothing, right? It's46:32just kind of what it comes down to,46:34right? So again, like there's nothing46:37you can do when someone says, "Why does46:39God allow destruction?" Their heart is46:41already like judging God, right? When46:43someone talks about dreams and visions,46:45and they get confused about it, it's46:46because they care about their dreams and46:47visions. That's why. And they want to be46:49clear about their dreams and visions.46:51But I already gave the scripture. Do you46:53guys understand?46:54And all day and all night, what do I46:56talk about here? I talk about this. I46:58say, if you guys sit there and you47:01listen only to what I say and you agree47:03to the things that you know, you only47:05follow when you agree, then what happens47:06then? I don't know. You become your God,47:09right? That's just how it is. Sometimes47:12guys, we need to have trust,47:17right? Right? I know this sounds crazy,47:18but sometimes if I say this isn't47:21something that we really need to focus47:23on. Do you trust me? Then you have to47:25think about that. Right now, I47:27understand why you wouldn't trust me47:28because you trust yourself. But then you47:31have to think about that. If when I47:33trust myself, how am I doing? I don't do47:36good. I don't even like right when I47:39trust myself, I know I don't do well. I47:41know I fail.47:43Right? So we have to at least be honest47:46with ourselves about those things. Amen.47:48Right. So that's kind of what it comes47:50down to. Amen. Right. So yeah. Exactly.47:54Like he Let's just respect what he47:56believes. Like he said, he already had47:58his mind made up. Exactly. So you know47:59what I'm saying? Halled it right there.48:01Right. Understand what I'm saying,48:04right, guys? Yeah. I've been taught this48:06way. Trying to unlearn all old ways.48:08Being Christian for 24 years and all of48:10it was wrong. That's what I'm learning48:11from you. Yep. Yep. Amen. Amen. Amen.48:14That's what it is. That's when when48:17people say, "Oh, I got saved at this48:19time and this time." I I would question48:22that. Not to be mean. Not to be mean,48:26you know? Um I would just question that.48:30Amen, guys. Because what is true48:33salvation? So when people go, I got48:35saved in 2027, 20, I don't know, 2021,48:382022, like I got saved before I listened48:41to you. Like that's fine, but I'm going48:43to question that though, right? Because48:45we have to test the spirit. How do you48:47know you were saved? Amen, guys? Right?48:51Like how do you know you're actually48:53saved? We have people here who are48:55Orthodoxy,48:56Catholicism.48:58We have people who have been growing up48:59in the church. We have PK's here like49:02Ella. Ella is one of our one of our, you49:04know, long-standing members. And when49:06she came to the congregation, she was 1649:08years old. And Ella, her father is a49:11pastor. She's a pastor's kid. And Ella49:15openly admitted that she wasn't saved49:17until she actually heard the gospel from49:19me. Now, this is a pastor's kid who grew49:22up in the church. So, explain to me how49:24that happens, right? Is it because I'm49:27great and I'm boasting? No. It's because49:29people don't know these things. They49:31don't know what it really means to be49:32saved. Right? PK represents pastor's49:35kid. Right? She was able to see that and49:37go, "Oh my gosh, my dad's not saved. I49:40need to really like, how do I preach to49:42him? How do I Right." She she knew it49:44right away because when you're really49:47saved, you you can tell right away who's49:49saved and who's not. Amen, guys. Cuz we49:51have the Holy Spirit, but we also know49:53what the Bible says, right? So, and even49:57people who are quote unquote saved, even49:58in here who who's listened to me for two50:00years, three years straight, they're not50:02even saved sometimes because what does50:04it take for somebody to get saved,50:06right? That's the number one thing we50:08have to focus on. How do you know you're50:10saved? Right? Amen. So, people will say50:13tremendous faith. They'll say surrender.50:16They'll just answer their own questions.50:19Understand what I'm saying? Right.50:21Right. They have the context, right?50:23Even this, right? I feel to me but could50:25definitely be wrong in saying if I'm50:26saved, I just want to continue to humble50:28myself and to do my walk with Christ,50:30but that's just me personally. Right.50:33Right. Right. So, is chastising50:36something you can ask for? Does the50:38pastor make the decision? It's usually50:39the right timing. Yeah. You don't ask50:41for it. Um, but a lot of people don't50:44know what it means to be saved.50:46Believing Jesus in our Lord and Savior.50:47That's that's the right answer. But what50:49does that mean? Right? I I guarantee you50:51for those of you guys who are new in50:53here or you know COTH members don't50:56don't answer truth you know like if you50:59learn from me but I guarantee you even51:01though you guys have been hearing right51:03here right I guarantee you right it's51:05it's very simple that some of us still51:07believe we're sinners anyone here51:09believe that you're sinners of course51:12sin every day how can you not right how51:16could you not A lot of us believe that51:18we're we're still sinners we may not say51:20it. We even know how to say certain51:22things. So then what happens when you51:24sin? What do you do about that? So yes,51:27we trust the word of God. We do those51:28types of things. Yes, we say that we're51:30righteous. What do you do when you sin51:32though? What do you Right? I get mad and51:35eat a lot of candy. Right? Very51:37biblical,51:38right? I sin today, right? You sin51:41today, right? I feel guilty after.51:43Right? I repent, right? Return to51:45Hebrews 10:14. We pick ourselves up and51:47try better next time. Look at this. All51:50different different things. That's51:51right, Frankie. But all different51:53answers. You guys see that? Right. Bunch51:57of different answers. So51:59Jesus Christ died for our sins. What52:01does that actually mean, though? That52:03means that you're still a sinner. You52:05got to do better. You got to try harder.52:08Got to pick yourself up and try. Is that52:11what it means?52:13H52:15no. All right. What if you believe in52:17Jesus, right?52:19But then you keep trusting your52:20thoughts. Does that mean you're saved52:22too? No.52:25Cuz he washed all the sins and we never52:27did anything.52:29Right. My thoughts would be savior at52:31that point. Right.52:33Right. So what if you're a person who52:37trusts your thoughts all day every day52:39but still know that you're righteous,52:40perfected, and holy. What does that make52:42you? See, it gets more into the52:45knickknacks now. A sinner. Okay.52:48lukewarm. Okay. Righteous. Righteous.52:51Saved.52:53Righteous. Perfect. And holy. Saved.52:56Hypocrite.52:59Any of you guys stop sinning?53:04No.53:06Then how can you say that you're53:07righteous?53:09Because of Jesus. He wiped my sins away.53:15Right.53:17So what if someone comes to you? Let let53:18me ask you guys this question. Let's how53:20would we answer this? So so yes, okay.53:24Hebrews 10:14. He made me perfected53:25forever. So I can go and do whatever I53:27want now. I can watch porn all I want. I53:30can sleep around all I want. I can do53:32drugs all I want. I can go to the strip53:34club all I want.53:36What? I'm righteous and I'm perfected.53:40But how do you know my heart posture?53:44Right? How do you guys know? Right? So,53:48you see how there's so many different53:51questions in here. It means there's so53:53many different heart postures in here,53:54right? Amen. That's what I'm trying to53:58point out here. Right?54:01So, when you guys think about what54:04you're saying, the one thing you guys54:06have to realize is you have to think54:08about what you're saying. When you're54:10thinking about what you're saying, don't54:11let it come to your mouth or your54:13fingertips yet as you're typing, but54:14think about it. Think about what you're54:16going to respond with. That's the most54:18important thing, right? So, a lot of us,54:23we believe, of course, we even know. But54:26then why do we why don't we stop sinning54:28then? Why do we still, as the brother54:30had mentioned, I still watched porn and54:33I fell into my lust. And54:36why why do people fall into themselves54:40if they know these things? Why? Notice54:43how I'm sitting here and I'm telling you54:45guys and we're still answering so fast.54:51Like I just said, right? What did I say?54:55Think about what you're going to say.54:56Think about what you think. You just you54:57just blurted out right55:01again. Yeah, we suck. That's what that's55:04what I'm saying.55:08All of us, we do this often.55:11We try to we think highly of ourselves.55:16That's the problem.55:19And that's why we keep messing up. Yeah,55:21I know I'm evil. Flesh is flesh. I know55:24I'm a sinner. Right? As you guys say.55:27Make sense? That's what God is trying to55:30show you. You don't know that. You don't55:32know what you're saying.55:34There's two things that God wants to55:36teach us. I love you and you don't know55:38that I love you. Those are the two55:39things in all he'll spend all of our our55:42lives teaching us. I love you guys and55:45you don't know how much I love you. And55:48it's proof.55:50Understand what I'm saying? That's what55:52it is. Those are the two things that55:55he's trying to teach us is I love you55:56and you don't you won't know that I love55:58you.56:00The only way that you can know is when56:02you acknowledge that you don't know. You56:04don't think that you don't you won't56:06ever know. Then it really changes.56:10Most people, they like God because God56:14makes sense to them. Make sense, right?56:17Yeah. Exactly, Kevin. That's why I'm56:18talking about this. You can't accept56:20that you're a new creature. Why? Because56:23like I just said,56:25you don't know. Understand? Make sense,56:29right? So, we're all like that. The56:32difference is56:34that's why we're not good, right? That's56:38why we're not good. Sure, I can know56:40that Jesus saved my my soul. I can know56:43he died for my sins,56:45but the fact that I still think I'm good56:47and I can do something out of that is56:50why I need him the most. If that makes56:53sense. Understand? Right. So there comes56:58a time where you just genuinely57:01recognize that about yourself and then57:04you genuinely57:06grow, right? That's just God honest57:09truth. And I think when you guys get57:12tired of how selfish you guys are, then57:15things start to change. You know, all of57:18you guys are strong. You're not weak.57:21You think you're weak, but you're very,57:23very strong. You're so strong that you57:26can't even stop sinning even though God57:28has given you freedom from the sin.57:30That's how strong you are. Understand?57:33Don't say that you guys are weak. Say57:36that you're very, very strong. Do you57:38understand what I'm saying? Right, guys?57:41Right? Because if you were genuinely57:44weak, you get steamrolled57:46and you would lean on on God who is57:48strong. We say that we're weak, but57:50we're not really weak. We're actually57:53very strong.57:54That's why we can keep sinning. We can57:57cl keep falling into lust, keep falling58:00into depression, keep hitting the58:01pendamon,58:03keep taking that sip because we're58:06actually strong. That's why. Keep asking58:09big brain questions. Keep thinking that58:11we can focus on this and focus on that.58:14No, genuinely,58:17genuinely, that's what it is. You know,58:20I was talking to someone today and uh58:23they were trying to pitch a brand deal58:25to me. You guys know what a brand deal58:26is? Um it's when they're trying to, you58:30know, coers me into joining their brand.58:34And it's this Christian company,58:37right? And um they actually have ties to58:41like, you know, it's basically a58:43Christian58:45uh how do I say phone company.58:48and they have all these milliondoll58:50investors and and I get on the call. I58:55kid you not, the only thing I said on58:57that call was, "Thank you so much for59:00considering me. I'll go back to my team.59:03We'll discuss it and we'll let you59:05know." And the thing was like 30 4059:08minute long meeting. When people when59:11people hop on, they lead with I'm the59:15biggest X, Y, and Z. I They start name59:19dropping. I work with this person and59:21this person and this person and this59:22person and I did this and I did this and59:24I did this and I did this and I'm going59:26to take you around the world, Johnny.59:28I'm going to make you stand side by side59:29with people like Mark Wahberg and wah59:32wah wah wah wah. And I'm just like,59:35okay. And we love God and we're trying59:37to stop pornography and we're going to59:39do this. We're going to do that. We're59:40going to do X, Y, and Z. Right then and59:43there, you know what I noticed? Oh, this59:45person doesn't care anything about what59:48I have to say. Cares about everything59:51they want. Do you understand? It don't59:54even got to be about Jesus. Understand?59:57But if you call if I call you on to a1:00:00meeting and I'm trying to pitch1:00:01something to you, don't you think1:00:04getting to know the person that you're1:00:06trying to pitch to, isn't that1:00:09important, right?1:00:12Little things like this, right? You can1:00:14see people's heart posture.1:00:16Now, why am I bringing this up? Because1:00:19we're all like that, too. I thought1:00:21about the congregation, too. Oh, we're1:00:23the same. We hop on. It's never let's1:00:28listen to what he has to say. It's1:00:30always answer this, answer this, answer1:00:32this, answer this. Cool. I got another1:00:34question. Okay, cool. That was answer. I1:00:35got another one. I got another one. I1:00:37got another one. Why do we do that1:00:39though? Not saying it's bad. It's an1:00:41open forum. That's the whole point of1:00:42the main stage. But if you think about1:00:45your heart, the truth is I only care1:00:49about what I want. And you're going to1:00:50tell me that you think you're bad and1:00:51you hate yourself. Stop playing.1:00:54Do you guys understand what I'm saying?1:00:55If you love yourself, you're very1:00:57strong.1:00:59Do you understand? Right? If you hated1:01:02yourself, I know people who really hate1:01:03themselves. They don't talk.1:01:06And people who hate themselves, you know1:01:08what they do? They don't even try to get1:01:10out of it. In fact,1:01:13they know they can't get out of it. And1:01:15that's why they hate it. They don't even1:01:17ask for help. Do you guys understand1:01:19what I'm saying? That's why I think the1:01:21the the the strength of a human being is1:01:23so hard. It's so it's so hard to like1:01:27deal with you know when we realize this1:01:30kind of depth then we grow we actually1:01:33grow tremendously right amen but again1:01:37yeah it's the craving of knowledge but1:01:39it's really just to make ourselves look1:01:41good when you start to realize1:01:43everything that you do is really for1:01:44yourself even if it's taking care of1:01:46your kids then honestly you start to1:01:49really humble down you look at yourself1:01:50and you're like gh I'm an ugly person.1:01:55Do you guys understand? And then you1:01:56don't want to trust that ugly person1:01:58anymore. It's not this, oh my gosh, I'm1:02:00so evil. That's right. Johnny's right.1:02:03It's more of like, sheesh, I really am1:02:07like that. You know, you don't get mad1:02:09when people ignore you. You don't get1:02:11mad when people say bad about you or1:02:13talk good about you. You don't get you1:02:16don't get mad. You actually acknowledge1:02:18that and go, "Yeah, why would somebody1:02:20want to text me anyways?" You understand1:02:22what I'm saying?1:02:23You guys in here, you know how it is.1:02:25Let your man, let your woman not text1:02:27you for a whole day and watch you get1:02:29all angry and frustrated and you're1:02:32going to tell me that you believe in God1:02:34and you believe that you're evil. Stop1:02:36playing. It's like it's funny, you know?1:02:39Uhhuh. Genuinely, it's funny. Let God1:02:42not give you one blessing and you over1:02:44here just like mad. You're going to tell1:02:46me, "Yeah, righteous, holy, sanctified,1:02:48justified." It's like, you know what to1:02:51say.1:02:52Do you know what to believe though?1:02:54Right. So when I sat there, you know, I1:02:57was able to see that these people were,1:03:01you know, I love you. I love what you1:03:03do, Johnny. We need the Johnny's in the1:03:06world. You saying all these things and1:03:07that's great, beautiful. But how is it1:03:10that you don't even want to know or have1:03:12any questions for me? How is it that1:03:14you're talking about giving me equity1:03:16and money, money, money, and money,1:03:17money, money? If you knew me, you know I1:03:20I don't care about the money. You would1:03:22know that I'm not trying to go global1:03:23and be and stand next to A-list1:03:25celebrities. I don't care about that.1:03:27You would know that it's all about the1:03:30gospel. You want to honeypot me, you got1:03:32to talk about the gospel. You understand1:03:34what I'm saying? I don't care if you1:03:36give me $60 million or whatever it is1:03:38that you want to give me.1:03:40What I care about is where is the gospel1:03:43in all of this? You guys got that?1:03:46Right. Right. It's really really amazing1:03:50when you're able to see truly who you1:03:54are as a human being, I think, because1:03:57it makes you then be able to see other1:03:59people and how they are too, right? So,1:04:03I I say all of this to say you guys have1:04:06to think about your heart.1:04:08You have to think about it. But we love1:04:11to, how do I say, get things right, you1:04:15know, but it's really just to boost1:04:18ourselves up. You got to have a breaking1:04:20system. You have to be able to sit and1:04:23go, I want to answer, but what is this1:04:26doing to me? Is this am I answering to1:04:30boost myself? And if I am, I better not.1:04:33Do you guys understand what I'm saying?1:04:35And that God will help you with. I can't1:04:37help you with that, but God will, right?1:04:40guys, right? A lot of you guys too ask1:04:44for guidance, but then when I give1:04:45guidance, many times it just goes in one1:04:49ear out the other or it doesn't match1:04:50the heart. And that's okay, too. But1:04:53when you sit there and you feel1:04:56frustrated, you have to think about1:04:57that, too. That really helped me a lot.1:05:00I would sit there and go, why am I mad1:05:02if pastor is just looking out for me?1:05:05It's tell it's telling, right? It's not1:05:07just I'm mad. I don't care. like, "No,1:05:10why am I mad if he's saying something1:05:12and he's trying to protect me? It must1:05:14have it must have triggered me some way,1:05:16shape, or form." You guys got that? All1:05:19right. So, just want you guys to be1:05:22aligned in your heart because a lot of1:05:25you guys are, you know, asking the the1:05:28the questions, which no question is a1:05:30stupid question. There isn't even a1:05:32wrong question, but there is a wrong1:05:33heart posture. And I want you guys to1:05:36learn about the heart posture more than1:05:37anything.1:05:39Right? Understand? But like I said, if1:05:43you des if you think you deserve a text1:05:45back, then you're going to get mad.1:05:47That's what I'm trying to address here.1:05:48I think the most frustrating thing for a1:05:51lot of people is the listening aspect.1:05:54There's just something I still can't1:05:56figure it out to be honest with you1:05:57guys. You know, the listening part is1:06:00really difficult for a lot of us. And1:06:03it's not that it's difficult cuz we have1:06:05ears. It's this heart of what I'm1:06:08addressing, right? It's this heart of I1:06:12know myself and I listen well. You know,1:06:16who here can stand on their own1:06:18genuinely without Jesus Christ, right?1:06:22You guys say you don't you you guys say1:06:24none, right? But honestly,1:06:27that's not true. Do you guys understand1:06:30what I'm saying? We think we can stand1:06:32alone genuinely.1:06:35That's why we make our decisions alone.1:06:38We focus on what we want. We get mad1:06:41when things don't get fulfilled, right?1:06:44The heart is very bothersome towards1:06:46God. You know, bothers God, right? Like,1:06:49man, how how much do we have to see that1:06:52we failed? Like, how much more? We got1:06:56to see ourselves, I don't know, like1:06:5750,000 times more. Right. Understand?1:07:02Right. Yeah. It's okay to ignore. It's1:07:05okay to, you know, reject the calls too.1:07:08It's okay. Yeah. It's okay, Javi.1:07:12Yeah, you can draw a boundary. Stick to1:07:15the boundary. It's okay. I think the one1:07:17heart that we have to learn is nobody1:07:20has to listen to us and nobody has to1:07:22respond to us. Imagine if I came in here1:07:25with that energy, right? I was like, you1:07:28guys have to listen to me.1:07:30Like I I I I pour my heart into you1:07:33guys. I spend thousands of dollars on1:07:35the app. I And you guys got to listen to1:07:37me. Like I wouldn't be here for more1:07:39than an hour.1:07:42Quit my ministry right away. I would1:07:44cancel myself.1:07:47Understand what I'm saying, right?1:07:50Because of the amount of people that1:07:52don't actually listen. There's a there's1:07:54a difference between people who don't1:07:56know that they're listening and then1:07:58there's a people who just do it1:08:00blatantly, right? Like if you don't1:08:02know, that's fine. But it's it hits1:08:04different when you explain it and then1:08:07they still are like, "Nah, I still1:08:09listen." It's so hard to get to talk to1:08:12people like that. You know, it gets very1:08:15very difficult, right? And so, you know,1:08:20we're very I don't know how to explain1:08:22it. It's it's just very very hard,1:08:25right? And I stay on this topic a lot1:08:27because I don't want you guys to be1:08:29alone. But lonely people tend to have1:08:32that, how do I say that flaw, the flaw1:08:36of I'm right and I know what I know and1:08:39everything I say goes. You know, that's1:08:42like the hardest hardest thing to1:08:44overcome and that's what a lot of lonely1:08:47people have in their hearts. Amen.1:08:49Right, guys? Right. So I genuinely feel1:08:54that that's the one thing we need to1:08:56really think about. Right? Amen. Right?1:09:00It's just like that like that. Look at1:09:01the mindset there. Right? I had a1:09:03conversation with my brother today and1:09:04he says he believes in Jesus just not1:09:07all of the Bible. Why do we think this1:09:08is? Why do we think like this? That's1:09:12what I'm addressing here. How how can1:09:14someone say that? They believe in Jesus1:09:17just not all of the Bible. But when you1:09:19look at John 5:39,1:09:21what does the Bible say? What does the1:09:23Bible say? It says, "All of the1:09:26scriptures about him, right? Search ye1:09:28the scriptures, for in them you think1:09:30you have eternal life, and they are they1:09:32which testify of me." So all of the1:09:34scriptures testify about who? Jesus1:09:36Christ. That's Jesus talking, by the1:09:38way. So can I say I believe in I don't1:09:40believe in Jesus, but I believe in God.1:09:43No, you can't say that, right? They're1:09:46hand in hand. They go hand in hand. But1:09:49people again don't really think about1:09:52what they're saying. It makes sense.1:09:54What he's saying is the Bible is1:09:57man-made. Why not just listen to Jesus?1:09:59Well, Jesus gave the Bible to listen to,1:10:01right? Amen. I'm not saying this for you1:10:04guys to bag on your friends and your1:10:05family. I'm saying that's us.1:10:09That's us in front of God. We're just as1:10:12selective, too. We're just like that,1:10:14too. Well, I believe in God, but like1:10:17not when he does this to me, though, and1:10:19I'm going to question him. Then you1:10:21don't believe him if you're questioning1:10:22him, right? That's what we have to come1:10:25to the conclusion of. His spiritual life1:10:27is not just saying you're perfected and1:10:29righteous and I'm going to heaven.1:10:31That's not all spiritual life is.1:10:33Spiritual life is I don't give a crap1:10:36about what I feel and think. I'm going1:10:38to stay here like this because God1:10:40allowed me to. That's spiritual life. Do1:10:43you guys understand what I'm saying?1:10:45Okay, if God doesn't give me a spouse1:10:49until I die, amen. Hallelujah. If he1:10:52takes away my business, Amen.1:10:53Hallelujah. Do you understand what I'm1:10:55saying? Right? If you have that mindset,1:10:59you don't even ask him questions. You1:11:01start to appreciate and then you don't1:11:03without even asking questions, you get1:11:05all the answers. It's kind of crazy,1:11:08right? It's such a it's such a it's it's1:11:10a different concept but genuinely right1:11:14you have to think about that right so we1:11:17just have to think okay God what is it1:11:19that you want from me nothing you know I1:11:23can't do nothing you know that I you1:11:25don't want anything from me so then what1:11:26am I supposed to do then nothing you're1:11:29going to take care of everything and1:11:31thank you for that right I didn't get a1:11:33good night's rest yesterday I woke up1:11:37and And immediately the heart would go,1:11:39why? But then I'm like, what do you mean1:11:41why? Thank you, God. I woke up. I didn't1:11:45sleep good yesterday. I can sleep good1:11:47tonight. And that's okay, too. Right?1:11:50Whatever. It is what it is. Right?1:11:54There's like so many angles you can take1:11:56it, but it's like we tend to not do1:11:58that. We want what we want. If you love1:12:01biblical lessons like this, then you1:12:03would love my weekly Bible class. 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So1:12:52guys, honestly, I want you to ask your1:12:55question today before I leave and head1:12:56out here. If God didn't give you1:12:59anything anymore from here on out, would1:13:03you still love him? No. Good. Good. At1:13:07least you're keeping it real. No. To be1:13:09honest, thank you. All the ones who said1:13:12no. Good job.1:13:15Cuz that's the real.1:13:18Think about it. He gives you a lot of1:13:20things now and you already you still1:13:22question him. Imagine he gives you1:13:24nothing at all.1:13:27You think? Yes. Yeah. Right, dude.1:13:30That's dulu. Right. Myself included.1:13:33Amen. Right. And he Do you think God1:13:37doesn't know that? Do you think he1:13:39doesn't know that? Of course he does.1:13:41And yet he still doesn't destroy you.1:13:45Kind of wild, huh? That right there is1:13:47love. That's what love is. If you were1:13:50God, you wouldn't be like that. Trust1:13:52me. You would you would only love the1:13:54people that loved you back.1:13:57Thank God he ain't like us. Thank1:13:59goodness. Right. So that's why I think1:14:02God is amazing. He knows how we are and1:14:05he still goes, "It's okay. I got you.1:14:08Yes. Yes. I know you're going to1:14:10complain about me, but I still love you.1:14:12Yes. I know that Satan tells you that1:14:13you don't I don't love you, but I1:14:15genuinely do love you." When you start1:14:18to think about it in that way,1:14:20understand what I'm saying, right? Make1:14:23sense? And that's what it is. Yes. And I1:14:27will and I do. Right. Almost everything1:14:28was taken away. I still love him. Never1:14:31easy, but yes, still love him. Divorce,1:14:33business fails, child on drugs, chased1:14:35away by the church. Do you love God? You1:14:38sure you love him? Yes, I do. You do.1:14:41What does it mean to love God1:14:44scripturally? Just me and this the1:14:46person speaking here who went through1:14:48divorce and claims that they love God.1:14:50Think about it, okay? Just me and you,1:14:53sister or brother, whoever you are. What1:14:55does it mean scripturally to love God?1:14:58Don't no one else type, please. With all1:15:01your heart and all your soul, what does1:15:03it mean?1:15:05Yes. Yes, Manny.1:15:08I'll show you guys why. It's subjective.1:15:10Our love is subjective. Cuz that's based1:15:12off of feeling. To submit to him, to1:15:14lean on, to re reverence him. No, that's1:15:17not what it means. Can I tell you what1:15:19it means? And can I give you a scripture1:15:22on top of that? Memor. Amen. John 14:15.1:15:27Just let's just look at it. Let's look1:15:29at it together. Here I can post a1:15:30scripture for you. Don't worry. So he1:15:32equates love to something. Amen. If you1:15:36love me, keep my commandments.1:15:40How many commandments should we keep?1:15:42Amen. All of them. Okay. So he equates1:15:46love to keeping all of the commandments.1:15:48Amen. Now let me ask you, do you keep1:15:51them all? Interesting. H interesting. So1:15:56the the right heart should be Oh, I1:15:59don't. It shouldn't be, I don't, but I1:16:02try and he knows my heart. It's just I1:16:04don't. Right. No, you you don't keep1:16:07them all. I can guarantee you that.1:16:11Guaranteed. Right. So yeah, there's no1:16:15way because it's all the commandments,1:16:18right? It's every single commandment.1:16:21Jesus said in Matthew 5:17, "Don't think1:16:24I come to abolish a law. I come to1:16:26fulfill." Right? So he's saying he he he1:16:30did all of the laws, every single one of1:16:32them. Well, there's 613 commandments,1:16:34not just 10. 10 of which are very1:16:36important. Sure. So how do we love him?1:16:40Right. No, no, no. We we can't we need1:16:42to address something before that though.1:16:44Do you know why we don't love him? Cuz1:16:46we don't even feel bad. Notice how we1:16:49don't even feel bad after saying we do.1:16:52That should have been the first1:16:53question. The conviction should be, oh1:16:56my gosh, I don't even keep all the1:16:57commandments. I'm not even sure if I do.1:17:00And I claim to love him. Oh, I really1:17:03got to be careful. But what is what1:17:05heart comes out of us? Okay. So, how1:17:07then? All right. Just tell me how it1:17:09gets to the point. What? How do you how1:17:10do we get gener it's it's this heart1:17:12right? Okay, show me how. Pastor, please1:17:16teach me.1:17:18Right, guys? Think about it. We just1:17:21said we love him. Imagine we stood in1:17:23front of Jesus today. The same1:17:24interaction happened. Right. Sibongil.1:17:28Right. Sibongil. Do you love me? Yes, I1:17:32do. Through divorce.1:17:34Right. Right. Right. Right. Right.1:17:36Through divorce and through love and1:17:38through everything, I love you. And he1:17:40goes, "Oh, really?" John 14:15. Do you1:17:43keep all the commandments? Yesh.1:17:46Ah, I'm not really sure. Well, Sibongil,1:17:49you don't. Okay, so then how do I keep1:17:51it? Wait, you told me that you loved me,1:17:54though. What happened here? Right. You1:17:57see how fast our mind jumps? Well, okay.1:18:01I Yeah, I said I don't love him. I said1:18:02I love him. Okay, I don't now. Okay, so1:18:04then how do I do it then? Do you1:18:06understand that? We have to feel1:18:09conviction for that. Like for example,1:18:11when people come in and you guys see all1:18:13the time, I sway them. Johnny says,1:18:16"Don't pray the Lord's Prayer, freaking1:18:18heretic, idiot." Right? And I go, "Um, I1:18:22did say actually pray the Lord's Prayer.1:18:24I do believe in that, but just not for1:18:26forgiveness." And I explained it was1:18:28before the cross. Boom, boom, boom. And1:18:29I explain it with scripture. And they1:18:31go, "Oh, okay. I guess I agree with you.1:18:34Well, then explain to me how to pray1:18:36correctly then." And it's like, "No, no,1:18:38no. You don't get that. back it up. You1:18:41came in here, you said you have the1:18:42fruits of the spirit, which is1:18:44reverence, which is listening, right?1:18:46Also love, cuz you can't have love and1:18:50not listen to people. You claim that1:18:52you're a Christian. You have the Holy1:18:53Spirit. But the first thing you did was1:18:56judge. And then you mosied over that and1:19:00said, "Now tell me the real then tell me1:19:01how to pray." Then do you guys1:19:03understand what I'm saying? That's why I1:19:04said we're cooked. We don't even realize1:19:09what we're asking. We don't even realize1:19:12the stuff that we commit, the the the1:19:14crimes we the atrocities we, you know,1:19:17right, that we commit towards God. I1:19:21love God. Yes, I do. Do you keep the1:19:24commandments? No, I don't. Okay. But I1:19:28try.1:19:30Okay. But it doesn't say try to keep the1:19:34commandments. It says if you love me1:19:35keep them. It doesn't say try to love1:19:38your neighbor as yourself. It says do1:19:40it. So where is this trying then?1:19:43Imagine if God did that to us is all I'm1:19:46saying. Imagine we stood in front of1:19:47Jesus and he goes, "Johnny,1:19:50I tried to say it is finished." Right? I1:19:54tried. Wait, but Jesus, didn't you say1:19:56you died on the cross? Yeah, but I1:19:58tried. It didn't really work out. But I1:20:01tried. I tried to save you, Johnny. I1:20:04tried, but I I I I really I fell short.1:20:06You think we'd be like, "Hallelujah.1:20:08Amen. You I know your heart, Jesus." No,1:20:12we go straight to hell. I wouldn't say,1:20:14"I know your heart, Jesus." Then why do1:20:17we expect him to do that to us, Jesus, I1:20:20tried. I tried to stay faithful.1:20:24It's okay. I know your heart, brother. I1:20:26know. Imagine it would be crazy. We1:20:29would We would We would It's1:20:31foolishness, right? But that's why we1:20:33don't even know is what I'm saying. Do1:20:35you guys understand now when I say that1:20:37we don't really know what we're talking1:20:39about? Do you understand now? Do you1:20:41understand? I want you guys to second1:20:44guess those thoughts when they come into1:20:46your brain. I do. I do love you. I do1:20:48listen to you, pastor. And when Johnny1:20:50goes, "No, you don't." Right? That's1:20:53when you have to go, "All right, let me1:20:55back it up. Why the hell is he saying1:20:56this?" So, I'll give you guys an1:20:57example. Right? I give you an example.1:21:01Peter, did he love Jesus? Yes or no?1:21:05Yes, he did. He's the one that God gave1:21:09him the keys, right? He built the church1:21:13through him, right? St. Peter, as we1:21:15say, they say, the first pope, the rock,1:21:17right? Do you guys believe Peter loved1:21:20Jesus? For real. For real. Yeah. Of1:21:24course. Look at Peter's life. He's the1:21:27only apostle that walked on water. God1:21:29gave him that.1:21:31He's the apostle that made many, many1:21:34disciples fisher of man. He did that.1:21:37He's the only one that chopped off1:21:38another person's ear off. The Roman1:21:40soldier when he tried to put his hands1:21:42on his savior. Do you understand? But1:21:45let me tell you why. He's also the only1:21:47apostle that Jesus called Satan.1:21:53What a what a swing, huh? What a1:21:55pendulum swing, huh? That's kind of1:21:58crazy, huh? the s the only guy that1:22:01walked on water, the only one that was1:22:02riding out for God, but also the only1:22:04one that was called Satan. Interesting,1:22:07isn't it? Right. So, when you think1:22:09about this, right, when Peter said, "You1:22:14shall deny me three times." Before he1:22:16says that though, what does he say? The1:22:19time has come when the shepherd shall be1:22:22struck and his flock shall his flock,1:22:26his sheep shall scatter. Right? during1:22:30that time. Can I ask you guys an honest1:22:33question?1:22:34If Jesus said that to you, how would you1:22:37answer him? We already know how Sibongil1:22:40will answer him. No, I love you. We1:22:43already know that. How would you guys1:22:45answer like Peter? Amen. No, I love you.1:22:50I would never leave you. I would die for1:22:52you. Or yeah, I don't believe you. Why?1:22:55I would get angry and defensive. Right.1:22:57Same true, right? Right?1:23:00Amen. Now, let's think about this for a1:23:03second. Peter messes up. Why? Because1:23:07what does he say? Peter answered him,1:23:10right? Matthew 26:33.1:23:12And said unto him, "Though all men shall1:23:14be offended because of you, yet will I1:23:17never be offended." Woohoo. I like that.1:23:19Keep that energy, Pedro. I will never be1:23:22offended. I love you, Jesus. Right.1:23:26Basically 34 Jesus said unto him,1:23:29"Verily for sure I say unto you, that1:23:33this night before the cockcrow, thou1:23:36shalt deny me thrice." Hey Peter, just1:23:40so you know, Mr. Peter, you are going to1:23:44deny me worse than everybody here. Three1:23:47times1:23:48Peter said unto him, "Though I should1:23:50die with you, yet will I not deny you."1:23:54Right? Even if I die, Yeshua the1:23:58Mesiach, I will never ever leave you.1:24:04She1:24:05clap it up, guys. That guy is a gangster1:24:08right there. Now, that man, now let me1:24:11ask you guys a question here. Do you1:24:14think that Peter believed that in his1:24:16heart or do you think he was bluffing?1:24:19Oh, he believed that. Hundo P. He1:24:21believed that. He believed it. But let1:24:25me ask you something. Do you know why1:24:27Peter's a piece of garbage for saying1:24:29that? He's a piece of poop. Do you know1:24:32why? What? Johnny said Peter is a piece1:24:35of poop. Let me tell you why he's a1:24:38piece of garbage human being. H because1:24:41if that's true, then that would make1:24:43Jesus a liar. Do you understand? Can1:24:46Jesus lie? Has there ever been a lie1:24:49that came out of Jesus's mouth? No.1:24:53So if he says, "I'm going to get smacked1:24:56and you guys are going to run away." Is1:24:58he lying? No. But what did Peter say?1:25:02Liar, liar, pants on fire. You don't1:25:04know me, bro. I'll die for you.1:25:08Jesus was more like, "Bro, you don't1:25:10know me. I see stupid. You don't know1:25:13me, dummy. You think you love me. I just1:25:18told you when I've never lied to you,1:25:20stupid Peter. And you still went against1:25:23me in front of all your homies. You look1:25:24like a fool. You said, "I will never a1:25:27human being can never say never.1:25:30I will never sin again." Can you do1:25:32that?1:25:34So Peter was like us. We're Peter. No, I1:25:39will love you, Jesus. Yeah, right. Sure,1:25:42buddy. Don't make Jesus laugh, guys. Do1:25:46you know why you don't turn away from1:25:47Jesus? Can I tell you guys? Cuz he's1:25:49holding on to you. I would I would be on1:25:52a highway to hell. I don't know about1:25:54y'all. I would turn away from Jesus so1:25:57fast. Oh my goodness, bro. If God don't1:26:01hold on to me, you throw a a a beautiful1:26:04woman in front of me. You throw a coke1:26:07on the plate and henny on a rock. Henny1:26:11on the rocks. Henny on a rock. Right.1:26:14You throw a a bomb woman. Henny on the1:26:18rocks. uh cocaine pero saka loita1:26:24right and you give me I don't know1:26:26Ferrari la Ferrari in a fat bank account1:26:30bro I'm gone I'm speedy Gonzalez out of1:26:34there1:26:35do you understand but the only reason1:26:38why I don't is because of God that's the1:26:40only that's the only reason straight up1:26:43do you understand I think that's what1:26:46keeps us grounded did. Make sense, guys?1:26:51Cuz I know, man, if God don't hold on to1:26:54me, right? Genuinely, I'm literally1:26:58dunzo. I don't know about y'all. I'm not1:27:00the type to be like, I love you so much,1:27:02God. You know, I've been serving God for1:27:0510 years. Do you know what God shows me1:27:09in those 10 years? The most clearest1:27:10thing, Johnny, you you don't love me.1:27:16You'll never love me. And you'll never1:27:18understand why I love you either.1:27:21Because of that, I love you. I cried and1:27:23cried a lot over the 10 years. Why?1:27:28You know, when you shift out of that1:27:29surface level of like why is that my1:27:32thoughts, my feelings, my emote? When1:27:34you shift out of that, right? Right.1:27:36Then comes this heart of damn straight1:27:40up you don't love God, but he still1:27:42loves you. Amen. Of course, I still1:27:45crave drugs. Of course, if I'm really1:27:49stressed out, the first thing that comes1:27:50to my mind is, man, if I just did a1:27:52bumpy right now, man, if I what what is1:27:55uh if I did, you know, henny on the1:27:57rocks,1:27:59right? You know, when I was younger, I1:28:02went to like the Hennessy factory,1:28:04right? Where like all day you're1:28:06drinking henny and different types of1:28:08henny and you go there, it's like crazy,1:28:10right? It's like wine country but for1:28:12Hennessy, right? Yet they get specially1:28:15invited too. the homie knew the homies1:28:16and whatever. And I was like, "This is1:28:19heaven."1:28:21I remember saying that this this is1:28:24heaven right here, right? Straight up.1:28:27And it was bad. I was like, "Dang, I1:28:30wish I never left." Right? Understand?1:28:35But I realized,1:28:37you know, that that was all because I1:28:40didn't have God at that time. So, do you1:28:43get cravings? Of course. When people1:28:45stress me out, right? That's the first1:28:47thing I want to run to. Drugs, alcohol,1:28:51lust, sex. What else? Yeah, of course.1:28:56Understand? Genuinely, right? It's very1:29:00familiar. Exactly, Michael. It's very1:29:02familiar. It's like, wow, this is great.1:29:04Like, you know, if you just have money1:29:07and you just have everybody's co out and1:29:10drugged out, like, you don't deal with1:29:12anything crazy. genuinely that's how I1:29:14used to be, right?1:29:17Amen. But I recognize none of that gives1:29:20me happiness. But I still know that1:29:22that's who I am as a person if God1:29:24doesn't hold on to me. If God doesn't1:29:27hold on to me, I can lose it tomorrow.1:29:30You guys understand what I'm saying? If1:29:32God doesn't hold on to me, I'll fall off1:29:34the track tomorrow and you guys will be1:29:36so sad. Some of you guys will be happy1:29:39like, "I knew it.1:29:41Forget this guy.1:29:45What I'm very thankful is, man, God, you1:29:49you have to hold on to me. And for 101:29:51years, by God almighty, thank goodness1:29:54he's been holding on to me. Thank1:29:56goodness.1:29:58So, let's say he doesn't want to hold on1:30:00to me for 10 more years. Let's say for1:30:0310 more years, he goes, "You know what?1:30:04I'm going to hold on to you for eight1:30:06more years." What do you think's going1:30:08to happen? I'm going to die. That's what1:30:09That's what's going to happen. Isn't it1:30:11call me up? And should I be sad about1:30:14that? No. Why? Because that's God's1:30:17will, too. Amen. Pastor Kim has always1:30:20taught me, I am no different than you,1:30:22Johnny. I'm like, yeah, right, bro.1:30:25You're not You are different than me.1:30:28You know, you don't struggle. You don't1:30:30have Coke cravings and Molly cravings.1:30:35You don't You don't want to sip, you1:30:36know, honey. What do you mean we're1:30:39different? you are not different. You're1:30:41the same as me. But I realized I1:30:44realized,1:30:45oh, pastor, he has his own things that1:30:49he struggles with. And if God doesn't1:30:51hold on to him,1:30:53he too will leave. John Choy, too. I1:30:56talked to Pastor John today. That is my1:30:59brother, brother. I love him to death.1:31:02But I know if God doesn't hold on to him1:31:04too, bro be on one for show. For sure.1:31:09Right. And I know you guys too. If God1:31:13don't hold on to you,1:31:16man, you guys are going to be crazy too.1:31:19100%. Controlling, angry, gossiping,1:31:23yelling at people, being quiet,1:31:25reclusing, staying quiet, lustful, you1:31:30know,1:31:31fighting,1:31:33drunk.1:31:34This guy and this guy and this guy, you1:31:37know, this girl and this girl and this1:31:40girl toxic. Exactly. Understand? I'm1:31:45very, very, very thankful that God loves1:31:48us. Wretched people like us, you know,1:31:51who deserve death and hellfire. For1:31:53real. For real. I deserve hell, guys. I1:31:55genuinely do. You guys, too. Don't think1:31:59cuz you didn't live like me. I had to go1:32:02to the court today. I went to the court1:32:04and I saw I saw this guy. He was like,1:32:07"Yo, bro. Big fan, man." He was a cop.1:32:12Big fan, bro. I was like, "Oh, thank1:32:15you." And it just wanted to be I don't1:32:18know, British for a day. I was like,1:32:21"Thank you." Yeah.1:32:24Right. But he was just kind of look I1:32:26was I'm serious. I did that. And he was1:32:28like looking at me like, "What the hell,1:32:29dude?" I was like, "I'm sorry. I'm just1:32:33I don't like I don't like I don't like1:32:36courouses,1:32:37but you know, it is what it is. He's1:32:40like, "No, no, I get you, bro." He goes,1:32:43"I'm going to have to search you and1:32:44stuff." And I'm like, "Okay, cool." So,1:32:46he searched me, "Bro, man, like Johnny,1:32:50man, how how does it feel to be a1:32:52celebrity?" I was like, "I don't know.1:32:56Am I a celebrity?" He's like, "Yeah,1:32:58man. I watch all your stuff, bro. like1:33:00every third scroll is you, bro, on Tik1:33:02Tok or like Instagram. I said, "That's1:33:04just your algorithm." He's like, "No, a1:33:06lot of my friends who I I'm kind of1:33:08shocked that they even follow you, bro.1:33:11It's like I be telling these people1:33:14about God, bro." He's like, "And they1:33:16don't say anything." And then I'll see1:33:18them like following you. I'm like, "What1:33:19the hell, dude? I told them the same1:33:21stuff." Like, what?1:33:23You know, and I'm just like laughing.1:33:26Just hilarious,1:33:28right? But he asked me a question and it1:33:32really did stump me a little bit. He1:33:34goes, "How does it feel, bro, to finally1:33:38be free?" Looked at him and I was like,1:33:41"Huh? What a beautiful question. I don't1:33:45know how to answer that." I straight up1:33:47told him, "I don't know how to answer1:33:48that." He's like, "Wait, what do you1:33:50mean?" I was like, "Because," and I just1:33:52went into that whole spiel with him. I1:33:54was like, I I honestly, bro, don't think1:33:58that I could ever appreciate my freedom.1:34:01But I think that's why God loves me so1:34:03much. I promise you guys, he started1:34:06getting teareyed. He's like, "Bro,1:34:08that's super deep. Like, I You're right.1:34:13You're right." I was like, I So, so to1:34:15hon to honestly answer your question,1:34:17Broki, like I don't think I know cuz I1:34:21could give you the generic ass question1:34:23like, yeah, it feels amazing. I'm so1:34:26free. I was in prison for years. Like,1:34:27it's like, but if you want me to be1:34:30real, I don't know cuz I don't think I1:34:33would ever1:34:35ever understand the true freedom that1:34:38God has given me. I think I know1:34:410.00000000001%1:34:44of it. And he laughed, but I was dead1:34:46serious. I was like, bro, I read the1:34:48Bible 26 times, bro. Going on 27 now.1:34:52And genuinely, bro, I think I know God1:34:56like 1% maximum. He's like, "What? No1:35:00way, bro. Like, I'm always watching your1:35:03stuff. You preach late at night. I was1:35:05on your live yesterday, bro. You was1:35:07talking about this, this, and this." And1:35:08he's like, I'm like, "Yeah, but I don't1:35:10know anything about God." And he just1:35:12looked at me like he could, you know,1:35:14like when you just look confused. Like1:35:18he's just like, "What?" Like it's that1:35:19confused look like what? Like that's how1:35:21he was looking at me. And I'm like, "I'm1:35:25not kidding, bro. I'm just like that,1:35:27bro. I don't understand."1:35:30Because I'm not going to say something I1:35:31don't feel. I genuinely don't know what1:35:33it feels like to be free. Do you guys1:35:36know why? because I don't trust1:35:40my heart thinking that I know that I'm1:35:42free. Do you understand what I'm saying?1:35:44Right. I don't trust that. I could say1:35:48that. Yeah, I I'm like, sure, I could1:35:51say that, but I don't I don't know if1:35:53that's true or not, though. Do you1:35:55understand what I'm saying? So, what do1:35:56I say? I say what it's true. I don't1:35:59really know. I think I know. I can tell1:36:01you what I think it is, but I don't1:36:02think even that's true, though. Are you1:36:04thankful for I think I am but I don't if1:36:07I'm being honest I don't think I'm1:36:09thankful to God's standard though and1:36:10and that's what matters most.1:36:12Understand? No, but Fiji that's wrong1:36:14too. I didn't handle that woman well at1:36:17the gym. Respectfully, I know I didn't.1:36:20All these things were in my head. I was1:36:22like, man, let me call the home girl1:36:23Snoozy, man. She's she's locked up for1:36:26life. But dang, if she was not locked1:36:27up, she would kill somebody for me on1:36:29everything. And she'll, man, she'll kill1:36:31this girl. This girl would be so scared,1:36:34bro. This girl was nuts. This girl was1:36:36nuts.1:36:38She fought men and everything. Got1:36:40jumped by men, still claiming. I'm like,1:36:43dang, this girl's gangster, bro. She ran1:36:45over some dude and and then reversed1:36:49over him and then ran over him again1:36:50like on some gangster stuff. For real.1:36:54And I was like, man, you're so lucky I'm1:36:56s I was thinking that this girl is so1:36:58lucky I'm saved. So, I'm not gonna put1:37:00my hands on no female, but I know1:37:01females will put their hands on on you,1:37:04right? That was my thoughts that was1:37:06coming in my brain. For real. I'm I'm1:37:07very wicked, yo. I'm very wicked, right?1:37:12But I thought about it. What I should1:37:15have done was I should have told the1:37:18girl, even though she was being mean to1:37:20me, you know what I what I what I should1:37:23have said? I should have said, "Hey, um,1:37:27I understand that why you would think1:37:29I'm I'm like recording or on my phone,1:37:32and I understand that how it looks. It1:37:34can it can see as if I don't, you know,1:37:36care about your guys' rules or respect1:37:38your facility. Would you care for me to1:37:41maybe explain that? My name's Johnny. I1:37:43think we got on the wrong foot. I1:37:45apologize. Uh, can I explain to you why1:37:49I I could have did that?" And I'm sure1:37:51she would have been like, "Sure. Well,1:37:53this is my trainer, George, and uh he's1:37:56a corrective exercise specialist,1:37:59kinetic, you know, training specialist,1:38:01and he and his wife are amazing.1:38:04Genuinely, they've helped me very much1:38:07so. And for the longest time, I went to1:38:09four PTs and I couldn't deadlift or even1:38:13squat just normally. I I had been shot1:38:16in the hip. I I grew up in a gang and I1:38:18was just, you know, running a muck and I1:38:21could never squat and I I really just1:38:23gave up, you know, and I can see that1:38:25you work out and you're a fitness1:38:26trainer as well. I can tell, which is1:38:28great. And so I I'm sure you can relate1:38:31to this and and have respect for people1:38:32who want to train but can't really do1:38:35so. And so I tried I've called the1:38:38Equinoxes to see if they'll, you know,1:38:40train me, but they can't because this is1:38:43a very very injuryspecific training,1:38:46very high level. And I'm not saying you1:38:48guys aren't, but you know, and and1:38:50that's the reason why I'm on this phone1:38:52with him. You know, he would be right1:38:53here next to me if that was the case. I1:38:55wouldn't be on this phone if he wasn't1:38:57in Colorado. He would live with me if it1:38:59was possible cuz I love him that much,1:39:02right? And I'm sure that would have1:39:05given her some perspective to go, "Damn,1:39:08I thought he was just some two bit1:39:10criminal who's like, I don't care about1:39:11the rules. I'mma freaking set up my1:39:13tripod in front of everyone. Say1:39:15something to me. I dare you." Like, she1:39:17wouldn't look at me like that. Do you1:39:19understand? She would understand. Oh,1:39:20wow. And he took the time to explain it1:39:22to me. He's not that bad. And even if1:39:26she was still a b- word,1:39:30right? Even if she was still a bee,1:39:33okay, at least at least she wouldn't be1:39:37able to say, "I'm a good person1:39:38anymore." So, that would have worked,1:39:40too. But what did I do? Got in my head.1:39:44What did I do? Man, you're lucky that1:39:46Snoozy ain't here. She'll beat the1:39:48dogish out of you. Understand? She'll1:39:51make sure you'll never squat again on1:39:53everything that I love. Understand?1:39:56Think you're crazy? She's with the1:39:58gunplay.1:40:00Sorry guys, you guys know what gun play1:40:03is. Pew pew, right? Like I said, right,1:40:08man, this is horrible thought process1:40:12that I had, but that's what was going1:40:14through my mind, right? And I said all1:40:16these mean things, too. Oh, man. This1:40:18girl's dumb. She don't make no money.1:40:21She mad. I'm a I'm a supervisor. Good1:40:24job. You're a supervisor. Cool. At a1:40:26gym. Awesome. Like, right. It was all1:40:29these thoughts came out of my head. But1:40:31the right thought should have been,1:40:33"Hey, I understand. I have salvation. I1:40:36have salvation. And I should bend. I1:40:39should back off." Right? Shouldn't we1:40:41guys? Shouldn't we? I have salvi. She1:40:44doesn't. Right guys, being honest here.1:40:47I have salvation. Right? If you're1:40:49looking at those types of parameters.1:40:51But what did I think? I don't give a1:40:54right like remember Friday. I don't give1:40:56a faith. Right. That's how I felt. I1:41:00don't care. So what fool? Burn. Burn,1:41:04baby. Burn. That's the mindset that I1:41:07have too. Do you understand? Right. When1:41:10I think about that, oh, me too. I need1:41:13to also realign my heart at times. And I1:41:16sit back and I think about it. Oh, I'm1:41:18wrong. And it took me just a little just1:41:20to hop in the car and go, Johnny, you're1:41:23wrong. And this is why you need God. I1:41:26didn't feel condemned about it. I just1:41:29picked up and went this is what happens1:41:31when Johnny follows Johnny. This could1:41:34have been an opportunity to preach the1:41:35gospel to bend, but I didn't want to1:41:39understand. I didn't want to. And for1:41:43that split second, I felt like I lost a1:41:45soul. And I thought about it. The next1:41:48time I see this person, I'm going to do1:41:50the same thing. I'm going to go up to1:41:51her and say, "Hey, you know, think we1:41:54got off on the wrong foot, right? And uh1:41:59I' I'd love to to apologize and I'm1:42:02sorry." And uh your next protein shake1:42:05on me, whatever it is that you know,1:42:09right? Your next protein shake with the1:42:12bananas and the almonds and the the oat1:42:14milk and whatever it is that you you1:42:16know what I mean? having your farts just1:42:18fart up a storm,1:42:22right? But like I could also be like1:42:25nice, you know what I mean? But also I1:42:29chose not to at that time. Yeah. I1:42:31didn't I didn't pop off like old BC1:42:33Johnny Chang like you know, but I also1:42:37didn't handle it correctly too. And I'm1:42:38I'm okay to say that I was wrong. Hundo1:42:41P. And if she's just following protocol1:42:44at the gym, what's that to her? You1:42:46know, I mean, I think she didn't have to1:42:48make fun of me and like point at me with1:42:51her friends and be like, "A tripod in1:42:53the middle of the gym is crazy." Like,1:42:55I'm sure she didn't have to say that,1:42:57but so what if she said that? Like, who1:42:59cares, right? So, I also thought about1:43:02it in my heart, too. Like, bro, you1:43:04tripping fool with no luggage, Janito.1:43:06Through all of that, I was able to1:43:10recognize, oh, there's chances where I I1:43:12I can also slip up. So, should I just1:43:16quit, guys? You guys going to judge me1:43:18now for being vulnerable?1:43:20Oh my gosh, he's horrible.1:43:25You can. You'd be entitled to that. But1:43:28I'm just saying, right, for me, I've1:43:31learned to also be able to admit that1:43:34I'm wrong. And you know what I mean?1:43:36Like I can say that guys, there's1:43:38nothing wrong with being wrong. It's1:43:40only when you're trying to like prove1:43:44that you're right, you know? No, I was1:43:46wrong. Understand? Yeah, she was wrong,1:43:49too. But two wrongs don't make a right.1:43:51What the faith? This ain't math.1:43:53Negative and negative makes positive.1:43:55No.1:43:57Right. All of a sudden, I want to care1:43:59about math. Uhhuh. Right. And so, yeah,1:44:04I thought about it, too. Like, dang,1:44:08it's really sad because if that thing,1:44:11that little thing bothered her, a man1:44:15recording himself at the gym. I just1:44:19thought about what things in her life1:44:21that are dayto-day that bother her and1:44:23make her just flip the f out. Like, for1:44:26real, you know? It was really sad when I1:44:29thought about it like that cuz Okay, if1:44:30that was my sister, if that was one of1:44:33you guys, I would I would be sad. Do you1:44:37understand what I'm saying, guys? I1:44:39would be sad. Understand what I'm1:44:41saying? Make sense, guys? I would be sad1:44:45if it was one of you guys. So, I1:44:47realized, oh, I'm wrong, too. You know,1:44:50it did trigger me a little. I got jumped1:44:52when I was 19, but it's okay. Yeah, I1:44:54know. I got jumped when I was 12, 10,1:45:0016,1:45:01and 18 in prison.1:45:06How come people don't like to fight1:45:07fair? Huh? I remember asking my homies,1:45:10"Bro, how come these fools don't want to1:45:12fight fair? Like, they always call for a1:45:13head up and then when I start winning,1:45:15they just start jumping me and then I1:45:17got to go batish crazy on them." And1:45:20he's like, "Well, I mean, if you're1:45:22freaking 6 foot, what do you expect,1:45:24bro? You're fighting these guys that are1:45:26like 5'7.1:45:28What do you expect, fool? You expect1:45:30them to get down with you? You're1:45:31sniping them from afar and laughing at1:45:33them. Which is true. It is true. I'm1:45:36very mean when I fight. John, you know1:45:38what I'm saying, John? John, you know1:45:40how I fight, bro? I fight like Lord1:45:41Zilla. You know who Lord Zilla is, John?1:45:44Lzilla, the Muay Thai fighter. John's a1:45:48professional fighter fighter, by the1:45:49way. There's this guy named Lzilla. They1:45:52call him the Matrix, bro. just sits back1:45:55and just be like sniping people. He1:45:58doesn't even try to like He's not tall1:46:00or whatever, but he's just very like he1:46:02just knows that his distance. That's1:46:04what I do.1:46:06Yes, I do. Yeah, bro. Bro is gangster.1:46:09But I love to be calculative like that.1:46:11Just sit back, snipe them, snipe them,1:46:14and then just go all out1:46:17so they get angry. I'm I'm very mean. I1:46:21realize how mean I actually am. Damn.1:46:24Now that I think about it, like it1:46:25triggered a memory. Like when I would1:46:27fight, I would be bad, bro. I'll be1:46:30like, "Go ahead. Go ahead." Boom. And1:46:32I'll be like, "Gotcha." Boom. I hit him1:46:34again. Gotcha. Oh, what's going on now?1:46:37Boom. And I hit them again. They just be1:46:39like,1:46:41like, right, they start they start going1:46:42nuts. And that's exactly what I want cuz1:46:44I want people to fight and just rage1:46:46fight. That's the best. When you rage1:46:49fight somebody, you see them in slow1:46:50motion. You know, when you fight, I see1:46:53things in slow-mo like, you know, okay,1:46:54he's going to charge, he's going to do1:46:56this, and do that. And then they just1:46:57leave themselves wide open and they get1:47:00stretched.1:47:01A real fighter, right? You can ask John,1:47:04he's a fighter, is calm. Like, we have1:47:08crazy in us, don't get me wrong. Like,1:47:09we can turn up the crazy, but that's1:47:11only when time allows, right? But it's1:47:14like you got to be very like like, you1:47:17know, very loose with it. If you're all1:47:19tense, you're going to tire yourself1:47:21out.1:47:23Do you know most fights, guys, it1:47:25doesn't last longer than a minute. If1:47:27you guys fight for like a minute, you're1:47:29already gassed. I guarantee you, 90% of1:47:32you guys in here can't last more than a1:47:33minute or two. You'll be gassed.1:47:37But what I love about calisthenics and1:47:40burpees is that it builds your wind.1:47:42That's why in prison we did those. And1:47:44you guys see me, you know, see reals of1:47:46me doing burpees, too. I always do that.1:47:48Understand what I'm saying, right? Uh1:47:51it's really fun, right? But that's1:47:55that's most fights are lost because1:47:59people are like gassed out,1:48:04you know? They're gassed out. So, you1:48:06just wait.1:48:08That's the thing that I love to do. Just1:48:10let people rage and expend all their1:48:12energy and be like, "Oh, like Joe Rogan1:48:15said, right? Oh, now you want to now1:48:17we're going to fight. It's like, dang,1:48:18for a whole minute we weren't fighting.1:48:20No, I was just waiting for you to gas1:48:22out. And now he has free lunch.1:48:25Meatloaf. Sorry guys. Don't learn1:48:27anything from me here. Okay. Don't learn1:48:30anything from me here. Okay. That's not1:48:33This is all hypotheticals. Never been1:48:35I'm a lover, not a fighter. Okay. Okay.1:48:39Lover, not a fighter. Love everybody.1:48:42Okay. Never been in a fight in my life,1:48:44guys. Never, never, never, never. Okay,1:48:48so just, you know, love lies.1:48:56Lies. Yeah, my nose is growing. Anyways,1:49:01I say all that to say,1:49:04uh, you know, I I hope you guys can1:49:06truly,1:49:08uh, learn to see who you are in front of1:49:11God. And the secret to that is not being1:49:14able to see who you are in front of God.1:49:17I feel like I'm like this, but I don't1:49:19know. So, let me go to God. And that's1:49:24how you stay humble. It really is not1:49:26hard to be humble. You just have to1:49:28really know one thing that you don't1:49:30know anything. Not even one thing. Then1:49:34you really remain humble. It's kind of1:49:35weird. If I don't know anything, then I1:49:39have to lean on God for everything. So,1:49:41that's what's going to make me humble,1:49:43right? That's what it is. Okay, guys.1:49:46Yeah. Speaking of that, it would be1:49:48really cool to be do like a celebrity1:49:50boxing match. That's so fun.1:49:54That's also another thing that I crave1:49:56is like fighting is very uh it's very1:50:00relaxing.1:50:02It's crazy. They're like, "What the hell1:50:04is this guy talking about right now,1:50:05bro?" It really is. It really is, guys.1:50:10You know, it's very like wow. It's very1:50:13like pressure releasing genuinely, guys.1:50:17Genuinely, right?1:50:20Not when you get knocked out, right?1:50:23It's there's a there's a feeling of like1:50:25when you're winning, it's really it's1:50:27really nice. It's like, dang, he's1:50:30getting lumped up, bro. Right. It's And1:50:32you're like winning and stuff. It's it's1:50:34so fun. Muay Thai is the funnest thing.1:50:38I like Muay Thai a lot. Yeah, I said1:50:41don't get a TBI. Just hit a punching1:50:43bag. Traumatic brain injury. Too late,1:50:45dude. Too late, man. You know how been1:50:50fighting1:50:52since I was like George had to fix my1:50:55shoulder. That's how bad it like all of1:50:57it was from my right. He was like, I1:50:59want I would stay away from your right1:51:00hand. He straight up said that he had to1:51:02It took a year and some change to fix my1:51:05shoulder because I broke like literally1:51:08ripped it all up. Like I didn't care,1:51:10you know? Like I'm the type of dude like1:51:12I can't lose. So like I will throw out1:51:14my shoulder if I don't care. Like you1:51:16know like you you punch someone and then1:51:18your hand gets swollen cuz you don't1:51:20punch him correctly or whatever. Like I1:51:22don't care. I'll just keep punching1:51:23until that thing broke. It doesn't1:51:25matter you know cuz I'm not going to1:51:27lose. I just genuinely wouldn't do that,1:51:32you know. Yeah. Yeah.1:51:36I was just like, I'm not going to lose.1:51:38I don't care. Oh, and I would kick, too.1:51:41For sure. I would kick.1:51:43But yeah, now I realize, dang, that that1:51:47was just how I was as a kid. And I'm I'm1:51:51glad that that happens because I take1:51:54that type of energy into preaching the1:51:55gospel, too, right? Like I think I don't1:51:59want to ever like let go and I just like1:52:03not in a bad way, right? I mean like you1:52:07you're not going to stop me. Like a lot1:52:09of people sit there and they do that,1:52:11you know? They try to, you know, oh1:52:13yeah, I'm going to make fun of him and1:52:15like they think that's going to stop me.1:52:16That actually fuels me, you know? It1:52:19fuels me to go more harder.1:52:22They don't know that. It's It's almost1:52:24like if they didn't do that, I wouldn't1:52:27be probably as going as hard as I would.1:52:30But the fact that they're like, you1:52:32know, yeah, we're gonna cancel. I'm1:52:34like, "Oh, you think so? No, I don't1:52:36think so.1:52:38I I don't I don't think so." Yeah. It's1:52:40always this type of mindset. It's weird.1:52:43It's not a competitiveness. It's more of1:52:45like I don't want Satan to win, you1:52:47know? It's like Satan, not today, Satan.1:52:50You're not going to win, bro. Right. So,1:52:53yeah. But anyways, I say all that to say1:52:56that I'm human, too. And you know, I1:53:00think what's really amazing is we can be1:53:02ourselves here, right? A lot of churches1:53:04won't even talk about stuff like this.1:53:07Genuinely, they won't. They'll try to1:53:10make it seem like, you know, how do I1:53:13say, all like goody two shoes. And so,1:53:17if any of this offended you guys, I'm1:53:18sorry, but you got to be less1:53:21self-righteous.1:53:23Right? If I'm just being real with you,1:53:27it's so weird. People want you to be1:53:29real, but then when you're too real,1:53:31they don't like it either.1:53:34You know what I mean? But then they also1:53:36don't want you to be fake. So if you be1:53:38fake, then it's not good. If you're1:53:40real, then it's too real. I'm sorry,1:53:42guys. I'm just going to be me, though.1:53:46Hey, man. All right. Okay, guys. I'll1:53:50see you guys later. Take care. Bye1:53:54everybody.1:53:55Peace.
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